Go here bitches!!! Livejournal...You know you'll read it

Not too good with the Blog which is funny because its just the same as a livejournal but just somewhere else...i guess i just gotta keep'em seperate.

Enjoy!

http://lilimarlene27.livejournal.com/

-M-

1:38 AM - 0 Comments - 0 Kudos - Add Comment

Ugh! Eurotrash!!!

Well Im in Amsterdam!!!

This place is the fuckin' shit!  I was the highest I had ever been yesterday.  EVER!!!!  Just lettin' ya'll know im having a great time and I'll post more later

2:53 AM - 1 Comments - 0 Kudos - Add Comment

"I love You" isn't all that great...I guess...

It's just become scary to hear now.  "I love you".  There is no more joy in the word Love anymore.  It's tied with commitment, trust, loyalty, and monogomy.  And we can't have that now can we?!  This is mean just being bitter. 

I just wish it didn't hurt so much to see other people happy with eachother.

-M-

12:27 AM - 1 Comments - 2 Kudos - Add Comment

The Gathered Storm of Glamour and Vanity
Current mood: bitchy

It is interesting what culture has come to.  A time when people emmulate and idolize Regina George and Paris Hilton and thrive off of being cruel and judgemental.  When glorified materialism is the creed of all young people.  It has come to a point where it is no longer who YOU are but who you are wearing.  I find it disgusting and sad.  I pity these people.   These people who attempt to be these powerful and "independent" people when in actuality they are the most weak and co-dependent people on this planet.  It has gotten to the point where i no longer want to go out anywhere.  Because I know exactly what and who I am going to run into.  These hollow hearted, shallow beings that are so ashamed and afraid of themselves that they put on this mask of Cruelty and command through fear and intimidation.  My generation is nothing but a bunch of Mean Girls. 

I cannot wait to leave for Germany.  I cannot wait to leave all of this behind me.  I have no regrets.  I have nothing holding me back.  Everyone just looks at me like Im just some silly nut but the feeling i get when I am in Germany is a feeling un-reproducable(if thats even a word but I'm sure you get the idea).  Its probably as close as a person could get to feeling they feel when in Heaven.  And to be honest it hurts my feelings when people tell me "I have a problem" or "You're soo obsessed!" and "Could you tone it down a bit?"  Im not telling you to "tone down" your endless babble about what fucking musical that i've never heard of nor will see.  Im not telling you to "tone down" your str8ness because Im gay your str8ness makes me uncomfortable.  Im not telling you to "tone down" the stream of stupid jokes and remarks that Im clearly laughing at with no sincerity.  I mean we all put up with people's shit.  What makes mine so unacceptable?!  I will "tone down" my Pride for my people and my culture when blood runs cold, my heart stops beating, and my mind clear.  Until then...FUCK YOU!!!

Long Live Germany!

-M-

8:21 PM - 4 Comments - 6 Kudos - Add Comment

Gilded Promises and half lived Dreams
Current mood: pissed off

Why is it that the few times that i need my friends, not a single fuckin one of them are around?!
I dont need a fuckin shoulder to cry on.
I dont need someone to hear out my problems.
I dont need a person who is just gonna pretend that they give a shit.

I just need someone to be with me.
Is that so hard to ask?

Eh, whatever...They wont be mattering much soon.
Better now than later that i find out they dont really care.

-M-

10:14 PM - 2 Comments - 2 Kudos - Add Comment

My Celebrity Crush

He's so glamorous...I just stand in awe of his beauty. And that's not just in the physical realm. His voice is an instrument of God. His voice can make your knees wobble. The inflections of his voice and his word choice, make everything he say a sonnet or an ode to all that is great and wonderful and scary and tough.
I've never understood celebrity crushes til He came along. It seemed all so stupid to me because of their un-obtainablity and what not. But i've realized that that stuff doesn't matter. It's how this person makes you feel when you see/hear them.
And He makes me feel FANTASTIC!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I <3 U R.W.

-M-

7:45 PM - 5 Comments - 4 Kudos - Add Comment

Glamour! Sex! And Drug Filled Adventure
Current mood: content

Last nite was fuckin BOMB!!!! lol
April and I both had nothing to do so we decided to drive to Laguna Beach. we got there and she got this really hawt jewelry at this little boutique. Then we were over the LB scene so we bizzounced. We then found ourselves in the heart of Newport Beach which was way weak for a heart. lol. So while walking on the Sand we decided to blow this dump and go to LA and West Hollywood. So we did. =) We smoked pot and listened to musik the whole way up. We got there at like 11 and we walked around and drove around. Met a really cute boy who liked my jacket but when he found out i was 18 i think he was over me (we think he was 28, he'd been in alot of stuff so we only assume). But he still humoured us and talked and told us about himself. VERY hawt. Anyway. We were chillin a bit and we waited til Mickeys was letting people in 18+ and that wasnt til 2 am so we walked around and chilled. Then April and I danced til the cows came home and then we too went home. Didnt go to sleep til 4:45!!! lol
Glamorous!!!

-M-

2:52 PM - 0 Comments - 0 Kudos - Add Comment

Very Nice Quote

The one that loves the most is at the mercy
of the one that loves the least.

Not mine, but nice none the less.
Enjoys it much.

-M-

2:47 AM - 1 Comments - 2 Kudos - Add Comment

Bored

quiz thing. 1. Copy this whole list into your journal. 2. Bold/underline the things that are true about you. 3. Whatever you don't bold/underline is false. 4. Add one about yourself at the end. 01. I miss somebody right now 02. I don't watch much TV these days 03. I love olives (black ones) 04. I love sleeping 05. I own lots of books.. 06. I wear glasses or contact lenses (occasionally) 07. I love to play video games 08. I've tried marijuana 09. I've watched porn movies 10. I have been in a threesome 11. I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship 12. I believe honesty is usually the best policy 13. I have acne free skin 14. I like and respect Al Sharpton 15. I curse frequently 16. I have changed alot mentally over the last year 17. I have a hobby 18. I've been told I can suck the chromes off a trailer hitch. 19. I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me 20. I'm really, really smart 21. I've never broken someone's bones 22. I have a secret that I am ashamed to reveal 23. I hate the rain 24. I'm paranoid at times 25. I need money right now! 26. I love Sushi 27. I talk really, really fast sometimes 28. I have fresh breath in the morning 29.I have semi-long hair 30. I have lost money in Las Vegas 31. I have at least one brother and/or one sister 32. I was born in a country outside of the U.S. 33. I shave my legs (females) or face (males) on a regular basis 34. I have a twin 35. I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past 36. I couldn't survive without Caller I.D. 37. I like the way that I look sometimes 38. I have lied to a good friend in the last 6 months 39. I am usually pessimistic 40. I have a lot of mood swings 41. I think prostitution should be legalized 42. I think Britney Spears is hot 43. I have cheated on a significant other in the past 44. I have a hidden talent 45. I'm always hyper no matter how much sugar I have. 46. I think that I'm popular 47. I am currently single 48. I have kissed someone of the same sex.. 49. I enjoy talking on the phone 50. I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants 51. I love to shop 52. I would rather shop than eat 53. I would classify myself as ghetto. 54. I'm bourgie and have worn a sweater tied around my shoulders 55. I'm obsessed with my online journal 56. I don't hate anyone. 57. I'm a pretty good dancer 58. I don't think Mike Tyson raped Desiree Washington 59. I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother 60. I have a cell phone 61. I believe in God 62. I watch MTV/Vh1 on a daily basis 63. I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months 64. I love drama 65. I have never been in a real romantic relationship before 66. I have rejected someone before 67. I currently have a crush on someone 68. I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life 69. I want to have children in the future 70. I have changed a diaper before 71. I've called the cops on a friend before 72. I am a member of the Tom Green fan club 73. I'm not allergic to anything 74. I have a lot to learn 75. I have dated someone at least 10 years older or younger 76. I plan on seeing Ice Cube's newest "Friday" movie 77. I am very shy around the opposite sex sometimes 78. I'm online 24/7, even as an away message 79. I have at least 5 away messages saved 80. I have tried alcohol or drugs before 81. I have made a move on a friend's significant other in the past 82. I own the "South Park" movie 83. I have avoided assignments at work/school to be on Xanga or Livejournal 84. When I was a kid I played "the birds and the bees" with a neighbor or chum 85. I enjoy some country music 86. I think that Pizza Hut has the best pizza 87. I watch soap operas whenever I can 88. I'm obsessive, anal retentive, and often a perfectionist 89. I have used my sexuality to advance my career 90. I love Michael Jackson, scandals and all. 91. I know all the words to Slick Rick's "Children's Story" 92. Halloween is awesome 93. I watch Spongebob Squarepants and I like it 94. I have dated a close friend's ex 95. I'm happy as of this moment 96. I was born in the 80s but I am truly a child of the 90s 97. I haven't showered in two days 98. I'd rather be in Germany than anywhere else. 99. Im obsessed with getting manicures/pedicures 100. I want to visit Italy either for the first time or again... 101. I'm one of those types who are easily amused; the stupidest of things can make me laugh. 102. i've cried within the last week 103. I have flirted with someone I didnt like just to get something out of it. 104. I like at least three British Comedy TV Shows 105. I have overslept and missed my classes 106. I've been on TV 107. I listen to music no matter what I am doing 108. I yell at the TV when I watch sports 109. I miss being homeless 110. I've been cheated on before by a significant other. 111. ive killed someone before 112. I have eaten squid before.. 113. ive been on cops once or twice 114. I hate men, and also women, I hate all human kind 115. i have a crush on my friend's boyfriend. 116. I think Hilary Duff is a bitch. 117. I have gotten raped before. 118. Ive hit someone with a car before 119. I have been betrayed too many times to count. 120. I have mad b-ball skillz. 121. I'm afraid of fire 122. I've been called a fungus several times in my life. 123. I think people should finish eating before they speak. 124. Sometimes I pretend I don't care even though I do. 125. Sometimes I smile and pretend nothing's wrong, and everyone believes it. 126. I'm in love with an asshole 127. I'm very shallow  128. I hurt beyond all comprehension but its no one's business but my own

8:55 PM - 0 Comments - 0 Kudos - Add Comment

Poem from a second person

Slip me your number baby.
Show me the goods.
Don't be shy, I'll be gentle.

Shhh, keep quiet...
How does it feel to be loved?
Feel it inside you.
Feel it around you.

Where can you run to?
Where can you run to?
Where can you run to?

Your dark corner seems so lonely
Let me light it with my grin.
Take my hand
I can show you the world.

Broken.
Oops, i tripped and let go.
But its okay.
I meant to let go.
You were meant to be let go.

Replaced.
You were my limbo.
I hope your okay with that.
Of course you are.



I knew you'd understand

11:16 AM - 2 Comments - 2 Kudos - Add Comment