Randomness
Current mood: nerdy

I’m really dissapointed that there is no goth scene in Seattle any more.  I just read my Livejournal Friends list and found that Portland is having a Prom at Mt. Tabor... not just any prom, but a ZOMBIE prom. WTF.  So I am getting the feeling if I want any cool clubs to go to, it’s going to be a weekend excursion to Portland... not that that in itself is a bad thing...  it just takes way more planning than "Oh, I think I’ll hit the Vogue tonight". 

I am happy though, about hearing a local band that takes me back to when I was 18 and hanging out on the Ave with velvet clothes and lace cuffs on my poet shirts....  :)  It brings joy to my black little heart! Hahahaaa... (insert pretentious laugh and posutre here)  Romance, on my friends list. If anyone is into 80’s dark music or She Wants Revenge, you’ll like these guys.  It’s like everything I was into in the 80’s with a new fresh style.  I hear a lot of joy division on the bass and Sisters in the vocals.  Definately good stuff, I will be purchasing their cd when they put one out.

I’m still working on finding some bands to play my Halloween party next year.  I am working on Creature Feature, simply because they rock.  I sent mail to Voltaire too, since I loves him.  Maybe these Romance guys would do a private party?!  Well, not just *any* party, a 30th bday masquerade for the D in the theme of either Sci-Fi (think Dune, StarTrek, ect) or Carnivale (creepy freak show types)   Either would be awesome I think.  I plan ..ping a good amount of cash on this so 2 or 3 bands would work.  Circus Contraption, a Seattle troupe of burlesque and circus sideshow would be bad ass. I also plan on hiring other entertainment, a magician, maybe some crazy deamon servers to   carry trays of foods around, shit. I duno. Halloween is so awesome.   You can do ANYTHING!!!!!! 

Anyhoooooo....  I’m finally feeling like a human being today, my shoulder was fucked the fuck up from workign too hard in the yard.  And now, it’s rainy.  Seems like a good day for D and D.  Heh heh....

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Hawaii
Current mood: excited

So, in less than a week, we are going to Maui.  This is the first time that I have been on a vacation, a *real* vacation with my current family.  We are all going, Me and Ray and Dennis and Annastasia...  I'm really fucking excited.  We all are.  We got all the arrangements made, got a cottage to stay in and a car to drive, but more than that, we are going to have a commitment ceremony for the three of us on the beach at sunset on Halloween.  I got a limo and champaign and everything for it.    I feel like it's maybe excessive? I duno.  But... we've never gone on vacation, and Dennis and I have scraped and scrimped on everything to this point... and now that he's doing so well I feel like we can afford it. 

The three of us have been so comitted to eachother for so long, it seems like this is a long time coming.  We bought this house together, we bought cars together, we've shared the same bed for the past 6 years...  there's much love.  It will be beatuiful I think. I'm still nervous as hell.

Halloween on Maui is something cool, I've heard.  They close the streets to vehicle traffic in Lahaina, and people party in the streets.  We have our costumes all picked out, and the limo will be bringing us to the festivities.  Wooh oooo! Watch for new pics soooon!!!!!!!!

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Drugs
Current mood: irritated

There's this forum that I go to sometimes to post and converse with others who are similar minded in that we do not have a god beliefe.  Most of the folks are pretty open minded and willing to chat/debate/argue/fight to the death about things and it's generally a great place for me and Ray and Anna and Dennis to post with out feeling singled out as freaks. :)

But recently, they've been going rounds about drugs and the legal/illegal nature and all the baggage that goes with that particular aspect of drugs.  (Mainly weed and alcohol, honestly, because I think they are the most commonly used substances out side of coffee). 

I've found that people gravitate twords two schools of thought when it comes to drug use.  The first one has to do with the legal/illegal nature of the substance and for some, the fact that marijuana is illegal is enough to make it worse than raping babies.  Pot users should be forced to give up their posessions and enter treatment facilities ect. I know this sounds pretty exaggerated but I shit you not, some people actually believe that pot use is a jailable offense.  This kind of makes me uncomfortable, because there are much more harmful substances that are legal... I'm talking mainly about alcohol.  (Although cigarettes, coffee and even huffing spray stuff are readily available for legal purchase). 

A year or so back, some dude from Kirkland drank so much alcohol, alcohol he bought legally by the way, that he "blacked out" and killed his neighbor chick.  Not only did he kill her, he killed her kid, her sister and her sister's kid.  All while under the influence of alcohol, a legal substance.  He drank so much that he didn't remember doing it.  He didn't remember setting their house on fire either.  But he did.  Legal.  This is a result from overconsumption of a legal substance. 

Now, from my experience, the overconsumption of marijuana leads to... perhaps eating too much junk food and sleeping waaaaaay to much.  I doubt anyone could get the motivation to actually go next door to kill anybody while baked...

See, I just don't get it.  It's illegal so it is evil.  Our law makers and governing bodies know what is best for us, so making weed illegal is the best thing to do. 

Some people think that people who use marijuana are losers with no job, long hair and no real value to society.  Now, I'm not gona name names, but I know people who are amazingly successful who use marijuana, who pay their taxes and are college educated.  These same people volunteer for their neighborhood's well being, they donate to worthy causes and are respected people in their community.  There is no 'closed door wife beating' or rape or whatever, they are outstanding people.  And because they use marijuana from time to time, there are people who think their worth is less because of that. 

It's funny that someone can over look soooo much and focus on one "illegal" aspect and judge a person simply because of that. 

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Meme continuation?
Current mood: mellow

Somebody on my friends list did this, and it seemed kinda cool.  It's kind of this emotional personal purging and it seems like it might be useful. Although my blog isn't subscribe-worthy, this is more for...  therapy I would say, as opposed to wanting anyone to actually comment.  Feh. Go figger.

A1... You have always been my friend, but you gota start thinking for yourself. 

A2... I know that things have been rocky between us but I really love you. 

A3... I wish you'd get help and find a better role model. You have amazing potential.

A4... You piss me off a lot, on a daily basis actually... but I love you and wish you were my friend.

A5... I'd totally do you. But you know that.  And that is disgusting.  Oh yeah... I love you.

Mrs. B...I'm sorry, but it was me who put the lunch meat in the library books. 

B... You are a loud mouth biatch and I'd like to kick you in the face.

C1... The time spent with you was a painful experience.  I wouldn't change  it tho cuz it's defined who I am now.   I wish you knew how happy I am now.

C2... I had the hugest crush on you like 10 years ago. Scary... not the crush, but that it was 10 years ago.

D1... You are an amazing human being, and the fucktards that called themselves your friends.... are fucktards.

D2...You are a fuckatrd.  Don't ever call me again. God knows I won't be calling YOU any time soon.

D3... I used to steal your cigaretts and give them to my boyfriend. 

E1... I'm sorry I pushed you into the pool when you were all dressed up to go hang with your friends down town.  I think about that almost every day.

E2... I'm sorry I shot you in the mouth with a bb gun.  I was also the one who chopped up your sandals with a butcher knife, and broke your grandma's lamp.

E3... I hope you didn't actually commit suicide.  It wasn't my fault dude...  wasn't my fault.

J...I wish we would have not lost contact but I hope things are as good for you as they are for me.

K... I would like to be closer to you but I can't overcome the trust obsticle. 

Mr. K... It was me who put all the condoms on the peg board when you were in the office.

L... I think you're pretty cool, even if you are um....  unavailable.

M1... I kind of think you are a loser.

M2... Seeing you breaks my heart.  Every time. :(

M3... I've always thought you were a fucking cock.  I don't know why though.

M4... I'm sorry I pulled your pants down when we were walking down the street.  That was really dumb.

R1... I'm sorry I took your dreams and crushed them, oh and that heart of yours...  sorry about mutilating that too.

R2... It really affected me when I saw you last, all methed out and shit.  I can't believe I used to love you.

R3...  I have always though you were a dick.  Don't know why anyone would subject themselves to that...

R4... You're really talented but you are an asshole.

T... I can't say as I'm dissapointed that we have parted ways, I hope you find joy in something though.

I can't say as I have any release of guilt or anything like that, but it was entertaining to think back about some of that shit.  Funny stuff. 

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O_o
Current mood: curious

I had this crazy dream last night that a hot gay guy that I know was making out with my bf.   It was odd but I found it extremely erotic, my gay friend is like super punk, and hella fine and R is hippie-esque, you know, with the long hair and faint patchouli that is now his blood.  *sigh*  Super sexy! 

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Music Musings....

In a rather blissed out stoneriffic few moments, Ray and I discussed how much music plays such an important part in our lives. There are two bands in particular that I have a strange emotional connection to, and will listen to them over all of the other bands on our mp3 list.

One of those bands is The Tear Garden. Tear Garden is founded from members of Skinny Puppy and Legendary Pink Dots. Those two bands have some type of connection with Throbbing Gristle, and they all have a similar feel to them, with Skinny Puppy being rather the harsh industrial sound, Legendary Pink Dots being more psychadellic.... And then, there's Tear Garden. Tear Garden has this sound, it's like... a warm, sweet and tart drug that leaves you in a dream state. Their music is filled with emotional blossoms, each one a beauty in its own right. Darkness overshadows all of their sounds, and the lyrics although motivated by love and human light, is coated with this feel of post apocalyptic horror. A rose covered in soot. A beautiful woman bathed in blood. Tear Garden has a center of luminescant beauty that shines through the creepy sound that will initally assult you. It's emotion without being confined to feeling a certain way. Tear Garden is a grey rainy day filled with darkness and gloom and chaos, yet at the same time, filled with blinding white love and passion. I can pretty regularly be found listening to Tear Garden at any given time.

I remember the first time I heard Tear Garden at one of my friends' house. He had a friend over and she had a tape in the tape player and it was Tear Garden, on the song Running Man. We were hanging out talking and it was more or less back ground music, and then I heard something that stopped me dead in my tracks. The bridge instrumental of that song... it was like a kick in the chest, it took the wind out of me. I felt a connection from the music to my very soul. It was an amazing experience, much like the feeling when I had my first orgasm. Intense. My heart has never been the same.


Visually and musically speaking, there are very few bands that can compare with the talent of the fellas in TOOL. I know that a lot of people are really ape shit over TOOL and they sell their stuff at Hot Topic, but the commercial aspect in no way deters from their true, raw ability to move me. Their music definately stands alone, without the videos, but goddamm, the visual aspect of their videos blows me away every time I see them. The use of Alex Grey's art in the Parabola video gives me the shivers every time I see it. A mixture of beauty and the foul nature of humanity set to a soundtrack that can only be described as layers of intense sound to make one, amazing sound. TOOL's lyrics are immensley serious, filled with images of the human spirit, and its interaction with our outside world. A communion of humanity and the earth. God? Perhaps, in its original form. TOOL is much much more than just some alternative band. Maynard composes music to speak to the human spirit, to the core of the ego, the center of the self. Those lyrics in conjunction with poignent music that is like a boot to the head can rock like no other. The song, Prison Sex deals with intensely harsh subject matter but it comes at it from a rather unique angel, letting you see how the offending person was offended and was only carrying on the cycle as he knew to survive. An interesting point of view that can accurately be communicated by TOOL and by TOOL alone.

I love music in general, it really is the soundtrack to my life. It is a rare occasion when there is no mucis playing at my house, and often it will be TOOL or Tear Garden.


I just wanted to rave on my favorite bands. That is all.

Currently listening : Last Man to Fly By The Tear Garden Release date: 26 May, 1992

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Crazee!
Current mood: excited

I am leaving for San Jose tomorrow to hang out with Dennis for the weekend! How cool is that? I'm pretty jazzed about the whole thing.  We are gona go check out chinatown in San Francisco.  ANIME HERE I COME!!!!  Can you say "TOTORO BACKPACK"????  Tee hee!!!!!

Currently listening : De-Synchronized By Syrian Release date: 06 May, 2003

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DAMMMIT

There are so many cool shows coming up.  Lessee...  Tool, which I waited in line for and sold out in like 30 seconds...  Ladytron, which I found out about a little later than I should have for tickets, and Morningwood, which is...  I believe sold out. 

*sigh* 

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Unbelievable

It's amazing how much in love I am.  Sometimes I don't unerstand how I got to be so lucky!  Tee hee!!!

Anyways, what a good weekend!  We had dinner on Saturday with some good friends at Mizu Japanese Steakhouse and Sushi in Southcenter. GOddamm that place is rad.  It was great food, great times.  Earlier that day I went to the market and waterfront with my loves and Josh (who's been visiting since last week) and had a wonderful time.

Sunday night went to the club for fetish night, very fun.  It was good to be out with people that I care so much about, sharing good times and dancing and being silly. 

Monday was fun too! Started out going to the arboretum with Josh while Dennis worked on the computer.  Very pretty.  Fucked around on broadway, tried to find a prize for my Raymond, but as usual, nothing was good enough. Finished up the night with some quality time with my loves, playing CoV.  :P 

Today, I get to go see a friend who I have not seen in years.  I am so fucking jazzed about that! Oh man!!! 

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Random spewing of thoughts
Current mood: happy

I've fallen off the blog-wagon, I guess.  Livejournal is no longer really used, I  mean, I made a one sentance post there yesterday, and that was the first time I'd made a post there in over a month. 

I'm really excited today for a couple of reasons.  First, our friend Josh is coming to visit for the weekend.  I'm really excited about that.  And I am continuing to lose the weight.  :) I'm *REALLY* excited about THAT! 

Currently listening : Reise, Reise By Rammstein Release date: 16 November, 2004

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