Yes it is true. I will be writing for a new Northwest magazine that focus's on new Rock N Roll and NW culture. Due out in February. Stay tuned for details.
Been listening to the Old 97's again lately. It is strange to me that they are making yet another comeback with early 20 something crowd. Still not a fan of their newer stuff. I would say Wreck Your Life and Fight Songs are my favorite albums. I guess both those albums have the song Big Brown Eyes on them. Hmmm...
So had some friends over and let them take the stitches out. It was great. Marty is feeling much more sociable today. He has been banged up a bit and not really acting himself. Start the new job tomorrow and have a math final in the morn.
I'm taking a tent and sleeping bag to the coast and going to surf over the holiday. Let me know if you are interested in going or you can just come meet me, I will have my phone on me.
Started out watching a really great PDX band, Inside Voices. They had a great after hours party, dancing to Velvet Underground and Stereo Lab. To much booze and to many PDX hipsters so I came home early. But do check out Inside Voices because they are fun.
I made a huge mistake today. I am making this public because I feel like the biggest asshole in the world.
I recently split up with my girlfriend whom I still truly love. It was a very mutual break up. But as some time passed I began to miss her more and more. I realized I had made a huge mistake by not nurturing our relationship properly. I made a huge mistake by breaking up with her. Upon trying to get her back I acted like a huge piece of shit and really kind of freaked her out by my actions. Calling and calling and calling and myspace stalking. The more I tried the worse I made things.
Well today I did something that is the lowest thing I have ever done in my life and I admit I am the shittiest person in the world to do this to somebody I truly love. I went onto her myspace page and read here mail. I tried to lie about it but I finely came clean.
I have probably ruined all chances of ever winning her heart back by being such an asshole.
I still truely love her with all my heart and I am making these fucked up things I did public because I am so ashamed right now.
We sit by the window. Her and me. She's not my lover; she's just my buddy. I always find myself at ease when we spend time together. I take a drink of my beer.
"Why dont you ever set me up with one of your friends?" I inquire.
"Yeah right! Your kind of a creep."
"Oh ...yeah" I take another sip of my beer. "What about that one girl, whats her name?"
"She's got a boyfriend."
"Oh yeah." I light my cigarette and stare out the window for a moment. "Does your boyfriend know were hanging out tonight?"
"Yeah."
"Thats a good thing." I say with relief in my voice.
"Why!?" I can tell shes a little annoyed.
"Well I think you should be sure and let him know that nothing happened between us tonight, you know, I dont want him to get the wrong idea or anything."
"Well, Im pretty sure hes not too worried," she says in a very condescending way.
We stare out the window for some time watching the traffic roll by, and the night continuing to get darker. We watch an attractive couple stroll down the sidewalk. They have their arms around each other as they look in the windows of the shops that are all closed up. They look so happy together, I assume they have not known each other long.
Both of us are silent for sometime as we observe. "I think I dated that girl once."
"Yeah right!"
"Yes, I think I did." I take a drag off my smoke to give my casual statement more affect.
"When did you two date?"
"Mum...I think like a few months ago, like in January."
"Well, whats here name then?"
"Hmm... I dont quite remember, I think we... uh well, we..."
"Whatever...hey, do you want to go see a movie?"
At this point I think a movie would be great, but I just shrug my shoulders. "I dont know" I reply as I stare out the window. I do this just for impact. Near every week we go see a movie, and every week she informs me she has one free ticket to Regal Cinemas. She tells me we can each pay half price and see a movie there. Near every week I nod and say something like 'Yeah maybe.' Then we decide to go somewhere where the movies are served with beer and pizza.
A moment goes by of window staring to the street. "Hey!" she exclaims. "I have a free ticket to Regal Cinemas, we could each pay half price and see a movie there."
"That might be kind of cool" I respond as I continue gazing out the window.
Just then, the sky just cuts loose. Out of know where rain begins coming down on a biblical scale. My god, I have not seen sheets of rain like this since I witnessed Noahs great flood in Sunday school as a child. The street immediately clears of pavement dwellers and of the couples window-shopping. Out of know where a scraggily man in his late forties bolts into the bar with his bicycle.
He shakes the cold and wet off of himself and leans his bike against the wall. Turning to the bartender he asks, "Is it ok if I wait here till the rain passes?"
The bartender smiles, "Not a problem."
"Would it be alright if I played that piano in the corner while I wait?"
"Be my guest."
As the heavens fall and the lighting flashes, this man off the street begins to play some of the most beautiful music I have ever heard. Thunder shakes the avenue, the rain pounds the pavement and the smell of hot asphalt being cooled by summer rain blows through the open doors of the bar. We gaze out the window watching the world get washed away, listening, simply listening.
Shes not my girl, just one of my best friends. Sometimes, just for a moment this world and my life make just enough sense for me to enjoy it.
fabulous
pleased
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