There will always be a part, and always a very large part of every community, that have no care but for themselves, and whose care for themselves reaches little further than impatience of immediate pain, and eagerness for the nearest good. - Samuel Johnson
I gave way to delight, as mystics have for centuries when they peeked through the curtains and discovered that this world - so manifestly real was actually a tiny stage set constructed by the mind. We discover abruptly that everything we accept as reality is just social fabrications.
So even though I absolutely can not afford it, I'm going anyway. There was an essay competition a while back that allowed you to vie for a free ticket, if need was great enough. It ended too early for me though as I wasn't sure of my ability to go. However, now it seems that Black Rock city is calling my name, and who am I to deny such sweet languid nothings curling across the desert winds to rest themselves upon my earlobe?
I would like to mention that my birthday is coming up at the end of the month (Aug. 20th) to be exact, and instead of the same old liquor/cig. movie/trinkets I always so lovingly receive and cherish, I think a different sort of gift may be in order. That of the monetary kind. I don't need much, just enough for the entrance fee, gas there and back, food/water/necessities for about 8 days in the desert, plus 4 days there/back.
I'm just sayin.
This will definitely be a life altering experience, which I will take back with me and share with you all via Blogs, pics, and video. Trust me, you don't want to miss this one.
Think of it as an investment in your entertainment future.
p.s. Any sort of fun costume/art stuffs/any other sort of good/services donation will be much appreciated. I can also trade, lets talk.
I've spent some time, veiled and unreal, like those brief moments before waking, where the dream is still on your tongue, still wrapped around you like a warm blanket, still your truth. I spent a year in that dream state. The past year, the fog finished lifting. Now, I see bigger truths. Truths I'd known before the dream, truths held closely. Truths discovered in another land. I've come full circle again. I've come to terms with the reasons why I'd slept so long. I realized it wasn't all a dream, but I realized some of the parts I'd clung to turned out to be falsities caused by my need to hold onto the hope of happiness. And there were such beautiful things worth clinging to and fighting for, but there were other, darker things there. And those darknesses out shone the light and good and no matter what I said and did, the darkness prevailed, and grew. I can't fight that for someone else. I couldn't let it consume me. I had to wake up. The harshness of the morning light blinded me for a time, but my eyes are adjusting finally. Perhaps it's time for coffee.
Wow, so this week was all recovery from last months worky-works. I spent all yesterday hanging out in a pool, with friends, relaxing. It was exactly what I needed. I've been editing this past weekend as well. I'm really excited to get the opportunity to start editing again. And after this next film, I'll be fully integrated into post production and begin editing the next films for a bit. This company is great, and I'm lucky to have the ability to wear many hats and jump around in each department. I was actually planning on moving to Austin before this production job fell in my lap, and I'm happy with the company, the people, and the work. It's been a long year, but I've come from PA to 2nd AD so quickly (I had even 1sted along the way.) I haven't seen a final cut version of the first film, but I have a feeling it'll actually be good. Not like all the crap, made for sci-fi channel, movies out there. So, here's hoping. And, there may be an opportunity for my own feature at some point. *fingers crossed.*
Well, On Fri. we finally wrapped our second film, "Judgement Day." I want to thank everyone who came out, sometimes for a few days, to be an extra. I hope you had a blast.
I really enjoyed our first film, "The Darkest Evil." It was based off of an H.P. Lovecraft story. I've been interested in Cthulu mythos since "In the Mouth of Madness," but never thought I'd work on such a film.
I used to be soooo into sci-fi horror films growing up. However, after attending film school, they became second fiddle to a different sort of film. For a while I was also inundated with some pretty bad movies, and lost my taste for it. Now, don't get me wrong, I do love some cheesy shit and I have seen recently "Black Sheep" and highly recommend it.
JD seems, for me, to be a much stronger film though. It may be because I'm a huge psychics geek. (I have "A Brief History of Time" and "The Universe in a Nutshell" on my bedside table.) But I also think the plot itself stands up better. (Although there are some pretty egregious logistical errors.) All in all, the driving plot will cover, at least, some of them.
I did, however, really enjoy seeing Dean Stockwell vie with Jeffrey Combs, in Stockwell's old role of Wilbur. And everyone nearest and dearest me knows of my love of Jeffrey Combs. And I did have more fun on DE.
We'll have to see how the third one goes. Vampires vs. Werewolves? Heck yes!
I think of kittens and coins. I think of soldier girls, softly windblown, wishing I'd kissed them that last time. I think of lives changed by a year, then brought back full circle after the next. I think of time spent, chasing white stags through labyrinths of ghosts. I think of getting exactly what I'd wanted in ways not expected. I think of hot chocolate and the book. I think of closing my eyes and letting the world pass me by and grabbing all the knowledge in the air, letting it flow through me and over me, leaving your voice echoing in the distance. I think of buskers singing ain't no sunshine, and birthday champagne. I think of the smile on your face and the lingering hugs goodbye. I think if I had to do it again, I'd be braver this time. and I think, no matter what promises were made, I'll never see you again.
I've been having soooo much fun the past couple of months it should be illegal! I've been having the best sex... like mind blowing until I'm too dizzy to stand straight sex. I've been hanging out with the coolest kids in the highest places. And I've been laughing my ASS OFF! with out liquid encouragement even. And it's all thanks to real, genuine, quality people, whom I'm pleased to let in my life. Thanks guys! See you at the fashion show/bonfire tomorrow, dress to impress or undress.
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