I had no idea my uncle Raymond was going into a nursing home until a few days before my birthday. no one ever told me until he was already there. I go up and see him as much as I can and it hurts me to see him it makes me cry so much because I see him in so much pain. I think I'm one of very few people that go and see him. every time i talk to him it chokes me up and it hurts so bad because I don't want to see him there. I talked to him Tuesday and we had a good conversation and before I left I heard him say thank you for coming and I could hear the emotion in his voice. It made me hurt so bad. I'm so upset i can't leave the nursing home with out crying every time because i love him like my own father and it hurts so damn much...
I have so much stuff on my mind I can't some of it is about school the rest is thoughts about somethings that i don't even want to think about and when i think about it it breaks my heart. But i cant stop my mind and i can't seem to relax i have been on pins and needles all week and i have no idea why...its creeping me out but at the same time my thoughts are starting to get to me and its driving me nuts...I dont know what to do...
So there is this guy that keeps giving me shit on myspace like some kind of stalker claming to know where i live all that kind of piss shit. I mean I think its all some kind of prank from someone in Mo Town but still its pissing me the fuck off. He keeps saying that im hot and its so fun to watch me move around in my own house...yea like some freaky stalker of Myspace....Tell you what im really going to kill who ever is doing this its pissing me off....can't everyone just act like adults and not like idiots?
WTF?!?!
Amy
Currently
listening
:
Eat Me, Drink Me
By
Marilyn Manson
Release date: 05 June, 2007
One Bad 21st Birthday (A must Read)
Current mood: exhausted
So The day started off well Ang came over and we both went to get our hair cuts because my aunt got me a hair cut for my birthday. Then Mike was trying to figure out where I was he called the beauty shop after calling my phone like 20 times but I forgot my cell phone in my car and then calling my house so he came over as my hair cut was in the process. As this was all going on I noticed a Wasp sting on my leg getting redder and bigger from the first time i recived it on the 27th. I kept telling my mom something was wrong with it but she said it was nothing so I thought it was nothing. So after the hair cut we went to IGA then went back home and as we got there Buck had just gotten there good timing on his part.
Later on everyone was hanging out in my basement watching some movies while my mom was fixing my cake then we had cake I got some awesome gifts but still as this was going on the Wasp Bite was starting to swell up more and get bigger. After that around 5 ish we all left for the Alton boats but when we got there they would not take my credit card because it had a crack in it the officer called it "mutilated" I was like WTF captain Howdy. I was pissed off that I couldn't spend my Time on a boat gambling but oh well. So we all chose to go over to Fast Eddies but then as we got in side there where frat boys and girls everywhere it was a nightmare for the most of us im sure. we ordered or food and could not find a seat in the house so I snuck out with my food and we by we I mean Mike and I waited for Buck and Ang to come out with theirs. By this time it was hard to walk on my right leg because of the Wasp bite it was annoying the piss out of me and everytime i laid my hand on the stung area it felt so hot to the touch I new that was not right.
A few odd minutes later Ang and Buck came out with food in hand and we ate out side of my car I looked at my bite and saw that it had grown twice as big. At this point I was freaking out and I called and told my mom that it had doubled in size and that I needed help. It was my dads idea that i needed to go to the Emergency room. So I told Angalina bye and gave her a good kiss and then was on my way home to get my Card for the Hospital. I felt so sorry for Buck and Mike having to deal with all of this. We got home and then went off to the Emergency room mom said she still couldn't see how it could have swollen twice as big so i showed her again and she said "I take that back" so I had to go in to a little doc office put on a moo moo like robe and sit there with my mom. the Nurse came in and looked at it i think she was a little surprised.
Steph and Roni came and gave me a little company and Buck did too and we threw around a Pink Bouncy ball that Steph got me while we waited like forever. Then the doctor came in and saw me and said that the swelling was 13X16cms so it was pretty damn big. he said "why didn't you come in sooner?" my mom said she didnt see it change i was like you dork i think i could tell when it got bigger and it did grrb. but I new that mom was not me so she really didn't know. So I had to get two shots in my left butt cheek and then take 3 different types of pills. So Buck drove me home because i was out of it and i called Mike because he went home with steph and he said that i sounded so drunk.
So in the end I got my 2 shots for my 21st birthday...not the ones i was hoping for a couple of people got to hear what i sound like if i was drunk. I got called Mutilated and I got to go home and spend time drooling on myself as Buck snuggled with my half drunk ass. How about that for a 21st Birthday....I'm sure I will never forget this one.
I'm Depressed I mean not as in oh my god i want to end my life emo sort of way. No its a I have been sick for almost a month I have been sick off and on for three weeks and I don't want to be anymore started out like a stomach thing then i got the flu....then a head cold what next...everyone look out Amy has the black Plegue I can't wait for that...ewww oh well at least Black always looked good on me. I hope that I get better or im majorly going to kick my bodies ass for not making enough white blood cells....DAMN IT... I just need a big freaking hug and maybe a warm cup of hot coco.
So yea my hole house has come down with a flu like case. and its being passed around. I already had it but it looks like its back up for more grabs...I WANT THIS TO BE OVER WITH!!!!!!!!
Amy
PS I;m willing to share if anyone wants to get sick....
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