"On the Light"
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"On the Light"

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"Gazedream"
Current mood: optimistic
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"Gazedream"

~yes, I have been a little pre-occupied~
For those who've noticed my -ummmm... 'distance,' the other day my Dad went through another surgery. This time it was to clear out his other Carotid Artery, in his neck. It was "messy" according to the surgeon... So, I've been thinking a lot of him for a week or so, now. I had a wonderful conversation with him this afternoon, and he seems very much himself despite the surgery two days ago. He was released to go home yesterday evening, and we plan to go see him tomorrow evening, with family. There've been concerns I'm sure about the possibilities of stroke, and blood/oxygen supply to the brain. He's had this surgery (to the other artery, on the other side of his neck) before, and it was a grande success. This time he struggled slightly more, most likely due to the condition of the blood vessel this time being more troublesome. With this surgery he's also better off for other surgery that will be needed for other things. I mean, I have been okay, but truly -this has been in my 'background' for the past while. My brother (who lives very close to him up in the mountains) was wonderful about keeping me posted, and it helped a lot. Many, many thanks to him!

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June went away-
Current mood: confused
Category: Art and Photography

-just some 'end' bits: (preshow CFC)





("pull my finger...")



("DON'T pull MY finger!")

~and I decided to make one fancy~

(other stuff to come... likely... HappyDependenceDayToAnotherSlavery!)
(akaHappy4th)

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Oh my...
Current mood: hot
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I sometimes have my breath taken away-

"Naturale"

yep... 'tis a desert alright... we just jumped to 100*F (38*C) and it's midafternoon... oops! just went up to 101!!! (It's 103 on the front porch in the shade, and 99 on the back porch... egads!) URBAN HEAT! (methinks the 'official' rating is out at the airport.)

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It’s a desert-
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ohhhhh-joy... projected high temps here are to be about 102*F, or 39*C...
(HAH! WAIT! 'they' just changed it... knocking it down 3 degrees!)
(It's my home page... yet still I am glad that my AC resides primarily in my office!)
(I often sit here in a hoodie, in the summer...)
But still:

"Tornadic"

(I was thinking of stormy weather) *yawns*

Okay-y-y-y... What's the news? None. (Or rather 'tis my guts just haven't woken up yet this morning? THEY are 'inspirational,' and often get my mind a'goin'...) So, I'm fumbling about with my coffee. Am about to go out and give life to the garden by means of watering. (Just did... I'm back now. Multitasking.) And... it's been a delightfully-cool evening. But I'll be closing all the windows early today. (What mindless prattle... eeeeyikes!) -Today... I am having all the 'sucker'-saplings removed and a number of 'junk' trees that are about to ruin the roofing on the house. (The landlord next door... or his idiot minions trimmed a bunch of branches and piled them between 'their' garage and my house... Not very safe when it gets this dry!) And I'm finally getting about to having my huge, ancient cherry tree trimmed back, to include about a third of it that has died off in its old, old age... I'm gonna feel for those guys working out there today. But... I'm sure the humidity is near zero. Perspiration works. -I'll quit babbling.

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before I leave for the day- one year...
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Some time ago, I began looking at the years from July-to-July as well as from January, to January. Shortly after the whole esophageal cancer, cardiac & pulmonary meltdowns -and then slowly became relatively coherent last year, I began keeping track of just about 'how many' edits were going to be done per annum, now that I have this kind of time to work on editing faithfully, every day. I'm pleased to announce that from July '07 to July '08 there were roughly
800 edits
of adjusting, retouching and augmentation regarding my/our various compositions, both old and new, digital and chemical.
-Not bad for such a hellacious year!

I'd like to take a small moment and express my appreciation to those whom I've worked with over all these years. I'd also like to thank you... 'the audience' that also nudges me down this path to continue with such things dear to my/our hearts. Inspirations are a whole, huge cause -and you've all been integral in part to it... and me.

Thankyou again.

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a coupla more-
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(if anyone 'knows' who these folks might just be...???)

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It ain’t over ’til the Fat Fella quits singing!
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*chuckles*

or- in my case... *chortles*

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I need to stop in -say hello -mention sumthin’... and crash
Current mood: weird
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Wow... there's a been rather a LOT of you here today... (a brrrrroken record by right around 100 hits above the previous 'high' I've notices... so really, humbley, I say thankyou -and I'm glad I got in here to the office afore hitting tha'sack!)

The server was down for a bit here, today... methinks it may have been weather related (a lively little thunderdunder came through... and I noticed a brownout, so it may have it home where the server is locate, several miles south of here;) but everything appears okay now. (Thankyou, THE Ericle!)

I actually had a kinda crappy day. My guts were sensitive today, and I've figured out that my age old problem of 'the heat' affecting my appetite, and my stomach -is still a part of me. It's not such a good thing, when I'm pretty sure I'm borderline malnourished... dammit. Like I need another thing to contend with! This is something I'm gonna have to work on, and just 'how' I'm going to step around my lack of appetite during these hot, hot days of mid-summer is likely to be a challenge. -I'm honestly thinking of having central air-conditioning installed. Of course, I'm gonna wait until the off season and save about 1K in doing so. However, in the meantime... methinks it's about time to finish off getting the rest of the thermal pane windows done, upstairs. Only four more, and today the company that did the seven others last year, sent me a rebate check to assist in another installation. (I figure it's worth about the cost of one window...)

Wow... thanks for all the hits and kudos. (If everyone of those lurkers left kudos... whoa... now THAT would be something!) But still... I'm honoured. Thanx... again.

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One More Thing: in the immortal words of Messrs. K.Richards & M. Jagger, I quote:
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"Got to scrape the shit right off'yer shoes!"
('tis a joke, folks... seems apropos, you know... regarding my current mood, and condition!)

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Carphax Files Corp in B&W, on an altogether too grey evening...
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*soundcheck (I shall say it again) should be imperative, complete and professional*
MY RETURN TO CARFAX FILES CORPORATION v.1

"that is all for now... go eat... hopefully take a crap... and rest..."

Currently listening : Exile on Main St. By The Rolling Stones Release date: 1994-07-26

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a little here... a little there...
Current mood: rushed
Category: Art and Photography

(2/5ths of my squad of feline nurses)




(says a lot about music, doesn't it?)



(I occasionally feel like myself!)





and... this... is that we're pretty much 'caught up' with 'incidental' photos...

(I'll be back...)

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again, and again, and again, and again...
Current mood: blustery
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Man... I'm trying to keep a positive mental outlook about all 'this.'
*yawns* oh well.
Sometimes I just drag myself into existence everyday, after a good night's-full of dreams and wonderings.
It's almost as if my psyche itself rebels against my reality -in dreams. 'Tis a good, good place to be.
And- at least it's being supported by unaccountable exhaustions from day-to-day, as also sometimes is the case at night. Yesterday was a rollercoaster of good points and bad ones, and once the bowel and digestion difficulties abated, I slept most of the evening away, napping. -I got my almost daily visits by Trent and then April as well. Which is saying a lot because although I wasn't in a foul mood, I was just in weary-mode; a whole lot of introspection.
Sometimes I just want SO much more out of life.
I am glad however, for the unhindered opportunity that 'retirement' has given me to do something of purported 'recuperation.' But like I said- I wish there were being 'more' to it.
I explained to Anna yesterday, via text (she is worried) that nothing 'really' has changed. It is what it is. Sometimes it makes me 'weaker' or 'more tired' than at other times.
You see... I 'fight' against my usage of pain medications. I also figure that 'little' things to 'help' my bowels and digestion along cannot be all that 'good' or 'helpful' in the short-term OR the long... Such that I am willing to 'suffer' the consequences. I'd really rather have the bouts with pain, discomfort, diarrhea, constipation, cramping, cramping, cramping and exhaustion, than to feel 'numb' to it all.
However... man... I think that were I allowed to rely upon narcotics to LEAD A NORMAL, FUCKING LIFE, and that being an 'addict' would be perfectly, fucking okay.
A year ago at this time I was going through the endo- and colonoscopies over absolutely nothing symptomatic. I had no symptoms; just occasional, even rare heartburn. Whoo-hoo... I was on top of my game, beyond that of a little bit of daily exhaustion that I mostly attributed to work, getting up at 5 a.m., and the measures of summer heat, and work-related stress(es.) Daily, I would wonder if I'd ever have the help I needed in terms of manpower, to do my/our job.
A year ago at this time I was on a months' paid vacation. I had been futzing about in San Francisco... Gigging and wandering. Sure... I got tired way too easily, but I could jump up and dance without predication. I was good as long as I was able to have 'the job-job' out of mind, and get off of the couch, or off of the back porch for a spell.
I had no idea all of this was coming down the pike.
I had no idea of cancer. I had no idea of surgeries. I had no idea of cardiac arrest. I had no idea of pulmonary failure. I had no idea of 'little, or no' stomach, or the absence of an esophagus... I had no idea of angry, angry intestines.
Damn I do occasionally wish for narcotics. They imitate 'life' so well. I 'balance' them just as well as I 'balance' the usage of non-narcotics; and I sometimes wish that folks could understand that. They give me NO pain, NO discomfort, AND regulate the bowels, to act as 'normal.' Sure... they mess with my 'memory' but in NO way worse than pain and exhaustion does. The meds I take now -usually- just 'skim' the top off of my symptoms and NOTHING seems to regulate the 'virtuosities' of my guts. They do what they want, when they want, and I must go along for the ride. When I fight it... with something that 'helps,' it is SUCH a joke. My guts (if they 'want' to) can and do, jump right over them. Whoo-hoo, again.
I have to often wonder, "Why the fuck am I still here?" Even the day before surgery I still had huge courage. Maintaining it at this point has got me wondering. Everything feels so fucking permanent.
I'll get about to some work with imaging. I'm sorry that I'm a little hung up on 'imagining' a 'whole' life, this morning.
I might however, wander off into the desert or the mountains, and never return.

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ACCESSORY
Current mood: tired
Category: Art and Photography

ACCESSORY were wonderful. Dynamic, listenable but also very, very dance-able. 'Twas a great, great time for all!

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heh-heh... a working class hero is somethin’ t’be (on holiday...)
Current mood: blah
Category: Art and Photography

Oh my... this was shot quite some time ago... During the summer of '97 in Paris, France. Went to this spot everyday to read & relax. 'Twas out of the way, seeming that only locals knew of it. (I swear there had to be a couple of pairs of jeans in my baggage!) I guess I cleaned-up nice then, too... even at the pretense of yuppifying myself for certain purposes. Heh!

More later. I am having some pain issues. Yesterday was quite recuperative, after the previous nights' outing. I should be back to selecting and editing soon, I hope!

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