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Tuesday, August 05, 2008
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Well, the internet is still here...
What can I say about life that won't get me into trouble right now? Not much, and I did get myself into trouble today. Nothing exciting, just accidentally ratted myself out about something a lot people don't give a shit about to one person who actually does.
Anyway, I'm feeling unsure about a lot of things these last couple of days, like how to successfully compartmentalize work, kids, and "other"--mainly, maintain motivation in two of those areas while the other seems to entail behaviors not conducive to motivation throughout the broad spectrum of required daily activities. Anyone know the answer to that one?
Seems like every time one question settles itself another pops into its place. Not to mention that even if I knew the answers I still couldn't control the outcomes. Seems like welcoming uncertainty often leads to a better place or at least new avenues, but knowing that doesn't make it any easier!
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Monday, July 21, 2008
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Some things
Some things I appreciate now, because they are soon to be gone--for example, the Internet...for its music and the ability to communicate without the strictest constraints of time. I appreciate seeing the people I love and their current status...stat( i )? And if they have anything to say - that also. I appreciate that there is no problem, being here. I can say whatever I want freely, and often be fairly sure that no one will even read it--and yet the expression itself has meaning, even if I am the only one to notice.♥
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Wednesday, July 09, 2008
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I Am...
Thankful to God for
people who have a cigarette,
for a light,
& for a book in which I may write
concise statements
using certain elements of style.
Thankful to God for
People who answer the phone,
that I am not alone.
Thankful for freedom
To live
To love
To be loved.
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Wednesday, July 02, 2008
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The Written Word
Fires pop, sparks and stars
come into agreeance,
burn the heart
that beats and fades into
an empty vessel's essence.
It's a brand new world,
reach out far and
ask for more to give,
the progression of human
words flung forward as
beings choose to live.
Seeking names in the
broken fantasy of reality is
somthing we all do, but
surely comes the fading flame
to start the breath anew:
the first soul,
the first world-
We haven't lost the song
but we cling to
scraps of paper, we're
unsure of right or wrong,
starting wars because
we think we've lost the
precious things we've named.
If we lose another hour
will we find someone to blame?
Will we find the sanguine song of life
goes deeper than we claimed?
Stars in souls, fires in hearts,
We will never be the same.
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Tuesday, June 24, 2008
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stream of consciousness
say it all
to the light of day
and wonder
if the sous shine of the darkness
is enough to
keep us grounded, life-like
dolls of merry trinkets
sing and dance before
our idol eyes, and when
we wake up we see that
the earth that surrounds us
has no part of what
we believed,
what we wanted it to be--
Realizing that
it is only a dream--
that in the end it
Always comes back to this,
it never goes beyond
the first time.
This time we realize
it's enough to be,
Our objects are not
dead beneath the sky's
sunny horizon, ..
and if you ask I
know you will
create all right, I
know because
Tomorrow has yet
to come to be.
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Tuesday, June 17, 2008
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Only because of the moon
Looking at others,
I imagine I could be
Them
And actually I am,
They are me. The
Imagining isn't helping
So that I
Don't even realize that
The ones who are so
Close are the ones I hold
Apart-
They are not.
We are the same inside.
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Sunday, June 08, 2008
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Old Envelopes
Category: Dreams and the Supernatural
I have a habit of writing little blogs and then erasing them the next day because they no longer seem relevant, but THIS one I will keep. Because I was just going through all my stuff, pictures and things, and getting rid of a lot of it when I ran across two envelopes that I have saved for 13 years. Even though I have a habit of throwing almost everything away, I saved these. They were envelopes I wrote on when I was driving back to Shreveport from Toledo bend and tripping very hard (it was only the second time), and I had driven off the road into the middle of a field (lost the road). So I stopped and wrote on these two envelopes, and what I wrote seemed kind of silly after a little while so that I don't even know why I kept them but now I am so glad I did! Here they are, in their simplicity:
"I am a soul. We are given bodies and a reality to experience our existence through. But the world isn't all there is. There is so much more than just the things we can see, hear, taste, feel, touch, smell--you know the 3-D world we live in. There's this broader existence, this just being, that is so vast it just totally blows my puny human mind what is out there. And every once in a great while my human mind and my soul meet and become one and my body gets to be taken for the ride of what's really goin' on! THIS IS TRIPPING! (No point trying to put into words what this greater existence is...wouldn't make sense.)"
"To know your mind is an amazing enough feat. To know your soul--this is the point of life."
Does anyone know what I'm talking about? This was kind of big for me at the time because I had never had thoughts like this before.
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