Life Altering Bullshit?
Current mood: exhausted
Category: Life

Yeah Yeah Yeah

I know I stopped posting blogs MONTHS ago, and honestly... I don't really know why. My life is worth writing about. I have exciting things happen to me, around me, as a result of things I do.... I haven't had the motivation to write about them though. Sometimes I will get the urge, but when I sit down and begin to type I am so bored by the second sentence I just give up. Not this time. I'm going to see this blog through.

In the past few months, drama has started to annoy me. Drama at Blockbuster reached an all new high right before I got fired. Friends are putting me in the middle of their annoying problems. Gossip doesn't make me raise a brow anymore. It all just frustrates and irritates me. I find myself asking "why"? I used to love it when a couple would break up, or a co-worker would decide to sabbotage another. Now, I can barely stand it. Perhaps it is all a sign of some long awaited maturity... perhaps.

Another great question: Why am I reliving my apparent annual cycle of post summer unemployment? Two years ago, when I moved to Orlando, I didn't even apply for a job until Novemeber. It wasn't until January that I was secure with Blockbuster. Then in August 2007 I quit Blockbuster only to have a bunch of dead end jobs until returning to Blockbuster in February of this year. Now, I was  fired from Blockbuster in early August and I still am unemployed. If I dont get some motivation and get a job soon, I will be in trouble again. Just like every Fall. And the worst part is that I can't run back to the comfort of Blockbuster, because I was terminated.

Anyhow... This is where I need my advice.

I found a room for rent. For the exact same price I pay here. Closer to my school. Month to month rent, so that I can still continue planning a Main Campus move in March. Everything seems like it could work out. So, my question is... should I pursue it? My living situation now isn't as bad as it could be... I guess...

ugh


I just don't know

I am unorganized.

My writing used to be better. Or maybe I stopped caring about writing when I stopped caring about drama.

What I know for sure is I have changed, and I'm not sure I like it.


I guess this blog is "to be continued".

I'm exhausted right now, so I am going to bed.

Goodnight.

Currently listening : Experience the Divine By Bette Midler Release date: 1999-07-15

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A Million Miles Away
Current mood: optimistic
Category: Life

    Its been awhile, eh? I agree. I guess some of you haven't even talked to me in a few weeks or months. I have been hella busy and I assume you have been as well. I have been back at Blockbuster since Fevruary adn I am doing great there. I am looking to get an asistant manager positition as early as June! That is so exciting because I honestly though I would never work at Blockbuster again when I left in July.

    I've decided to stay in this house in Orlando and try to renew our lease. We've asked Jeff to leave tonight because we aren't sure if we are going to be able to renew the lease and if we do manage to, we want to make sure that we do it on our own. So, starting in June we have one month to apply for lease renewal and to get this house in good shape for our inspection. By that time I should get my promotion and I will be able to afford things.

    Also, on the topic of finances, I just decided to renew my student loan. I know that it is adding more debt to my plate, but I will be able to hande things now. Having a new car, a cheap place to live and a decent job is sure to help me get where I need to be. This loan is to serve a few different purposes. First it will completely free me from my debt with my parents, friends and anyone else I owe anything to. I am basically using it to consolidate so that I will only have to worry about paying off my student loans when I graduate in April 2009. Another reason for this loan is to put some money in the bank. My car loan is through Kennedy Space Coast FCU and I opened a savings account with them when I got my loan. I really want to put some money in there just so I have a back up. Finally, I really want to be able to travel at least once in my life. I plan on taking a chunk of the money and planning a serious vacation. I know it is not the most responsible thing to do, but I honestly have never gone anywhere. I feel like traveling is a wise investment. You learn so much from those experiences and I want to experience a different culture. Hopefully I will be able to escape to France for a week! How awesome would that be????

    School this semester ended on a positive note. I didn't give 100%, but I gave more than I have any previous semester at UCF. I am expecting decent grades. I am going to get my Hospitality Management degree in April 2009, and then I plan on pursuing an alternate degree in legal studies. I had a law class this past semester and it seriously sparked my interest in liability and contract law. Although it sounds boring, I am really interested in it, and with hospitality and legal training I feel like I would be a very prepared individual in the business world.

    This summer is about planning out my future and preparing. I plan on getting a second job to Blockbuster for the summer months like I did last year at Slacker's. I can't decide where I would want to work though. If you have any suggestions let me know.

    The romance department is as dead as ever. Actually, that is not entirely true. One of my friends that I made while working at Wonderworks is planning on hooking me up with someone who works at Wodnerworks currently. I don't really know what to expet, but I am seriously optimistic. Apparently we are both equally excited about meeting each other!

    Again, I am not positive on my plans for my future. I still might decide to move home to melbourne in July when my lease is up. I might be able to transfer into a blockbsuter there as an assistant store manager. I might also be able to commute to school two days a week. If I could plan it out that way, I would be able to come home. I have a lot on my plate to figure out. I'll get there! Just support me, okay?

    I guess that is a sufficient update for now. I really miss all of my friend back home. It feels like I am a million miles away from you guys, and, ironically, it feels like I am that far away from meeting the goals I have set for myself.

Hopefully I can come see you all soon especially while FUCKING JESSICA is in town!

:-D

I love you guys!!!!

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