6:34 PM - Aggravating Afternoon
Current mood: pissed off

I am finding myself very pissed off right now.

Don't y'all just fucking HATE IT when someone makes plans for themselves with YOUR money and then makes you feel guilty when their plans fall through because they never even told you shit?!

So, the elaboration on this... My father has been sweating me for every fucking penny he can get from me for a few months now. And just now (I just hung up and threw the phone across the room), he makes me feel like shit because he never got around to paying my water bill (keep in mind that him paying the utilities is part of our rental agreement)... I get one of those pink notices in the mail saying "pay or we shut you off"... And of all the utilities we lowly humans must pay, water is (in my personal opinion) the ONE that we absolutely cannot fucking live without. Fuck the TV and the computer (phone and electricity). If I can't have CLEAN clothes for work and can't take a shower, then I'm FUCKED!

So, seeing this pink letter for a 3-month-late water bill freaks me out, I pay the bill in full ($112), and now don't have the money to pay the rent I owe from this paycheck. But guess what--I pay $175/check to rent, and I just sunk $112 of that into paying a bill that SHOULD have been paid with my LAST 6 rent checks!!! So fuck him for making me feel guilty that now his credit will be fucked because he doesn't have money from me to cover a check that will bounce. FUCK HIM!!! I am SO fucking pissed off!!! He could have told me that he would cover all the bills when he gets his paycheck (in a week), that everything would be paid on time... He claimed he didn't want to make a big deal of it, but he KNOWS how far behind ALL of my bills are--HIS responsibility! Why else do I give him rent?! He should have TOLD ME that there might be some pink bills coming that I could ignore, because he had it under control.

Fuck it. I got the water bill paid. He ain't fucking getting rent this week. I am sick to goddamn death of him bleeding me for every fucking penny!!!! I work my fucking ass off for the VERY small paychecks I get. I would like to have some of that money for ME, vs. having to give every fucking cent to T-Mobile, the smoke shop, Sun-Tran, and my dad. I haven't even really had money to buy myself food for a month. Thank fuck I work in a restaurant and get free food every day. Else I would be anorexic by now. But skinnier. Eh..... Prolly would've started passing out at work....

So yeah, I'm still pissed off. Venting to this blog-box has made me feel better. Knowing that some of you (my best of friends--most all of you) will be pissed off for me makes me feel even better than just venting does.

For now, I'm going to sit in bed and fume and write. Thanks for reading....

--MoBLiN

Currently listening : Monkey Business By Black Eyed Peas Release date: 07 June, 2005

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9:23 PM - A Vicious Rant To Go With The Whanging Headache.
Current mood: pissed off

I am not in a good fucking mood. I'm not unhappy. That isn't it.... The problem is... There have been rare few moments in the last week or two when I have been happy--truly happy. There have been plenty of angry moments--plenty of enraged moments. Depressed moments. Lonely moments. Disappointed moments. Aggravated moments when all I wanted was to be completely alone and was viciously denied that. Moments when I wanted to kick something, punch someone, scream bloody fucking murder so that my voice would be scratchy for a day. Moment after moment when I wanted to tell people (or a very specific person) what was bothering me about them though sadly, I lacked the balls to do so. I have had stressful moments at work. I have had moments when I just needed to cry. I have had moments when I did...

I have not been happy--truly happy--blissful and long-lasting, not fleeting and spontaneous but impossible to hold onto and turn into ecstasy--I have not been happy for some time. I have been in the occasional good mood, but I have not felt happiness for... *sigh*... It feels like forever.

I need someone to take my hand and pull me from this funk. I need to give a certain person a hard kick in the ass and tell him to fuck off, get off his ass, use the rent money I give you to pay the fucking bills, get the fuck out of my house if you're going to bleed me for half a paycheck to live here, and get a fucking job after 7 fucking weeks of living like a skell, leeching money from unemployment and constantly bitching about being broke. Stop eating my food, pay the fucking bills, and start contributing to society again. Be a good little slave like the rest of us, because I work my fucking ass off all week... Do you?!

Ah, fuck. I have a random, spontaneous headache from thinking about this bullshit. I'm going to take Tylenol and a shower. I have to get up early for work, and I would like at least 5 hours of sleep................ Fuck............ Good night, dear friends.

Currently listening : Ten Thousand Fists By Disturbed Release date: 20 September, 2005

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9:20 PM - I'm bored, and a thief (thanks Leendur!!)
Current mood: sleepy
Category: MySpace

---10 Firsts---
First Best Friend::
First Screenname::
First Pet Name::
First Piercing::
First Crush::
First CD::
First School::
First House Location::
First Kiss::
First Car::
---9 Lasts---
Last Time You Smoked::
Last Food You Ate::
Last Car Ride::
Last Movie You Watched::
Last Phone Call::
Last CD You Listened To::
Last Bubble Bath You Took::
Last Song You Listened To::
Last Words You Said::
---8 Have-You-Evers---
Dated A Best Friend::
Been Arrested::
Been On TV::
Eaten Sushi::
Cheated On Your B/F or G/F::
Been On A Blind Date::
Been Out Of The Country::
Been In Love::
---7 Things You Are Wearing---
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---6 Things You've Done Today---
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---5 Favorite Things (not in any order)---
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---4 People You Most Trust---
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---3 Things You Want To Do Before You Die---
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---2 Choices---
Vanilla or Chocolate::
Hugs or Kisses::
--1 Person You Want To See Right Now---
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Currently listening : The Sickness By Disturbed Release date: 07 March, 2000

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6:19 AM - I am NOT a morning person!
Current mood: grumpy

That says a lot, I suppose. I don't like having to wake up early with an alarm clock to ensure that I'm not late for work. I don't mind it so much when I can have COMPLETE peace and quiet... No one to turn on boring-as-fuck news. No one to drink my coffee or talk to me or walk around talking to the pets. I need peace and quiet to get my day going.... As it starts terribly the moment I first snooze the alarm, I need the hour of peace to drink my coffee, get dressed for work, play around online a little bit, and listen to an album before going out the door for a long 8-hour shift.....

So needless to say, this morning started out shit when I snoozed the Frank Show.... It has not had a moment to get better. No real moment of peace to just relax--no ME time......

I am going to be in a bad mood today.

Ta.

--MoBLiN

Currently listening : This Type Of Thinking Could Do Us In By Chevelle Release date: 21 September, 2004

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5:46 PM - I Love Stealing These Things From People!!! =D
Current mood: creative

200: My middle name is: Victoria

199: I was born on: 4/27/82

198. I am a: woman

196. My eye color is: brown

195. My shoe size is: 10.5

194. My ring size is: the one that fits?

192. My height is: 5'6"

191. I am allergic to: vicodin, guinea pigs, rabbits, and my cat Skidmark

190. I live in: a house in downtown Tucson

189. The last book I read: Hmm...... All the way through, must have been Mellick... Fuck, can't remember the title... Oyeah! Steel Breakfast Era... sick shit

188. My bed is: uncomfortable and small

187. One thing I know for sure about the opposite sex: they think with their cocks, and that can be really frustrating for us chicks

186. I am glad I'm my sex because: I have tits =D

179. My favorite Holiday is: Halloween. Costumes + Candy = Happy Robin!!

178. The perfect kiss is: intense, passionate, and please, don't try to jam your tongue down my throat if you're aiming for that perfect one

177. The last three cd's I bought are: umm... got my first BMG order today with Coheed and Cambria, Franz Ferdinand, Fallout Boy (GAWD I'm so fuckin' emo lately), Matisyahu, Leonard Cohen, and Tricky

176. Last song that made me cry was: can't remember

172. My most treasured possession is(are): physical possessions? my journal and my dvd collection. "other" possessions? my imagination, creativity, inaccurate sense of uniqueness...

170. What did you do last night: fuck all. watched movies

167. My skin's reaction to the sun is (tan/burn): tan... part wop. yeah, bitch! =D

:::::I Do (YES)/Do Not (NO) Believe In:::::

143. Santa? no

142. love at first sight? no

141. Luck?: yes

140. Fate?: no

139. God?: no

138. Aliens?: fuck yes!

137. Heaven?: not god-on-fluffy-white-clouds heaven, but a VERSION of heaven

136. Hell?: same as my heaven theory

135. Ghosts?: yes

134. Horoscopes?: every once in awhile, my horoscope feels right

135. Soulmates?: yes

:::::Which is Better?:::::

129. Hugs or Kisses? kisses, of course

128. Drunk or High: I have to pick one?

127. phone or online: online

126. Red heads or Black hair?: black hair

125. Blondes or Brunettes: bleached blonde

120. Night or Day: night

119. Oranges or Apples: well, a nice ripe orange with a few slices of a nice crisp granny smith apple... sounds like a stellar breakfast to me!

118. Curly or Straight hair: somewhere in between



:::::Here's What I Think About:::::

116. Abortion? It's my right to choose. Though I may well never have an abortion, I like that it's still a legal option.... because you never know.

115. Backstabbers?: should move no higher up the corporate ladder than janitors in the NYC subway system. The guys who have to mop up bum pee.

114. Parents? Robin would not be if not for my parents humping that fateful summer of 1981... But seriously, I love my mommy cuz she fucked my dad. =D

110. School?: glad it's done with... Finally!

::::Last time I:::: (family doesn't count)

103. Kissed someone: I'd like to plead the 5th on this one.

102. last time i hugged someone: few days ago

101. Seen someone I haven't seen in a while: no siree bob!

99. Grew: umm... I've been 5'6" since I was 13... my feet and my tits have both grown since then.... My most recent growth has been my hair. Haven't cut it since April!

::::MISC::::

90. Who's the ditziest person I know: Mama Tripp... okay, she's not ditzy. She's crackchild

89. Who makes you laugh the most: Andie, Kari, and Monkey (Brandon)

87. One thing I'm pissed about right now is: having to quit my 2nd, and well-paying, job because of my own personal moral problems with the establishment

83. The last movie I saw in the theater was: Domino, before I left SF on 10/22

82. The thing I don't understand is: the pain of being kicked in the junk

80. The most unsatisfactory answer I've ever receieved: "because"

79. The one thing I love about the opposite sex is: their subtle strength (when it's not subtle, Robin no likey... Robin grossed out)

76. This summer I am: working?

75. Something I will really miss when I leave home is: I already left home. I never really started missing anyone or anything

74. The thing that I'm looking forward to the most: getting paid more at work

73. Tomorrow: I work

72. Today: I worked

71. This(up coming)Summer: working?

70. Next Week: Starts on Sunday

67. People call me: Robin

64. The person I have been good friends with the longest is: Andie

62. The person who knows the most about me is?: me?

61. The person that can read me the best is: Andie

60. The most difficult thing to do is: be betrayed

59. I have gotten a speeding ticket: yes, 3

58. I have the following siblings: none

56. My zodiac sign is: Taurus

55. The first person I thought i was in love with was: Ryan

53. The one person who can't hide things from me: umm... Probably no one

51. Right now I am talking to: YOU

48. I have/will get a job as: line cook

47. I have these pets: 2 dogs (Boomerang and Chassis) and 2 cats (Skidmark and Jarjar) in AZ, 3 cats (Murder, Rattler, and Eve) in Williams with my mom

46. I wish: I made more money and could afford my backpiece

45. The worst sound in the world: screaming babies in restaurants

44. The person that makes me cry the most is: nobody

39. My boy/girlfriend: is non-existent... Unless you count my ex......

34. My favorite state? California. It's got it all. San Francisco, Bay Area in general, beaches, SoCal, Daygo, my mom, all my shit, my best friends, and memories! Yeah, motherfuckers!

33. My favorite piece of clothing is: does jewelry count? Yes? Good. My nice-and-long, worn-down, silver-plated copper chain with my Kokopelli medallion and my pentagram locket... and someday a Yin-Yang, all my spiritual funness. =D

32. My favorite sport to play is: indoor moshing

31. Last time I cried: You're gonna laugh at me... Full House was involved.... I was watching ABC Family... *shame*

28. The school I go to is: having a grad ceremony in April, and I'll be in SF walkin' right across that stage, motherfuckers!

27. Last person I got pissed at: never knew it.

26. My worst drinking experience was: Whiskey--rum, rum, rum--whiskey, whiskey--rum, rum. Pizza. Can you guess where it's goin'?

22. The all-time best movie is: uhhhhhhhhhhhh........... American Beauty, dead tied with Pulp Fiction

21. The all-time best thing in the world is: sex. =D

19. The most annoying thing ever is: skipping CDs

18. The most annoying person you know is: Uhh.... Marty. Our dishwasher. Ugh

17. I lose all respect for people who: betray trust

16. The movies I have cried during are: far too many to count

11. The worst pain I was ever in was: when my heart was broken

10. My favorite phrases: Hell yeah, bitch!... Holy crap!... Elote! (a guy I work with calls me Elote because I like KoRn and wear a KoRn hoodie to work every morning... EVERY. Morning.)

9. My room has: crap on the floor, a bed, a curio cabinet, a dresser, an armoire, a closet with more crap on the floor, area rugs, bed linens, pillowcases that need to be washed because the cat sneezed on them.... oh, and a ceiling fan. =D

8. My favorite celebrity is: uhhhh... Kevin Spacey (he's the sex), Stuart Townsend (*purrrrrrr*), Till Lindeman (if you know who HE is, then YOU'RE the sex!)

5. My weakness is: imagining doing things and what they'd be like, instead of just friggin' DOING STUFF

4. What turns me on: good smile, good personality, good smell, good kisser

3. who broke your heart: my ex, dur.

2. I filled out 200 questions because: Admit it, fucker-fucky! You skipped some numbers! I saw that shit!!

1. What do you regret most: my 7th year. But *I* didn't do a thing, offither!!

Currently listening : Reise, Reise By Rammstein Release date: 16 November, 2004

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9:13 AM - happy freakin' Christmas
Current mood: chipper

Hey all... I just wanted to say Merry Christmas to all my friends (no, I will NOT be PC and say "happy holidays" so as to avoid offending anyone who doesn't celebrate Christmas!!)

I love you all!!

Currently listening : Trapt By Trapt Release date: 05 November, 2002

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11:16 AM - Survey of DOOOOOM
Current mood: chipper

1. What did you do yesterday?
Woke up, cleaned/dusted, moved furniture, ate mac 'n cheese, bought groceries, ate dinner, slept... Busy day... =D

3:58 PM - Last San Francisco Blog
Current mood: bouncy
Category: Life

Ahh... As of about 2:00 PM today, I am officially done with school!! (The on-campus portion)

Working tomorrow, to make about $100 that, when I get the check in the mail in a month, will come in SO handy.... =D

And on Sunday, I'm packin' my shit up, goin' to the BART, and then going home........ After coffee with Max, of course... =D

And then on to SD, on to Flagstaff, to Sedona, and then Tucson for good (or for a year or two)......

Ahh..........

It's a good feeling, regardless of how much I'm going to miss SF and the people here.... Especially LaToya...... Crazy crackhead..... =P

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7:10 PM - I Am NOT Happy About This.
Current mood: pissed off
Category: School, College, Greek

So here is MoBLiN's latest news, reported under extreme aggravation. It is something that pisses me off deeply.

I finally got to talk to the registrar about making up my Careme class, which I failed thanks to the little family "emergency" during which I had to go home and miss the last 3 days of class. So it boils down to this:

~ Must make up Restaurant Production. My only make-up.
~ It will cost me/my mother $2200!
~ I have to stay in the city for 3 more weeks.
~ I have no choice but to start my externship on-campus.
~ My on-campus externship is at 7:00 AM, which means I've no choice but to make up Careme with the same instructor who has already failed me once, and no doubt thinks I'm a massive flake......

I am extremely unhappy about recent shit. I had gotten over being mad at my mom... for about a week...... Now I'm mad at her again, because my entire schedule has been delayed. I should officially be done with school in 48 hours. Less, even. As of 5:30 PM on Friday, I should be finished with classes, on to the externship.

But NO!

Must stay in school 3 more weeks.

I am exceedingly pissed off. I know I keep saying that. That's how mad I am!

Anyhow, must go. Tutoring to do. Money to be made. Easy cash-money, tax-free, under the fuckin' table. Yeyah!

Toodleoo, friends

--MoBLiN

Currently listening : Ten Thousand Fists By Disturbed Release date: 20 September, 2005

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10:31 AM - Back In SF, Not Happy........
Current mood: working

I've been living in the TraveLodge since Sunday, now. It's costing me (and by me, I mean my mother) $85.50 a night. It's a very depressing place I'm in right now......... Not just a physically depressing place.... It's mentally depressing.... I'm not happy nowadays

But my Banquets and Catering class is going well so far....... The first week of the project isn't hair-pullingly stressful. But I'm the numbers bitch for my group..... AGAIN......... so I'll be stressing soon. I'm just thanking Ja that I didn't end up with the group I had for Culinary Management. I wanted to beat 5 of them to death....... I restrained myself. I think the group I'm with now will do their own work....... Sweet......

Anyhow, I have some stuff I need done before class starts (in 2:05)..... Toodleoo, all.

--MoBLiN

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