if you’ve ever lost someone
Current mood: calm
Category: Life

one last song

there'll never be another who can say it quite like you
i guess me and this old guitar will muddle through
'cause who's gonna to tell the story
when you're not here to sing along
why does the road between here and after
loom a million miles too long
do we have time
for one last song?

couldn't run away 'cause the truth dancing in your eyes
said don't be afraid you know love wins every time
inspired by your grace and glory
i am compelled to sing along
the sweetness between here and after
makes me wonder where the years have gone
do we have time
for one last song?

i remember your promise to meet me in the stars
their light guides my heart to where you are
we're all part of the same love story
live your dreams others will sing along
one breath between the here and after
i never knew i could be so strong
do we have time
for one last song?

Currently listening : Begin to Hope By Regina Spektor Release date: 13 June, 2006

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I dreamed i was so brave (inspired by daniel johnston)
Current mood: crazy
Category: Writing and Poetry

i dreamed i was so brave

Currently listening : Fun By Daniel Johnston Release date: 13 September, 1994

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THE LONG WAY AROUND
Current mood: amused
Category: Writing and Poetry

doubter's lament

the long hard way
around this life
the cruel distance
between straight lines
it's all i find
that i can seem
to navigate
though my soul
can do better
faith is fairweather
shunning the map
wavering off course
polarized by decay
willfully pointing south
makes no sense
cuz i know better
like most of us
i'm not that clever
chasing rainbows
and pyramid schemes
cuz we ain't all related
to kings and queens
recalling horrific dreams
of trying to fly
as the tribe
soared past me
left me to die
waking up smaller
every time
i only believe
in real time
one life no fire
reaching heaven
when i die
the long way around
ridiculous sublime
a lumpy narrow bed
for my hard head
and worn out behind
blessedly blind
skirting the third
or second sight
i don't need
to see the light
don't nobody
wanna seek
everybody wanna
be found
scraping through
the ruins blind
eschewing faith
filling silence with sound
can't wait to be
underground
cuz life is just
the long way
around

Currently listening : Back to Black By Amy Winehouse Release date: 13 March, 2007

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taking a leave of absence (goodbye...kind of)
Current mood: creative
Category: Life

Dear Friends and Family,

I am writing this blog to let you all know that some very exciting, albiet demanding career developments are hatching.  As such, I do not have the time I used to have to devote to myspace. 

I know that you all want the best for me, it goes without saying that you'd rather see me in the recording studio making the music, performing on stage, out in the field producing the films and of course, taking care of my precious twin girls (oops, I inadvertantly answered that blog tag challenge) than hunched over a computer in a dark room writing quirky poems.  Although, I promise, I will still be doing a bit of that.  And I will be stopping in to look in on your work for inspiration!

The reason that I even make mention of this is that I know that we myspacers can be a sensitive lot.  Though I've done my best to keep up, my pattern must've changed a bit because more than a folks have sent messages inquiring if they've done something to piss me off or if  I am okay.   No, I am not upset with you and yes, I am okay, if a bit frazzled.  Something's got to give.  And while, I don't intend it to be you...if you spend an inordinate amount on myspace (and who doesn't?) then you may possibly feel slighted. 

However, I intend to check my messages, post blogs, read blogs and participate in my writer's group (shout out to the Daily Prompt!), just not to the same rigorous clock work degree.  Also, if you are a person who never bothered to forge a truly reciprocal relationship with me, then that slight breeze you feel wafting by is the sound of Punk Rasta: A.K.A. Marla Moore leaving the building.

The great news is that if all goes well, some of you will actually get a chance to see more of me than you probably want to.  Typically of all things of this matter, I am really not at liberty to share any details at this time.  

Just note.  I love you.  Without your support and enouragement, I would be just another bit player on an empty stage.  At heart, I will always be a freaky fringe artist, no matter what you may see or hear.  Friendship will always be more important to me than fans.  I also promise to keep this page and maintain it myself.  No matter what.  It just may mean that responses are slower than you might like, but they will still be one hundred per cent from the heart.  

Thanks so much for the love and support.   I wish you all love, light and please know that all of your dreams are in the process of coming true.

Be blessed.

OXOXOX 

Currently listening : Moon Pix By Cat Power Release date: 06 December, 1999

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feel u
Current mood: blah
Category: Writing and Poetry

feel u

life will make u
stronger if
it don't
kill u

darlin i've tried
so very hard
but i can't
feel u

love's not sposed
to hurt
no it's sposed to
heal u

love would never lock me out
make me crazy 
or forget about
the one who calls me
in my lucid dreams 
my heart is smarter than 
it seems

survived the drama
and the smoke screen
that concealed
u

i scratched the surface
peeled back the
layers where's the
real u

u're so afraid
close the shades
like sunlight could
steal u 

easier to lock me out
go on try'n 
make me doubt
myself so i'll forget
the evil games u play
but my soul don't work
that way

i said i tried
so very hard now
can't seem to
feel u
 

Currently listening : Back to Black By Amy Winehouse Release date: 13 March, 2007

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for my grandmother (random word generator)
Category: Writing and Poetry

(my grandmother, Lois Lee Fulton always said the living don't know what the dead do, but the dead know what the living do. i hadn't thought of her in a while, but she sent me this poem. i know that she is with me. she was the family writer and story teller. i hope somehow if you are missing someone right now, know that they are never truly gone. OXOXOXO)



aint sister
(for lois lee fulton)

aint sister didn't wake
this morning
i knew she wasn't gonna
cause a vanilla scented mist
flowers and spanish moss
adorned her head
to dazzle my fevered dreams
i awoke with a railing heart
and a house to clean

aint sister wasn't bitter
left her weary shell
whispered i'll be at the ocean
come see me any time
don't pine too hard release me
mourning tears flow like graffiti
unexpected yet sublime

grandmother was a sister
to four brothers a wife
times three no mystery
not with all the love she had
though her only child was my dad
she raised dozens of cousins
as her own babies
aint sister passed
her poetry hands to me

i'm pouring a glass of clear liquor
inhaling sweet teacakes
as aint sister draws nearer
white rum on the parlor
floor blends with florida water
candles surround her best picture
strobe of flame forges grief's fissure

calling on my aint sister




( yes this was a random word generator exercise, the required words were: ocean, inhaling, sugar, flower, dreams, shell, mist, graffiti, dazzle, liquor)

Currently listening : Her Best : The Chess 50th Anniversary Collection By Etta James Release date: 25 March, 1997

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Talking to God (letting go )
Category: Writing and Poetry

does it matter

does it matter if
our bills are paid
thirty days
before they're due
his mock alligator
strap chronograph
ensures we arrive
a quarter to on time
but our whole
remains two halves
we've forgotten
how to laugh

like borrowed books
god you and me
are long overdue
when you smile
the crazy way
your stars crinkle
draws me closer
making time wrinkle
i remember myself
i used to be free

he's a good man
about the business
of getting paid stabile
as the situation room
dutifully presenting
trinkets and flowers
but we don't ever
talk to the moon
or gaze at the ocean
meditating on you

didn't used to matter
i figured to fit in
i'd simply bend
til you taught me
to be me i was not
created to pretend
i dance in the rain
shoot for the soul
glow like the moon
knowing that my light
can be neither
contained or controlled

while some will not
believe until they see
your light teaches us
to ceaselessly reach
believing until we see
i know as i let him go
he's a good man god
you know you made him
you didn't make him
for me

Currently listening : The Greatest By Cat Power Release date: 12 September, 2006

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Daily Prompt (longing)
Current mood: sleepy
Category: Web, HTML, Tech

longin (a primative)

soulful longin for you
cuts my life in half
darlin i'm drownin
cursed powerful bad
specially at night
wish i may wish i might

i'm the one clutchin
a ol' raggedy cover
wonderin why every
body else down here
gets a lover

rockin myself to sleep
like a broken pony
cuz lonely
ain't supposed
to feel one bit right

unlucky got me fellin
stars from the sky
wasting new money
in fountains
strangers wonder why
a hundred yellow ribbons
fade on yonder tree

i'm straight up tragic
ain't enough magic
in this ol' broken world
to bring you back to me

Currently listening : So Tonight That I Might See By Mazzy Star Release date: 05 October, 1993

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DPR (Stolen, truth, stayed too long)
Current mood: sleepy
Category: Writing and Poetry

insomniac's blues

get the hell away
from my door
you just the purety
sleepless blues
acting like you
ain't read the news
you done stayed
every last bit
of too long

stealing precious time
forcing me to ponder
paint plaster and pain
all the songs
i ain't gonna sing
every fucking time
i done danced alone

get you gone cuz
every damn thing dies
babies ain't cute
all they lives
fools let blessings
rot on the vine
squeezing love
til the flavor
goes wrong

blues laughing while
i pace the floor
worrying bout
my wasted youth
won't do me good
cuz it's already gone
truth is i been
down here too long

sleepless blues
wanna steal this song

sleepless blues
you is half past wrong

Currently listening : You Are Free By Cat Power Release date: 18 February, 2003

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Sexy Word Challenge with an Island Twist
Current mood: discontent
Category: Writing and Poetry

 another memory

drastic measures 
worth considering
sexy is something
i ain't feeling
life got me mean 
bent low shivering
homeless soaked
to the bone wishing
to be there breathing
in sacred air

so wet ripe and hot
damn but i can not
ponder jamaica without
that sizzling queen
her lemon sun drawing
sorrow from my heart
passion fills my lungs

lifetimes ago
your licorice limbs 
stroking mine
we're twisting again
in dreams still crazy
after all this time
entangled in a web
gossamer sheen of lust
nosey moon bends low
stealing a peep winking
at the two of us

semi-precious jewels
of sweat adorn you
love burning fear
from my eyes i bury
salty prayers in
your shadow waves
crash like a metronome

murmurs cries earth
defying pleasures sighs 
faintly echo one
starry night so long ago
youth coaxed our bodies
to carve craving promises
in wet sand your tender
tongue stole my sanity

i was not born
to understand
though i know we will
never meet again
my soul thinks you're
still my man

(hot damn, sizzling queen, starry night, entangled in a web. drastic measures
soaked to the bone. these were the phrases that the eroticpoet made us use.  i guess i didn't end up with a sexy poem like i was supposed to.  these things happen...:) sorry. )  

Currently listening : The Greatest By Cat Power Release date: 12 September, 2006

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