overdue
Current mood: thoughtful

Haven't had much time to write much lately, but I feel like I should. Alot has been going on lately, the most memorabletheirth of my beautiful baby girl Ari. Words cannot describe the mix of emotions I feel and have felt since she was born. Everyone tells you how much you will love your child, but it is inexplicable how deeply you really fall in love with them. She embodies perfection in my eyes and heart. A smile , a touch, a noise..anything that comes from her is so magical and so exicting. When I'm with her, I am the happiest I've ever been, and when
I'm not my heart aches for her.She is and I think always will be my universe, and while I feel love for my family and husband, that doesn't come close to how I feel for her.I love watching her grow and learn and change so much every single day, I love to think about her future and the many things she will accomplish,and how lucky I will be to witness this, I hate to think that anything could ever hurt her, that she could ever suffer but I know it is inevitable. ...

Ari,

Thank you for choosing me as your Mom. I thank God for you every day, for you are his greatest gift. I accept the priviledge of raising you to be an honest,loving,caring person and hope to do the best I can to accomplish this goal.You are and always will be the most important thing in my life.

I love you more than words can describe...forever

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Bittersweet
Current mood: pensive

Our kitty Duchess just died..mom says she was gone when she woke up. I'm sad that she's gone, but I think she was ready to rest, she just suddenly stopped eating about a week ago , and would barely eat what my mom gave her from a dropper...She was 20 years old and had given us many years of love...Kitty, you will be greatly missed....

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the moment

I NEVER thought pregnancy would be so hard!!! Anyway I'm sure all of you know by now we're expecting triplets....haha just joking, just one baby phew! Everything is going really well, except I feel like crap pretty much every day, so ladies, something to look forward to ;)I had my first doctor's appt. a few days back, it was great. My mom went with me since Faby was working and we got to see the baby and listen to the heartbeat, it's amazing. I was only nine weeks a t the time and already the baby was moving(ALOT) and you could see and hear the heartbeat. You know, all of the suffering was worth it at that moment..and from now on of course, it's so hard to imagine that you created something with a heartbeat...wow So I can't wait for the baby to be here, we'll probably find out the sex of the baby as soon as we can, which is pretty soon, so we can plan ahead you know....Something else to look forward to. Other than that everything's great, I've been working alot of overtime lately and that is horrible, but the paycheck is so much nicer than usual..nothing else going on, just really need to finish unpacking and decorate the new place, it's pretty blah right now..Hopefully some time in the near future we can have a housewarming party, once I start feeling better;)

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driving

Yeah so I'm driving home from work and the guy behind me is brushing his teeth while driving, so I think what an idiot. Well later on he pulls up in front of me and spits  out the window...and it all lands on my windshield, which I had just washed..his grimy, nasty spit/toothpaste!! I swear I saw it coming in slow motion. So I get the worst case of road rage and honk and speed up to give him the evil eye a few times and tried to get it off with the wipers, but there's still some on it...and that was it...Guys can be such idiots..

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thankful

We tend to worry about such trivial things day to day and don't seem to realize what goes on outside our lives;  we worry about minutia while people are dealing with life and death.. Take advantage of this and be thankful for  what you have, be thankful that you are not one of those people...I know I am

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don't feel good
Current mood: sick

This morning I was woken up by the phone, it was work wanting me to work tonight for double overtime..I passed. Afterwards I proceeded to feel nauseated and thought maybe I should eat something...so I go downstairs and run to the bathroom cause I feel like throwing up..but since I haven't eaten anything nothing comes out..just dry heaves ..and so it's been that way since I woke up... I hate being sick

So I've started taking care of the same babies every time I work..it's called primarying...so I take care of two babies that were born way premature and are now suffering because of it...I'm just afraid I've become really attached to them. One of them is a baby boy who was born at 24 weeks gestation and is now 48 weeks so he's a normal baby size now, and his parents are kinda messed up and it makes me mad that their baby is in the hospital and they're worried about other things....which I will not mention...it's terrible that just anyone can have children without caring about their quality of life....Just the other night I was holding him and reading to him and all he did the whole time was look at me..it broke my heart that his parents will never have the time to do that....

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back to work
Current mood: good

I have to go to work today ....not really looking forward to it, especially the traffis on 45...it sucks, people can be such idiots and make traffic come to a standstill for no apparent reason, so I have to calculate my time to the second because I can only get into the parking garage after 5:55, not a second before so I can't be too early and I hate being late, all the good parking spots are taken . I had a whole six days off, so I'm not really used to the whole night schedule rhythm, although I don't really get sleepy anymore..it's like at 5:30 in the morning when I still have a little over an hour left that sleepiness creeps in. Then I have to drive like a madwoman  so I'm not falling asleep on the way home. In the morning it's not that bad since all the traffic's going downtown....so yeah I miss work, I'm actually kinda looking forward to it,   but staying at home is great too....just thought ya'll might want to know

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odd occurence
Current mood: tired

I hear birds in my wall.....baby birds I think, back to watching Ellen. I couldn't sleep last night...working nights sucks, It's so hard to adjust to sleeping at night....can I say night again

love to all, especially FABY

aka my cuchi cuchi haha

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b-day

Your Birthdate: April 22

http://images.blogthings.com/whatdoesyourbirthdatemeanquiz/birthday.jpg" height="100" width="100"> You tend to be understated and under appreciated. You have a hidden force to do amazing things, doing them your own way. People may see you as strange and shy, but they know little. Your unconventional ways have more power than they (and even you) know. Your strength: Standing up for what you know is true Your weakness: You tend to be picky and rigid Your power color: Silver Your power symbol: Square Your power month: April

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the deluge

yesterday was quite an interesting day...  I went with my mom to drop my dad off at Hobby airport to catch a 7 am flight to New Orleans , so anyway we leave at five am despite the torrential rain and by the time we get to Monroe my parents Jeep is halfway in water, so my Dad pulls into a shopping center's elevated parking lot and we, along with 10 plus other cars are stuck....FOR EIGHT HOURS!!! Not only that, we had Soleil in the car with us since they were dropping me off at home afterwards. Luckily , and unluckily we managed to park across the street from a chevron gas station so my mom and I had to venture out across the street in crotch-deep water( which I'm sure is not the cleanest) to use the restroom and buy food ( my dad just had surgery so we didn't want him to get his scars soaked with sewer water), so I had no other choice but to cross it. Well it was also full of people who thought it was a good idea to party and drink beer at 6 am, so you can imagine how that went. It was quite entertaining watching people get stuck in the water, foolish enough to believe their cars could make it through the water even though an 18 wheeler was stalled in the middle of the street.... At one point this bipolar woman ( apparently in one of her manic phases)  walked up to us and proceeded to tell us how she was famous and late for her coffee club with the billionaires who were probably dumping money into her bank account, and how she worked for Dr. Red Duke, and the iranian government was after her and her sons...... So the best part of all of this is that I had to work last night, and got a total of four hours of sleep..so as you can imagine I was not a happy camper... Damn luck!!

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