To My HomeGoods Friends
Current mood: thankful
Category: Friends
And here we have it, my final days of working at HomeGoods. Am I sad? Yes, to an extent. I will certainly miss the people I have come to think of as "family," people who thought of me on Christmas more than my own family(except Robert). People who have seen me nearly every day for the past five years. So yes, it's sad to say goodbye. But at the same time, it's time for me to move on to another stage of life, to begin a new path. You will not be forgotten. Those of you who would like to keep in touch are welcome to do so. And you know I'll be back in town, since my fiance is Dance Dance Revolution obsessed and there are more DDR machines in Myrtle Beach than Charleston. So no mushy goodbyes, because I'm not dying!
Currently
listening
:
Worlds Collide
By
Apocalyptica
Release date: 2007-10-01
After a very nice weekend I would like to say that I'm more confident than before about my upcoming move. I was harsh in my judgment of my fiance's past. I saw things the way I wanted to see them. I was looking for ways to hurt myself and I didn't even realize it. He's not the same person who wrote those older blog entries. That person ran away from any possibility of love, and Alan has done anything but run away from me. He has asked me to be his wife, to share his name, his home, his life. Everything about him is absolutely amazing. I never get tired of looking at him, touching him, or talking to him. I get jealous when other girls look at him and flirt with him, because I feel like I'm not really that attractive and he could definitely find a prettier girl. But he seems to be content with boring old me. So I'm going to seize the opportunity while it's there, and not let him get away from me again! Eight years ago I didn't know what I was doing. I never took Alan seriously, but now everything seems to be coming together, very serious indeed. So no more phone calls from the Burger King drive-through, no more subtle hints, no more regrets. There may not be many more lonely nights in my future, but there is a lot of Converse and Dance Dance in it.
I just wanted to say thank you to those who have listened to me when I am depressed, or doubtful, or otherwise in a negative mood. Your kinds words are appreciated. You know who you are.
Stole Mozart’s survey
Current mood: content
Category: Quiz/Survey
I am weary of the same old questions, so I have invented my own. Play along if you like.
3 PRETTY GIRLS/HANDSOME BOYS: Alan Alan Alan
3 TASTY DISHES: Tenderloin steak at Nagano Barbeque if it's done right Zebra cone (OK, I really want one now)
3 HOMEY COMFORTS: Long relaxing shower Cup of hot tea Being entwined with my beloved
3 REFRESHING BEVERAGES: Cold water Sweet tea Bellini tea
3 PERSONAL AILMENTS: Frequent headaches Get cold easily Allergies
3 PERSONAL PLUSES: Very long legs Maintain a rather slender body (5'9" and 120 lbs) Doing yoga and pilates has its benefits
3 GOOD THINGS: A good book A good man A good friend
3 THINGS THAT ALWAYS MAKE ME LAUGH: Leopard print Alan's DDR "clap" The Byron painting
3 FAVORITE MEMORIES: A kiss...8 years to wait for a kiss... The night Alan asked me to be his bride *This spot reserved for memories I intend to make*
3 UNFAVORITE MEMORIES: The mistakes that took me to Myrtle Beach One word: David Private matters that are best left private (but everything has its purpose; I am who I am today because of it all).
3 BEAUTIFUL PIECES OF MUSIC: Moonlight Sonata Requiem Mass Mozart's Symphony no. 25
3 REASONS WHY I LOVE MY WORK: I love the feeling I get when I create something truly beautiful I want to leave my mark, as does everyone, but through my art, writing, and music. I can express myself through my work far better than I can with mere spoken words.
3 REASON WHY MY WORK FRUSTRATES ME: I am my worst critic Get distracted easily The world of publishing is very intimidating
3 PERSONAL GOALS: To stop worrying so much To be Mrs. Alan B. Newsome To make money doing something I enjoy
3 REASONS TO ANSWER THIS SURVEY: I like surveys You want something to read Zebra cones are yum
Currently
listening
:
Reflections
By
Apocalyptica
Release date: 2005-03-22
Not a Bad Day
Current mood: jealous
Category: Life
Things went better yesterday, though I have still not gained complete control over my jealousy and hatred of the one called Sakuraakiyoru. Maybe I have a bad habit of blowing things out of proportion, you know, making them expand until they just explode all over the place...
If you opened this, FILL IT OUT! Learn 50 things about your friends, and let them learn 50 things about you!
1) Favorite hobby? Playing music or drawing. Not that I have much time for either.
2) How do you feel about your ex? Unfortunately, I have more than one ex (dating, I was never married). Some of them I am indifferent to, others I would like to hope get visited by karma.
3) Do you own guns? No.
4) What flavor do you add to your drink at sonic? I've never had a drink at sonic.
5) Do you get nervous before doctor appointments? Well, yes. I dislike people touching me.
6) What do you think of hot dogs? Not my first choice of food, but I'd choose one over chicken bog any day.
7) Favorite Christmas song? I am not a fan of Christmas, but if I HAD to choose, I'd say "O Holy Night."
8) What do you prefer to drink in the morning? Coffee or green tea.
9) Can you do push ups? The world may never know.
10) Can you do a chin up? See the answer above...
11) What's your favorite piece of jewelry? My engagement ring. It may not be flashy enough to impress my coworkers, but it does mean something to me.
12) Do you like blue cheese? No.
13) Ever been in a car wreck? Indeed. Going 110 mph when it happened. I should be dead.
14) Do you have ADD? I don't think so.
15) What's one trait that you hate about yourself? Insecurities!
16) Middle name? Theresa
17) Name 3 thoughts at this exact moment? Morrigan is at the door. I need coffee. It's Friday the 13th.
18) Name 3 things you bought yesterday? cat food protein bars lunch items
19) Name 3 drinks you regularly drink? Tea Water Coffee
20) Current worry? That I will never break out of this cycle of doubting myself and my relationship.
21) Current hate right now? Starts with H, ends with ana.
23) How did you bring in the New Year? I thought it was a special evening on the beach, but apparently that has been done before, too. Sigh.
24) Where would you like to be right now? Away from myself.
25) Name three people who will complete this? Sorry, but I don't think anyone else (that I know) does these besides Herr Mozart.
26) Do you own slippers? They were given to me.
27) What shirt are you wearing? Green cotton shirt. Nothing fancy.
28) Do you like sleeping on satin sheets? I did have red satin sheets, but I'm rather fond of my new blue cotton sheets.
29) Can you whistle? I can, but I generally don't.
31) Would you be a pirate? Sounds fun.
32) What songs do you sing in the shower? I used to sing in the shower (just whatever song was in my head at the time). But I don't anymore.
33) Favorite girl's name? I don't know.
34) Favorite boy's name? Rather like the name Julian.
35) What's in your pocket? Nothing right now. Keys when I get to work.
36) Last thing that made you laugh? Don't remember.
37) Best bed sheets as a child? Are you kidding me? What the hell kind of question IS that? I'm wasn't some spoiled bratling with 1000 thread count bed sheets on my bed. I don't know. I got whatever I got.
38) Worst injury you've ever had? As far as pain goes, when I had a wisdom tooth cut out, the dentist didn't give me quite enough numbing to make it back home with my pain medication. Quite simply, that F--ing hurt!!
39) Do you love where you live? NO
40) How many TVs do you have in your house? I have one, and I don't even watch it.
41) Who is your loudest friend? I don't know. I tend to cringe when I hear loud people, so I wouldn't voluntarily spend a lot of time around them.
42) How many dogs do you have? None.
43) Does someone have a crush on you? I don't know. Do you?
Oops, 44) is missing as well.
45) What is your favorite book? The Soulforge, by Margaret Weis
46) What is your favorite candy? Ferrero Rocher, anyone?
47) Favorite Sports Team? ...
48) What song do you want played at your funeral? Mozart's Requiem Mass.
49) What were you doing 12 AM last night? Sleeping.
50) What was the first thing you thought of when you woke up? Nooo....Don't want to get up....
As my status began...I want to be loved for who I am, not just serving as a replacement, a filler in someone's otherwise empty life. People are so quick to say they love you, and ONLY you, but yet it burns a bit to look back and see they claimed to be SO IN LOVE with another when they told me they never loved that person. Sigh. Maybe I'm overly emotional right now, and my doubts got kicked into high gear. But I am a big girl, and I want the truth. Fact or bullshit? I don't have time for this nonsense.
This and That
Current mood: bored
Category: Quiz/Survey
Were you happy when you woke up today? Would have been happier to sleep in.
Whats the first thing you look at on the opposite sex? I notice their hair, their height, then face and body type.
Are you friends with any one thats annoying? Those are more like acquaintances, wouldn't you think?
What would I find if I looked under your bed? Dust and storage boxes, maybe some of Alan's clothes.
Last night you felt... Blah.
What are you not liking right now? I don't like how complicated things are. I don't like people who just want to cause drama. I don't like the crazy lady next door.
If you're being extremely quiet whats it mean? That I don't have anything to say...
Last time you laughed? I really don't know.
Do you regret anything from your past? So very many things, but I have come to realize that I can't change them.
Last argument? Was on Saturday.
Last beverage? Sweet tea. I am a Southern girl.
Last nap? On the couch with Alan.
Would your parents be mad if you got pregnant? More like amused.
What are you doing Saturday? That remains to be seen.
What should you be doing right now? I can do whatever I want. I'm an adult. If I want to sit here and type useless stuff on Myspace, I can do it!
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