Silly magicians...

The patron psychoanalyst of magicians is Carl G. Jung. Many magicians who use the archetypal paradigm invoke the name Jung often and forcefully. They do this in many ways to earn some sort of credence to magic, making it more "scientific". They speak of gods and spirits as archetypes in the collective unconscious, evoking them creates a connection or resonance to that unconscious drive within all mankind and leads to a deep connection to all mankind. It can even sound good at first, like "Hey maybe magic is really all psychological in nature and we just don't know how powerful our psyche really is!" I can call a banana an apple, but it does not make it so, unless we all agree.

Here is my earthshaking proposal, which I offer with little evidence or logic: Jung was a sneaky son-ova  bitch. I think, in my own little world of hypothesis that Jung was trying to present the world with a new way to look at magic and sneak it into the mainstream mind. Every culture or civilization takes old terms of other cultures and adds them to their own, the examples of which are far to numerous to list. Magic does this very well, borrowing concepts from all over and making a whole from them, just look at the Golden Dawn to see that at work, or read over 777. Jung was obviously inclined to magic and the occult, but especially alchemy. In the last years of his life he even set up an alchemical workshop, this after years of telling people alchemy was symbolic. I think he made some psychological terms such as collective unconscious and archetype (which was at first called "primal imagery") to speak of the astral plane and the symbolic nature that spirits take to represent their forces. He himself thought that the archetypes had no real form; they were drives or forces that appeared to the culture accessing them in the manner that most made sense. The collective unconscious is so damn close to the astral plane that many magicians now refer to the astral as a land of pure subconscious, not realizing the psychological concept of projection is all the more powerful on the astral and mental than the physical.

Just get rid of the term for what he is describing and try to not think of the astral or spirits for what I write below:

A medium that conscious human beings can access if trained properly and operate in, that causes changes within the person or meaningful occurrences in the outside world. It reacts to symbols, imagery and emotion.

Beings that reside in the aforementioned medium that act or seem to act consciously, intelligently and independently of the operator while working with the medium. These beings appear in many different ways but can be categorized into domains that they represent.

Man its tough not to think I am talking about the astral plane or spirits, huh?

Jung was well studied in mythology, symbolism, and knew a great deal about eastern meditation as well as kundalini as well. Is it possible he was trying to not just bridge the gap between magic and the scientific world but actually give magicians of the modern age a way to safely discuss magical things in a manner that did not lead the masses to consider the speaker a nut or throwback to some "dark age of superstition". Even his teacher Freud was afraid he would release a "Dark wave of occultism" upon the world when he described his ideas. What if that was exactly what he meant to do?

If it was I apologize to heir Jung for outing him in his work and suggest we all begin whistling, looking around like we have done nothing wrong and slowly walk away. If not, ah well, I have been wrong before.

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Lazy?
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Hey Gang!

Rarely am I lazy when it comes to art, writing, or really anything other than cleaning ;-)

However I am about to be totally lazy, and instead of writing a blog I will be sending you to another blog that I think is worth reading, and not just because it mentions me either!!

http://blog.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendID=19068133&blogID=426607296

go check it out, read his other stuff as well.

I got a few things brewing for bloggage as well, never fear. Just coming out of a non-writing funk.

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Be still and know...
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For ages man has sought divine justice, through prayer and pleading with the highest we hope that in the end justice will be served.

You hear terrible stories on the news, hear stories of pain and suffering from those you love and are faced with difficult choices in life that seem to have no solution. If only mankind had a way to speak to the divine powers that be in order to arrive at truth.

"And a man looked about himself and saw the pain and suffering of the world, the injustice that befalls all peoples, the hatred and violence men commit against their brothers, the lies and deceit that infect the air worse than any pollution, the apathy of the good and the determination of the wicked, and he cried out to God "God, you must do something about all of this wickedness and evil!" and God spoke to the man, saying "I made you."

Fire=will Air=intellect Water=Emotions Earth=Consciousness and Akasha, the divine principle is our conscience.

All humans are made up of an astral/ mental being that is made up of the five elements. The akasha is the divine principle that creates, maintains, balances and rules the four elements. The akasha principle also gives the quality of a conscience to every human being. However the more we deny the akasha or divine principal within ourselves the more we give the elements rule over our divine spark. The pentagram flipped upside-down is the symbol for this, matter over spirit. When this happens, our wills are boundless and destructive, our intellect flies about unruly like a hurricane, our emotions flow from one thing to the next and our consciousness is dim, slow and crude. Eventually, when this happens the spark becomes extinguished and all that is left is a beast of a creature, a mockery of what the divine intended.

"Elijah stood on the mountain before God and as God passed by, a great wind broke the mountains into pieces, but God was not in the wind. After the wind there was an earthquake; but God was not in the earthquake. And after the earthquake a fire; but God was not in the fire. After the fire there was a still small voice."

We can hear the divine speak to us, it does all the time. However, the howling wind, the tumultuous consciousness and the fiery will along with the roaring waves of desire and emotion can easily make that still small voice hardly audible. We must learn to lend our ears to the divine voice. Many people believe that if God wants to speak to them it will be a thunderclap and light will pour down, not so. The divine rests deep within you, seeking-pleading to be heard.

The king seeking his kingdom is a powerful archetype in the minds and thoughts of men. Think of the latest incarnation in the movie "Lord of the Rings". Aragorn faces the elements, the dark forces, and the repose of love-but transcends them all. He becomes more than human; he becomes the great benevolent king, ruler of all he sees. This has a resonance with each of us, this reflects the divine in us, facing the challenges of desires, daily life, and fear and just giving up. If we seek the divine within us and let it be our guide, than we grant the king his rightful place. Otherwise the elements will attempt to be their own rulers and master you, using the darker aspects within you to rule over you.

If this all sounds a little to judeo-xtian for everyone, that is because all religions hit upon truths, otherwise they would never grow from a small cult of a few nut-jobs. Truth resonates with all people, they know and feel it when they hear it on some level. The more you listen to the divine, still, small voice within you- the more you too will be like a great religion or king. You will be a light in a dark world, a lighthouse on a tumultuous sea, a great monolith of truth and stability. The hardest part is just following the truth within.

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Icon magic
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Category: Dreams and the Supernatural

Icon magic

Thou shall not make any graven image. This is the second commandment of the 10 commandments (five relating to god and five relating to man). Why should people not make a carved or sculpted image? Power, that's why

Muslims have a prohibition against images of nearly everything save flowery patterns; and if they are really controversial some draw animals! Again I ask, and again the answer is the same…why?

As some of my readers will remember (the ones who regularly read my ramblings) I stopped a book project a few months back that was going to deal with the magic of icons, specifically paintings and drawings of the divine, angels and spirits. It was due to a new direction I was heading in magic, but in a sense the idea or essence was the same behind the work. Art can be used in magic, and powerfully so.

I decided that sense I won't be making the book, and really other than the things I will decide to post on my DA account I really won't share my more magical art with the public. It has become increasingly something personal and sacred for myself. It may seem I reveal quite a bit in these blogs, but I do have a good share of secrets that I rarely give out and only to a trusted few. So, I decided I will at least guide you in the right direction of what my book would have done, and to top it all off it is free!

Any image, that's right, ANY image can be used for magical purposes. This, at least in my opinion, is the reason for the religious injunction against imagery and idols. For art to be created it has already gone through the mental, astral and physical stages of development and so it is well established on the three planes. Also, it is typically going to be a storehouse of symbolism sense it will most likely resonate with many people; therefore it appears in the public setting. If the symbolism is off or it does not resonate with the minds of humanity than most likely it will have never made it to the greater public (That totally makes sense to me, if ya' got lost just let me know). Just think of the Mona Lisa.

So, most importantly, how does it work? Imagination and will, silly! (Surprise pop quiz huh!) Get a good look at the image you are going to work with. Impress it into your mind, try and absorb the mood and detail the image conveys.

Now when you are ready, begin to imagine the being from the picture/sculpture or painting before you. When I say imagine I just don't mean that you should "think" they are there. I want you to fool yourself into believing that there is a being in front of you, what sort of presence does it give off? How does it smell, what would it be to touch it? Let us say you try an angel for the subject. Ask yourself, if you really met a real life angel and it was standing in front of you in all its glory, what would that be like? Whatever you come up with, ***imagine*** that.

Repeat this several times over the course of a few days. Make sure not to slack on the work! I want each time you do this to be the best and better than the previous exercise!! No slacking in magic!

If you have ever done the LBRP, the first 100 times you did it you may have tried your damnedest to feel the archangels in the four quarters and the divine light above. When it finally felt like this happened you *knew* they were there. That is what this is like. The more power you put into this, the more you *will* that being before you the more it will be. Eventually, (some can do it the first time, others only after 300 times) that being will be before you and present (maybe not completely physical but you may have some surprising experiences!).

Now, sometimes ideas can be so big that we dismiss them. To really get the idea of this type of magic for the next week I want you to just walk around and look at how many images flood your view on a daily basis. Think of your favorite works of art and why they seem so powerful to you. Search Google images for gods, spirits, demons, angels (each individually) and look at the possibilities. If you're an artist then realize that this blog is the equivalent to an occult lotto ticket. Your art can take on a whole new dimension. This should also give a hint as to why many magicians are wary of showing a picture or full image of themselves.

The power of images, icons and art is wide open! To the artist it is a powerful key unlocking a great current of potential to them, for the non-artist in the land of internet image searches they have nearly as much potential and power at their magical fingertips.

Enjoy!

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My views on magic and everything else
Category: Dreams and the Supernatural

As above, so below

This basic tenet of Hermetic wisdom should be familiar to every practicing magician, witch, sorcerer or whatever you call someone who works with the forces of nature (I use the term magician and this in no way connotes a gender or belief system, just someone who works with magic). This simple axiom from Hermes thrice-great simplifies every magical rule, force, concept or idea that one can have in magic. Seriously, if you search out everything this statement implies all knowledge of the universe and magic is open to you. One can either begin by learning about the macro and go inwards or start in the micro and expand outwards. Either way you will discover the same truths.

So here it is: my view of the universe as it pertains to magic, life and anything else you want to apply it to as well. It is long, so if you need to take a break now and then and come back. I will number breaks so you can find your place easily. The numbers are in no way related to numerology or any primal idea. They are not in any order or have any deeper meaning. Some of the things will be familiar if you have read previous blogs, others will be new and yet other things will be a new way of explaining something I may have mentioned previously.

1

In the beginning there was void. Then over aeons of time the Cosmic Mind developed awareness. This can be seen in the birth of all things. In the beginning there is darkness and eventually a rudimentary awareness that is pre-conscious. Birth happens and this is the entrance into the "world". In Cosmic terms the Mind wanted to know itself, to do this it created the astral and eventually physical plane. That previous sentence sums up a lot of material. The Judeo-Christian belief of life in the Garden sums up the creation of the astral plane and the structure of the eventual creation of the physical plane. The expulsion of the Garden and the entire rest of the Torah is the creation of the physical as well as a symbolic description of the nature of the universe and the attributes of the all. In Greek mythology this is the age of titans and the eventual overthrow of them by Zeus and the gods.  This period can also be seen in the times of early childhood when we learn language, as well attempt to establish our will over the known universe (terrible twos). Mostly the human mind at this age is still at a un or pre conscious level and is only working at drives as the primary source of motivation. Hence the early gods are precarious, jealous and wrathful.

2

The only real way the Cosmic mind can really know itself and what everything is about is by infinitely dividing in an attempt to know see itself. This is why there are so many creatures, peoples, beliefs, views, differences and choices in life. This is also why there is so much doubt. There is no real certainty. Everything is a guess, an adventure and an exploration. Even though there is a pattern to nature, life and magic it is so all encompassing and large in order to mix and match infinite number of variables. Imagine having infinity to try and understand EVERYTHING, not only which, but multiply that by the power of infinite creativity, as well as no fear. At the highest levels of consciousness this is all a game, a movie or a ride. It does not really matter except in the sense of discovery and understanding. It matters as much as a fantasy or dream. This is not to say be cruel or evil or seek nothing but pleasure, it is to say that in a dream we feel that it is important and real, but when we awake we see how fleeting it all was.

3

You at this very moment are one with the divine mind. It is a matter of going up or down the spectrum of consciousness. The entire spectrum of light is within a sunbeam, so to is your mind along the spectrum of consciousness within the Cosmic Mind. The consciousness above yours seems vast and powerful just as the spectrum below yours sees your spectrum as vast and powerful. Each builds on the next to house more vast amounts of information. When you call an elemental or demon which has a more primitive mindset they become slightly more advanced from the interaction with your vibration, just as when you call or interact with an angel or divine being your consciousness grows or heightens from the exchange. However humans are a very curious thing. We are unlike nearly every other being in the sense we have the ability to master all five elements. Hence we have more potential than an angel or archangel. They represent virtues, powers and forces on a grand scale but are limited in their growth and freedom. The Archangel Kamael cannot pick up water coloring. It is not that there is some cosmic rule book saying he cannot it is just that is not the nature of that force which is personified by Kamael.

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All forces and powers are conscious. As I mentioned above, the cosmic force of power, might, will and domination is on the higher levels all connected as one grand force that branches out into all of these smaller forces. The personified force is called in Hebrew magic "Kamael". Why this is so is another topic. In other cultures this force can be personified by other names and even genders. When a magician calls this force it "clothes" itself in a symbolic manner which best represents the forces it has within it. So, taking another archangel for an example, let us say you have had terrible luck with love and sex in general but you want to evoke Haniel, archangel of Venus. Well Haniel will appear but your perception of her (Love, desire, art, poetry) will be reflected back at you, seeing and experiencing something less than a joyous figure. For a real life example I have always perceived Haniel as friendly, loving and inspiring. Always willing to help, and very kind. Someone I know recently evoked her and told me she was sort of snide, slightly cruel but in the end delivered the goods, but only after some fun at his expense had been had. What sort of perceptions on love and relationships can one deduce from this experience? Does Haniel have multiple personality disorder? Did she just not like the budding magician? Or do the qualities she produced for this mage somehow teach the mage what his "inner" Haniel is like, thereby giving the magician a map and compass in delving into the work that needs to be done on his inner landscape?

5

At the beginning of this blog I wrote "as above, so below". Keep this in mind as we probe the great debate of this magical age: "Is magic all in our head or is magic objectively real". This can be a very hard topic to figure out. If spirits manifest and use our inner makeup and concepts as a garment to reveal themselves than surely it just makes easy sense to just say it is all in our head, and our head is just really big. This even sounds right on some level sense we are all apart of the Cosmic Mind and therefore we are all connected. Yes, verily this is true! However this leads to Solipsism a nasty and terrible belief to be sure! Just because we are all connected does not make your mind supreme. You for now are just a part of the whole. Only the greatest of mages can live or reside in the *experience* of being apart of the Cosmic Mind, and even then not the totality of it all. Anyways even the people who think it is all in their head have experiences that sometimes speak of forces, minds and powers beyond them and which often times scare the robes off of them. If they have not then they probably have never had really strong results before and can only speak of synchronicities or meaningful coincidences. The answer is this. We do have different levels of consciousness within us; even fragmentary spirits which we reject lurk deep within. "As above, so below". These levels and parts of us are reflections of the above independent of us spirits. The inner aspects of you that appear and come out when you are in love, angry, joyful, etc can be described later on as if one was possessed of a spirit and not like the "real me" at all. Those are the inner spirits. Some can be quite strong and seemingly independent, they are not however. When we contact a spirit independent of ourselves than that inner spirit is drawn forth in response. If time is spent with that spirit, and its vibration learned, than our inner spirit begins to reflect the outer, real spirit. Another example of this is the idea of poverty. In essence someone in poverty has a very weak abundance inner spirit. So if they try to evoke a spirit of wealth and abundance they will have no real concept of this being. This is when magic and especially evocation can get scary. If we have no real inner version of a spirit, the outer spirit will seem overpowering, awesome in the true, original sense of the word and possibly outright scary or bizarre. This is why most books on magic say not to evoke gods. Gods are spirits that are not fully integrated into the human inner psyche yet do to our persistence that they are outside and beyond us. We have not accepted our inner divinity yet, so any experience of a divine being is either a failure or way to intense. Typically, Greek gods are easier to handle do to their similarities to mankind in many ways and a familiarity we have with them in our culture. But some beings are all together different, numinous and beyond most human experience. Not that somewhere within us there is not a reflection of that being or force, it is just denied and small.

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Lightning, water, fire, air, winds, mountains, magnetism, suns, planets, moons, space, ice, comets, rocks, grass and every thing else you may think about and everything else you can't has a spirit that rules it. Things like a single rock have a small spirit of earth attached to it, which is connected to an elemental king that rules an area of earth that is ruled by a greater elemental king or spirit that rules all elemental kings as is the summing up of the rocky substance we call earth, which in turn the idea of earth and its qualities and virtues is ruled over by an angel. This angel has a higher aspect which personifies the divine in relation to earth (omniconsciousness-immortality) which is just part of the Cosmic Mind of the actual attribute. This goes for everything, everywhere at all times. Down to the gemstone in your ring to the hairs on your head.

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Most magic is the act of interacting with these spirits and powers and directing them to do the will of the magician. Even if one is doing a love spell with candles and oils, one is working with the spirits of those herbs that made the oil, the idea of love which is from within you and that just may connect to the higher spirits of love, the flame of the candle which is an elemental that represents will, and if you called quarters then the powers and forces of the quarters. Therefore most magic is in fact invocation or evocation (which some argue, quite convincingly is the same thing).

The other type of magic is the use of will and imagination. In truth all magic is also this as well, however will and imagination are the two forces that make magic work. Emotion is also a powerful force in magic, however the imagination and will can change or rule emotion. You may not agree and that is fine, I know plenty of people that are wrong. If one develops the will and imagination to the very highest of levels they can do anything.

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The imagination is much maligned and beaten down. In truth the imagination is one of the most powerful forces mankind has. No wonder it is beaten down much as we deny our inner divinity which is our imagination. When "God" created all things do you really think he spoke a few words and *poof* it was done? Does god have teeth, tongue and vocal cords, not to mention lungs and air to resonate the sound through? No, divinity created all things through will and imagination. Imagine a lemon, then imagine putting it into your mouth. Notice the reaction your mouth has. Ever have something like a craving pop into your head? You keep imagining it and eventually you will find a means to satisfy that craving. That is the power of the imagination when it is untrained and within every human being, from a maniac to a soccer mom.

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Most religions speak of at least two souls and some many more. The Greeks thought one was a combination soul of animal and human. If one developed the human soul and mastered the animal soul, then that was a great wo/man. As stated before we are a spectrum of mind and soul. The HGA is the spectrum right above us and below divinity, below us is the animal soul. By enlightening and drawing up the animal nature within us, training it and using it properly than we develop a very powerful force. The animal soul is the "darker" more material aspect of us, it has tremendous power to be tapped and the magician is not a true magician until they delve into it and make it divine. This is what yogic, magical and Taoist systems attempt to do before the magician is taught the secret powers of magic.

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There are three planes of density: The mental, astral and physical. When a thought develops and finds a home in the personal makeup of an individual then it becomes a more astral form and can influence a person. If this astral force really catches on it develops into a physical quality on the material plane. This is the secret of all magical manifestations and just plain old everyday manifestation. The magician finds a stream of thought, develops it, gives the astral form density and it manifests as a physical power or presence. If one can condense the astral light at will then they can materialize any idea or concept at will. This is the greatest secret of magical as it pertains to manifestation on the physical or setting powers to work on the astral plane. The method of doing this is the imagination and will.

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Every book on magic you will ever read is the writers personal take on the above statements, all they do is add correspondences and their own slant on these ideas. If one observes the natural world around them, developing their own correspondences, and begins working on the will and imagination they will have begun the great work. An Eskimo will have a different magical correspondences than a Brazilian.

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Alphabet of Desire and the symbolism of language

Hey gang!

Sorry for my quiet of late, I have been doing a lot of research, experimentation and inner searching of late. Wish I could tell you all of it, but some things just cannot be communicated or shared. I will pass on one little bit of info for those of you who have my Book of Power, those who are interested in magical alphabets, especially the alphabet of desire.

If you research some of the oldest alphabets such as Egyptian, Runes, Hebrew and Sanskrit you can (if you have a good grasp of symbolism) see the same concepts or ideas come up again and again. These things were obviously important to our ancestors and even to us in the present day. Lots of them are like the building blocks of the universe as seen by the ancients. You can see that they thought the universe was a complex and multilayered thing. So any language that would convey any real meaning (especially for magical purposes) would have to in some way represent the many primal forces found in nature. Below is a list I have made of the 22 basic forces found in nearly every magical alphabet. Some match up perfectly with the tarot, some do not. So I will not try and match them for you. You have to do something! ;-)

Now some of you who know about Sanskrit will obviously say "Sanskrit has over fifty letters!" This is true, they have a rich alphabet that tries to convey every possible human sound. But occult-wise many of the meanings overlap and repeat. This is not a perfect list, some forces or powers are not perfectly conveyed in every system and some things are intuitively linked from system to system. I think you will see how many do link up if you do the research.

1. Guidance, air, heavens, father, communication

2. Shelter, protection, house, container

3. Deal, partnership, binding

4. Gateway, doorway, door bolt

5. Knot, Serpent

6. Hand, force, power

7. Receptacle, basket, Open

8. Ocean, wave, water, mother

9. Offspring, increase, family

10. Head, king, speech, mouth

11. Hunt, balance, justice, law

12. Mark

13. Sharpen, cut, devour

14. Weapon, arm, defense, lightning

15. Divine, numinous, mystery, initiation

16. Movement, swiftness, vitality, rise

17. Joy, fill, beauty

18. Earth, manifestation, structure

19. Fire, heat, light, need

20.  Prosperity, wealth, abundance

21. Confusion, Barrier, fear, dark, danger, desire

22. Honor, pure, inheritance, projection

These are in no particular order. I have looked for a universal quality among the many alphabets and have found no real correlation except the common denominators of all Indo-European languages (the common ancestral language for much of Europe and India) Like M or MA being related to mother and D being closely related to masculine or father. If you want to know what I am doing with it, it is this: I am trying to use the vibrational effects of the letters and map out what each "looks" and "feels" like when vibrated. For more info on how to do that check out my Book of Power. I won't tell you what I have gotten but allow you to figure it out from this:

Ah                                           Gh

Bh                                           Dh

U, V                                        H

Z                                              Ch

K                                             T

N                                             Ya

S                                              L

O                                             M

Qh                                           Ph

R                                             Tz

Sh                                            T

Those familiar with the Golden Dawn will notice this list is from one of the flying scrolls on telesmatic images. They do not provide vowel sounds obviously due to them basing their sounds off of Hebrew letters. I will say the vowel sounds are important and should be experimented with to know their effects. The list is divided into Masculine and Feminine sounds (apparently one group likes beer and sports, the other shopping and girl talk). Once one makes a glyph of each of these primal forces, you can create your own magical language through observation and meditation via transference of consciousness.

So I have given you a good start, it is up to you to figure out the rest.

Next time: my very complicated view of how evocation and working with spirits work, along with everything in the universe. Also, if time allows, the greatest secret of magic that will make you throw all your books on magic away. Topic will be covered as long as providence doesn't pimp smack me.

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I'll tell you from the start, less confusion that way. I met her about two years ago, we were both sales people from different agencies going to the same company for their business. I won't say it was love at first sight but there was something there. We had dinner, then coffee and before we knew it, it was late and we were still talking. We got married a year later. Neither of us got that sale.

We bought a nice little house that needed a paintjob in the worst way. She got promoted at her job and began going across the country and overseas. I missed her all the time but it was wonderful when she came home. Life was as close to perfect as it could get. Until one day…

I was driving to a sale and my car broke down. Terrible luck, I know. The engine was smoking and I know as much about car engines as I do nuclear fission. So, I hiked up to the nearest house to use the phone. Real nice place; old money, and outside in the yard that would take me forever to cut with my rotary mower sat a little old man drinking lemonade. I told him my dilemma and he was very kind to help me out. He even made me some lemonade while I waited for the tow truck. We got to talking about life- ours being different in nearly every way- and as men do eventually about love. He told me his wife makes the best lemonade ever.  I told him mine did as well! Maybe we did have similar things as odd as that may be, this prince and me being a pauper. We then talked about our wives, and the similarities astounded us. Finally, we got to the sharing of picture stage. He showed me his first, due to some unusual occurrence I had left my pictures at home in frames.

People often use the phrase "I was floored" and it sounds somewhat silly or meaningless. Well, I was floored. I felt layed out. His wife was beautiful, young (way too young for him) and absolutely glorious. I should know, it was my wife as well. I think I hid my surprise well, him thinking that his wife was so gorgeous that she literally dropped the jaw of this commoner. Luckily, my tow truck arrived and I thanked him in a mumble as I walked away. I never saw him again.

When "my wife" got home, I knew her as Cassandra. I confronted her, she denied it. We screamed, she continued to fight the truth and then she left. Again, I never saw her after that.

Worked called and I tried to explain, they gave me leave instead of firing me. I started drinking alone at home. Finally, old friends started coming around trying to pull me out of the darkest period that I barely remember. One by one they eventually left. All but one: Reggie. Reggie was one of those friends you never really get to know all the way. You thought you knew a lot about him, but to be honest it was guesses and vague ideas. He on the other hand seems to know all about you, things you don't even tell him, as if he can listen to more than your words. Also Reggie liked to drink, so we became close.

One night after a terrible berserker rage of drinking we sat on a street corner on the sidewalk watching the headlights pass in the night, never really catching them up due to inebriance (which- check your dictionary, it is not a word…very strange). Finally, Reggie spoke up. He told me I could not keep going on like this, that the darkness in me was trying to eat me alive. Being completely drunk, I completely understood my friend. He offered assistance; he said he knew a way to take the darkness away, to be good again. I accepted how foolish I was.

He brought me to his flat, the weirdest apartment I had ever been in. Masks, idols, tapestries and God knows what else all strewn about. Not only that, but it always felt there was a conversation going on in some poorly lit corner, or just out of hearing range. The place was filled with whispers and silence that went too deep. I trusted Reggie and he told me to lay down on this weird shaped table. It was a dark stained wood, cut in the shape of a average sized man. It had holes cut out at certain locations making it look flimsy; although it was very well made and solid. He told me to lay down and I did. Before I knew it he had strapped me down. That is when I got scarred. He told me to trust him, that he was to make everything better, how I should not worry-it was only going to hurt just a little and it would all be over before I knew it. Then he gagged me.

I don't know what he was doing but he took these thin barbed needles, black and cold tied to little strings. He started piercing my body with them, just under the skin, letting no blood escape or wound to appear. He was a skilled as a surgeon. I was of course drunk and trying to scream through a gag. Nearly every foot of my body had a stinger like needle in it. It did not hurt but I started to get this feeling deep down that this was just starting. The strings led all one way into a vial.

He began tapping on each of the strings, humming a little tune. I can't remember what it was or how it went. The tapping and the humming began to feel like a drill going through me. Burning white hot right into my core. You know in the movies when wolf man starts to change for the first time and it looks like it hurts like all hell, imagine that but with no cool wolf man at the end. Eventually, I passed out. But before I did it seemed as if little black droplets where gliding out of my body, down the strings and into the vial. I woke up in the morning, feeling wonderful. No hangover, no depression, no aches or pains, hell, it felt like Saturday morning and I was six years old. There was Reggie standing a few feet away smiling at something in his hand. I told him I should kick his ass, but it rang hollow, only a jest and he knew it.

He showed me the vial from last night. I looked at it like a drunk looks at his own vomit from the night before. He told me that what he got from me was very valuable in his line of work, he said he owed me.

I never wanted to see Reggie again, I went back to work and it seemed like all that terrible crazy life was another world in a fantasy novel, just a bad dream. Life was good again, I never got sick, I did not drink anymore and my life seemed to get better in every way! Then Reggie called up. He said to be careful, that if I saw anything strange or scary to come find him double time. I laughed and told him thanks and hung up the phone.

So that is all I know. You guys found me, took me down here and started asking questions about a woman named Rachel, that I knew as Cassandra, that happened to be a woman I married. I wish I could help you more, but I don't know anything. Maybe you should talk to Reggie? If you don't mind me asking, what happened to her?

Like razor blades you say? Thousands of them? Black goo in the wounds? How odd. Ate her insides like acid? That is a shame.

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Visuddha
Current mood: awake

I have spoken with many people in person and through correspondence who think magic is either difficult or seemingly impossible. They seek the right spell or words of power that they think will aid them in their time of need

I have read many articles and have spoken with magicians that say one system of magic is greater than another, or Enochian magic is more potent than some other system, or chanting divine names is greater than sigil magic.

However, the most powerful magics I have ever witnessed or done myself are the ones that tap into the three keystones of magic: Will, Imagination and Emotion. And that is what makes any magic stronger than another.

Maybe chanting divine names taps into your will, imagination and emotion more so than sigils or maybe Enochian inspires you more than Goetia or vice versa. The essence of all magic, lies within that holy trinity of the will, imagination and emotion.

Since I mentioned Enochian, let me also mention something about magical letters, runes and sigils. In using premade symbols of magical forces one must imprint another's symbol language onto ones mind. By doing this we lose out on our own inner truth, our own unique view of the magical and natural universe. That is why I created and wrote the method of tapping into the magical currents and forces of the universe in my Book of Power. In this way, one has a sacred alphabet that comes naturally from within like fresh spring water out of ones magical geology. Now back to my train of thought.

All the ritual tools, all of the chants, everything we do or make in magic are only tools in which to tap the three potent forces. In many ways learning magic is like being blindfolded and inspecting an elephant. At first you may think it a tree, and then next a boulder, then a snake but finally after going round and round you discover the essential truth. It was an elephant the entire time.

Many people confuse Buddhism and yoga theory when they mention the world is illusion. People think that they mean the world does not exist. It does, the confusion lies in the way you view the universe. We do not see the bare bones truth of ourselves or the universe and are therefore caught in Maya's enchantment. A stone is still a stone and an elephant still an elephant.

Is it odd that all the gods of magic are also gods of writing, messages or speech? Why is that you think? Most likely if you have been in magic you have heard this before, but think on it again. Can a magician or god that uses divine speech lie? How could they? The most potent magical language is the one you speak. You probably think it is Hebrew, Enochian or Sanskrit or maybe even Bardon's cosmic language. Well unless you're a Jew, an Enochian spirit or a Tibetan or Bardon, you're wrong. The most potent magical language is your own.

Your throat chakra is responsible for magical speech and is connected to sound and the akasha. The "demon" of this chakra is named "Lies". Lying to your self or to others diminishes your ability to speak the truth. Imagine if you could not lie, if whatever you said was true. Taking another's truth is like taking a lie, only your truth will do. What if you stared at a candle and said the word "fire" with your will, imagination and emotion. Would it spark to flame?

Magic is easy. For a fun little experiment I want you to close your eyes and relax. Take a few deep breaths and just let go. Get to that state where you begin to day dream. Take a few minutes and bring together the will, imagination and emotion (feeling something as true) and say the word "light". Do it as a whisper at first. Then with confidence say "LIGHT" with all of your being. Make the light happen. You should experience a light shine even for a moment in your mental vision or if you were really focused in the astral.

For another fun experiment before you go to sleep and you're lying in bed. Speak the word "protected" and imagine all about you, in every corner of the room, in every room of your house, on the roof and in your driveway, in every window stands a protecting angel. Know it to be true, feel them there, see them watching and keeping you safe. Try and pay attention to your dreams that night. The next day see if you feel more guided and secure. To test your honesty see how nervous you become by saying the word "Fear" or "Shadows" before sleep. If you feel a decent level of anxiety about speaking these words it is a good sign you have some power behind your words.

Do this with a couple of things; try power, peace, love, anything. When you say it feel it, know it to be true, make it true. It may take a time or twenty but if you invest your self with the full power at your disposal you will begin to notice what you say, you experience. Keep it up; keep practicing until what you say happens on some level of your being. Be careful though, watch for that demon "Lies" to come around and try to steal your power. Invoke the angel "Truth" often. But don't forget magicians and magic gods are often tricksters, they know how to play the fool and be wise when the time calls for it.

All magic is yours, all power is yours, magic is easy and nearly anyone can do it, and most do without any knowledge of these secret keys.

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Weird Dream
Current mood: catalyzed

Hey gang!

Had a strange dream last night (when I say that I mean a dream other people may find weird as I am used to them) that I was just compelled to show and tell.

I dreamt that this thing:

http://devilsgoatee666.deviantart.com/art/Dream-Catcher-88867913

Was collecting dreamers and plugging them into its body (don't ask me how) these people then shared dreams together and could communicate through this being. Even if the people did not know each other, and of course they never remembered the "Dream Catcher" as I am starting to call it (it catches you, you dream).

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Ice is greater than water
Current mood: warm

      The title of this blog is a Chinese proverb, its meaning is that what comes from the original can be better than the source. In usage it typically refers to a student surpassing their teacher.

       Typically in western culture we don't think this way, we hold the original as better and with cheesy movie sequels reinforcing this concept it is easy to see why we hold this to be true. However, in the realm of magic, occultism, or with our eastern originators chi kung, the student becomes greater than the master. Not always, but if the teacher has done their job properly and the student was willing than it holds true.

        Why should this be the case? A true master has usually spent years exploring and experimenting in their craft. They learn through trial and error and often through much error they discover what really works well. They have years of wisdom under their belts and know the expedient and true way to reach a goal. So, then a student comes and the master begins teaching. The student does not have to go through all of the hard knocks and failures to get the knowledge base the master has, they have a ready fount of experience.

         Most westerners have a problem with a guru or personal master, it seems like an outdated concept and so many stories of abuse have been told it is no wonder most people cringe at the idea. I'll admit it myself, although I have some trusted friends who I often listen to their practice or work and see if it will work for me I am loathe to seek a master. I was always the person to find out the hard way, experiment and learn. I wonder sometimes what sort of work I would be doing now if I had a master to point out the way and steer me clear of the things that would not bear fruit.

         Another great aspect of being taught by a master or even a lodge is that often times they may have secret rituals or words of power that when used release a tremendous magical effect. Bardon mentions in his books these secret rituals that are jealously guarded to the death because someone outside the tradition would sap the battery of magical power built up over hundreds of years and not supply the battery before use.

       I got on this subject from a strange tangent. My wife a few weeks back bought a book on Hatha Yoga from a Goodwill (you'd be suprised what you find in there!) And the exercises and information presented was unlike anything I had ever read before. Some of the practices would definitely not be on the advertisement to become a hatha yogi for sure! This book was written by an American several decades ago who went to India to learn first hand from several gurus what yoga was all about. He learned many interesting practices and even one that sounded somewhat similar to a magical practice I developed myself from intuition and experimentation in my "Book of Power".

      So, not that I am looking for a guru or personal master, I have my path before me and know what work I have ahead thanks to my work on Initiation into Hermetics. However if a guru happened by and I got to know them as a man/woman of power, wisdom and dedication to the mysteries I don't think I would have a problem putting myself under their teachings.

On an unrelated note, I have spent a couple days checking out the beam(s) and it seems back to normal. After a very focused meditation to really wake up the astral senses I skryed the beam and was astonished to see hundred if not thousands of beams like an astral wicker atmosphere. More investigations are ongoing ;-)

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