Life Sucks....
Current mood: stressed

So...I changed jobs, had my car repo'ed, Shawn and I broke up and it was my birthday....This has been the craziest month ever....Shawn broke up with me because he said he needed time and space...We live 2 hours apart...100 miles...How much more space do you need?  He said that he stopped loving me a couple of months ago, when we had the prego scare...I'm not by the way...But we thought I was...And I guess it made him think...6 and 1/2 months I was with him...He was wonderful...Getting over him is so hard...I've been doing a lot of thinking lately....And things are just so crazy, I don't know what's going on with myself.  There's this one guy that I've loved for....forever.  And we'll never be together, ever.  It kills me, but it's something I have to live with.  So we're friends now...But I'll always want more.  He's that one person, your first love that you never get over.  He tried to rescue me so many times when I was with Jim, and I never let him rescue me.  I was such a fool...So I've been kinda dating around now...Trying different guys, Shawn was so different from me.  I found this great guy on Monday...Incredible guy.  I want it to work, I really do.  Something happened while he was here on Tuesday...Something bad...Really bad.  Not a lot of people know the whole Jim story, and it's not my place to tell anyone, I've kept it to myself for...ever.  But what happened on Tuesday was something that I thought was out of my life...and it would never happen again.  I was so strong when I was with Jim, stronger than I've ever been in my life.  Sometimes things happen that break you.  Jim broke me so many times.  I don't want this new guy to break me too.  I'm so scared that my past is coming back.  Jim called me last night on my birthday...It was actually really nice to talk to him.  In my own way, I really miss him.  Some days I wonder why I left and some days I'm glad I left.  I'll always love him but leaving him was the right thing to do for myself.  It still hurts me every day though...He asked me if I was happy that I left, and I'm honestly not sure.  Shawn said when we broke up that I need to take time for myself, to decide who I am and what I want.  I was Jim for so long...I lost myself..With Shawn I found myself, but then he didn't love who I was...I mean who I really was...Does that make me a bad person???  Am I unloveable?  Am I destined to always be wanting the same person that I can never have?  Am I always going to find guys that aren't right for me?  This new guy...like I said he's incredible.  But I don't want to get broken again, I'm so so scared.  He wants to make it work and really, so do I.  I feel like I know him, that I've always known him.  I just saw him and I knew that I know him.  And he said he felt the same way about me.  This is weird...Because I really don't know him, but I saw him and I wanted him and I like this one alot.  But is it right for me?  I don't want to endanger myself again.  There's so much in my past that I keep to myself and don't tell anyone...But I have so many secrets sometimes I feel like that they eat me apart.  It's not healthy for me.  And what happened on Tuesday...I've had a permanent headache ever since.  I think it's a stress headache.  I'm so confused...Cayla talks about high school...and she can't wait to be out of school...I'd give anything to be back in school, life is so scary.  I really do like this guy...and I know he likes me...And he's so sorry about what happened here....But sorry only goes so far.  Sorry worked in the past with me, but I don't know if it can work with me...I told him that I want to work through what happened and move past it, but you never know...It might happen again.  He says no, but...You can never tell....I'm going to go take a nap before my head explodes....

Currently listening : One X By Three Days Grace Release date: 2006-06-13

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Bored!!! Fun Survey From Kelly!!!
Current mood: tired
Category: Quiz/Survey

A 152 question survey ALL about you!!

*BaSiCs*
Full Name:: Jessica Nicole Kerchner
Nicknames:: Jess...
Age:: 23
Hair color:: Light Brown
Eye Color:: Brown
School:: N/A
Job:: Transcontinental
Birthday:: May 28th
Tattoos:: None, but I'm really thinking about getting one.

Piercings:: Ear lobes and my right cartiliage

*Family*:
Do you get along with your parents?: Only my Mom
What are there names?: Tracey and William
Do you look more like your mom or your dad?: Dad
Any Siblings?: Yes
What are there names?: Nathaniel and Ian
How old are they?: 10 and 8
Do you get along with them?: For the most part, the age difference helps alot.


*Friends*
How many best friends do you have?: 3
Which one can you tell anything and everything to?: Ashley
Which one will do anything you tell them to do no matter how stupid it is?: Cayla
Who have you known the longest?: Kelly
Which one could you call at 3 am and they would answer?: Kelly
Which one knows the most about you?: Kelly or Ashley
Which one is most like you?: Ashley
Which one has the nicest car?: Ashley, AND her sexy car is about to be my sexy car!!!

*This or that*
Mountain dew or Sprite?: Mountain Dew
Pen or Pencil?: Pen
Country or Rap?: Rap
Rock or Oldies?: Rock
DVD or VHS?: DVD
CD or Cassette?: CD
Bugs Bunny or Scooby Doo?: Scooby Doo
Steak or Chicken?: Chicken
Bubble gum or Just gum?: Bubble Gum
Cell phone or house phone?: Cell
Mom or Dad?: Mom
Digital Camera or Film Camera?: Digital
Britney Spears or Christna Aguilera?: It's Britney, Bitch!
MTV or VH1?: MTV

*Favorites*
Food:: Homemade Chicken Pot Pie
Candy:: Butterfingers or anything with Chocolate and Peanut Butter....
Soda:: Mountain Dew
Drink:: Kool Aid (Fruit Punch) or Iced Tea
Alcoholic Drink:: Anything Fruity or not gross...Lol
Person:: My Mom
Gum:: Orbitz Bubblemint
Vegetable:: Broccoli!!!!
Fruit:: Strawberries
Cartoon:: Scooby Doo
TV Show:: CSI!!!! The original
Song:: Three Days Grace - Pain
Book:: Too many...
Color:: Pink and Blue...
Place:: My home...
Shoes:: Puma or Mudd
Store:: Old Navy
Kind of Jeans:: Any really....
Kind of Shirts:: Tank Tops!
Makeup?: Whatever is cute....
Animal?: Dolphin
Pet?: Zoey, my dog!

*First....*
First Kiss:: My cousin, Jon's, best friend Jason when I was like 13...
First Car:: 1996 Ford Taurus
First word:: I'm not really sure
First Best Friend:: Ashley Beckenthal
First Crush: No idea....Probably Ari Ackerman in like Kindergarten...
First Celebrity Crush:: Josh Hartnett....

*Last*
Time you cried:: Sunday
Person you hugged:: Cayla
Person you kissed:: Cayla (on the cheek)
Movie you saw in theatre:: Iron Man
Person you went on a date with:: No idea, but I have one this Saturday...It's a friend date.

You talked to on the phone:: Ryan
Person to text you:: Ryan
Song you heard:: Three Days Grace - Pain
Person you called:: Ryan
Person to call you:: Ryan
Missed call:: Ryan
...............Lol...that was a lot of Ryan....

*As a child*
Did you like Barney?: Unfortunately
What about The Power Rangers?: Yes, but I more supported the Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles
Were you a mean kid?: No
Did you eat all your veggies?: Mostly...
What was your favorite Nursery Rhyme?: Anything Mother Goose really...
Did you want to be just like Britney Spears?: Who didn't, really.....
Are you still friends with the people you were friends with then?: Some of them...
Were you a tomboy or a girly girl?: Both really....

*Love and All That*
Are you single or taken?: Single
Do you have a crush?: Yes
Do they like you back?: Yes
Have you ever been in love?: Yes
Have you ever been heartbroken?: Yes
Honestly, How many times have you had a broken heart?: 2
Are you a virgin?: No
How many times have you been in love?: 2
Looks or personality?: Personality
Love or Money?: Love
Ever went on a date with someone cuz you didnt want to hurt there feelings: No.

What do you first notice on the opposite sex?: Eyes

*Random Questions*
Do you like this survey?: Yes
Why are you takin this survey?: Waiting for someone to call me and I'm WAY bored...
Are aliens really out there?: I think yes....
What is your biggest fear?: Snakes
Do you like your life?: I had a horrible week last week, but this week is okay...
Do you smoke?: Yes
Do you drink?: Yes
Do you do drugs?: No
Prescription drugs?: Only if I'm really sick....

*Finish The Sentence*
If i had one wish....: I wish love would stop hating me....
My friends are....: my rocks when I need them...
Jack and Jill....: went up the hill! lol.....
You are....: Awesome!!!
I like.....: boys!
The cow....: is sexy! J/K...

*Do you..*
Like Jack Johnson?: Who is he?
Watch tv alot?: Only for CSI and Grey's Anatomy.

Own a computer?: Yes
Belive in God?: Sometimes...
Go to church?: No

*Have you Ever*
Drunk Dialed?: No
Gotten Drunk?: Yes
Had a one night stand?: Yes, but I don't really consider it one... Lol
Cursed?: Yes
Kissed someone you didn't like?: Yes
Pretended to like something but really didn't?: Yes
Sat on your roof?: No...
Wished you could take something you said back?: Yes
Smoked a Cigarette?: Yes
Told someone you loved them and didn't mean it?: No, that should be a crime!!!!
Seen a friend as more than a friend?: Yes
Gotten mad about nothing?: Yes
Burnt popcorn?: Yes
Done something you now regret?: Yes.


*Rhyme with this word*
Poke:: Moke (it was a Shawn word)
Bark:: Mark
Dance:: Prance
Banana:: Fo-Fana....Lol
Love:: Above

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Ugh....
Current mood: pissed off
Category: Life

Why does shit have to be so difficult....Seriously....I got a new job....Yay!!!  I'll be working 3rd shift with Kelly, so I can work at night and tan/swim during the day...AWESOME!  Kelly and the kids moved in too...Justin's a D*UCHE BAG...It's really nice to have her back in my life..I didn't realize how much I really missed her....Things with Shawn are good....I got mad at him last night...For hanging out with a girl...Even though I've hung out with plenty of guys one on one since I've been with Shawn.  But he trusts me....And I have trust issues.  Ugh!  What's wrong with me?  I like flipped out via text message and didn't even tell him i loved him...Now I feel horrible...However, Jim fucked around on me all the time, so he should know why I have trust issues...I do trust him, I just have a hard time trusting people ever since Jim abused me...And ususally Shawn hangs out with Joanna, and she's married, but whatever...And I know Joanna, so that makes it not so terrible...but I don't even know this other girl he was with last night.  I know I don't have anything to worry about, but I can't help it...Jim cheated on me 3 times in 5 years...It's hard to get over that, not to mention all the additional abuse he put me though...And Shawn is so different from Jim...And maybe it hit me so hard last night because I really needed to talk to him, and he was too busy to take the time to talk to me...I think that's what really pissed me off...It's not even like I could have told him what was bothering me, he wouldn't get it.  I just wanted to hear him and to talk to him...He comforts me in ways I never thought were possible.  There's so much on my mind and no one I can tell it too...It sucks so bad...I just have to wallow in my own misery...But I suspose you make the bed you lie in, so really I fucked myself over...Probably I deserve this...So anyway, I start at Kelly's on Friday...So my last day at RMS will be Thursday...It'll be nice to finally get out of there...I don't really feel appreciated there...I pretty much feel taken for granted. Alright..So I have to go continue to clean, I just wanted to vent...Later!

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101 Questions stolen from Kelly...
Current mood: tired
Category: Quiz/Survey

101.
Do you want to be in a relationship? I’m currently in one, with Shawn!

100.
What’s your profile song and why? I have a whole playlist...and they’re on there because I love them!

99.
Do you have a job? Yes, I’m a collection agent.

98.
Last person you were in the car with? Myself? Lol...I think Cayla.

97.
Do you have a crush on someone? Shawn...does he count since I’m already seeing him?

96.
Lied in the last 24 hours? Nope!

95.
What is your current ring tone? I have HIM - Right Here In My Arms, Lucas Prata - And She Said, 50 Cent and Justin Timberlake - Ayo Technology and Finger Eleven - Paralyzer

Where’s 94?

93.
What is the last movie you watched and with who? The Spiderwick Chronicles with Kelly, Alex, Naomi, My mom, Nathaniel and Ian.

92.
What makes you mad? Lying and being cheated and lots of other stuff...

91.
What is your middle name? Nicole

90.
Last text you sent? To Shawn...about how much I miss him and can’t wait to see him this weekend!

89.
What time did you wake up this morning? 6:45...I think...

88.
Do you have a friend of the opposite sex you can talk to? I talk to Shawn...and I have some friends that are guys...Jarred, Charles and Zach...

87.
What are you doing? Listening to Zoey and Meg fight...and Heather, Tim and Cayla talking about dinner....

86.
When’s your birthday? May 28th..

85.
Does it bug you when people delete questions from surveys? Not really...

84.
Are you afraid of growing old? Not really...I already feel kinda old...I talk about high school like it’s yesterday...but it’s sooooooooo not.

83.
Are you happy right now? Mostly....

82.
What is sitting to your right? um? My pack of Newports and my cell phone...

81.
What’s your favorite sport to watch? Football!!

80.
Do you have any kids? Not yet....I have a dog!

79.
Do you have a favorite stuffed animal? My bunnies and my lion T-Rex.

78.
Did you go trick-or-treating this year? I went with Cayla, Naomi and the kids...

77.
Do you know who Mr. Mistoffelees is? Yes!!! I love that play! It’s second to the Phantom....

76.
What song are you listening to? My phone...this time it’s HIM.

75.
Do you sing in the shower? Depends on my mood...I usually shower at night...And I can hear the tv in the shower...so I sing along with that...

74.
Can you Crank Dat? No!

73.
Did you have a valentine this year? Shawn made me the cutest bear! It’s too cute!!!

72.
Last time you listened to country music? I listened to the stupid new Taylor Swift song by accident yesterday in the car

71.
What do you think of the song Boom, boom, boom, boom by Vengaboys?
It’s really annoying....

70.
Do you laugh at your own jokes? Sometimes...but I do laugh at everyone else’s jokes....

69.
Where do you want to live when you grow up? Not here...but I’ll probably always live here...I left and still got sucked back in...

68.
How tall are you? I’m 5’4...and a quarter!

67.
How many drugs are in your system? None....

65.
What are you wearing? Capri, a tank top and a v-neck overtop and flip-flops...

64.
Last person to comment you? I think it was Jill...

63.
Do you sing? I don’t think too well, but I’ve heard I’m decent...

62. Screamo or country? Neither....eww to both!

61. Rock or Rap? More rock than rap...Unless Cayla or Blain are in my car...than it’s lots of rap.

60.
Do you like cheese? It depends....

59.
Who called you last? Wal-Mart Vision Center....

58.
Last item you purchased? A Coke at work....

57.
What jewelry do you wear constantly? My earrings, my rings and the necklace from Shawn...

56.
Are you a crazy person? I’d say no...but I can think of plenty of people that will say yes!

55.
Who was the last person you hugged? Zoey...or Naomi...

54.
What candidate do you support running for president? Probably it will be Hillary....

53.
Are you a fast typer? Yes! I have a desk job with LOTS of typing involved...

52.
What time is it? 6:35

51.
What do you smell? Nothing....my shampoo?

50.
Is anything bothering you right now? Not at the moment....

Where’s 49?

48.
What are you doing today/tomorrow? Today is laundry and tomorrow going to Karoke with Kelly!! AND we’re having WINGS!!!!

47.
What’s your favorite subject in school? I liked History and Science and English...

46.
What’s your worst grade that you currently have & what subject is it in? My worst subject was Math...

45.
Do you believe in celebrating anniversaries? I like to...At least the important ones....

44.
If you died right now, is there something you’d want to say to someone? I’d tell everyone important that I loved them...

43.
How many friends do you have on myspace? Too many..I need to go through and delete the crap ones again...

42. Who’s one person you cannot stand? Some people at work drive me up a wall....

41.
What’s your opinion on same sex marriage? I think they should be allowed...

40.
Do you miss anyone right now? Shawn!

39.
What foreign language do/did you study? Spanish

38.
Does it take a lot to earn someones trust? OMG YES!!!!!!!! Especially after my Jim fiasco....

WTF where the hell is 37?

36.
Describe your life in one word? Crazy!

35.

The 2nd person on your top, do u hang with them alot? My 2nd is Ashley? I think...We did hang out a lot...but now I really only see her at work...but we text a lot...

34.
What shampoo do you use? This stuff from my salon....It smells kinda orangy...

33.
What do you want right now? To be with Shawn...and to be recognized for all my hard work at my job....

32.
Jeans or sweatpants ? Jeans! I hate sweats...but I love pajama bottoms...

31.
What should you be doing? My laundry.....

30.
Are you going to do it? I kinda have too...I don’t really have a choice...I need clothes to wear to work...

29.
Do you have socks on? That’s the great part about flip flops! They’re sock free!

28.
Do you own sunglasses? Lol! They’re my favorite accessory! I have like 4 pairs....

27.
Have you ever cried so hard, you made yourself sick? No..not like throwing up sick...but definately dizzy....

26.
Do you like techno? I perfer house and some trance...Lol..I used to be big into the dance scene....

25.
Do you get nervous in front of large groups of people? Like speechs yes..but karoke no...

24.
What was your kindergarten teacher’s name? I don’t remember....

23.
Who was your first best friend? Ashley!! (Not my number 2, a different one)

22.
Plans for Saturday? Shawn!!! Oh, and lunch with Kelly!

21.
Do you like your penmanship? I like it...lots of people say it’s un-readable

20.
Do you like the school you currently attend? I don’t have the problem....

19.

Favorite TV show? CSI and Grey’s Anatomy.....

18.

Do you like ’80s movies? I like The Breakfast Club and things like that...

17.
Do you like "The Goonies"? Yes!!!

16.
What’s your favorite food? Pasta and I love clams....

15.
Where do you live? Hamburg

14.
Last person you kissed? Zoey or Naomi....

13.
Current problem? Everything....

12.
Been to London? Nope...

11.
Can you lick your toe? Maybe...but that’s icky!

10.
Who’s the most photogenic person you know? Naomi....

9.
Been to college? Yeah...but I dropped out....

8.
Ever been given a breathalizer test? Nope!

7.
Favorite time of day? I like the day....SUN! (more need for the sunglasses!!!)

6.
Ever licked someone’s cheek? Probably....

5.
What are you looking forward to? Seeing Shawn this weekend!

4.

Have you ever ran from the police? No...I never had too....

3.
Ever gotten lost in the dark? Sometimes....

2.
What do you think of the last person who posted this? She’s my cousin and a great drinking partner! I love her!

1.
Are you wanting something you can’t have? To be closer to Shawn....

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Life...
Current mood: sleepy

So....Life has been good....Shawn and I have been together 3 months....He let me borrow his X-Box for the week...I'm so excited!  I never knew video games could be so much fun....It's what I do the first thing in the morning when I get up and I'm at his house....Take Zoey out and go turn the X-Box on....Burnout Revenge...Awesome!  So Naomi has a cold thing...Again...Well still...She has good and bad days.  Cayla was sick over the weekend and I was sick last week....It's just a sick house.  Since Naomi sits on our laps, Zoey decided that she needs to be a lap dog...No matter where you're sitting, she jumps up and sits on your lap...I think she's jealous of the baby.  But she loves her too...Naomi and Zoey are such great friends...Zoey is Naomi's dog and Naomi is Zoey's baby...Zoey trys to play with her and she gives her kisses all the time...It's so cute to watch them.  Naomi is sitting on my lap right now and Cayla is playing with the dog...Well Zoey playing with her and it's involving a lot of yelling on Cayla's part.  Zoey's also getting better about car rides, since we've been going to Shawn's every weekend.  And she knows where we're going and she gets so excited.  She loves Shawn and he loves her (well mostly).  He adpoted her, so she's part of his family.  His whole family loves her.  And I finally met his sister, Kelly.  She's so much like him, it's funny.  We get along really well and he's so great with his nephews, he'll make a great dad.  The last time he spent the weekend here (Christmas), he got along great with Naomi.  Naomi loves him so much...They even took a nap together.  They're so cute....Having Naomi makes me want my own baby...It's funny because I haven't really wanted kids for awhile and having a good, stable relationship with Shawn....I could really see myself being with him...Like for a long time.  Saturday should have been my 6 years with Jim....That was my longest relationship.  It's funny because in a way, we're both starting over and I feel like I've known him longer than 3 months....It feels like I've known him forever.  He lets me be me, which is nice for a change.  To not have to be someone else....I love him the way he is.  Being with him is like Christmas every weekend....Like when you're little and you go to bed Christmas Eve with so much anticipation for Santa to come and wake up the next morning and you're so excited to go and open your presents...I get that same excitment every weekend I go to see him...He makes me feel so special and wanted....And deserved...Like he's lucky to spend time with me...And I always just considered myself to be a hassel....I got him the best Valentine's Day present ever...He's gonna love it SOOOO much.  He even gave me his ring to wear...It's funny, I'm still scared in way...I mean what if this feels so right because it's still so new???  It's never felt this right with anyone before....I had a really bad nightmare the other night and I called and he talked to me for 2 hours to calm me down....How sweet was that?  He makes me feel like I've never felt before...And we're even discussing like having a family one day...I mean we already have Zoey...Our Spedog... (Special Ed Dog)..And we both want a girl...Like if we ever have kids...Not like we're trying, but we're not really not trying either....Lol...Kaitlin Ashley...Scary that we even have a name for a child that we don't even have yet....I really do love him so much...For someone that I've only known for a short time....I think living with Naomi is what does it to me...The having a child thing...I want that bond....And I want Shawn to have that bond...Or maybe I was us to have that bond....I dunno....So it's time for bed...I had a long weekend...again....Shawn and I need to go to bed earlier, lol....Comment if you want...Whoever reads this!

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Ugh.....
Current mood: tired
Category: Life

So I've never had strep before.....It's really sucky, if anyone's curious.  It feels like you can't breath or swallow or do anything, really.  Eating food is a challenge and Monday I felt like I'd been run over by a truck...It's a totally new experience. Not one I'd EVER like to repeat....I felt horrible on Monday and Tuesday, but I felt human again yesterday.  I woke up today and I'm back to feeling horrible again.  I have to go to work tomorrow, since I took off 4 days this week....In January too....Not like I planned on getting Strep Throat....Well, either that or Mono...I should find out today when my cultures come back from the lab...I hope it's not Mono...That shit takes like a month to go away.  It's a virus that just has to run it's course..At least they can give you meds for Strep...So I really miss Shawn....It's funny how when you least expect it and you're not even looking, people come into your life.  He makes me a better person.  When I'm with him or even just talking to him.  He makes me happy in ways I didn't think were possible after my last relationship...He even likes my dog....She's a part of his family now....That means so much to me...She's like a special child and it takes a lot to tolerate her...Lol...He loves her....Just like he loves me....And it's so weird to be in love again...I didn't think I'd let myself be loved after what happened before. And I certainly didn't plan on falling in love again.

Currently listening : And Love Said No: Greatest Hits 1997-2004 By H.I.M. (His Infernal Majesty) Release date: 08 May, 2007

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Fun Survey!!!!!!!!!
Current mood: hungry
Category: Quiz/Survey

Fun Survey I stole from Justin.....

1. Ever kissed a brown-eyed and brown-haired person?
Probably...right now I kiss a brown haired and BLUE eyed person...so gorgeous...

2. Can you see a phone right now?
Yes, my cell on the computer desk next to me.

3. What are you listening to right now?
Paralyzer by Finger Eleven

4. Where is it coming from?
My phone...Shawn just sent me a text!

5. Last thing you ate?
It will bel eft over Sausage and Pasta with Texas Toast

6. What was the last thing you saw on TV?
Last night I watched Kill Bill (Volumes 1 and 2)

7. Who was the last person other than family you saw [not in school]?
Ashley, at her house when I took her home.

8. Are labels/stereotypes good?
Not really...I try not to.

10. Song stuck in your head?'
He Said She Said by Ashley Tisdale (It was on XM in my car)

11. Acoustic or electric guitars?
Acoustic

12. Do you dance while getting ready for whatever?
Depends on what I'm getting ready for...

13. What are you wearing right now?
My new work pants and cute shirt!

14. What is the greatest number of people you've been in front of?
Hundreds

15. Who was your last text from?
Shawn

16. Have you ever taken a shower while you were drunk or high?
Yeah, drunk....

17. Do you like techno?
I used to love it, but I've expanded my horizons...

18. Have you ever been to a night club?
OMG, too many to name for too many years...

19. Have you ever made out on a plane?
Nope....

20. Do you have leadership skills?
I'd like to think so, but I suspose if I did, I would have been promoted by now.

21. Can you play an instrument?
Yes, the piano...sometimes

22. Have you ever sat on a roof and looked at stars?
No...I sat on a jungle gym and watched fire works once...

23. Ever done that while talking on the phone to a boyfriend or girlfriend?
Never done it...But it sounds like a nice thing to do...I sit on my porch outside and talk to Shawn...

24. Are you currently pregnant/have you recently gotten someone pregnant?
No...

26. What scent are you wearing right now?
Coconut and Lime

27. Are there any animals around you at the moment?
Zoey, Meg and Kitty

28. Drinking anything at the moment?
No, I just got home from work...I will be drinking my nice red wine...

29. Ever thought you were going to get married?
I used to be engaged...I hope to get married one day....eventually

30. Last person you said you loved?
Shawn

31. Last person who told you they loved you?
Ashley...in the friend kinda way...She's my best friend..Lol

32. Favorite time of day?
I like the afternoon...

33. Favorite food?
Mexican Chips and Salsa from La Lupita...Or a hoagie from WaWa...

34. Cat person or dog person?
DOG

35. Got a job?
Yes...

36. Tan or Pale skin?
I'm kinda pale...I can't wait for summer!

37. You're deserted on an island, what do you have with you?
tanning oil....and a book...and water would be nice too

38. Biggest regret?
Too many to even list...

39. What do you want the most?
To be with Shawn...Long distance relationships blow...

40. Do you want children?
Eventually...Zoey is enough of a child...Lol

41. Are you a lover or a fighter?
A lover....I hate fights

42. Last time you had butterflies in your stomach?
When Shawn and I were in bed last weekend and I really wanted to tell him I loved him and didn't....I was so nervous...Lol

43. What was your last alcoholic beverage?
Red Wine....

44. How is your mood today?
Tired...work sucks...

45. Where was your last vacation at?
I think Atlantic City in August with Jim....

46. Who is/are the friend(s) you can count on the most?
Ashley

47. What do you do all the time in a car?
Drive to work and listen to XM....

48. Do you like anyone?
Yes....

49. Have you ever changed your clothes while in a vehicle?
Yes, more than once I think...

50. Who was the last person to make you cry?
Jim...months ago...

51. What's the largest age difference between yourself and someone you dated?
5 years...

52. When was the last time you cried?
September...the night before I left JIm...

53. What is one thing you miss about your past?
Not living in the working world and having people take care of you...Lol, reality sucks ass!

54. What is one thing you've learned about life?
I've learned so much, if I wrote it, I'd be a book....

56. Is anyone jealous of you?
Probably...

57. Has a friend ever used you?
Yes...

58. Has anyone recently told you that they like you more than as a friend?
Not really...

59. Who was the last person you drove with?
Ashley, I took her home after work...

60. Why are you filling out this survey?
I'm bored....

61. What was the last movie you watched?
Just Married...

62. How many things in your past do you regret?
Probably about a handfull...

63. What is something that you want to do within the next week?
Visit Shawn!  Can't wait for Friday...

64. Who last text messaged you?
Shawn...

65. Who was the last person you hugged?
Ashley

66. Have you ever wanted someone but you knew you couldn't have them?
Yes...too many times

67. If you could change anything about your past, what would it be?
There are so many things.....But I'm who I am today because of events in the past...and things might be different had I not made the choices I made...Things happen for a reason....

68. Is there anyone you are excited to see soon?
SHAWN!!!!!!!!!

69. Have any of your friends stabbed you in the back?
Yes....

70. Do you use Post-Its?
OMG, I'm the Post-It QUEEN at work....

71. Do you like gum?
Yes....It like the Bubblemint from Orbitz....

72. Do you have more friends that are girls or boys?
Probably boys...I think Ashley, Ashley and Cayla are my only girl friends...

73. How long have you had a myspace?
 Like 2 years...Not too sure...

74. Has anyone ever talked about you behind your back?
Yes, doesn't that go with the using and back stabbing???

75. Favorite boy's name?
Gabriel....

76. Favorite girl's name?
There are too many....

77. What are some of your biggest fears of your life?
Snakes...Lol...I'm sure there are more, but that's a big one...

78. Have you ever cried yourself to sleep?
Many times in the past....

79. Are you a player?
I don't think so, but some people think I am....

80. Have you ever dated/fooled around with a co-worker?
Not physically....but I've mentally connected with a few...

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Questions
Current mood: hungry
Category: Quiz/Survey

Rule 1:
If You open this you GOTTA take it.

Rule 2:
You are NOT ALLOWED to explain ANYTHING
unless someone messages you and asks.

Rule 3:
T/F Only answer with True or False.

Q: Kissed someone on your top friends?
True

Q: Been arrested?
False

Q: Been searched?
False

Q: You like someome?
True

Q: Held a snake?
True

Q: Been suspended from school?
False

Q: Sat on a roof top?
True

Q. Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on?
True

Q: Broken a bone?
False

Q: Shaved your head?
False

Q: Played a prank on someone?
True

Q: Had/have a gym membership?
True

Q: Shot a gun?
True

Q: Donated Blood?
False
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Just be 100% truthful

LAST PERSON.

1. You hung out with?
Ashley/Caya

2. Last person that you texted?
Shawn

3. You were in a car with?
Cayla

4. Went to the movies with?
Jim..that was over the summer

5. Went to the mall with?
Ashley and Cayla

6. Person you talked on the phone with?
Ashley

7. You called?
Ashley

8. You messaged on myspace?
Rob

9. You commented?
Ashley

10. You spent the night with?
Shawn

11. You talked to?
Cayla

12. You miss?
Shawn

13. You hugged?
Ashley

WOULD YOU RATHER...

1. Eat or drink?
Drink

2. Be serious or be funny?
Funny

3. Drink whole milk or skim milk?
Whole

4. Die in a fire or get shot?
Shot..Hopefully fatally.

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY...

1. Sun or moon?
Sun

2. Winter or Fall?
Fall

3. Left or right?
Right

4. Sunny or rainy?
Sunny

5. Black/white or color?
Color

6. Where do you live?
Hamburg

7. Do you want to get married?
Eventually

10. Do You Cook?
Yeah, and so does Shawn.

IN THE LAST WEEK HAVE YOU...

1. Kissed someone?
Yeah

2. Been hugged by someone?
Yeah

3. Held hands with someone?
Yeah

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Love
Current mood: hungry
Category: Quiz/Survey

YOU OPENED IT. . NOW YOU HAVE TO DO IT OR YOU'LL NEVER HAVE A SHOT AT LOVE AGAIN. . SOO BE HONEST. . DON'T CHICKEN OUT ! !
Jess-Cayla
0) Single, Taken, or Crushing?
Taken and Crushing-Single

1) Are you happy with that?
Yes!-No, not really

2) Do you like him or her
I love him....-I'm single

4) Have you ever had your heart broken?
Yeah-Yes, a few times

5) Do you believe that there are certain circumstances where cheating is ok?
We both said HELL NO!!!!!!!!!

6) Do you believe in love at first sight?
Sometimes-Yeah

7) Have you ever talked about marriage with another person?
I used to be engaged....Not anymore and I'm not talking about it with Shawn for all you NOSY ASS people-Yeah

8.Do you want kids?
2-Yeah, I have one and want one more.

10) If someone liked you right now would you want them to tell you?
Yes!-Uh yeah!

12) Do you want someone you can't have?
Yes-No

13) Have you ever been told i love you?
Yes-Yes

14) Do you believe in celebrating anniversaries?
Yes-Yes

15. Do you believe you can change for someone?
No, because then you loose the qualities that they fell for in the first place...I already went through that and I'll never do it again-If you love them, yeah.

17) Have you ever broken a heart before?
Yes-No

18) Does your ex still have feelings for you?
Yes-Yes

20) Do you believe in long distance relationships?
I'm in one and it's great-Tried it, I just ended one

21) Do you think any one of your friends will repost this?
No, they're sitting next to me and my other friend already did this.

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T.P.O. Survey
Current mood: hungry
Category: Quiz/Survey

NAME: Jessica-Cayla
AGE: 23-16
BIRTHDAY: 05/28/84-08/26/91
BIRTHPLACE: Allentown-Bethlehem
CURRENT LOCATION: Hamburg-Hamburg
EYE COLOR: Brown-Hazel
HAIR COLOR: Mostly brown with really old highlights-Brown with blonde stuff
HEIGHT: 5'6-5'5
PIERCINGS: Ears (getting more)-Ears, Nose and Belly Button
TATTOOS: Nope, scared of needles-No, but getting one next week
WHAT COLOGNE/PERFUME DO U WEAR: Escada Pacific Paradise-Victoria Secret Love Spell

*FAVORITES*
COLOR: Blue or Pink-Red
MUSIC: What Ashley and Cayla listen to-Rap
SPORT: Football (Go Pats!!!!)-Football
HOLIDAY: Christmas-Thanksgiving
FOOD: Chinese-Chinese

*THIS OR THAT*
HUGS OR KISSES: Both-Both
PEPSI OR COKE: Coke-Pepsi
MCDONALDS OR BURGER KING: Burger King-McDonalds
CHOCOLATE OR VANILLA: Vanilla-Vanilla
LOVER OR FIGHTER: Lover-Both
FRIENDS OR FAMILY: Both-Both
LOVE OR MONEY: Love-Both
LISTEN TO SOMEONE TALK OR TALKING: OMG TALKING and I listen sometimes...to Ashley-Listen
PERSONALITY OR LOOKS: Personality-Both

*IN A BOY/GIRL*
EYE COLOR: Blue-Brown
HAIR COLOR: Brown-Brown
SHORT OR LONG HAIR: Short-Long
HEIGHT: Taller than me-Taller than me
STYLE: Whatever works for them-Gangsta
PIERCINGS OR TATTOOS: Both-Both
HOT OR CUTE: Cute-Both

*FRIENDS*
WHOS UR BEST FRIEND: OMG Ashley!!!!! T.P.O.-RJ
WHOS THE LOUDEST: Cayla-Carol
WHO HAVE U KNOWN LONGEST: Ashley B-Lacey bby
WHOS THE SHYEST: Shawn and Ashley-Delilah
COOLEST FRIEND: All-Yaria
PRETTIEST FRIEND: Cayla-Lacey bby
WEIRDEST FRIEND: All-Itchy

*LOVE*
ARE U IN LOVE: Yes!-No
IF YOU'RE NOT IN LOVE NOW, HAVE U EVER BEEN: N/A-Yes
DO U BELIEVE IN LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT: Sometimes-Eh, It depends.
LONGEST RELATIONSHIP: 5 1/2 years-1 1/2 years
WOULD U GO OUT WITH SOMEONE JUST FOR THEIR MONEY: No-No
DO U GO ON "PITY DATES": No, that's just mean-No
KISS ON THE FIRST DATE: Lol, I kiss without dates-Depends on them
SEX ON THE FIRST DATE: No, not easy like that-Hell Mo Fo No, I ain't easy, shit.
EVER CHEATED ON A B/F OR G/F? BE HONEST: NO!-Yes, he cheated on me first.

*WHOS THE LAST PERSON*
KISSED: Zoey, do dogs count?-Naomi, my daughter
HUGGED: Naomi-Naomi
TOLD U THEY LOVED U: Shawn-Lacey bby
TOLD THEM U LOVED THEM: Shawn-Lacey bby
TALKED TO ON THE PHONE: Ashley-My mom
YELLED AT: Ashley (she stole my car keys....AGAIN)-Zoey
BROKE UR HEART: Jim-Nate
SAID THEY HATED U: Jim-N/A
U TOLD U HATED: Jim-N/A

*RANDOM QUESTIONS*
DO U DO DRUGS: Nope-No
DO U DRINK: Yes...I'm the alcholic at work-Yeah, water and milk
DO U WANT TO GET MARRIED: Yes-If I find the right one
DO U WANT TO HAVE KIDS: Yes-Have one
DO U BELIEVE IN URSELF: Sometimes-Sometimes
DO U THINK UR ATTRACTIVE: Sometimes-Sometimes
WHAT STAR/CELEBRITY DO MOST PEOPLE SAY U RESEMBLE: Cayle says I look like Mariah Carey (it's the cheek bones)-Haley Berry
WHAT WAS THE LAST MOVIE U SAW IN THE THEATER? WAS IT GOOD: I think Harry Potter 5 and I liked it-Chuck and Larry and hell yeah it was good.

CAN U HANDLE THE TRUTH:
BIGGEST WEAKNESS: A lot and Love is a big one...-Love
BIGGEST FEAR: Snakes-Ghosts
MOST MISSED MEMORY: The years I missed with my family-Home
FIRST THOUGHT WAKING UP: SNOOZE!!! Oops, now I'm late-I gotta pee.
IF U DONT RECOGNIZE THE NUMBER ON UR CALLER ID, DO U ANSWER: No, if it's important they can leave a message-Yeah, I give them attitude
HOW DO U WANT TO DIE: Quickly-I don't want to die.
DO U GET ALONG WITH UR PARENTS: Yeah and the step parents too-My mom yes, my dad no.
DO U SWEAR: A lot of the time-Yeah
NUMBER OF PAST THINGS U REGRET: A lot-Too many to remember
HOW DO YOU WANT TO DIE: We already did this....
WHAT TIME IS IT? 8:40 EST PM

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