good morning
Current mood: hungry

i woke up this morning and some scissors and a camera were stuffed in my face... YES, i'm fessing up - this is it: apparently you didn't know me when i was <17. so yeah i went from blond(e), to blonder, to white, to all colors of the rainbow, and to black. and then i lost my wild ways (mwaahhh hahaha) and let my true colors speak up after +/ 13 yrs of dye. and perhaps for some time life and i have just totally been agreeing with one another now we're both growing older (secretly, i'm a mass opium pusher on the run for the russian mob)

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"good morning starshine, the earth says hello, you twinkle above us, we twinkle below"

(* in fact, this is so not interesting i'm gonna be deleted ;-)

Currently playing : BioShock Release date: 21 August, 2007

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virgin mary

here is why i love nyc: because some complete stranger can approach you in a bookstore and tell you that you are a 0 (_zero_). Yes, you read that correct. sooo this prithee face tells me that the choice of what i do with my life is entirely mine (i like to think so). i'm an old soul and already struggled through all the challenges of the other numbers (???). my reward for completion (and suffering i guess) is free will. i can just hang out and about or sculpt a life based on love, integrity, justice and vision (am on it). yet, i'm having a huge burden on my shoulders (like frodo?) as the responsibility that comes with being a 0 is tremendous, because whatever i do impacts lives of those around me, and, (yes... wait...) possibly, the entire world (got a sudden flashback of sitting down on a busy street in amman where an old old old lady sat down next to me, held and stared at the palm of my hands, and repeated 'oh allah'... good/bad, black/white... my arabic ain't great). so this man went on (before i could even blink with my eyes). my life entails many paths (well i have walked on many roads) and changes and these gateways make me a defender of freedom ('can you handle me baby?'). i'm rebellious (thank you, billy i), love to explore the physical world (hmmm, has he seen me in airport lounges?) and expand my sense of sensuality (is he hitting on me?), routine bores me (aw gawd yeah). i'm a healer (well i do have kids band aids on me (btw, why is the adult one so utterly dull?)) but have to be more sensitive to the feelings of partners (i sincerely apologize to the male species of mankind; make a mental note to self: if i truly like a man and he treats me like a lady, i'll zip it and let him be - got some old fashioned streaks inside of me). i also should not be too hard on myself (i'm a *virgo*). like anyone else, i do have some karmic debts that need some clearance (my name is earl 2.0?). luckily, i'm idealistic and compassionate, generous and sensitive (actually, my friends don't think i can deny that). and all's well that end's well... this year is a good year for new beginnings and projects (i'm so glad i ran into this man now rather than let's say, august) with a big focus on (renewed) personal relationships (he said "don't be surprised..."?) and home (well i have reached that point that i want a base and see what i have collected over the years) and that that location of a home may be related to a partner (hmmm, what happened to my free will???) and then he uttered his last words: i will "plant seeds" this year... or, better, they will be planted inside of me apparently (i think i just got turned into virgin mary...?!).

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a full dance card in sheaux biz

if it's lunch, it's a meeting
if it's dinner it might be a date or a meeting or both
if he orders a drink it's a date
if he doesn't it's a meeting (or else he's in aa)

(*as promised: when it's so dog-eat-dog, it's hard for dog-to-love-dog)
(*if all is horrible, and i am part of all, that makes me horrible as well, doesn't it? now i feel horribler than usual)
(*the most exquisite _ i've had in nyc!)
(*with pickchurz)

Currently reading : Prick Up Your Ears: The Screenplay By Alan Bennett Release date: February, 1988

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