back in the studio, with a special guest

i had about a 3 month delay while i sorted some things out in my head ... one thing: i’m going to be a mommy! ohmygodholyshitwow... and the other thing: can i be a mommy and still be a singer/songwriter?...

and the answer is yes, at least i hope so!

today was fantastic. we didn’t expect to get so much done, but we started exploring a song that was, as far as arrangement is concerned, a bit of a question mark, and we found some beautiful things. i’m really excited to be working with asi, and amazed that i found a musical soulmate in this unlikely part of the world, so far away from home...

so i’m back in the studio (which feels like home, no matter the country), thrilled to be doing my very favorite work all day long. and i love knowing that my baby is growing in me while i make music everyday, and all those soundwaves and good vibrations are nourishing us both. all of my records have been special exeriences for me, but that is what is going to make this one extra special for me.

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in the flow

when i thought about coming here to israel, i thought it might be like this, but you never know until you go... well, it's really as amazing as i thought it might be, and more. it's in flow. sometimes you feel like you are fighting against the current of life, and sometimes you are in harmony, riding with the river, effortlessly. and when that happens, my god, it's a great feeling.

but being here, it's also a little scary at times. i'm definitely out of my culture, out of my known world, and in some ways, alone... but also not - i've been welcomed like family by a loose and large circle of beautiful people. i am so grateful for that.

and some of the cultural differences i love - really love! i love the vibe around family and hospitality, i love the way people here are direct and won't just say something to be nice, but they will also easily call you 'sweetheart' or 'my brother' or some other term of endearment.... yesterday a friend of mine took me to his parents house - it was a surprise visit, but they made me lunch and hugged me and kissed me and sent me off with love. so sweet! ... on the other hand, i've never been so conscious of being a woman in a man's world - the music business - as i am here. on the surface, there seems to be no difference, but underneath, i feel the vibe more of women being expected to step aside for the man to rise, for her place to be one of support, not power. but i am just observing that, i'm not taking it personally. if i had ever believed that cultural expectations could hold me back, i never would have taken the chance in the first place and dedicated myself to music, songs, or art.

and musically i am really excited. we haven't started recording yet, but i feel a great connection with the producer. it's really something special, i really feel i have a deep new friend, and so i'm very very excited to explore the recording process from within that connection.

i also tried in the last few days for the first time to write a song for someone else, an israeli singer who wants to start singing in english. i wrote a song for him and i really like it, but more than that, i loved the process of writing for someone else! it was exhilerating in a whole new way, there's a real shift in perpective that happens and a kind of freedom and egolessness... i think it's going to be really amazing to hear him sing it, we're going to work on it soon. i can't wait!

it's not all perfect though, i already fumbled here in my familiar fumbling spot - men, romance, sex, love, feelings... why am i always on such dangerous footing in that territory?... well, maybe it's good for me - more to put in the songs, right? ::sigh::

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puppetji and the secret

meet my guru:

puppetji and the secret

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wow wow wow!

today my friends avishai and amir and i finished recording a nine-song demo of my new songs. they are all just vocals and guitar, recorded 'live' - meaning no edits or punching-in, and i recorded the vocals at the same time as the guitar. so it's a simple, raw document - a first draft... but somehow also a complete entity unto itself.

it's amazing to look back at where i was when i started my journey, my first recordings, my early songs... it's always been honest, it's always been a very honest reflection of who i was, my internal space at any given stage - so, i have experienced deep gratification in this form of expression, in this mirror of my inner self, before... but, somehow... it's very special and different to experience this reflection.

now that it's out of me, even in this newborn form, i can really feel how i was full, carrying it, pregnant with it. how long it was growing in me, building up to this release. i can look back now and see how things i was going through that i didn't understand at the time were integral parts of the journey.

because for me, it's not just about songcraft, performance technique, or attainment of skills. what comes through has to be more than that, it has to be integrated between all the layers of being. i've never studied martial arts, but i think it's kind of like that - like you have to meditate and find inner peace to be a super bad-ass fighter, because it's all one.

anyway... i'm happy : ) ... and excited... and satisfied; i will sleep well tonight.

♥
mirabai

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as it is in heaven

i just saw the film "as it is in heaven"... beautiful. passionate, sensuous, inspiring...

such a fragile life, so many beautiful moments to taste and touch and listen to, to sing and shout and love and cry and cherish and adore and feel and be thankful for.

recently i took a chance, i thought i might be crazy, but i had to follow my heart, and in my heart, i knew it was the right thing to do - to leave that old skin behind, revealing a soft new layer...

and i say: whatever can be lost, let it go...
heaven is now.

Currently watching : As It Is in Heaven (Så som i Himmelen) [ NON-USA FORMAT, PAL, Reg.2 Import - Sweden ]

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