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Hosted By: jaime stoltz
When: Oct 25, 2008 7:00 PM
Where: my apt
coon rapids, Minnesota|24 55433
United States
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***Summertime***
Current mood: chipper

I'm soooo excited that its now getting to be summertime!  SOOOOOOOOO glad that winter is over with.  I wish that I could hibernate during the winter months.  I'm getting a new camera from my mother so that I can start taking pics of V again.  I was a little down that I haven't had a camera for almost a year now.  Can't take pics of my family.  I wish I could show everyone Mina my dog.  I did a hack job on her haircut and now she as a big furry head and a shaved skinny little body.  It looks funny.  Steve said that she kinda reminds her of the dog on The Grinch stole Xmas.  I dont think so.....but yea!

Cant wait for July 4th.  Going to take V up to Sr's land this year.  We took her up there the first year that she was born,...but she couldnt appreciate all the things up there.  Not to worry...if I have a camera there will be lots of pics!!!  :)

Anyways....enough talk about my booboo I miss her so I am going to go pick her up from daycare!

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Work....Work.....and no play
Current mood: ashamed

Everyone around me tells me that I am one of a kind.  Everyone around me tells me that I am a hard worker.  Everyone around me tells me that you wont find another like me.  Why dont I feel like that?  Every boss that I have had has told me that I am the best worker they have ever come across.  I will succeed in anything that I do.

How come I dont feel like that.  Everything that I do.....nothing seems to help.  I feel like I can never get a hand up on this.  My family is struggling hard right now just to eat.  I cant get caught up on my bills....I feel like I am drowning.  No matter how many hours I work...no matter what I get paid.  NOTHING helps.....I dont know what to do.  Im not happy....its affecting me and my family.  Its getting to a point where I find myself getting really annoyed at the things my baby girl is doing.  Things that should not bother me at all.  The other day my boss and I went down to Rochester to check the progress of one of my employees and one of his friends called.  This guy owns his own company that polishes all the floors for Target.  This guy was talking about how he makes billions of dollars in a day.  I met the guy the other day and whips out a briefcase....one million in cash.....WTF seriously.  I felt like crying.   Why cant I have something thats just a little better than what I have now.

Shit I should be grateful shouldnt I??  I dont live in the streets.....yet.  I'm scared....my roomate recieved a notice of eviction....we could be living on the streets in less than 6 months.....I'm looking for apts....but I just dont have the money for the freaking deposits that these people are asking for.  For fucks sake I have to go to the food shelf for fucking food because I dont have money to get food. 

I dont know what to do....I'm so FUCKING LOST.

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my horoscope

Thursday, December 13, 2007

Cancer (Jun 21 - Jul 22)

You may feel like a stranger in a strange land now, for your inner landscape might not match up with the outer one. Don't worry if your feelings seem disconnected from your experiences, for this alienation is temporary. Instead of seeking a supportive nod from your co-workers today, accept the isolation. It won't last too long.

weird i do feel an isolation today......

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Everythings changed
Current mood: blank

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this is my day!!!!!!
Current mood: chipper

Heeeeyyy!  Its my birthday Bitches!!! 

Thank you to those who did wish me happy b-day!!

so to all of you who did not wish me a happy birthday

FUCK OFF!!!

Currently listening : Epiphany By T-Pain Release date: 05 June, 2007

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Moving

I heard this quote the other day on tv

"My mother once told me that you can give a man or person almost anything; love, money, sex, a feeling of being in control.  But the one thing you can NEVER give someone is the power over you.  A woman needs to keep that for only herself."

Very powerful!  I agree

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just another day
Current mood: awake

So I heard the thunder this morning.  Didnt really wake Violet or I up but it was nice to hear.  I miss thunderstorms....for some reason they are calming and stress relieving.

My nasty cold had turned into a sinus infection last week.  Never having one before I didnt know what to expect.  I woke up Thursday morning with my head just pounding.  My teeth hurt so bad that I wanted to rip them out of my mouth...it was worse than having my wisdom teeth pulled.  But I went to work anyways I dont have much time left off for vacation or sick time so I thought I would try to stick it out.  I start work at 8 I get there at 7:30 because I take the bus and train.  It was about 10am before I couldnt take anymore.  I tried to find a decongestant that would help and nothing did.  I was told that once a cold has turned into an infection the only thing that will help is an antibiotic.  Darn it.  So I left work and it took me almost 3 hours to get home.  Then I had to sit in the doctors office for another damn 2 hours to see a dr.  WTF  I was in such pain by then......my whole appt took about 10 min.  Just in and out, why couldnt they have seen me earlier??

What a world we live in......oh well.

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the pressure!!
Current mood: distressed

so I have had this cold for a week now....I figured it would have gotten better and not worse.  Well it got worse.  I have this hacking cough and I cant hear out of my left ear at all!  I think I'm going to go to urgent care tonight....I dont want to, but I keep making an ass out of myself becuase I cant hear.  Everyone one at work keeps giving me these funny looks. 

And on top of it Violet did not sleep well last night.  She woke up every god damn hour.  I just want to rest!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Well I better get well soon!  grrr.....

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It's my birthday and I'll cry if I want to, Cry if I want to.....
Current mood: sick

You would cry too if it happened to you, na nah na na naaahh duh du duh duh......lol

Yea being sick on your birthday SUCKS!!!

I woke up Wednesday night along with Violet and both of us were crying with a fever and just not feeling good...

My head feels like it is on fire and it feels like its going to explode from all the mucus(yuck) that is swelling in my nasal cavity right now.  Damn IT all to hell.  Its not fair.....

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birthday wishlist!!!!!!!!!
Current mood: chipper

Ok so my birthday is coming up this Friday!  Jeez yet another year added to my life....I really feel older than I am.  Could it be that I have a daughter?  Who knows....I've made a b-day list though! 

I feel like such a book whore but honestly these are what I want!  It takes away my bordem now that I am riding an hour and ahalf each way to and from work on the bus......

Jennifer Armintrout:   Blood Ties Book One, The Turning

Karen Chance:  Touch the Dark

Lynsay Sands:  A bite to remember

Kim Harrison: (these are a series that I want together)

~Dead witch walking

~The good, the bad and the undead

~Every which way but dead

~A fistful of charms

Kelly Armstrong:

~Bitten

~Stolen

~Dime store magic

~Industrial Magic

~Haunted

~Broken

So thats all I really want for my birthday...other than a diamond ring!!  HAHA

Currently reading : A Kiss of Shadows (Meredith Gentry Novels (Paperback)) By Laurell K. Hamilton Release date: 26 February, 2002

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Way Too Hectic
Current mood: distressed

So we finally made the move to Blaine.  I love our new house that we are living in.  No we dont own it, we are renting it.  We have one roomate named Chris he's pretty cool.  We moved into this place becuase Steve and I hate apts!  and this place is cheap!  He only wants us to pay rent doesnt want us to help with the utilities.  (he's well off!) So its a good deal.  Plus the neighborhood rocks.  Its b-e-autiful!  We have a pond right behind our house.  Mina is in heaven too!  She can go outside whenever she feels like it!  Not like at the apt where she had to sit out on the balcony.

On top of the crazy and stressful move we arent finished unpacking  so we have boxes everywhere yet.  We're about half way done.  Its mostly kitchen things that we have to go through. We're going to share the kitchen so we dont want to add things that he alreay has in the kitchen.  But I've been so tired lately that I dont feel like doing anything but sleeping. 

Violet has had an ear infection for almost two months now.  We are on our third antibiotic.  She has been fine during the day but screams for hours at night.  It keeps me up.  Its sad to say that I sound like a zombie to our callers at work.  Steve says that it keeps him up too but he doesnt actually physically get up and help.  The doctor was talking about putting tubes in her ears.  I think I want to see a specialist before I even think about doing that.  eek! She also has had her nasty cough since before memorial day.  The dr doesnt say much about it.  Dr mentioned that she might have asthma...and the dr pointed out to me that she might have a heart murmur, wants me to take her to Mercy Hospital to have an echo done.  If they cant get her to hold still there we have to take her downtown at either unity or childrens to have her put to sleep to do it.  Another EEK!  I hope my drs assumptions on Violet having a heart murmur are incorrect.  I'm nervous, heart problems run in Steve and his mother.  Also my dad and his side of the family!  My dad had a heart murmur and never grew out of it.  He has always had heart problems....

Why do I feel like my problems keep getting deeper and deeper??

I just dont feel like myself lately and I'm tired of feeling this way.

Nothing makes me happy anymore.

Currently reading : Danse Macabre (Anita Blake Vampire Hunter) By Laurell K. Hamilton Release date: 27 June, 2006

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you keep picking and picking until i have nothing left but to breakdown and crumble
Current mood: depressed

I really feel like I relate to this song right now.  I feel like everything in my life is falling apart.  Everything feels like a disaster, I've been so depressed the last month or so its rediculous.  I cry every fucking day.  I'm not happy with myself at all.  I feel like I cant do anything right, its just trouble after trouble. I can never get ahead.  Do people relate to words in a song like I do?  They feel so right, it explains it all.

So I'm the king
Of all these things
Of this mess I have made
Such a waste
What a shame
My whole life is a fake

Well I'm a bore
And I'm sure
I'm a thorn inside you
That has torn at you for years

The alcohol
The demerol
These things never could replace
What a minute with you could do to put a smile on my face

I'm a bore and I'm sure
I'm a thorn inside of you
That has torn at me for years

I can't get out of this dead skin
I can't shed my skin
I'm not sure where to begin
Why can't I begin again
I can't get under my dead skin
I can't shed my dead skin
Can I sleep til then

Phenobarbita and alcohol
These two surely will do
To knock me out
Keep me down at least a day or two


When I'm awake
I can taste how bitter I've become
And it's more than I can bare somedays
I pray someone will blow me away

Make it quick
But let it burn
So I can feel my life fade

Well I'm a waste and I can taste
How bitter I've become
And It's more than I can bare
I can't shed my skin

Currently listening : Crossfade By Crossfade Release date: 13 April, 2004

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My New car!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Current mood: satisfied

So heres a pic of my beautiful new car!!!!  Well its not brand new, I bought it used.  Its a 2005, but only has 30,000 miles on it.  A lot better than my last hooptie!!!!   I just bought it a few weeks ago.  It is a manual and I am learning how to drive it.  It was a little scary at first, but I'm getting the hang of it!  Watch out 2Fast @Furious!  I'm on my way to burning you guys out!!!  lol

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do you ever cry?
Current mood: bored

Violet is now 9 weeks old.  She hasnt been feeling too well I dont think.  She's been really fussy the last week or so.  I explained this to her Dr.  and he thinks that she has acid reflux, so he prescribed Zantac for her.  He also told me to give her infant Tylenol becuase she will have a fever after she gets her shots.  On Monday I took her to get her 2 month shots.  That is one of the worst things that I have ever gone through.  I dont like shots myself, but I can handle them.  I wouldnt watch the nurse give her the shots, but I sat there and held my daughter.  She cried for the first two shots.  But screamed and actually stopped breathing for a few seconds when the nurse gave her the third shot.  By then I was balling worse then Violet was.  I just couldnt help it.  I dont like seeing her crying let alone in pain like that!  I'm dreading bringing her for her 4 month shots!

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