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Thursday, January 03, 2008
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What was best in your holidays (best moment, best gift you gave, best gift received...) ?
Current mood:  touched
Category: Life
Hi, all --
Inspired by the holiday surprise blog of JennyKorn_Bama
(http://blog.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendID=112610978&blogid=342063914&page=1)
...I'd enjoy hearing what was best for you, this holiday season (and/or hardest -- where are you now?) : the best gift you gave, received... or the best moment(s).
For me:
Best gift I got: my girlfriend gave me the same print I almost gave her, LOL. Luckily I let slip her name to the local gift shop, who recognized her name and discretely redirected me.
Best gift I gave: to each of my family in Atlanta, I sent a different wood carving from Bali. They loved them.... especially my mom, to whom I gave a wood carving of JUST the Buddha's eyes and third eye.... that carving looks like a monk carved it... you sense meditation, just looking at it :)
Best moment: Grace and I went to my church on Christmas day, for the Christmas service... that, lol, didn't happen this year. I hadn't been in touch enough to know that they weren't doing that this year. Luckily, I have the key, and she and spent a wonderful hour together in the sanctuary, singing to and for each other, talking, and really just being deeply in communication. What a great service, LOL. Heck, we even left an offering under the office door :)
What did you love most? (And/or what was hardest... where are you now, with the holidays?)
Love energy, to you and yours,
-- Doug
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Where Is the Love
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Black Eyed Peas
Release date: 16 September, 2003
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Saturday, November 24, 2007
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Right now, is my perception coming from "the thing being perceived", or "from the energies"?
Current mood:  creative
Category: Religion and Philosophy
As often happens, lol, this blog is partly inquiry: like, for me for now, the questions seem more powerful than the answers. ((And the usual "claimers" re' subjectivity: though I talk, below, as if these things are distinct from each other... because looking at distinctions reveals useful stuff... in reality all the below is generally blended... and life works organically that way.))
When I'm perceiving life, what am I basing my perception on?
And like the rest of us, I have multiple ways of looking at life. Three examples:
(1) Sometimes, I do my best to focus on getting *information* re' whatever I'm perceiving, like getting the facts, and having thoughts about it.
(2) Sometimes, there's alot of "being with it"... being aware of it. Thoughts may be quiet (esp. when I'm identifying with awareness), or thoughts may be playing a part... but there's a connectedness available, with whatever I'm perceiving, that isn't a quality of thought... that is available in awareness.
(3) And generally, my perception is largely affected by "how I'm relating" to what I'm perceiving... and how I'm relating is affected by "who I'm being." Like, when "who I'm being" is loving, the love-relating brings things to the perception, that weren't there otherwise. When I'm "being creative", my creative energy is part of the relating, and also flavors the perception. When I'm "being connected"... well, you get it.
This morning, what I got is how I prefer mode (3) over mode (1): like, for me for now, I have more trust in love, than I have in understanding. That may look like I'm just being idealistic... but I'm just starting from energy, and seeing what perception-flavor comes from that. Like, love is who I am (4th chakra), then what do I see? Or, standing in "we are cause of life" (3rd chakra), what do I see? Or, standing in "it's all good" (5th chakra), what do I see?
And I was going to say "I'd rather believe the energies, than believe the facts"...
(a) because I often am not aware of how my energies are already in my way of seeing the facts, and
(b) because the energies reveal things that my fact-accumulating mechanism does not reveal.
The reason this seemed significant, is that this morning I saw that when I'm feeling "stuck", one way to get flowing is to switch my perception-basis from fact-based to energy-based. Like, "be welcoming", and "be loving", and relate from there.
And the above is still real to me.
But I wasn't thinking about (2)... at least not this morning.
Until I started writing this, lol.
It's all good. What do you see?
Love energy to you and yours.
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Thursday, November 09, 2006
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There are no answers in the creative process
Current mood:  giddy
Category: http://music.yahoo.com/lc/?rt=0&rp1=0&rp2=12229501 Religion and Philosophy
ok, ok... 
this is not intended to be "The Truth"...
it's just an access to something.
Lying in bed with Grace this morning, and being with this thought, ("there are no answers in the creative process"), a huge space of free flow opened up for me.
When you "try on" the above, does anything open up for you?
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Friday, August 04, 2006
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What does "I love you" mean, when said by two people who love everyone?
Current mood:  chipper
Category: Romance and Relationships
Well, I've been intending this blog entry for weeks... lol, and I'm starting to notice some inauthenticities I've had that say "There's a scarcity of time." There's not a scarcity of time; there's just choice.
And you know what I would love? For us to create this blog together.
So, I'll start with a small thought, and you put in yours, and everybody respond to everybody, LOL, like a creative mess.
So, I'll start with 2 things:
1) Deb, (the friend that introduced Grace and me), asked Grace last month: "Well, have you and Doug said 'it'? Have you said 'I love you'? Grace explained that for both of us, love is a basic part of our ways of Being, and that we'd said it pretty early on. So Deb said: "Oh, that's right... you both love *everybody*. So... how do you handle saying 'I love you'? What does it really mean?"
2) Grace and I have a relationship that's built not so much on "identity", as built on Being. It's enough for both of us that loving energy is powerfully present, and that we both consistently access it and bring it. It doesn't need to be so "personal"... we don't have to put each other on pedestals, or say "You're the only one I could love like this..." or "You're the only one I love". Being is first, shared intention after that, and little attachment. We're not "attached", we're "connected".
How about you? How would it be, if you and the person (or people ;) you're intimately involved with, loved everyone?
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Sunday, July 30, 2006
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Previous "friends theme" -- calling all Landmark Forum grads
Current mood: Inspired
Hi, all --
I'm creating a new "current theme" for my top friends -- it's been "Peace Candles and Witches/Wiccan" for a few weeks now, and I'm switching it to "Creative Peace Candles and graduates of Landmark Education"...
... partly because tomorrow evening, I'm assisting at a Landmark Forum graduation evening. Note -- a free introduction to this very powerful seminar is being offered tomorrow night, and you're welcome as my guest.
((I'm not leading the introduction, but I know how this work works -- my promise to you is that even if you do not choose to register for the seminar, you'll get a new opening in your life,
just out of your participation in this intro!))
In any case, I have 2 requests:
1) Forum grads message me, so I can put you on my current "top friends"
2) Please leave a comment on my page, either sharing "who you are as Possibility" (if you've done the Advanced Course), or sharing briefly what you've created or cleared out of the Forum.
THANKS!
Who I am is the possibility of being present, inspired, and connected. And that's who I am.
Namaste!
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The Essence
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Deva Premal
Release date: 01 June, 1998
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Sunday, June 18, 2006
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The Play of Love (poem)
Current mood: being
Category: being Writing and Poetry
The Play of Love is a song
That sounds the instrument of my heart.
Its wisdom knows a path unknown,
And trust is its harmony.
Doug / Peace Walker, 2005
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Saturday, June 03, 2006
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Unconditional love; conditional involvement.
Current mood: Up
Category: Up Religion and Philosophy
In loving you, or being present to love with you, there's a sense of connection with your being, and support for your well-being.
This love can be a "context" for all of life... with everything else as "content"
How we share intentions...
When we are simply being together, without intention...
In what ways we enjoy cooperating together, in the games of life...
When we are touched, moved, and inspired by the same things...
...these are the nature of involvement. These may, or may not, be present when love is present. Love does not depend upon them. We can be loving all the time, while choosing involvement in ways that work for us.
Unconditional love; conditional involvement.
We can love everyone as a Being... and choose to love some as friends, and choose to love some as people we're close to.... when we do.
What would life feel like, if you were *being* love all the time, and simply choosing *how* to love right now?
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Aerials
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System of a Down
Release date: 22 July, 2002
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Thursday, May 25, 2006
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This Time (poem)
Current mood:  full
Category: Writing and Poetry
Someone has written something new
In the ashes of your life.
You are not leaving...
You are arriving.
Your brow peeks over the horizon,
lifting and furrowing its creep.
Your cheeks smile new mounds on the hillside,
reddening before the sunset.
Your teeth do not fear appearance,
but boldly and brightly speak
your anticipation.
Thus a face grows,
as a mind awakens.
Thus it becomes present,
as your heart shows its face.
This time is all times
was this face ever on the back of your head,
that you could not have seen it?
This dawn was ever bright
this sun that renews was never new.
Bring forward the present,
That long seemed to escape
To the back of your hand.
A little turn, makes it your grasp.
Doug Ivison / Peace Walker, 2000
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Wednesday, May 24, 2006
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The value of the ego.
Current mood:  curious
Category: & re-arranged Music
"All the efforting you're involved in, is the effort to be an ego, or to resist being an ego." -- Lester Levenson
For now, I'm leaving in the song lyrics below -- that were the original focus of this blog topic -- but... I'm starting to doubt how much they fit for me, now.
I've known for a long time that it simply doesn't work for me, to try to kill the ego -- the result of that had been an increase of effort, and pendulum swings. And making it wrong or resisting it have similar drawbacks (except if it gets way out of hand, in which case you just do what's practical, for now). It has worked better, to follow the advice of the Handbook to Higher Consciousness: just continue to dissolve attachment, maximize love.... and over time, retire the ego due to lack of work.
Well....... what about not retiring the ego? What about making it conscious, and even intentional, without attachment or aversion?
Like this: knowing that the ego is not "who I am" -- that it's just something I have, and sometimes even choose. Like, as I allow&release the emotional charge of attachment&aversion, as I know presence, connection, & inspiration, as I get free... that I still choose roles to play in life, wearing them like clothing.... free to take them off (ooo, baby ;) or put them on, when they serve a purpose.
What would it be like, if life had a harmony that allowed space for healthy ego structure, like the transpersonal & interpersonal co-existing with the personal -- an intermix of trust and creativity?
Anyway, Kirtana's lyrics are still below, if you're interested. There is a sweetness there...
Lyrics to my favorite song by Kirtana (...highlighting mine.)
(And reader?... tell us about your Beloved ;)
The Satguru Song
Copyright (C) 2002 Kirtana; Published: Wild Dove Music / BMI
My beloved's love,
although it's tender, is so vast and true
that since you've asked her to,
she's not afraid to use a knife --
if that will cut you free
What a gift this ruthless love can be
It makes you want to sing
It ruins everything
you used to call your life
But you can't say she didn't warn you
She warned you from the start
that this Tiger is not tame
and this is not a game
for the weak at heart
My beloved's love
is worth it all, but there's a price to pay
Most people turn away
She leaves it up to you
She's so demanding;
let it be said she'll ask for everything
And that little bit that's left
to which you cling --
she's gonna want that too
In fact there's nothing to be gained here
And you stand to lose your mind
But I say, just pay the fees
and get down on your knees
for a love like that is hard to find
My beloved's love
is like an ocean that will draw you in
You can sink or swim --
but I suggest you drown
And come without your clothes
She always knows when you've got clothes or fins
And if you come up for air,
she's sure to spot you there
and pull you down
And she will crush your sand-like castles,
then find you where you hid
and offer you her hand
like nothing ever happened
And nothing ever did
My beloved's glance is enigmatic;
when it falls on you,
it could mean 'yes' or 'no',
it could mean just hello --
it's a kind of koan
So listen deeply
Don't stir up questions; she won't answer them
She'll make you dance with them
until the cows come home
And forget all your projections;
she will not play the part
And she won't do walks
or quiet little talks,
but she'll camp out in your heart
She's my beloved friend
God knows I love her, but our words are few
I think she loves me too
I have a question though...
What do you give someone
who's taken all you thought you were away,
who gives you cause to sing,
who taught you everything that you don't know
Well I'm not sure how to thank her,
but for now it's awfully sweet
to pick up my guitar
and try to sing this love
'cause it's the only way I know to kiss her feet
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The Essence
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Deva Premal
Release date: 01 June, 1998
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Friday, November 16, 2007
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"Personality traits" of Core Being ;)
Category: Religion and Philosophy
so....
What if the Chakras are personality traits of your Core Being?
Like, what if who you are, really, is
Grounded
Creative
Effective
Loving
Receptive
Perceptive and
Connected?
And what if those energies come naturally to you?
Notice if these "possibilities of being" feel inspiring for you now.
You might even "try on" a few of these declarations:
I open the possibility of being grounded.
I open the possibility of being creative.
I open the possibility of being effective.
I open the possibility of being loving.
I open the possibility of being receptive.
I open the possibility of being perceptive.
I open the possibility of being connected.
Like, for you, does "the possibility of being grounded" feel inspiring? The possibility of being creative? The feeling of inspiration -- it tells you that you have a doorway open to "inspiration energy" right now. The possibility of being loving? The possibility of being connected?
And... while you try on those possibilities...
... like you would try on a piece of clothing...
... do you sense energy coming in right now?
For each one:
notice the now,
open the possibility,
allow energy in,
welcome the experience,
and rest in that.
It might even feel like the energy is generating you.
So, just for a minute, see yourself being grounded, creative, effective, loving, receptive, perceptive, and connected...
Is there **>>ANYTHING<<** in life you cannot handle? :)
...and... handle **>>beautifully<<** ?
**>>flowingly<<**
**>>with joy and ease<<**
And now, how would it be if those energies are actually *EASY* for us... easier than any the things we've often done, to "make" life work? Like, how would it be, if these energies are already built-in... are already part of our presence ?
And now notice that these energies are already everywhere. Like, we don't really need affirmations... that groundedness is in everything... that creativity is moving thru all things... that effectiveness is resting in itself... that love is ... that receptiveness / abundance / grace / cornucopia is how the universe is already mirroring our energy (leaving it to us to "shine into the mirror")... that we already are perceptiveness / awareness, the witness, no-thing... and we already are connectedness -- we are the 10,000 things.
These qualities are in the connectedness to ourselves, in connectedness to our source, and in connectedness to everything. These doorways are ... and we can open them anytime... we can look from each view, taste their breezes... and with each of them... we can go out and play.
Love energy to you,
-- Doug / Peace
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