the books of wisdom = larry king live

today my scripture prof. compared the books of wisdom to larry king live. :)

for those of you that don't know that would be Job, Proverbs, Ecclesiastes, and Song of Songs in the Bible...

Quoted Crosby, Stills and Nash for the 3rd time. God, love him...

Then applied the book of Ecclesiastes to the lives of Kurt Cobain, Ringo Star, John Lennon, and George Harrison..... the book speaks of why am i here, why is this happening... so he applied John Lennon's songs "i'm a loser" and "help" and discussed Kurt Cobain's drug addictions to asking why...

gotta love it.

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who is my neighbor

bono made a really good point this morning.... sexual immorality is made a stink of inside of the church... but corporate greed is looked over.

the church is full of corporate greed.

my church has many members with terrible hearts but no one will speak out to them to give them the slightest bit of conviction. are we not to guide our brothers and sisters in righteous living?

the reason why no person will speak out is because this is where the major funding of the church comes from. if you disturb that then where is the church? this is a shame. we as a church have to rely on a few members giving to merely recieve praises.

i also believe that we, as a church, take our power in the world forgranted. we're more interested in reaching others for Christ, yes, this is a noble cause, but we should be focusing on meeting their needs first, then give them the gospel. earn trust, recognition as a good people. once they see something different in our willingness to give, they will see Christ. i think we need to focus our gifts, talents, time and money as a church on fixing the fixable.

i've always been focused on helping the poor and hungry in this world without second guessing what i am doing. my focus has always been world missions. i am not saying there's anything wrong with local ones, but if we all just gave to this cause we could change so much. if every american gave $10 that would raise $3,001,840,760. think about what you have.

"And today the millions cry, We eat and drink while tomorrow they die" ~U2

some organizations that are making a difference in the world...

world vision

ONE

Bread for the World Institute

DATA

Jubilee

who is my neighbor? Luke 10...

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she had a history of killing herself

long long long interesting... kinda good, but akward day. i cannot wait to come home. honestly... this place has made me appreciate home and the people there a lot a lot more. but i need a change... maybe a change of hair color!

i've been kinda depressed today idk why but i can't focus on a thing!

Are we ever quite sure of anything? Of all the choices we make each day, consciously or not, how do we know they're the right decisions? How do you know that the choice you make today will affect your life forever? How do you know the person you're with is who you're going to marry? What if you left that someone behind? What if you look back on your life and see how that one person could make you happy like no one else, and yet, you left it behind? How do you fix that? What if you can't? How do we ever know? Are we to forever live in regrets and pains because we simply didn't know, so we tried it anyway?

She had a history of killing herself
I had a habit of dying
I think she gave me something to live for
I guess I helped her pass the time

And I had a vision of seeing things straight
She had the heart of a liar
I never saw her leave me once
She never felt me beside her

It's cruel but she's got a good hold on me

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california's on her mind

my summer has faded. i don't exactly know what happened to it. but i know that i miss it. just about as much as i miss home. what happened to that blonde girl? the fun one? god, i miss who i used to be before this place.

When she's sleeping on the sofa,
When she's laying in her Sunday best,
when she's turning over Friday,
I could swear I'm sleeping less and less...
and the ocean's getting warmer,
and California's on her mind,
Los Angeles is tired,
but we always seem to feel alright,

but I won't...
no I won't...

Cause she's already out the door,
she's already out of here
she's already gone away...
already gone away...

When I'm coming over Sunday
and I think about you all the time,
I wonder what you're doin
I wonder why you never cry,
When Boston's always raining,
And we never ever seemed alive,
I sung about you once now,
I guess I might as well

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another sun soaked season fades away

its my birthday week!!! which is honestly going to carry throughout the rest of the month!!!! i cannot wait for my BF to come up this weekend and then to go home the next weekend. :) and then for fall break in october after midterms. UGH! yay.

but today is rainy and i don't feel good. this is when i wish i was at home and could stay in my bed and just eat chicken noodle soup and watch regis and kelly and laguna beach. but what can ya do! i'm gonna be leaving for drawing class in 20 mins.

You watch the season pull up its own stakes
And catch the last weekend of the last week
Before the gold and the glamour have been replaced,
Another sun soaked season fades away

You have stolen my heart

Invitation only grant farewells
Crush the best one, of the best ones
Clear liquor and cloudy eyed, too early to say goodnight

You have stolen my heart

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sally the camel

so my cars name according to megan and i is sally... and here is her song.

Sally the Camel

Sally the camel has seven humps.
Sally the camel has seven humps.
Sally the camel has seven humps.
So ride, Sally, ride.
Boom, boom, boom, boom!

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list of crazy

so this has been a good week back so far. its wednesday and things are still drama like they were before i went home. you know, i thought i'd escape the drama when i left high school. what a dumb idea. anyway, i just went to walgreens to get some food and mainly i went for milk and butter. but i found ice cream that will actually fit in the freezer of my mini fridge. i had to buy it. plus it was on sale. crazy. :) anyways, here's my list of crazy... enjoy

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your name is pounding through my veins, can't you hear how it is sung?

its been a looong weekend. thank God its monday. never thought i'd say those words. but seriously. i have a job interview in and hour. PRAY FOR ME! i really want this job. i feel like i'm well qualified for it too, so i really really hope i get it. honest.

but after that i have NOTHING to do... but HOMEWORK!!!!! i have like 40 pages of reading and 10 essay questions on it. THEN i have writing homework too. poop.

so anyway. i miss home, so i'm going back this weekend! yay. see ya'll soon.

I'm sitting under falling stars.
Do you miss me where you are?
I'm making plans to be with you,
but have they come unglued?

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but you've already lost when you only have barely enough of her to hang on

god, its wednesday already. 2 more days left... OMG. and nothings really gotten better but i'm gonna leave it all behind anyway. who cares.

tomorrow i pretty much say goodbye to everyone. i'm getting sick to my stomach thinkin about it. seriously.

yesterday i picked up all the stuff for my room, friday i'll box 'em up. crazy. god, i'm leaving. UGH. i don't know about this.

"But you've already lost when you only have barely enough of her to hang on."
~dashboard

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i'd rather say nothing, i'd rather you'd never heard my voice

so i've returned from guatemala.... that was an insanely life changing experience. i want to move down there now. seriously. but i'm starting to realise that i'm leaveing for school in 7 days. OMG!!!!!!! this is nuts i'm soooo flipping unprepared for this and i'm freaking out. this past week has been horrible it really really has. soooo much crap and drama. i thought i was leavin that behind. hopefully i do when i go away to school. seriously.

i am going to miss everyone sooo much. its going to be sooo weird to wake up in a different state in a place i don't know. God. you all better visit me!!!!! omg. i do not want to leave anymore... this is just crazy. sooo much shits been going on that i really really want to just forget it all and leave everything. but at the same time i don't know what i'd do without it.

"best deceptions" -dashboard confessional
I heard about your trip.
I heard about your souvenirs.
I heard about the cool breeze, in the cool nights,
And the cool guys that you spent them with.
Well I guess I should have heard of them from you.
I guess I should have heard of them from you.

Don't you see, don't you see, that the charade is over?
And all the "Best Deceptions" and "Clever Cover Story" awards
go to you.
So kiss me hard 'cause this will be the last time that I let you.
You will be back someday and this awkward kiss
that tells of other people's lips will be of service to keeping you away.

I heard about your regrets.
I heard that you were feeling sorry.
I heard from someone that you wish you could set things right between us.
Well I guess I should have heard of that from you.
I guess I should have heard of that from you.

I'm waiting for blood to flow to my fingers,
I'll be all right when my hands get warm. Ignoring the phone,
I'd rather say nothing. I'd rather you'd never heard my voice.
You're calling too late too late to be gracious you do not warrant long goodbyes.

"so long sweet summer" -dashboard confessional
So long sweet summer
I stumbled upon you and gratefully basked in your rays
So long sweet summer
I fell into you
Now you're gracefully falling away

Hey thanks
Thanks for that summer
It's cold where you're going
I hope that your heart's always warm
I gave you the best
Gave you the best that I have

So, so long sweet summer
I stumbled upon you and gratefully basked in your rays
So long sweet summer
I fell into you
Now you're gracefully falling away

I hate the winter, in Lexington
I hate the winter, in Lexington
In Lexington, Lexington, Lexington

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as if love flies south when it freezes

graduation parties tonight. tomorrow=church with scottie, aunts house?!?? then i'm not sure. the only thing i'm sure of is going to church. sad, huh? :)

What I'm trying to say
In some clumsy way
Is that it's you and only you for always

That's why we build
We clear away what was and make room for what will be
If you hold the nails, I'll take the hammer
I'll hold it still, if you'll climb the ladder
If you will, then I will, build

What I'm trying to say
In some clumsy way
Is that its you and only you, not just for now, not just today
But its you and only you for always

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if you hear the dawn is weeping then you know caroline is bright

today has been long filled with random meaningless things to fill my time. sometimes i wish i could find more purpose to my days.... anyway. last night shopping, rehersal, visited annie @ charlies then watched a movie with her n scott. this morning i did a lot of running around with my dad. no fun. tonight i plan on spending with scott.

"so if you see the sun fading then you know that all is right.
and if you hear the dawn is weeping then you know that caroline is bright."
~PW GOPAL "bright caroline"

"Well I remember eight years old
Me sittin' down on grandpas knee
Him, sayin' "son, you wait for her
youll know her when you see
the way she loves you like no one else
the way her smile warms your heart
you know the good Lord will have His way
and nothing will keep you apart
til the day you walk the aisle and say you love her
and shes the one for you
and watch her eyes reassure you as you say I do

So take this rocking chair, he said
And you give your heart to her
And pray every prayer and
Wait for that dream to come true

In my rocking chair I will give my heart to you
In my rocking chair
A chair and a heart made for two"
~PW GOPAL "rocking chair"

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your mascara runs to catch your tears

today i got my hair cut. yep. its all gone. then i spent time with scottie. of course. now i'm gonna stuff my face. :)

That's why we build
And we build
We clear away what was
And make room for what will be......

What I'm trying to say
In some clumsy way
Is that it's you and only you
Not just now, not just today
But it's you and only you
For Always

So if you hold the nails
I'll take the hammer
I'll hold it still
If you'll climb the ladder
If you will, then I will build.

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