im’s out of control...

don't read it....its not a poem...

i dont think i know what i'm doing anymore
i'm full of lies and bullshit it seems like...
i can't realize that fact that they are there.
who they are, why there are there.
i've gone hypicrit to my own favorite depressing song.
if you wanna know... don't wanna know...
i wanna wait but i can't
im full of doubts...and always lost of hope.
my ending of 07 and 08
omfg. i think ima heartbreaker.
well..its not obvious..
i just can't control....it
if you lose distance on me...
youbettacatchup..
if you fade away...
then you'll find out promises are bluffs..
first month of 08 i figured i lost alot of people.
fuckin a...i don't want let anyone fade away.
under so much stress
with

moving to aunts
dad leaving
maybe new school
disbelieving in me when your recruited me? fuck you
drive license fast
practice for exams
ignoring xe but really watned to talk why don't you let me go already
hurtin laura. im a typical stereotypical player T.T
sandi i see. but how come i can't act the same no more.
i wasn't suppose to confess. i knew it made things odd.
too much commitment and now i lost it.
sendingmailtoday
got fined by school fuck them
getting phuong sick and getting her grounded for first time because of me
gotta wake up thismorning

IM FREAKN MESSIN WITH EVERYONES MIND
AND HEART AND MYSELF FOR PROMSING MYSELF TO DO THINGS
OMFGGGGG IM A FUCKING DUMBASS LIAR I HATE MYSELF
T-T
AND OMFGGGGGGGGGGG
THE FUCKIN WORST START OF A YEAR ->08'
whats with this fucking lust that breaks real love.
whats with this fucking mind that i am not realizing the consequences
I HOPE I DIE IN THE FREAKN MARINES

GOD.help.me.

myfault...ididitallbad.i'mtryinto.notrepeat.mistakes.i'mtryin..tokeepthingsstright..

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1.02.08

She's not the one i wanna lose...

Love that dug deeper than other mines.
can anyone see...
that you were my first priority
if hidden, it was to less hurt on both sides.
always be my top...
but if i was to dig anotha hole..
yours would be furthest, no doubt, non-stop.
by the dense n lacking emotions i drill.
the holes could parralel more apart.
to share it, my actions i crossed these paths
she my most, on the side where i hid my amor
how dense am i, i'm not sure...
i made these depts...
to confuse i wish not try,
blind love is what i give.
to her, i'm stupidly shy..


it hurts to even talk about it...
i enjoy writing...

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12/14/07

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12.9.07

1 ounce love..

do i make you sad......
........do i make you mad..
what you don't wanna see.......
........what you don't wanna feel
cause you lost someone
and moving on is impossible to be real.

trying to explain but you can't~
i'm ahead of you and ontop of your thoughts.
~why the skies are grey..
because they are full of ...lies?
What do you say when it's raining..
is because i'm not there..?
When its sunny,
do you want me to appear?
let your love be snow...
simular to mine...
melting away like mine..
why can't you do the same...
when you were the one,
 that blocked mine from bein shined.

i can't do anything,
but to hear you out.
i lost all my feelings
and if you think i can continue,
that'll be my doubt.

..not yours.
once was...
this cause..
1 ounce love...

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11.21.07

Lost in the "Fog"

will you die for me,
chase after me,
do anything to get "you and me".
from my stand point i don't believe.
show me else never i'll be.
fall asleep freezing to death
will you comfort me.
wake up but soaked below 30.
will you comfort me.
Day draggin on my feet.
Fallin down.
Will your hands be there around.
..around to catch me.
Fingers turning into stix and legs into logs.
things could get much clearer...
if you came to rescue me from this fog..
thicker and thicker...
areas to dodge...
i need a sign...
i need you...

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11.7.07

pressure.edurance.pain.

from the phone to the campus.
love will only be touched
by a cloth that damped us

Like out the door~
there she goes.
Come back for some,
why i dont know!
holdin her tight,
single treatment always been my role.
time can last forever but she don't know
her method of love so differs from mine
damm i like it slow..

(P.s. i re-read this & to yals THIS IS NOT A SEX POEM )

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11.3.07

fading from us

i feel like i have lost it all.
those who were always with me
i share to spilt the love among them.
now i don't see.
as soon as i choose one.
as i tell stories,
heartbroken and familiar voices break out
they want to tell me something...
but even distances can't tell anything
things were once normal.
but things always change.
you can't expect...
everyone to be (pathed) the same...
~
you want to tell me you love me.
you never had the chance
i know what you're thinking
every single time you try, you can't.
You try to hold me longer,
while i always swift away.
you're so surreal and special to me.
i hope you can understand til today.
We both have someone
or someone will have us.
but don't think i won't be there,
either way,
hopefully love won't be deprived.

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10.24.07

ease for you

it's hard to forgive.
once you relived- that moment,
You've been through,
the hurt, the pains,
the many times,
 ..its happening.
its not avoiding it..
its not backing out and being afraid of it...
this constant pain...
i just wanna hold on to it...
which you,
can't bearly maintain...
too bad,
i'm the forgiving type..

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10.21.07

What i don't needa hear

doing things,
i ain't suppose to do.
making sure, i got it all handled,
before i came, to you~
now this heart is smeared withhhh!
And pain lefted a clue~
no wonder~
why-i-shoulda-neva-tried~
karma karma is always my allieee!
TUNED into the stations,
so please~ put on that lullabye.
so do, makes me sleep foreva.
without a moment to cry~.
never paced my self to chase
toke it slow this time,
i don't wanna make it go to waste.
propperly done and  unfinished.~
let it go that way,
cuz you know now my heart is diminished,
-led alone everyday.

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10.3.07

You don't see enough...

being there when no one cares
how are you breathing
when i am not your air.
you blurr in misery
and confess in pain
you world is full of shades of gray
standing in streets.. while it rains
lamplights think they help you.
i am the one that shines every second
that one hoping for you.
come towards my side.
i'll also be your umbrella
and help you unfold your eyes.

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9.29.07

Love Ending

Lets slow the action down a lil
and bring it to the open
because love is never real,
of what tears shows in my refection!

day to day thinkin,
dreaming of what i used to be in,
love that i can bearly see.
blinded now of pains that made up of me
the one(1).
Never stayed, Never came....
Heart was there, but never the same.
now i don't believe what it is...
nor do i care..
except it came and left me changing..
into someone who will now never shares...
..3
break me into many pieces
mend me up and throw me down.
broken again and will never be found..
i show this world my love.
my last will be my last.
distrust me you followed..
just telling you..
i won't love you..

let..lifes...moments...past.
..3
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9.26.07

Can I get more...

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9.23.07

while you were in the showers

don't cry...
with water runing down your cheeks
naked and motionless...
in the shower you weep..
while your eyes capture memories...
of something you wish not to seek
steaming high with burning hurt
as your arms tied closely.

The warmth suddens with shivers
your head feels aches,
your noses constant coming delievers...
Loved and loved no more Made.
Sicked with love marked a fever...

No cure for this addiction,
simply hanging on the hurt,
Of, My, fading, relaxation...

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9.17.07

Love Connection

She has her ways to make me feel comfortable
she has her ways to make me feel loved
she's hiding from that special feeling
with cupids waitin from above.

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(something cute i had to add muaha)


Don't awaken my love

would you have anybody because you feel lonely?
destory that image of yourself, just to be loved.
desparate to be with anyone,
That shallow behavior dissapeared what you were made of.
now continue to play with each others heart.
Because you think you need one another
could you help your ownself along with lust and pleasures?
a fake person you turn into...
so shameful acts to be fitted in..
just remember... that it is...
your mistake, committing sins.

(p.s. dun play with love..cuz it really hurts..your self or that other being)

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Cared To Love

Don't release your love for me
Just giving you my thoughts..
That you were so interested to see...

in my mind i think independent.
but don't give me your heart
cuz i might not repent it.

sharing my thoughts but i don't wanna share my pain..
you got hooked on me and now.
i'm to blame

i don't want to see you get hurt...
for what you hear...
i don't want to see you get hurt...
for what i do.

i'm just telling you my life..
so those things...
won't happen to you.

(something that needs to be told...)

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9.15.07

You playin with my mind...

a crush to be told
wished to be untold
forced out of my heart
by the lover
of whom i wished to know.

You got what you want.
I told you what you wanted.
next morning i wake,
and the feelings from you
so unwanted.

You left without the same feelings,
And now i'm down to the ground,
..how can i say more, revealing..?

Why did you start anyway.
Start to like me!.
I don't see anything wrong..
but...at the end you despite me.
running away from your fears
ain't giving me a chance.
just wanna make every way clear,
Like, when you first, hit-at-me, a glance.
and my heart can't let go...
because...i never told you...
i truthfully love you so..

(the intro a lil tongue twister for yals)

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