loss
Current mood: depressed
Category: Life

What

the?

Did I really feel that?

Did I know?

How?

Why?

I

tried to change and during my fury

I watched as Bernie left

Hot Buttered Soul turned cold

and one of the most innovative, creative, inspirational beings

I've ever encountered in the flesh

was taken.

Bionik Brown, my friend

I am SOOOOOOOOOOO sorry

for OUR loss.

You are forever in my heart & in my head...

Wherever you are, just know that it was indeed an honor and a privledge to have known you. Safe journey...

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let it be known...
Current mood: hot
Category: Dreams and the Supernatural

here we go...

for all the promises unfulfilled

all the appointments "missed"

phone calls unreturned

photo sessions done for "free"

friendships on hiatus

love(s) lost

warnings unheeded

we are done

today is a new day

and I'm done playing

get ready...or not...

I'm coming

Currently listening : In the Jungle Groove By James Brown Release date: 2003-06-17

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freestylin again
Current mood: awake
Category: Writing and Poetry

2day is 2days past Tuesday

or so u say

actually I think it's already Friday

so if I have my way I may

slip into the darkness like the world at sunset

from the bottom of the abyss I scream "how deep does this shit get!?!"

So low it's like I'm doing a handstand on the tallest mountain in Antartica

I guess this is what Atlas went through uplifting every single particle

I've read every single article

on my insomnia

onomonopeia

and literary snafus

silenced my sneezing so the sounds don't come out a-c-h-o-o

so back 2

the rantings of a legend in his own mind

speaking the right lines

at the wrong time

been a long time...

and I ain't nowhere even remotely close to sleepy

lyrical libations flowing right out of my teepee

the smoke alarm has sounded

and rebounded upon itself

even if nobody's listening

my target audience is still myself...

Currently listening : Introducing the Hardline According to Terence Trent d'Arby By Terence Trent d'Arby Release date: 1990-10-25

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freestyle - cuz that’s wuzup...

harder to find than your mind
that time
you lost it in the darkness
still tryna chill but still build
so I spark this
battle cry from the wilderness
hoping the wolves are howling back 4 me
and only me
only me
B
D
1
2C
thee
so whenever
U
R
ready
drop hot rocks that smile back from the asphalt
bring the sugar cause my flow is sometimes as bitter
AS
salt
my fault
if I'm losing my place in line
shine or don't shine
it doesn't matter when you're blind...

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time to retire this one
Current mood: okay
Category: Life

I used 2 love her



I used 2

seriously

it was the kind of love

your gramma used to sing about

waaaaay

way back in the day

late nite flights

left us both in a daze

I

I

I

and I

used 2 love her

I used 2

and it was everything

I ever wanted

ever needed

I used 2 love her

like I love chicken

like I love Star Wars

like I love poetry

like I love

me

maybe more

I used 2 love her

completely

deeply

spiritually

metaphysically

and then when I learned

she didn't love me

it hurt

but not nearly as much as

the pain that came from knowing

I used 2 love her

and once in a while





I still do...

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untitled
Category: Writing and Poetry

3 year old thugs
and 40 year old hoes
I see em in my sleep
then I wonder why I'm awake
again
tell somebody
tell anybody
everybody
to tell you
to
tell me
why
I ain't scared
doesn't matter
just know that
I ain't
so why the hell do you
think I am?
I seen more trouble in my life
than most
but I know
there's more waiting for me
2 C
U C?
don't tell God how big your storm is
tell that storm how big your God is
and in the meantime...
don't tell me anything...
nothing...
until you tell yourself
whatever you need to say
to avoid those 3 year old thugs
and 40 year old hoes
and remind them they were once royalty
and if we get it together
we will all be royalty
again...

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get up
Current mood: jedi
Category: Writing and Poetry

Nobody cares if you can't dance well. Just get up and dance.
it could always be worse
just when you think it's as bad as it can get
you learn it's not
and it never was
it's not how you make me feel by doing something you're used to
it's how you make yourself feel by trying something new to you
nobody can get through to you if you're not open to yourself
I can't trust you if you don't trust you...
Nobody cares if you can't dance well. Just get up and dance.
take a chance on yourself for a change
I know
still seems strange?
it always will
until you do something about it
something like
something like
something like
something like
I guess that's just something you'll have to figure out on your own...
just remember
Nobody cares if you can't dance well. Just get up and dance.

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church
Current mood: jedi
Category: Writing and Poetry

Going to church doesn't make you a Christian anymore than standing in a garage makes you a car.
It's like the beginning of the end
again
then you wake up and find you've been dreaming that you were awake the entire time
wishing you were somewhere else besides out of your mind
rewind to your past life if you don't believe me
remind yourself of the times you said you wanted more but never put in the work to get it?
remember?
from November to July you try and you try to deny both the fury and the focus
like your coping mechanism survived the nervous breakdown intact
as if the straight jacket is what taught you how to act
but, you see...
Going to church doesn't make you a Christian anymore than standing in a garage makes you a car.
meet me in the dark part of your dreams with a flashlight
right there at the edge of your nightmares
right where you hate to be but you need to see me and we need to be of the same accord
anything else neither one of us can afford
I always heard you can see more in the absence of the light
I hope that explains my actions in the night
and though I know it's either not quite or not at all
it's quite a fall
falling from grace by calling your race something other than royalty
showing both considerable disdain and intense disloyalty
don't worry
we'll make sure the punishment fits the rhyme
Going to church doesn't make you a Christian anymore than standing in a garage makes you a car.
and it doesn't matter who, when, or where you are
apostate or anointed, reborn or spiritually disappointed
lost or saved, we'll all be reunited in the grave
so
save
the children
then tell them to save the next
because...
Going to church doesn't make you a Christian anymore than standing in a garage makes you a car.

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Giani
Current mood: bummed
Category: Life

hurtin like  new wisdom teeth and a cavity on a cold night

hurtin like passing a gallstone

hurtin cuz you're gone...

today makes a month

damn

hurtin like nothing else in the world

I miss you

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Ignorance is bliss...
Current mood: high
Category: Life

Ignorance is bliss - it has 2 B
denying the existence of heaven-sent benevolence both silently and violently
might as well B left
deaf dumb and blind
baby I can still smell U when U shine
so speak your mind
even if it takes U more way more than a week 2 find the right way 2 say it
I pray it gets better than ever 4 U
I still adore U
nothin but love 4 U
the more U know the more U grow so
now even mo so
I flo 4
mental midgets and neanderthals
show up 2 parx
with a lyrical basketball
like "wuzup y'all?"
yo call
make em take em?
OK
at home on any court
mixing first thoughts and last resorts
hook shot from half court
swish...
I wish...
thats why I brought my own personal genie and we be
making metaphysical miracles happen
on a daily basis
watching all sorts of reactions on the ladies' faces
ain't interested in trading places with nobody
that's why 2 me
monopoly is way more than a hobby
none of this is a pastime
so make this the last time U question my authoritie
I
I
I
I know
Ignorance is bliss
it has 2 B
but as for me, well
we'll see

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