the offer.
Current mood: ecstatic
Category: Life

So I was offered an apprenticeship to learn how to ink and pierce. What a fucking awesome thing to happen, right?! Im on this journey to figure out what I want to do in life, and then ~BAM~ I get this.I cant wait til the summer!

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cassettes and neons
Current mood: awake

Around the marry-go-round, here we go! 

I lost my urge to have the thought.  I will not change the idea of my perfect world. 

Cassettes and neons for this 80's baby! 

Pop rocks and soda with my jellies on.  Sideways pony tail, legwarmers, and mother fucking lasers shows!!!  Where did Scooby-Doo go?  I remember seeing him every saturday with a push pop in my hand.  I loved Chair!  He was cooooo.  Did the Pound Puppies get adopted?  I want some wax lips!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  Fun dip with that yummy dip stick.  Digging holes in the ground hoping to find China.  When mud people attack.  Crawling under my grandparents house. hahahhah.  Watching Nightmare on Elm Street with my Aunt Betty.  Ice cream was so great.  Getting called a goober and laughing.  I wanna to care...like the Care Bears.  But staring is bad.  Blue Nehi that made your teeth look gross.  Chihuahuas are EVIL!  Playing with tansformers in the bathroom.  I think I locked my dad out the house that day. hahah!  Super Mario Brothers and Duck Hunt.  8 bit noises will always sound goooooood.  The guitar blaring, i would hear it in my sleep.  Rush was playing over and over.  E.T. frightened me.  I had nightmares until I was ten!  My dad burnt the tape. hah!  Playing with legos....during mass.  The Virgin Mary creeps me out.  hop scotch and patty cake. Kung Fu ruled!  Garfeild was my friend.

These little things comfort me, as many others.  I will never grow up.  I refuse. 

Currently listening : Insomniac By Green Day Release date: 10 October, 1995

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Surrived another....
Current mood: evil

Yesterday was the best Christmas I've had in a long time.  I got to hang out with Mike and see two movies back to back.  Walk Hard is halarious.  AVP2 was ok, I liked the first one better. 

I ate so much food that I had to lay down for an hr.hahaha.  I got to make buddha brownies with my cousin...heh!  Whatching The Soup high on food. That was great.

I might have some extra cavities now, but overall I had a sugar blast of excitement.

Currently listening : You’ll Rebel to Anything By Mindless Self Indulgence Release date: 12 April, 2005

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As the memories come back...
Current mood: creative

The wind that blow in my head, the glimpses of old reality. Take this pain and sew a new path.  Make the blood turn to tears, then the tears to joy.  The hardest path of them all is to reach serenity.  Every breathe I take I step back and chuckle.  What a sadistical world, yet beautiful with its demons.  Painted death with rainbows.  Now my new reality is a path of self worth, breaking society's mold of insanity.  Stomping on the ashes of the yesterday and lighting the stick called future.  I have come so far to find all is fake, what a shame.  Now I will find the inner truths.

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Would you like a nice slice of death today?
Current mood: chipper

Ah, Thanksgiving!  Another yummy dimise.  Last Thanksgiving I was Vegan, so you could imagine that.  All the meat in front of me...wow, that sounded kinky.hah.  Anyways, I'm gonna eat my pumpkin pie and lumpy mashedpotatos, as I talk to myself.  Maybe freak out a family member or two.  I wanna be Franco-Unamerican!!!!! Where is the change, I'm waiting....?

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My mind is a DJ
Current mood: thirsty

And it goes like this...

Where were you to hold my hand, do the things that we have planned....Let's get retarded in here, let's get ignant, let's get stupid...I can't be with you again, don't remind me of the good times that we had.  Learned a lot from my mistakes...If you wanna ride, don't ride the white horse.  If you wanna be rich, you gotta be a bitch....Oh my gawd that's some funky shit!.....People come and people go and people want to die, don't ask me but it's like that and that's the way it is.....Oooooo la la lah, laaaaah laaaaaah.....and I love my sex.....been around the world and found that only stupid people are breeding, the cretins cloning and feeding, and I don't even own a TV.....Got your chin held high, and you feel just fine coz your do what you're told. But inside your heart, it's black and it's hollow and it's cold.....I'm everyone, I feel used.  I'm everyone, I need you.  I want affection....I beat that bitch with a bat, com'on club America....Digital punk, digital punk (whah wah nah nah).....If your going to San Francisco be sure to wear a flower in your hair....All the leaves are brown and the sky is grey....Call on me, call me. Call on me, call me!.....Tell me why? Everytime I see you I try to hide away....In the streets we're gonna rock right....Selling my soul for material wishes, fast cars and bitches....Seven years and fifty days, the time is passing by, nothing in this world can be as nice as you and I...I like it loud. Skibadee skibaDANGER, I am the real ranger..HARDCORE, DJ play that record out loud! Dup Dup Dup Dah Dah Dah Dah Dup!....Here we go, the little things, the little things that try to bring you down...Beat on the brat with a baseball bat, oh yeah oh yeah oh oh ooooh......I can see I can see I am going blind!.....Love is a burning flame, and it makes a firery ring, bound by wild desire I feel into a buring ring of fire....Release all the pressure deep inside. Yeah, there comes a time in your life when you just gotta release.  Release yourself from everything that holds you back....Run away, run away and save your life, run away if you wanna survive.  You gotta keep the faith, you gotta keep the faith and run away.....She gave you everything she had, but she was young and dumb. You're such a delicate boy in the histerical world. In an emotional landslide in physical terms.Go baby go go.....There's a time to discriminate every mother fucker that is in your way.  Hey, you, what do ya see?!.....Do you think you're better off alone?....Just one kiss and i'm alive, one kiss and i'm ready to die.'cause you're so beautiful....If I were you, I'd never let me go. If I were you, I would always love me so.....And the moon will always smile, in my dreams, in my dreams.  And the sun will always rise, in my dreams, so it seems.....I'ma dance floor killer, get ready to dance!....It's gonna be a fine night tonight, it's gonna be a fine day tomorrow.....Where's the beat?!.....Forever in love, you and I.....I just made you up to hurt myself.  And it worked. Yes, it did....Take the future in your hand, living future land. Give your fantasy a chance...I see right right through to you.  It's not like I don't see your mood. I see right through to you, I see your every mood....Baby you're the one I need, loving you, loving me.  And you'll always be loving you loving me. Dah dah dah dah dam dah dah daah.....I could be your everything tonight if you take me up to heaven.  You can be my angel in my life....Love some acid! Get some love, gotta get some love. Get some some love, I gotta get some love. Some love....Oh yeah, oh yeah, like the blood on my door. Wash me clean and I will run until I reach the shore. I've known it all along like the bone under my skin. Like actors in a photograph, like paper in the wind. There's a hammer by the window, there's a knife on the floor. Like turbines in darkness, like the blood on my door. It's the generator.

Had to end with Bad R. =)

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An appropriate song...lol
Current mood: cranky

"Jetsetter"

This is a jetsetter music letter from me to you
This is a jetsetter music letter from me to you

I'm writing from the bedroom
I'm ennui and in my cups
All the kids are kissing in the bathroom
Licking bags to get their ups
I've gotten 3 proposals since I left home
And none have left me impressed
It's getting much harder to say no
And even harder to say yes

This is a jetsetter music letter from me to you
This is a jetsetter music letter from me to you

You met a naf annihilator
Oh whose treasure was her trap
And when she wrapped her legs around your head
You knew you wouldn't get it back
It's been 16 days since I've left home
16 days too long
And what she does feels oh so right
So you know it must be wrong

This is a jetsetter music letter from me to you
This is a jetsetter music letter from me to you
Whoa

Now I'm writing cause I miss you
And I'm writing cause I'm stuck
All these strangers all around me
They don't seem to give a fuck
And I'm tired of sleeping in strange beds
And I've done more than you allow
I've had enough of jetsetting
And I want to come back now

I want to come back now
I want to come back now
I want to come back now
I want to come back now

This is a jetsetter music letter
This is a jetsetter music letter
This is a jetsetter music letter
This is a jetsetter music letter (from me to you)
This is a jetsetter music letter (from me to you)
This is a jetsetter music letter (from me to you)
This is a jetsetter music letter (from me to you)
This is a jetsetter music letter (from me to you)
This is a jetsetter music letter
Wow

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The blur is over and I'm left with me in the end....

Currently listening : Morningwood By Morningwood Release date: 10 January, 2006

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I don’t want to know the truth!

The truth hurts, and pain is truth.  Life is pain, therefore it is true.  Damnit!  Life is a big shitter I want to flush it.  Enraged I now must go find some stimulant before I crack a bitshes,yeah I said bishes, skull open. ::grabs ripped teddy bear::  Hmph***  Where's mah fokin love!

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The death of one thing gives birth to something more beautiful....
Current mood: cold

Sitting in this smoke filled room, I lay my head to were I am unseen.  I think of the ruins of the past, this and only this helps my drive for a future.  I cough as I breathe in the death lingering in the air.  I am alive, so alive, but as a shell of memories.  My morbid thoughts race at a million per second, then the thought of you draws my head up.  I wipe my raw eyes to the thought of your face as we lay next to each other.  This life is not what it seems.  The illusions, the hyper thought of one, and the inkling of love that drives me.  The lost pet that scrambles through the graveyard of dreams, this is what I am.  I would hold out my hand just to have it sliced off by the dark stare of indecision.  I know me, and I know what I can do; but I am an overbearing lush.  I want it all and I want it now! Now it is my journey for patients.  Though, it is so hard with YOU.  I want to give you everything.  So, I will sit with my head in my hands and wipe my raw eyes until the day my love is understood by my sweet dark love.

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Registering
Current mood: stressed

I never thought that registering for college would be so hard.  Both schools that I am appling for are a ways to get to.  This making it hard to get questions asked.  It is more than likly that I will be attending MSU instead of UL.  Although UL is were I want to go.  For now I have to worry about cost of tuition and living.  MSU you will be the best as far a finances go.  Then maybe I can transer if possible.  It all goes back to, "I can't always get what I want."  I have to deal with what I can do for now. I will just make the best of it.

Apperently you can't have your high school fax over transcripts and ACT scores.  And you can't have certified copies brought to the registar office.  Nice, yeah?  So I have to have the high school mail the transcript then pay thirty dollars to have the ACT people send my scores.  Also, I have to obtain a copy of my marriage liecence or divorce decree to have my change of name at the school.  Since my last name is different than what the school has on record.  Which I do not have either or.  Who knows if Jason will even send me a copy.  I was at him for months over the divorce decree and he never gave me any word of it.  I called him yesterday about it. So maybe he will get it to me this time.

I have to sign a waiver for my miningitus[sp] vacine because I simply cannot afford it right now.  I am over the age for which the state can fund it.  So hopefully before school starts I can have the vaccine.  Since I will be living on campus, I feel the need for it is essential.

Ahhhhhhhh, I am so stressed!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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