that girl
Current mood: sad

As i sit here waiting

you lay with the love of my life

my true friend, who i considered a brother

now leaves me hollow inside

cuz to me shes more important than just some ride

fighting an internal conflict

the brother or the girl....

The girl you'll never have a chance with

but you still have to try

she'd sooner leave you out to dry

than to let you cradle her when she feels the need to cry

you know its futile but what can you do?

i long for the day my feelings are made aware to you

I've walked outside

for the sight of you and my brother is too much

i feel i've lead you into a trap

and the only escape is the path your currently taking

i want to scream at you

but it wont do any good

you've fallen away

why oh why cant i let you go

i'm never gonna be important to you

i'll just be another rug you step on and grind into the earth

i am realising there will never be an "us" only a me and a you

i'm so sick of worrying about you

i don't know what to do????

10:27 AM - 4 Comments - 7 Kudos - Add Comment

sister
Current mood: good

Your two side's sister

Dry your tears little sister

For I am here

I will take on your enemies

For an enemy to you is an enemy to me

I would die for you sister

So the pain and heartache

Would be gone from your life

Big sister you are a guiding light

Showing the way

Through the murkiest waters

The darkest of paths

Always shining

Eternally bright

Showing the way

For lost souls like me

Who walk astray

Love always sister

What can be said that hasn't?

You cursed, and ridiculed me

I took it, never showing the pain that I felt within

Always giving you the benefit of the doubt

Now I truly see,

You were just testing me,

Toughening me up

Through it all you were there

Sometimes you were cranky

But, in those times, I was there catering to you

We had fun;

We yelled and argued at each other

But in the end

We were closer

I trust you like an older sister

I care for you like a younger sister

You're the sister I never had

9:43 PM - 1 Comments - 2 Kudos - Add Comment

chicks........
Current mood: frustrated

why do girls always complain that guys are so immature? and why do they complain when their not being treated right? the answer is because their usually with a "pretty boy"..pretty boys are usually conceited and just out to "get some"...there are exceptions out there so dudes dont hate me....chicks are always complaining about this to me....their always like "why arent there more guys like you out there?"and im like im right here why not just ask me...

i have the answer to that to....girls say they dont care about looks but they really do.(there are exceptions. though they are far and few between) they dont want to be seen with a "bigger guy". oh what will my friends think???i see you as more of a friend????...your complaining to me about a guy mistreating you and your saying you wish there was someone out there like me ....so wats the PROBLEM...??????

i dont get it girls say im one of the sweetest guys theyve ever met but thats not what they want...(im gonna get a lot of hate mail for this one but ...)they like being mistreated that way they have something to bitch about ..then they act like their the victim and theirs nothing they can do...



what i dont get is wats wrong with a bigger guy? generally speaking big guys are usually very nice people and cater to the very whims of girls...

as i always say the bigger the guy the bigger the heart....love always...Jeff

11:16 PM - 4 Comments - 6 Kudos - Add Comment

my old buddy
Current mood: Distraught

i just sent a message to my best friend growing up who i havent seen in over i dont even remember how many years...im just choked up right now because he is my hero. he is in the 82 airborne so he is in iraq right now.. just to send him that message after not hearing from him forever was truly emotional. the tears are still rolling down my face so. damn thats about it . to mike i love ya man. stand strong.. and we'll keep praying

10:13 PM - 1 Comments - 1 Kudos - Add Comment