Not feeling it...
Current mood: thoughtful
Category: Jobs, Work, Careers

You know those days when your so glad its quitting time and you get to go home and relax? Yeah, my days have been the exact opposite of that for close to two eeks now. Everyday that I've left work, I knew I still had a bunch of stuff to do when I returned in the morning. I think my lack of exercise has caught up with me cause today, I almosted didn't get out of bed. I did drag myself into work and have had a terrible day. I don't think Ive been this uncreative in years. I need to start to do other things. More productive things. More creative things. Any sugguestion?

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I think I'm looking for a new...
Current mood: disappointed
Category: Life

I'm not sure. Part of me really wants to just pack up and move to a new city. The other part just wants a new gig. None of me wants to stay where I am. Is it wrong to want a new life when you feel left behind? My best friend lives three hours away, my college roommate just move siz hours away. My --- is working my last nerve and I feel like I have nobody I can sit with face to face and tak to about anything that has to deal with real life. Well, I could talk to mom but don,t know what I,m going throught. By this time in here life she was kid number two and married four years. I don,t want to call my married friend cause they're married and have real life issues like morage, and kids and I just have this upsetting sinking felling that I'm missing my own life.

My third set of friends are starting to get married. Nothing says I'M SINGLE more then you going to all of your friend weddings and never bringing a date. I don't know what's more embarrassing, people knowing you'll show up without a date or you knowing your going alone because you have no one to ask. Should I really want a new life because I'm tried of being in this place? Am I the only person who feels like this? Is this what it feels like to be outside of God's will or just outside of my comfort zone?

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Are you ready for some....
Current mood: content

FOOTBALL!!!!
That's right, its that time of year again. I know it's the seventh week of the pro's and Bowl games will soon be in effect for college ball but I have to confess, I really do like football. Not one for professional sport traditionally, there is something about a well ran play, the possablity of the come back and the Bears Defence taking out the Cardnals that get's me in the game. Speaking of the Bears, did anybody watch that game last monday night? Pure football greatness, that's all I can say. I was horse Tuedays Morning.

Anyway, I've come on here to say that I do believe in FANtasy football and my teams isn't doing too bad, (4-2-0) That's do to the Charger's D and LT2. baby!!! and don't forget the man who stood in the shadows waiting his turn for two years, that's right I mean P. Rivers. I had faith and it paid off, sorta. Anyway, I hope I win this sunday, I don't like to lose, then again I guess neither do you.

Currently reading : Plan B By Sharon Lee Release date: 30 May, 2002

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Why advent children ?
Current mood: creative

I just watched the movie FF VII: Advent Children and I gotta tell ya'll out there, rent this movie. Now don't sit down expecting it to make you rethink your views on the war in Iraq or the fact that our produce is mostly genetically altered and whether that will effect your ability to have kids in the far or near future. What this movie will do is hold you in place while the action scenes are on the screen and makes you wish you knew what they where saying when there is dialog. Not because the movie is in Japanese and subtitled but because the dialog is loosely woven into a story, its passable but not nearly as bad as ultraviolet. I'm not entirely sure that movie was written by sane people because the dialog is not only very bad, it questions the sanity of the company who gave those people money to make that rolling heap of crap they dared to call a movie.

 Anyway, I digress, after watching Advent children, I was not only amazed at the beauty of the movie, I was speechless at the action sequences. I can say hands down, with very little doubt, this is the best action movie I have ever seen, when it comes to fight scenes and over all character decoration. Not the best anime ever but the best fights in an action movie. I can't think of one movie that has better fight scenes (maybe old boy, but that's a close call). They are outrageous because it is a cartoon but still very beautiful. The fights were fast but not so fast you couldn't see what was going on. Also the fights go on for a longtime, not 14 minute matrix long but long enough that you are left wanting. Also, there are some very cool costumes in this movie. Anime is know for its extravagant costumes and hair and that is the case here, but not so much they distract you. In fact, everyones costume in this movie had a purpose in the fact that they used it either in defense or offence.  I wouldnt buy this movie because I have rules about buying anime but it is definitely worth watching. In fact have a party, invite your friends who refuse to watch anime and show them this movie. If they like action movies at all they will enjoy this movie. The storyline is a little confusing because they don't really flesh the story out enough but is anime, you don't watch it because it  has great storylines and lovable characters. You watch it because it looks really good, you keep watching it because your trying to figure out if learning Japanese is worth learning so you watch it in the original language and see if there is something lost in translation.

Ok, that all I have tonight, well that and I bought Robin Hood: Prince of Thieves and Rebel Without a Cause, both special edition. Robin Hood isn't all its cracked up to be but I got both for $15 bucks. Rebel is loaded with all kinds of history and behind the scenes stuff.

Currently watching : Final Fantasy VII - Advent Children (2-Disc Special Edition) Release date: 25 April, 2006

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no ideas come to mind

I had the sudden urge to write something. Which is odd because I'm writing a novel and a feature but both of them are giving me problems right. It's not that I don't know what to write, it's more like I don't know where to begin. With the novel, it's easier, I start at the beginning, or should I? Anyway, the problem there is I'm in screenwriting mode, not novel mode and that can made for a bad book. Not descriptive enough, characters seeming too one dimensional, and the list can go on, forever in fact. But this writing, that I'm doing right here, right now, isn't about that. I want to write so all who read it are inspired to go out the next day and.....take out the trash, or wash the dishes or vacuum the front carpet. Why these things and not world peace?
World peace is too big to attack in one blog. See, if we all take the trash out on trash day, our houses and apartments won't be smelly or junky. People would come home and be peaceful, relaxed. No one would fight about how the house is unkempt because the trash can would be empty. To think something as simple as taking the trash out can have this effect. Then vacuuming can only make things better and a clean kitchen can lift someones spirits, so go ahead and do those dishes too. Before you know it, people all over the world are more relaxed at work and in treaty negotiations and the world is at peace. I guess world peace isn't too big to write about in one blog. But world peace is boring and until the aliens start attacking, lets keep not liking each other so we can get into fist fight over stupid stuff like, i don't know, _________________(feel free to put your own noun in the blank). Suddenly, I'm to tired to write.

Currently watching : King Kong (2-Disc Widescreen Special Edition) Release date: 28 March, 2006

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unabridged passion

So Valentines Day is coming up and I have a confession, I HATE Valentines Day. I try not to use the word hate because by definition it is a strong emotion and not something that should be said or taken lightly. Ever sense elementary school I have loathed this holiday. I think it's mostly because they would make us give valentines to everybody in the class and I knew deep down that nobody cared to give me one. I think this is where my low self-esteem started, but that's another blog.

I hate this holiday because, to me it celebrate the wrong kind of love. Valentines Day defines love as a materialistic showing of one persons love for another. Not that flowers and dinner aren't nice, but to define something as powerful as Love with small things like flowers, chocolates and cards is beneath us as Humans. Love is a deep emotion that has caused and ended wars and countries. The best example of love I know is Jesus Christ. He gave his live for me when I didn't care who He was. He loved me to the point of death when I didn't know who He was. Who do you know like that? There are people in my life who I have known all my life that I wouldn't give my life for; let alone someone who I don't know. Love is a huge thing and we have made it small and cute and stuck it inside a card that is sent along with flowers.

I say all this to say, don't let the definition of love be small. Its sooo much bigger then that. Why don't you show someone how much you love them by doing something for them that they can't do for themselves? Let's make love as big as it should be.

Currently reading : Into and Out of Dislocation By C. S. Giscombe Release date: April, 2000

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Sleep!!! I NEED SLEEP!!!!
Current mood: exhausted

yeah, I need it bad baby. i'm tired of pulling these all nighter cause, well it makes it hard to have a convo with me that isn't ping pongish. anyway, all I really have left to do is edit my doc, write two more papers for cine class, do the review for pro-prac, and make a coffee cup out of sugar packets. what's not to love about college?

Currently watching : T2 - Extreme DVD Release date: 03 June, 2003

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it...is..finished....almost

SO, i have been killing myself these past few weeks making a ridiculous large structure to go in the BA exhibition this fall. The four of us, the elements as I like to call them, have helped with this huge thing and I am greatful for that. It's almost done, we are putting it together on monday then everyone will know the greatness that is the elements.

I can feel how close the semester is to being over and it's scary cause I have soo much work left to due.But who cares, I just got two free harddrive out of the trash, they together only equal 10 gigs but they where free, not the encloser thought. Anyway, I'm out of here, more logging and capturing needs to happen.

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your out of order and I'll hold you in contempt!
Current mood: relieved

So, as of today, I have one month of school left. words can not express the amount of joy and accomplishment I feel when i think about this. nevermind I still have 10 things to finish before I can actually graduate.

I used to have my hold life planned out. i knew exactly what I would be doing when i was a certain age. This was before I desided I would do what the Lord wanted me too and now, well...

It's sort of freeing not know what I'll be doing in a month. I have no idea where I will be or what I will be doing but I'm glad its something I don't have to worry about. It's not my responablity to know these answers and that makes me happy. So I'll apply for some jobs and take a few road trips to visit my friends and I will be free. From school, from friends, from family. I'll be truely free to go and do. What I will do, only one person knows....

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worst timing

    I'm at the worst time of the semester. I have twenty things to finish, half of which depend on other people. I have papers to write but I don't know where to start. I have the chance to shoot a few rolls of film, but have to come up with storyboards for shots that tell a story without words. I need to read my bible because I'm losing my hearing. I feel like I've built everybody up to expect this grand finale but I might dispoint them by crossing the finishline to late.
    I never seem to have good news to share with anybody. The good thing is I'm almost done with the book I'm reading (see last post) and I'm excited about the movie coming out. I'm looking forward to having time to write in Dec. I miss this.
    There somthing freeing about being able to put down on paper or digial paper what the thoughts are that are in your head. Another piece of good news, I have come up the idea for my first novel. It'll be good, its about an film student who gets kidnapped by alien who learns she hasn't really been kidnapped but rescued and now must help her rescuers save the world. I'm sure some punk film student a few years from whenever it's published will want to adapt it into some CGI bullcrap with very little attention to acting or the story I'm going to tell. Well at least then I know someone will have liked it enough to turn it into crap.

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