Questions, Truths, & What Lies Behind.
Current mood: calm
Category: Writing and Poetry

Wondering where the illusions end,
why they persist,
what they hide.

Where's the warmth promised?
What's the hidden cost, & when will it emerge?
Answer those & the deal's not so 1-sided, is it?

Chase dreams, but wear good shoes,
so you have more time before the tread's gone.
Roadkill always thinks it'll make it across the highway.

The measure of beauty isn't when the light's right,
times are good,
and happiness is present.
It's when the world conspires,
the beholden is unaware of all else but the real,
and truth shines brightest of all.

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Life, and it’s true nature.
Current mood: Resigned
Category: Resigned Life

Some of y'all may know, more may suspect, but I'm not a real super-upbeat guy.  Basically, in my opinion, life is a river.  You fight the current for years, 'til you find a spot you can be happy with, or at least settle for, and hold it 'til the current takes you away.  Now, the better a person you are, the harder the world will fight to grind you down, crush, pulverize, destroy you, just because it can.  The worse a person you are, the easier things are. 

That being said, I have hope, even faith, that all of you that read this will one day find happiness, peace, and all that good b.s.  I have no such hope for myself.  I'm certain I'm going to be fighting, clawing, swinging at the world to get what I want, need, desire, etc.   And, I know I'm going to fail.  Doesn't matter.  I'm not wired to quit, or be indifferent.  I'm made to keep going, relentlessly.  Whether my body or spirit is broken, I keep going, one step at a time, driven by something I can't identify. 

Regardless, I'm not unhappy.  Hell, most days I can laugh, occasionally smile, sing(when alone), have no thoughts of anything I'd deem negative or unhealthy.  A rarity, sure, is a pessimist who can see the optimistic side of things, but I'm proof of it. 

Anyway, enough of my pseudo-intelligent babbling.  I know some have it better than me, many worse.  Y'all have a good one.  You deserve it, and many more like it.

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Solitary
Current mood: breezy
Category: Writing and Poetry

Solitary

Enlightenment is but an illusion,

perpetrated by fools and blowhards,

seeking to make themselves more important.

Wandering this wasteland,

trudging towards an imaginary door to a better place/space,

vainly looking.

The point isn't the door, it's the seeking.  

Life is for living, not self-pitying.

Don't give in, don't give up, don't give out.

Give to give, and stay the course.

Mine is a solitary path, but a rewarding one.

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Cowboy Songs
Current mood: apathetic
Category: Life

I've recently realized that many of the songs I like, especially cowboy songs, address parts or facets of my personality/emotional being I rarely pay attention to.  Namely those parts that other people probably pay attention to alot, like the urge for companionship, sensitivity, etc.  "Desperado" by The Eagles is a good example.

Desperado

Desperado, why don't you come to your senses?
You been out ridin' fences for so long now
Oh, you're a hard one
I know that you got your reasons
These things that are pleasin' you
Can hurt you somehow
Don' you draw the queen of diamonds, boy
She'll beat you if she's able
You know the queen of heats is always your best bet
Now it seems to me, some fine things
Have been laid upon your table
But you only want the ones that you can't get
Desperado, oh, you ain't gettin' no youger
Your pain and your hunger, they're drivin' you home
And freedom, oh freedom well, that's just some people talkin'
Your prison is walking through this world all alone
Don't your feet get cold in the winter time?
The sky won't snow and the sun won't shine
It's hard to tell the night time from the day
You're loosin' all your highs and lows
Ain't it funny how the feeling goes away?
Desperado, why don't you come to your senses?
Come down from your fences, open the gate
It may be rainin', but there's a rainbow above you
You better let somebody love you, before it's too late

Along with "Mamas, Don't Let Your Babies(Grow Up To Be Cowboys)", "My Heroes Have Always Been Cowboys", "Desperadoes Waiting For A Train", and others, these songs all represent a more sad, nearly hopeless outlook that I don't often allow free rein.  

Just some observations about my underlying or base nature, I suppose.

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Tagged.

The Rules:
Once you have been tagged, write a blog with ten strange/ random facts or habits about you. When you are done, pick ten people to be tagged. List their names and why you tagged them. Don't forget to leave them a comment telling them they are tagged and to read your latest blog....

No tag backs!



10 weird things about me:

1.I feel naked away from the house if I don't have a hat on.

2. I'm allergic to weed.

3. I'm a sucker for music people wouldn't expect me to like.

4. Though part German, I can't stand kraut.

5.  My 1989 Jeep Cherokee is named "The Porkchop Express."

6.  No matter how mad I may be, I still can laugh at jokes.

7.  I don't hug people without them initiating it.

8.  My hair is super-thick.

9. I'm actually a super-nice guy, in a rude, gruff way.

10. I'm almost painfully shy.



Who am I tagging?.....

1. Nicci
2. Andi
3. Baird
4. Danger
5. Jenn
6. Genna
7. Alicia
8. SJ
9. Jazz
10. Heath

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The Wheel
Current mood: contemplative

The Wheel

Empty days, wasted nights,
barren dunescape of futility,
unseen cage, limiting scope of view, action, reason,
solitude preferred, if only through ignorance.
Deadly eventuality looming on the horizon,
no forethought or reason.
Finally none of consequence,
the wheel continues on.

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Pain.
Current mood: calm

Pain

Like a thief in the night
silently creeping,
it arrives, takes what it can,
happily, brutally leaving the remnants.

Do I fight it, or let it wash over me?

Why even acknowledge it?
In doing so, does that indicate resignation
to an unpleasant fate, or acceptance,
willingness to struggle?

Either way, it refuses to leave.
I'd have it no other way.

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Questions Without Answers
Current mood: calm

Questions Without Answers

Empty of meaning utterly,
Why the fuck is it
so much of my time
is spent doing such shit?

Did I, in a past life perhaps,
wrong someone, bringing karmic retribution?

I refuse to be defined by others,
or my relationships with others.
Supposedly love exists,
and is a wondrous thing.

Is this yearning an actual,
"real" emotion,
or others feelings?

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Time
Current mood: apathetic

Flutter, flit, anxiously awaiting,
the best of what's yet to happen.

When days become months of tedium,
worthless except to mark time,
why deal with time itself?
Negotiation fruitless, futile.

Months become epochs,
Days are months,
minutes are hours.

Irregardless of intent,
action speaks.
Be warned, I'm unstoppable.

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Personal DNA
Current mood: contemplative
Category: Life

My personalDNA Report

Since my HTML skills fail, click this shit, to see what it says about me.

I stole it from Jessie, but hers works. :(

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