Today
Category: Life

Do you even wonder why it is that we choose to do some of the things that we do?  I wonder this all of the time.  Why is it that I am willing to get paid $10,000 per year less than other's with my same education?  Why am I in a job that leaves me bruised, both mentally and physically, by the end of the day?  Why do I do a job that many people view as a hopeless cause?

The answer is that I do my job because I can.  I can get by with a lower salary.  I can take the physical bruises and the mental stress.  And because I know that the cause I work for is not a hopeless one.  If fact, my job is one of the few things in this world that fills me with hope.

Today was a good day.  No one had a seizure and no one went to the hospital.  No one needed to be restrained and no one hurt themselves.  Okay, so we had to clean and dress a 50 year old man who didn't manage to remove his underwear all of the way before using the bathroom…And one 30 year old woman cried half of the day because she was unable to tell us what was wrong.  I had to explain to another woman why the staff that quit her job at the center last week didn't say goodbye.  And I had to explain to a young man that the shooter from Virginia Tech wasn't going to come in and hurt us.  But really, today was a good day.

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Not much
Current mood: sleepy
Category: Life

So, life is getting back to normal after the crazy times of the holidays...And thank God!  Since 2007 began I have had a migraine, the flu and now a stupid cold that is still going strong after 6 days...Maybe now that it is finally as cold as January should be all of these germs will freeze and die!  Probably not but a girl can hope...

Currently reading : Marie Antoinette: The Journey By Antonia Fraser Release date: 12 November, 2002

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I can't sleep!
Current mood: melancholy

Do you ever have those nights when there is just so much junk running through your head that you just can't sleep?  Well, I am having one of those tonight...Between work, friends and family, I am just about maxed out right now and can't seem to find my center.  The littlest things are just setting me off completly irrationaly and it's driving me nuts!  I am a smart person.  Smart enough to understand that most of what is bothering me is completly minor in the grand scheme of things.  I just can't seem to help it though, and then the tears spring loose...or worse...I get bitchy at the people I love the most. 

I just have to remind myself that nobody likes a cry-baby and nobody likes a bitch...and that these things are just trivial little pieces of garbage that everyone has to deal with in life...Then maybe I can get some sleep...

Currently listening : White Christmas By Bing Crosby Release date: 01 June, 1995

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The best thing!
Current mood: jubilant
Category: Romance and Relationships

So I realized the other day that I have been very negligent about posting a blog about the best thing in my life right now.  Well, that ends now!

So on July 11th, after weaning through a whole bunch of crazy people, perverts, and a great deal of other types of people that had replyed to my myspace classified ad, I decided to give one of them a shot and go out on a date.  The thing that made Mark stand out from the rest of them was that when he wrote to me, his letters had substance.  When he wrote, he showed me that he was intelligent, kind, thought-provoking and that he was a real person with real interests.  This was very refreashing after being drown in a sea of "I have everything your looking for" and "so, how are you" type of letters. 

So, anyway, we went out to dinner and I had a wonderful time!  So wonderful, in fact, that I have sent just about every day with him since and moved in with him 3 weeks ago! 

I am just going to say that I am head-over-heels in love with him and he is truly the best thing in my life right now! 

Currently reading : For Love of Evil: Book Six of Incarnations of Immortality (Incarnations of Immortality (Paperback)) By Piers Anthony Release date: 01 February, 1990

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Someone is sure angry at me!!!
Current mood: gloomy
Category: Automotive

So someone out there is really angry at me for something...In the past 3 months or so I have some managed to pick up 5 nails or screws in the tires on my car.  The first one was around June, the front passenger side.  Then about a month ago I found one in each rear tire on the same day.  This happened again today...All I can conclude is that there is someone out there who is really pissed at me for something and is retaliating in a very distructive and dangerous way...Even the guy at the auto shop believes this.  Today he asked me if this was some revenge thing...

I think it might be work related because the only people I can think of that might have something to be upset with me with are any of my employees that I have had to write a disciplinary note on or something...I doubt it is someone I know socially because as far as I know, I haven't had any conflicts with anyone there...

I just feel so hurt by this...If it is work related, I am only doing my job and asking my employees to do theirs.  Why are people so mean? 

Currently reading : Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince (Book 6) By J.K. Rowling Release date: 16 July, 2005

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Love my job, but...
Current mood: exhausted
Category: Jobs, Work, Careers

First of all I would like to say that I love my job.  The people I work with are great and most of my staff are unreplaceable. 

The problem lately is that we are growing so fast that I am having a hard time finding the time to actually learn my job.  There is really nothing that anyone can do to make this easier because my supervisor is even busier than I am...Only time will make it better...time and the successful hiring of a manager for our 2nd site, another lead staff, 1 full time staff and at least 3 part time staff! 

Oh please, oh please... oh god/mystic being that rules the fates and determines who applies for these positions...please find me quality staff who are willing to work hard, have fun and not decide to call in sick the day after the 4th of July!!!

Currently listening : Moulin Rouge By Various Artists Release date: 08 May, 2001

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Male friends=Over-protective brothers!!!
Current mood: aggravated
Category: Romance and Relationships

Okay, lets start from the beginning on this one...

I am a woman who tends to have more male friends than female...for whatever reason.  I believe that this may be because I am not the typical shopaholic, gossipy, takes-2-hours-to-get-ready-for-a-date, catty, talk behind your back kind of a women.  So I don't really enjoy hanging around with those kinds of girls.  The result of this part of my personality is that I have a lot of male friends and end up being "one of the guys."  I don' t mind at all because they are all great fun.  They give me the male perspective and I try to interpret the crazy actions of the women they date for them...

One bad part of this situation is that whenever I meet someone knew it's like I have a bunch of over-protective brothers ready to turn the smallest aspect of my date's personality into a fatal flaw and then I here nothing but pessimistic views of what my new guy will do/say/act.  I know that they only mean the best but I swear to god...if it's not their job, its their car or their hair or even their name that my friends are ready to jump on...And this is usually before they even meet them. 

A couple of years ago 2 of them (and you know who you are) did the unthinkable and totally ignored my date when he came over to hang out with all of us.  One of them walked away and started playing on the computer and the other started watching a movie or something.  They wouldn't even try to find some redeeming value in the man...(Not that he turned out to be that great, but they could have at least tried).

Last night I came home very excited about a new guy I met on myspace...I told them I posted a personals ad and had met someone online that seems great. My friends immediatly quized me all about him and found something bad to say about it all.  Then they started ranting about how easy it is for women to meet men and all that...like now because I have a potential date, it's my fault that they haven't had much luck lately...I just wish that at least once they would say something nice about this.  I know that they are just worried that i am going to get hurt (like I know they have been) but I would really like it if they tried a little harder to be nice about it...After all, I go out of my way to be kind to the crazy women they bring around...Maybe I should start giving them a taste of their own medicine...careful boys...maybe I will start acting as territorial and rude has you have been...

But regardless of what happens, they are still my friends and I will always love them, regardless of the faults...

Currently listening : American Idiot By Green Day Release date: 21 September, 2004

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Graduation!!!
Current mood: contemplative
Category: School, College, Greek

So after 7 long years, I am finally graduating from college!  I took 2.5 years off in the middle of that so I guess that's not too bad.  My mother is probably more excited about this that I am.  She didn't start college until about 2 years ago and is taking 1 class each semester so for her, graduation is a long ways off. 

 I know that having a degree is important in todays world but I am having a difficult time explaining to my mom that just having a degree doesn't guarentee that I will find a great job easily.  She keeps telling me that she knows the business world better than I do and that if she had a college degree, thousands more doors would open up before her.  I know that she is right in theory but what she doesn't seem to realize is that a vast number of people my age also have degrees.  When she was 25 years old, having a degree was much more of a novelty than it is today.  Now, instead of a bonus in your favor, a degree is a basic requirement, much like a high school diploma was for her generation.  She doesn't seem to totally grasp this fact, however. 

But I am happy and proud of myself for my accomplishment.  It just doesn't mean the world to me...I am note going to cry for joy when I see my name embosed on the certificate but I am not going to throw it in the trash either...I am starting to look for a new job.  I love working in the DD field but I feel as if I am at the end of that path. 

The company has asked me to apply for the manager position but I am not sure that I want it.  The pay is low and I would like to get somewhere financially some day.  I don't need to be rich but it seems to me that paying someone 30 grand per year (salary) doesn't compensate them for the 60 hours per week that they expect.  Maybe it would be a great growth opportunity and maybe I am being picky but I would hope that some other company out there would pay me more for my time...

I guess time will tell...

Currently reading : Reading Lolita in Tehran: A Memoir in Books By Azar Nafisi Release date: 30 December, 2003

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Keep trying
Current mood: contemplative
Category: Romance and Relationships

So I ended another new relationship today. It isn't that he is a horrible person, or anything. Things just hadn't been working out. We met almost 2 months ago and we have only seen eachother live 5 times. Our scheduals were on completly different tracks. I am sad about it but I think it was the right decision. If either of us had truly thought that the other person was "the one" we would have come up with a way to meet more often. I just hope that I didn't mis-read the situation.

P.S. the movie Must love Dogs was somehow based on my life!!!

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Me, a graduate?
Current mood: optimistic
Category: School, College, Greek

This may sound strange but as I was driving to the library (which I must do to remain connected because I do not own a computer) I realize something that probably should have been obvious to me a long time ago...After the semester, I will offically have a college degree!  That is so strange.  I have had a job that I love for the last year but once I finish school, there will be a whole new area of the world open to me. 

I am going to have to make a desision about my career sometime soon.  Do I keep my job that I love, but that pays so poorly...Or do I dare to actually use the piece of paper that I have spend the better part of 6 years working for, and look for a job in my field of study!!!  A very difficult question...

The good thing about my situation is that there is no need for me to rush.  I like my job and there seems to be a good opportunity for advancement there.  I guess I will just keep my eyes open and if something falls into my lap, I'll figure it out when the time comes. 

Currently reading : The Jane Austen Book Club: A Novel By Karen Joy Fowler Release date: 26 April, 2005

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