For my friend Lindy Dobbins
Category: Writing and Poetry

A new friend of mine asked if I would post something from the book here in my blog, so I thought I would accomodate her.

Idol Thoughts

the devils handywork is done with ease, remember the light in your soul and it
will not be forsaken, twisting words with ease and painful memories will be resurrected I am not who I thought I was but I am not whom I think I will become are we all one? or is that a lie I once heard? forgive the general questions that I pose for you they are not to be answered  nor are they meant to be heard they are questions of a lifetime and you will know them upon your deathbed, with your last gasp of breath you too will know the answers I once sought I know not the answers (or at least I pretend to think that I don't) I've given up trying to understand that which has appeared before me and take it all in stride, someone once told me that we are not here and here is not where we appear, this illusion is grand and I don't know if I want to give it up, ramblings of teenager uttered from jaded lips of an aging hipster who's relevance has passed too quickly and only have I realized just this instance that I am that aging hipster and that no one really listens to the inane words that drip from mouth like the drool from a raging bull I'm spent and I'm thru, will these be the last words I ever think?

6-20-04

Currently listening : No. 4 By Stone Temple Pilots Release date: 26 October, 1999

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Blah Blah Blah
Category: Blogging

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As many of you know, I've had a lot of trouble writing in the last 18 months or so. A lack of time and inspiration has been plaguing me, but with my recent time sitting in airports or on airplanes I've had a little time on my hands to mold some words into something. Several of the pieces that have come out are not typical of my previous poems and can't really be described as poems, prose or anything that resembles that. But I figured I would share one of them here, and if there's a positive response well we'll see what happens. Musings as dusk turns to Twilight I've been traveling quite a bit these days. Some of it's been for business, some for fun, and then there's that bit that was all just about personal satisfaction. But it's funny to think or look back over the last years worth of travels and think/know that my destination has been home. Not my final round trip destination. Each one way trip that I've gone is home. There's the home where I was born, where I journey tonight. Then there's the home I swore would never be home, but that's where I spent most of my formative years. And now there's this home in the South. I haven't lived there entirely too long. As a matter of fact it hasn't even been a year. But I've come to realize that many of things that I call home I carry with me where ever I go. And then there's the people and places those destinations that make it home. 6pm eastern somewhere over these United States 1-4-8

Currently listening : Unbreakable: A Retrospective 1990-2006 By The Afghan Whigs Release date: 05 June, 2007

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I’m Back
Category: Blogging

Yes I have returned. It has been quite sometime since I was on this profile. I had gotten quite a bit discouraged with many of the people I had met on here and needed to take a break. I can't say how long I will be using this profile, but I will continue to use it until I decide not to!! I haven't been writing too much poetry here in the last year, lack of inspiration or lack of intelligence.

But this is just just let you know I am back.

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The Aftermath
Current mood: contemplative
Category: Blogging

So it's Saturday, a day of rest and relaxation after the Last Bash. I have to say it was quite successful and it was a shock to see how many people came out to say goodbye to me. It means a lot that my friends and associates from the different corners of my life came together last night. It was good to see some friendly faces that I haven't seen in sometime, and others it was nice to see just because.

I hate to say it, but I'm going to miss Columbus. 15 years ago I swore that I would never call Columbus or Ohio for that matter home. But after spending nearly half of my life in Ohio, it's various cities and suburbs I've grown accustomed to the life that I have here. I've grown into so much that as much as I love my hometown of Chicago I'm not sure I could live in that big of a city again; I will always love visiting it though. Those of you who know me extremely well don't take this as me dropping my love for that team up North in the Maize and Blue, I will never love OSU.

There have been so many life altering experiences and friendships that have developed from my time here. If I hadn't of moved here from Chicago, it's highly doubtable that I would have taken up writing. There's a possibilty that I might not even be alive because of some of the people I was associated with back then was a bit rougher crowd. There are a lot of things that could be associated to what if's, but I'm not going to ponder them. I want to thank all of you who have had something to do with making me love Ohio.

enough of that sappy shit, I love you get over it. I'm going to miss you all, don't forget there's a place in Charlotte for you all.

Currently listening : Out of Exile By Audioslave Release date: 24 May, 2005

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If you didn't already know
Category: Blogging

Two weeks from yesterday I will be moving to Charlotte, NC. It's a huge move for me personally and career wise. I will be without internet for two weeks or so starting on March 25th. I will still be able to check it from work, but that will be very minimal at this tiime. If you have friends or family in Charlotte or the Charlotte area, please tell them about me and forward them my Myspace as I don't really know anyone down there and need all the help I can get meeting people. Thank you for all of your continued support.

Joshua

Currently listening : A Weekend in the City By Bloc Party Release date: 06 February, 2007

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It's become official
Category: Blogging

So this afternoon I received a phone call from Charlotte North Carolina this afternoon. Nothing too out of the ordinary, just this guy I swear is a flaming southern belle, but that's besides the point. He told me that I've been approved for the apartment that I applied for and that it is reserved in my name. Do you know what that means? I have a brand new address, and it's in Charlotte!!! 24 days until I move......

Currently listening : Between Earth & Sky By The Colour Release date: 06 February, 2007

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Last Bash
Category: Blogging

So with me moving away, and the date firming up and approaching at light speed, I wanted to do some sort of last bash with everyone. The ideal place would be Andyman's Treehouse, great tunes, great friends cheap drinks. I am looking at Friday March 16th or 23rd, leaning more towards the 23rd currently.

If you can make either of these dates let me know so I can get a better idea of what works for everyone including myself.

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Creation of sorrow
Category: Writing and Poetry

So I aas many of you are aware I haven't written any poetry in a good while. Mostly due to lack of inspiration or muses, for some apparent reason some things finally clicked in my brain yesterday and I jotted down a few lines. I hope you enjoy it.

my vision swims in the
monochromatic darkness that fills my room
these sparks still linger
where your fingertips once lay upon my hallowed flesh
with the goodnight whispers
that fill my head of 1000 evenings past
cradled in innocence, lulled to sleep
within your sanctity
2-14-07

©Copyright Joshua Mansfield 2007

Currently listening : On Air By Bottle of Justus

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Thanks, But Damn
Category: Blogging

****Thwump****

That was the sound of Josh inserting his big foot in his even larger fucking mouth. Just like so many other things in this life I've lead, the move to Charlotte has once again become troubled. It appears that I will no longer be moving to Charlotte as we cannot come to agreement upon wages.

I'm trying one last ditch effort, but perhaps it is Destiny letting me know that I can't push her around and that I belong around here. It may also mean that though I am supposed to be here in Columbus, perhaps it is along another path. I will continue investigating this path and see what clues and hints she has left for me.

So thank you to everyone for your well wishes and congrats over the last few days. Don't discount it yet, but I'm fairly confident I will be staying in Columbus for the time being.

Currently listening : 1979: Mixes By Smashing Pumpkins Release date: 30 June, 1998

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Leaving on a Jet Plane
Category: Blogging

Or perhaps by U-Haul, but a jet plane sounds so much cooler.

For those of you unaware of what I have been going thru the last week, I was offered a position with our budding division in Charlotte North Carolina running the warehouse. This is a huge step forward (though it's the same position I held when I was with our plumbing division). There is excellent potential for growth in that market.

I accepted the position on Tuesday, and sat down to hash things out earlier today with my boss. Though everything is not set in stone as of yet, it is very safe that it is a done deal. We are looking at the move happening at the end of March.

I cannot express how much all of you in Columbus mean to me, and I am going to miss you dearly. Unfortunately this is the best thing going in my life right now, and I have to do what appears to be the best option that I have in life. Thank you all for all of your support on everything that I have ever done. I hope that we will all stay in close contact though I will be far away. And I will make it back to Columbus throughout the year so don't fret this is never goodbye, just a see you later. Those of you that are further away, we will always stay in contact and my love for you all will not fawlter either, unfortunately though I will see you even less than I do now. And just think, now you have a new vacation destination to come visit me at.

We will be getting drunk sometime before I move, so let's all figure out a good night to choose for that. And if you want to come over and help me pack and we can reminice about old times that would be fabulous. I could use a hand on the day of the move packing up the truck before I head out of town, let me know if you are interested.

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