As I watch the mice try to find the cheese at the end of the maze, I can't help but to laugh; I see them all scurry aimlessly from a vantage point somewhere above it all. I have missed the drama of our collective youths, it seems, but only for the plebeian amusement it provides me to watch it all go by.
Realize that these things do not revolve around you - I take no satisfaction in your discomfiture. Truth be told, I don't even really care. It is only now that your reaction is of any consequence, only now that I can watch you dart about within the labyrinth of your own device and never, ever reach the prize.
If you had ever bothered to exhibit even the cheapest modicum of civility, perhaps I would have done the same, told you a bit of what you wanted to hear and eased your mind with the gossamer wisps of kind words. It is likely the skeletons could have remained interred, never to see the light of day or reach the narrow gaze of ignorant eyes.
But no, this was not to be.
So reside in your drama if you will. I will happily stand by and watch . . . it is undoubtedly better than the average summer rerun, after all.
Which Tarot Card am I?
Current mood: amused
Category: Quiz/Survey
You scored as II - The High Priestess. The High Priestess is a card of intuition, instinct and hidden knowledge. She knows all your secrets, you can hide nothing from her. Yet you will never know the secrets she herself protects.If well aspected in a Tarot spread, this card can indicate the use of intuition to solve problems; trust to your instincts. If badly aspected, it can mean suppression and ignoring of such instincts - following your head at the expense of your heart.
If purple sunsets are to be followed by night skies, I can do nothing other than resign myself to this period of darkness. I know that the dawn will emerge; in time I will be bathed in the warm sunlight again. If there is an imminent end, it is a necessary progression; all that lives must die, all that exists must cease, if only to be reborn again. And if you leave I will not follow.
If you feel that I have wronged you, I will not plead my case. If you believe what you have inferred from casual statements and ill-conceived words above all of what you know about me, I have no defense. If this is what you wish, - this misgiving, this misunderstanding - you may have it. And if you leave I will not follow.
If you love an external ideal that cannot possibly exist, instead of the star that you are, and have always been, I do not feel compelled to apologize. If you allow a single event, either real or perceived, to shake your confidence, or breed diffidence within you, I cannot be held culpable. If you find that you have given me too much power over you, power that I do not deserve or desire, please take it back. And If you leave I will not follow.
There exist so many different layers - whatever is immediately within the reach of focus becomes the focus. All points are relative to this focus; while the periphery is a wash of color and life, the reality of the moment is at the core, the center, the focus. Sarcasm. Sincerity. Truth or anti-truth in any form become confused in the verbal sense because all things are true, false, honest or unjustified relative to the focus. Anything is possible. Everything is real. You can never deceive a focused mind, for it will always and for eternity simply BE. Focus on the reality of the moment; to request any more is to ask too much. Diversifying the focus is such a lofty cause, and to what end? What purpose have we served in muddying the details with generalization and confusing the reality of the moment with ideas like "eternity"? Who needs "Forever" when there exists a "Right Now" within which all things are feasible? Who needs "Forever" when the space of one moment could conceivably define a lifetime? Lofty ideas can finally sleep because now, right now, we've got some real concerns to attend to, mainly consisting of life and the subsequent living of such. Real answers, the practical applications to all this spiritual, intellectual strife that I'm forever swimming in when I put the pen to the page, are right around the corner.
Seek to define - What is the gimmick? (It's all a matter of focus.)
If you cannot define a moment with words, what is lacking? The moment? Or the words?
"Can you picture what will be, So limitless and free"
You took my hand, Went to a place you knew Where things really are what they seem. You showed me secrets of which to dream but never to speak. You gave me new spectacles and led me to new windows with your gentle words.
Ebony night settled; By the light of the moon I could finally see.
I looked on, in awe of the reptiles you command; Their armies marching on in iridescent formation by the crackling orange firelight, And leading us all back to you.
The conflagration raged. The beat grew stronger And the night blended Into eternity, Bending, stretching its bounds To the music caught in the brume.
Each of us melted into a common melody; We were indistinguishable tones piping only to the fire of your memory.
You are a dream. You are an angel. My only wish is To see you again.
You scored as Demon. Demon: Darkness is your sanctuary. Demons are many and are all different in appearance and rank. The most common are the ones that feed off of human souls. They love to make someone fall into their inner darkness. Blood, wrath, murder... You name it they love it. These beings don't care who you are, if they set their sights on you, let's just hope you know a good exorcist. They kill any love within you and pull you toward their side. By any means possible. You wish for chaos and hate, you are the Demon.
World View Quiz
Current mood: Like, way existential, dude . . .
What is your world view?
You scored as Existentialist. Existentialism emphasizes human capability. There is no greater power interfering with life and thus it is up to us to make things happen. Sometimes considered a negative and depressing world view, your optimism towards human accomplishment is immense. Mankind is condemned to be free and must accept the responsibility.
Horror Killer Quiz
Current mood: Homicidal, apparently
Which horror killer are you?
You scored as Jigsaw. You are Jigsaw. You dont enjoy killing people at all. You instead love to see how far people will go to live. However if it ends in a bloody death, you still sleep with a smile on your face. You are intelligent, and know how to outwit just about anyone. And that spells bad news for anyone who falls into your games of death and torture.
"Who knows how long I've been lost in the dark, Followed closely by the footsteps of my failures."
Shades of gray hang loosely on the morning air. The earth is dark, murky, lifeless in the dim sunlight which finds its way through the cover of clouds overhead. The streets, devoid of color, teem with the overworked, overused, over jaded masses who walk on tired feet and ride in faded automobiles that have long since lost their sparkle. Buildings rise up and cut stark skylines out of the gray morning. Within them everyone speaks without expression. Within them everyone hears without listening. Gray cacophony ransacks the silence. Discord, the anger of the masses and of the machines, blurs the words of reason and the course of thought. Noise blends into a colorless drone, making us numb. Nothing is immune to weariness; when everyone and every thing and every thought and every feeling has slipped away, the gray remains to fill the morning.
"A pair of souls become undone. Where were two now one."
The vampire drinks and his world begins to unwind from reality . . . his thoughts begin to slip below consciousness. Rubine passions awake within; the blackest night fears and most unholy of thoughts quake his simplicity. She complicates him, yet streamlines his desires to one single sanguine focus. His heart relishes the darkness she brings. He finds solace in her darkness, the vivid blackness surrounding her. He turns toward her deep primal passion as his body strives to meet her sensuous mouth. Long afterward he can still feel her crimson kisses lingering on his pale neck, haunting his mind, his essence and life mingling upon her sultry lips . . . The vampire drinks up his eternity and tastes his soul. The vampire consumes his every thought and vision; she haunts his dreams with her immortal grace. Her gaze bores slowly to his core, toward his heart. He can no longer hide.
Drink: Drink 'til your head begins to swim with my thoughts. Drink 'til your veins race with my essence. Drink 'til your eyes overflow with my visions. Drink 'til your lips echo my words. Drink 'til your cold heart pounds with my life. Drink.
This is a survey developed by Casanova from my Anton LaVey group.
Very interesting . . .
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Casanova's Satanist Survey
~~*About The God/Goddess You Are*~~
What Specific Purpose Have You Dedicated Your Life to, If Any?:
To the pursuit of knowledge and pleasure in all of its forms.
Are You A Member of the Church of Satan?:
Yes
If So, Are You Listed as an Active or Registered Member?:
Registered - Application for Active Membership is pending.
Were You a Satanist Since Birth, or Did You Once Follow Another Religion?:
I have followed many paths, very few of these can and should be called "Religions"
How Long Have You Carried the Title "Satanist" as Your Religion?:
About four years
Which of the Four Crown Princes of Hell Do You See Yourself Closest To?:
An amalgamation of Leviathan and Belial
Who is Your Favorite of the Four Crown Princes?:
All have their appeal.
Which of the Seven Deadly Sins Do You Consider Your Favorite?:
I try to rotate them all equally.
Which of the Nine Satanic Sins Are You Most Guilty of?:
Solipsism - it is sometimes hard to believe that others may not understand what seems so basic to me.
Do You Own a Baphomet Pendant, Ring, or Talisman?:
Yes
Do You Prefer "Hail Satan!" Or "Ave Satanas!"?:
Ave Satanas - more exotic, poetic and less blunt.
If You Have Any Tattoos, Are Any Satanically Themed?:
A few are, though mostly in symbolic ways.
~~*Holidays*~~
What do You do to Celebrate Your Birthday?:
I usually go out with friends for an evening of depravity and debauchery.
Do You Celebrate Walpurgisnacht?:
Yes
Do You Celebrate the Solstices?:
Yes
Do You Celebrate Halloween?:
Yes
Do You Celebrate Christmas?:
Only superficially - any reason is a good reason for revelry, of course
Do You Celebrate Any Other Holidays?:
As many of the Pagan ones as possible - I love the costumes and the rituals and meeting new people of potentially like minds.
~~*Satanic Rituals*~~
Do You Own Ritual Robes or Other Ritual Clothing?:
Yes
Do You Consider Ritual an Important Part of Your Religious Needs?:
It has its place, for the sake of art and for some evocation purposes.
Do You Perform Rituals Regularly?:
Not as much as I used to; some would say not as much as I should.
Have You Ever Preformed a Lust Ritual?:
Beyond shaking my ass, none is usually required.
Have You Ever Preformed a Compassion Ritual?:
Never for others, on occasion for myself.
Have You Ever Preformed a Destruction Ritual?:
For the dissipation of negative energies only.
Which Type of Ritual Do You Find Most Useful or Desirable?:
All have their place, and I have had results with each.
Where Do You Perform Your Rituals? (We Won't Tell):
Mostly in my house, though occassionally outdoors.
~~*On Other Religions*~~
Your Thoughts on Christianity, Islam, and Judaism?:
I love sheep, I just can't eat a whole one.
Your Thoughts on Buddhism?:
There is a time and a place for the negation of existence.
Your Thoughts on Paganism and Wicca?:
Gardnerian Wicca is almost entirely based on the writings of Crowley, for whom I have the utmost respect. However, White-Lighters are seldom any fun at parties.
Your Thoughts on Spiritual Satanism and Devil Worship?:
Why would anybody ever bother to worship anything external.
Do You Respect Other Religions or Find Them Unworthy of Respect?:
I respect anyones choice to follow any path toward which they feel strongly inclined.
Do You Enjoy Mythology of Any Kind?:
Yes.
~~*The Outside World*~~
Do Your Friends Know You Are a Satanist?:
Most of them do.
Does Your Family Know You Are a Satanist?:
I figured out a long time ago that they are better left in the dark with regards to any details of my personal life.
Are You Open About Your Religion In Public?:
I prefer to cultivate the attitude of the chameleon in most public spaces.
What is the General Response You Receive When People Learn of Your Religion:
I surround myself with many types of people from differing backgrounds, however most are intellectuals who do not react negatively to anything one can back up with facts.
Has Anyone Ever Tried To Convert You?:
Aside from the wooly pamphleteers who roam my neighborhood, no. I sort of wish somebody would, so I could further hone my debating skills.
Do You Often Hear The Phrase "I'll Pray for You"?:
Not since I was a little kid.
Have You Ever Said "HAIL SATAN!" In a Large Group of People?:
Does it count if they were saying it too?
~~*Random*~~
Your Thoughts On Dr. LaVey?:
Just a man, albeit an incredibly intelligent one.
Do You Know Any Fellow Satanists In Your Local Area?:
A few.
Have You Ever Attended a Grotto Meeting or a Gathering of Fellow Satanists?:
I've run into them at Denny's, but that's about it (aside from my close friends, of course).
Would You/Have You Ever Married a Demon Lover?:
I'm not really the marrying kind - Satan himself would probably think twice before bringing me home to meet momma.
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