Give Me Liberty or Give Me Death!
Current mood: bitchy
I really hate the few days befor my period.. I'm such an reclusive bitch.. I've realized over the past three days i'vebecome more an more agitated by smaller an smaller thing .GRRR..i want it over!..lol...an i haven't even started yet ...NO this is the PRE view ..arg.. Mike went car shopping today he seems to think when i say AT MOST he has 3000 to work with prefreably under that .. That means 3000 DOWN an 50 a week ..HOW THEY FUCK did he hear that? grr.. We can't even afford insurance on MY car let alone 50 a week..an IF he wants the JHA bil payed off to free up a payment then he WON"T have 3000 to use inthe first goddam place..an i can't count how many times ive said that today...An my hours at work are crapped out this week alone i'm working 2 days NEXT week i'm working 1.. So all my budgeting this month alone is SHOT TO SHIT. Then then kids were hell today..Tylers now gone from Daddy daddy daddy to daddy daddy mommie mommie sissy sissy daddy daddy daddy.. at least the crying spells have shortened for him.. An my addictive mind is playing the senario of chris finally moving out ..it scares me .. cause for two years i've had the privilavge of some one comming home at night to talk to joke with an soon it will not be here ..an to make that harder tyler an austen have finally foraged a friendship that works well. They both love to play int he evening before dinner .. loud as it is.. its wonderful to see.. I was conserned tyler would be stand offish after those few incidents right after chris moved in but tyler i guess is more resiliant than that..lol..most kids are..An right now i feel like one big pimple bout to burst....sensitive, annoyed, angry , ready to cry ,an only wanting to sleep...but hey the bright side is.. they're really regular now 1st of the month like clock work ..lol..an it would be the MOST stressfull week of the month to ..mortgage is due which means as always we're broke..an need everything..lol..SOme how i just had the urge to scream Give me Liberty or give me death..I can't wait till i'm pregnant again..yeah i said it now shoot me..
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