Laying on my bed, facing the red ceiling... Flowing in and out of reality I think about you I wonder why I do, Do you, are you Thinking of me to. I'm not sure why I think about you so I do things to try and keep you off my mind Nothing really works. If it does its not long before I dream you up again. When you wake, do you think of me While you sleep do you dream of me, When I wake I think of you While I sleep and even while awake I dream of you. What happened , Maybe that's why I think about you. Possibly, trying to figure out what went wrong and what went on in your head, why you did or did not do certain things. your reasons are a mystery to me. We were never really clear with each other, and by the time I received your reasoning it was to late maybe that's why your gone Was it a game, played to pass the time Was it just a hopeful thought that faded with each day that passed by, Was it even anything at all. Damn it! I wonder What happened Do I even really like you Did you even really like me What were we doing with each other.. Were we just simply lost in a subconscious illusion. All that's left is this agonising confusion. I want to talk, but I wont call. Maybe I know that this is a lost cause . The possibilities were endless but they seem to have ended before The start.
I walk into that room and see how you've drastically changed. I lean in to hug and kiss you, but fear I'll cause you pain. I hear your heart beating rapidly. your breaths are short and strainuous, I wonder if you can hear my voice and understand what I say, I wonder if when you look at me you recognize my face. It pains us all, to see you in such a state of illness . it's odd and tragic to hear you'll never be the same. its sad and hard to see you everyday your very strong and yet so fragile... I don't know what to do or how to act I don't know what to say.. or how to help. theres nothing I can do to relive you from your pain I wish I could help you in some way. but sadly there's just nothing I can do
I'm lost beside myself........wondering why i'm suddenly so cold and still, my heart no longer beats against my chest and I can no longer feel each breath, unable to blink your gloomy face is all I see, I hear your heart wrenching scream repeatedly , I don't understand this pain you've inflicted upon me or why you scream apologies, you cry as if your sorry...but why, why do you cry. haven't you realized the reason why i 'm gone and never to be seen or heard from again. You've bestowed this never ending heart ache upon yourself it was you who pointed the gun towards my heart and squeezed trigger you slid the knife across my throat and watched me bleed. I am dead to you now, you've killed me. Although you choose to end this horribly I must say I am for-ever great-full.. for now I can spend all eternity free of you and the grasp you had against me I am free from the agonizing suffocation you caused me .you say you love me still... yet you are the one responsible for the continuous pain I felt, While memory's of you quickly dispers I am able to feel a blanket of relief covering my soul clinging to it warmly. so no longer am I worried and No-longer will I love you
Arieanna T.
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Eat Me, Drink Me
By
Marilyn Manson
Release date: 05 June, 2007
love love love....whats your definition.....?
Current mood: blah
Category: Writing and Poetry
LOVE IS TRULY INEFFABLE BUT HERE I GO
LOVE IS THAT INDISCRIBEABLE FEELING WHICH COMES FROM DEEP WITH IN THE HEART THAT ALLOWS YOU TO FIND THE BEAUTY WITHIN YOURSELF AS WELL AS WITHIN OTHERS...IT'S THAT MESMERIZING GUT FEELING WHICH MAKES YOU FEEL NERVOUS AND WEEK BUT AT THE SAME TIME MAKES YOU FEEL SO ALIVE... IT'S ONE OF THE MOST PROFOUND FEELINGS OF INTENSE TENDER AFFECTION AND ONENESS THAT TWO PEOPLE CAN SHARE WITH ONE ANOTHER... IT IS WITHOUT A DOUBT THE MOST PRECIOUS GIFT OF ALL BECAUSE A LIFE WITHOUT LOVE, IS NO LIFE AT ALL AND LOVE IS THE ONLY THING WORTH FIGHTING FOR.
LOVE IS A PUMP FILLED WITH ADRENALINE THAT FLOWS TROUGH-OUT YOUR BODY. AND IS A SYRINGE FILLED WITH AN UNCONDITIONAL BOND THAT WILL LAST INTO ETERNITY AND BEYOND THAT IS INJETED STRAIGHT INTO THE BONES, AND LOVE IS A LIMITLESS AND CONSISTENT FLUID OF PROTECTION AND HAPPINESS WITHIN THE VAINS.. LOVE IS THE NEVERENDING SUPPLY OF HOPE AND WORTHINESS THAT LIES WITHIN EACH BLOOD CELL, LOVE IS, LOVE IS, LOVE IS YOUR COMPLETE BEING
LOVE IS A BLIND MAN'S VISION....AND A CRIPPLED WOMAN WINGS....AND A BRAINLESS BOYS IMAGINATION AND A SUICIDAL GIRLS LAST HOPE. LOVE IS THE WILL, THE WILL TO KEEP ON LIVING...
Listen to the Exhortation of the Dawn! Look to this Day! For it is Life, the very Life of Life. In its brief course lie all the Verities and Realities of your Existence. The Bliss of Growth, The Glory of Action, The Splendor of Beauty; For Yesterday is but a Dream, And To-morrow is only a Vision; But To-day well lived makes Every Yesterday a Dream of Happiness, And every Tomorrow a Vision of Hope. Look well therefore to this Day! Such is the Salutation of the Dawn!
Kalidasa
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Cosmos
By
Buck-Tick
Release date: 21 June, 1996
mellow
sleepy
giddy
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