Choices
Current mood: intense

so life is full of choices... Some are clear and others aren't always easy. Some choices you make feel good for you but hurt others. I'm stilllearning what choices I have to make in my life. I am in such an odd place in my path. Some days I am thrilled and driven beyond belief while other days I feel defeated and un supported. I guess I wish there were larger signs in life to guide you down the RIGHT path.

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OUT WITH THE LESSIES
Current mood: drunk

Ok so tonight I went out with my lesbian friends. dinner started at Fat Fish one of my favorite sushi restaurants in LA. then we went over to abbey. we were myself, my buddy derek, his buddy josh and my lessies Jen and vanessa. ok. from there we went to what was supposed to be a Ghetto hip hop lesbian night. they played THE BEST music and we danced like .we were video dancers as actual videos of Beyonce were projected on the wall. It was soooo fun. Our last and final stop was Booby Trap. yeah that was the name of it. we went in and it reminded me of a NYC club small and kitchy. The music was every great song ever made. we danced for a bit more then headed home.
to surmise:
1. I am glad I have a BF. Tonight the crazies were in FULL FORCE and randomly ON ME. was nice to know after i pushed them off I could say I HAVE A BF. lol
2. I'm in better shape than I give myself credit for.
3. Tomorrow night we are making Jenn dress up as a boy and hit the gay bars with us... full report tomorrow night ...

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Aug- sept
Current mood: excited

Okay so I have a huge september coming. Its gonna be busy busy busy which is good cause I was bored in Aug. lol Went to Santa Barbara to chill with Mr C. It was kool but laid back. very romantic actually. ( FORGOT TO MENTION>>> the snoring has stopped!!!! I can now cuddle at night with my boo and have sleep overs...) But I would have also liked to have gone to the local gay bar there. I think we tend to be more affectionate without the local gays spying on us...we went out dancing once and kissed the whole time. It was AMAZING. granted it was at a lesbian night which somehow I think felt safer to him. He's not big on PDA in gay bars. I'm not either but that night I found him irresitable. couldn't help it. yea us. Ok off to more lesbian fun( dinner and dancing) but bringing my buddy Derek along to be my fake BF. you know for when the crazys roll around

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Tomorrow

So i am supposed to drive to santa barbara tomorrow to visit Mr C in school tomorrow and I am totally excited but I haven't heard too much from him today which means he had a long hard day at school. I hope he won't be too tired to have me visit. i will check in with him tomorrow. Yea! excited to see him tho!!!

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missin my boo
Current mood: impatient

Okay so have been really good about Mr C being away at school. Have missed him but feeling okay about it till today. Missin him hard today. I guess its because I'm gonna drive over to see him tomorrow. Guess I'm just anxious. Have managed to make myself busy and keep full days. today I went to the gym, made a big lunch, dropped off Clothes and books at the LGBT youth center then went over to a reproductions place and did the lay out for my new headshots. whew. now having ashake and protein bar. Missin my boo. Just wanna give him a big hug and a big kiss

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today was a long day

OKay so I went to an incredibly inspiring group meeting. Had some really deep insights in to why I am who I am and altho they were small recognitions they were major to me...

weird tho as I was leaving a friend said something to me that struck me. he told me to not blame myself for what others may put me thru. to consider the source. also to remember two things narscistic and sadomasicistic (sp?)

I loved the rest of the day too. went to PROJECT ANGEL FOOD dinner honoring OLIVIA NEWTON JOHN. was incredible to see how many people help make a difference in the lives of those who can't get food cause they are too sick...

ok I have been UNBELIEVABLY tired all day. I think it was being out in the sun this afternoon. really took it out of me. I am gonna go hiking with a friend tomorrow am so I need my rest.

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Saturday

damn to day is gonna be a LONG ass day! have a meeting at 10, summer event (red carpet) from 1-? then headin to a gay pool party in the hills. Then tonight PROJECT ANGEL FOOD gala honoring OLIVIA NEWTON JOHN. should be great...

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Movie

saw hamlet 2. LOVED IT super funny. went with a friend I haven't hung out with in a long time so was great to reconnect. I have so many offers right now to travel so trying to figure out which I wanna take. NYC for sure and potentially Dallas. Hope I can make Dallas happen I have a lot of friends in Dallas. Hi Gregg Hi Chad! okay well I am gonna get to bed kinda early tonight. Been super lazy/ tired lately. I think its the heat...

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Mr C
Current mood: he;’s

He's away at school. for a week! I'm sad and it's only day one! lol actually its good I really wanted to do somethings that probably wouldn't get done if he were around. hope to visit him this week for a fun night

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open Mic
Current mood: sleepy

okay so first song sang SEE YOU AGAIN by MYLIE CYrus. was a big hit...lol then sang a duet with my new friend EL. we sang a sexy duet from jeckyl and Hyde. he is amazing!!! Thanks buddy! and I promise next time to know all the harmonies. Would have rather spent the night with Mr C but what can ya do....

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