good news!

We found out Anara does not have trisome 18!!! We are so relieved! I am still very worried about the pregnancy though. I think I will be worried until she comes out and is crying, and all of her organs are working and the dr.'s give her the ok!!! So please keep praying everyone!

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A lot of prayers needed

I know I have been absent. I should have posted to everyone sooner. The baby has been in some trouble. The first of next week we find out 100% sure if SHE... yes, its a GIRL!!!! will have something called trisome 18. for those of you who really don't know it is a chromosomal defect that happens at conception and is just sort of bad lluck.. noone caused it, it just is... but it causes the babys heart to not develop so when she leaves my body, she will die. I am not usually the type of person who asks people for prayers, or even support, but I am afraid if I keep closing myself in I will go insane. So this brings more challenge to CYNDI and other friends close.. like you too CHESLEA... ;) you guys have to come make me get out of my house. I know you are use to thr drill Ches... I just need this miracle. I love this baby girl, and those of you with kids or have gone through similar stuff can sympathize... another thing I hate.. sympathy. I have found myself needing you guys more than I ave ever needed people... please pray.

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Is January over yet?

So... This morning the 26th, I find myself in Clinton, Ok. I am going to an AA convention in OKC in about 6 hours or so. I am not exactly sure what to expect. Hopefully it will be a lot of good, clean, fun! I have been having a hard time lately. Been kind of on the edge. See... I am so depressed I just about broke into a creed song! Fucking CREED... I mean, how low can one go? I miss the days of OI and loud punk... where it seemed nothing mattered. Now I feel like it all matters.... maybe it all does matter. I went to an NA meeting last night here with Cheri and I am convinced now more than ever that there are no accidents. God has perfect timing even if I happen to think is timing is shit! I still have to shower, shave, get pretty, go through Cheri's Mary Kay, and then... the day will be my playground. I will smile, laugh, and have fun... living in the moment. Well, it is a nice thought anyways...

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Ever feel like joining a doomsday cult...

... Just so the world will end, or at least you will get to drink the poisoned kool-aid.Ok... so today has been shit. School is shit, home is shit, smoking cigarettes is shit, eating is shit, the satellites broken so I am gonna miss American Idol, Granny is INSANE and here, I hurt all over... the shrink says it because I don't deal with my emotions. I guess I am just too tired or I woke up on the wrong side of the bed... or maybe the cold just sucks so much I wouldn't mind Mexicans about now!!Not even watching Buffy cheered me up and this is always a sure fire way to make everything better. I am just ready for the pace of life to speed up, or slow down... not sure. Anyways... 51 days... I just have to keep thinking, short term goal of midnight...

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All my time being wasted through heartache...

Its weird, but the saying is so true... you find love when you aren't looking for it! Ive spent all this time worrying about why love never found me why I got the short end of the stick. I now how the love of a lifetime... never ending and always supportive. After all the bad shit i have done, there was a light at the end of the tunnel! I will approach everything in my life now with honesty, openmindedness, and willingness. Been clean 42 days, and I have an awesome support group and a fantabulous love. This heart is officially taken and spoken for... forever!!!

Currently watching : Buffy The Vampire Slayer - Collector's Set (40 discs) Release date: 01 August, 2006

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Hey lovies.. This one is a MUST read!

Well, I am in Valley Hope in Cushing, Ok. I checked myself into rehab for 31 days and I have 22 left. My nickname upon entry was Damien's little sister due to my hissing at everyone. Another common phrase around here was "Hey, Ya'll met the crazy new chick yet?" I was pretty fucked up! I am feeling better now than I have in 10 years. And I am looking forward to starting a new life and being sober and remembering all of the wonderful memories I've yet to make with my fantastic friends. I hope I have all of your support and love. So please send me lots of well wishes in my recovery and be good influences to help me sustain my sobriety.

Blessed be!
Kimberlie

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So if you know what happened on my birthday

... you will know what I am meaning when I say it happened to me again. This time I really felt like my life was in danger because I am pretty sure these guys had no soul! Needless to say, due to all of the shit going on I am dropping out of school for this semester. I feel a lot like a failure. I will finish probably at OPSU when I get out of rehab. I guess I am going to join theliving in a few weeks. I am not staying longer than 30 days and no less than 7. I am sure they probably don't have internet there...So I dont know how long until I talk to any of you again.  peace ot

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and yet more of it... Hilary, I never shouldve read your blog

Whoa... look... I got to see it get light outside... and my head is still killing me!! Its some kind of weird  pain starting in my shoulder going up through my neck and ending in my temples... I hardly slept at all so I think today I may be in rare form... *bitchy form that is*  So anyways... I don't know if it is the lack of sleep or the me just being really dumb, but I learned something... blocking people is dumb. It is REALLY dumb when you don't remember who or why you blocked 1 user... *scratching head* Well, I have like 30 minutes before I have to head out and I am half ready... story of.. well, everything!!! I am choosing the Pollyanna approach to life. I made mistakes... but I am so much smarter... I think it is the pain in my neck sleep deprevation... there is nothing worse, ya know... well, I am sure there is... but lets all try to think of something better... I am gonna go play with 3 year olds... *I am early childhood perverts*

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and still more procrastinating...

 you name 13 people you can think of right off the top of your head? Don't read the questions underneath until you write the names of *** 13 people...This is a lot funnier if you actu***y randomly list the names first...No Cheating!!! 

lets see if I know 13 people...

1. D-D

2. Lindsey

3. Dan

4. Cody... I don't want to discuss it

5. Jesse

6. Jackie

7. Hilary

8. Sheabree...*missin' ya*

9. Candise... *you guys should watch my Buffy clips too!!!*

10. Shannon...

11. Stephen

12. Michael

13. Spencer

First of all, are there more guys or girls on your list?
Girls...7-6 win out

How did you meet 4?
[Cody] Uh, a friend of a friend... *scratching head*

Something about number one ?
[D-D]What isn't amazing about her!... teehee... she wrote that about me... and I think she is the kindest most patient person I have ever met!

What would you do if 6 and 2 dated?
[Lindsey and Jackie] tell my roommate... ewww... and my mom!!!

Have you ever seen 10 cry?
[Shannon] No... oh, wait... yea...

Tell me something about number 11
[Jena] He's a hippy. Oh, and my bff

How do you know 8?
[Sheabree] 7th grade flashback...

Would you date number 12?
[Michael] Naw...

What do you think about 7?
[Hilary] She has gotten SUPER good at saving my ass these past 2 years of school hell!!! And her mind is a wonderful thing to read. ;)

What would you do if 3 confessed they liked you?
[Dan] Make him move out!!!

Who is 10 going out with ?
[Shannon] Mr. David of course

What does 5 do for a living?
[Jesse] What doesn't he do?.

is 2 single?
[Lindsey] nope

What do you think of 4?
[Cody] Dammit... what the fuck is with number 4... can I go switch the order?.

Fact about 9.
[Candise] Her daughter is so lovely!!!

What's the best thing about number 3?
[Dan] He puts up with my bullshit!!!

Whats your best memory with 1?
[D-D] country music whiskey drinkin day at kims quadranually. FUCK YEA... YEE HAW MOTHER FUCKERS...

best feature for 2?
[Lindsey] she is beautiful. And she makes Dan light up like a little boy.

What do you think about 13?
[Spencer] he has silly bones

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Everyone lies....

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