i choose to love you

The world we know can construed for hours
On a fantasy love filled with moonlight and flowers,
but real love isn't like that-it has highs and lows,
and we must keep out direction, however it flows.

i made the decision right from the start
that id always love you with all of my heart;
so if my pulse stops racing as you enter the room,
if my sunshiny days turn to glom,
if words said in anger cut deep to the core,
i wont love you less - just perhaps, forgive more.
Emotions are fickle; we cant live by whim,
changing affections like chaff in  the wind.
I've made my decision and ill follow through;
Love is a decision, I've decided to love you!

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I am

"I am STRONG because I am weak
I am BEAUTIFUL because I know my flaws
I am a LOVER because I am a fighter
I am FEARLESS because I have been afraid
I am WISE because I have been foolish
& I can LAUGH because I have known sadness"

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My story

Life throws curve balls our way and it's up to us to figure out how we are going to approach them so that we knock it out the park and get that home run!  Well as most of you know I am preparing to be a single mom and to be honest I know its going to have its challenges but I wouldn't change it for the world.  I am expecting my son Austin Michael in Sept. so my life has been kind of crazy because I guess I just want everything to be perfect for him when he comes home.  I had to make a choice not only for myself but for my son I wasn't going to make my son be an obligation to his father I didn't understand how someone could love you so much one minute and not the next. But as time past I realize that I made my mind tell my heart how to feel.  I know there are a lot of you out there who are going though a lot and I know how hard it was for me to except that I was going to have to start all over but to be honest all the stress and tears wasted really wasn't worth it.  Being knocked so far down and having to try to stand again was hard but in the process you're not realizing that you're becoming a wiser and stronger person.


Mathew 11:9 28-30
"come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and i will give you rest.  Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for i am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. for my yoke is easy and my burden is light."  

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lOVE IS A DECISION, & I’VE DECIDE TO LOVE YOU!

The world we know can construed for hours
On a fantasy love filled with moonlight and flowers,
but real love isn't like that-it has highs and lows,
and we must keep out direction, however it flows.

i made the decision right from the start
that id always love you with all of my heart;
so if my pulse stops racing as you enter the room,
if my sunshiny days turn to glom,
if words said in anger cut deep to the core,
i wont love you less - just perhaps, forgive more.
Emotions are fickle; we cant live by whim,
changing affections like chaff in  the wind.
I've made my decision and ill follow through;
Love is a decision, I've decided to love you!

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Break it and it’s yours....

There's a sign
in a local crystal shop
that reads...
'Break it and it's yours'!

I'm sure there's a cost involved
~ not mentioned.

It makes me wonder
how much broken crystal
is going for these days.

Why would anyone even
want it...if it's broken,
chipped, or even cracked
a little?

Because if it's broken,
it worthless.

'Break it and it's yours'...
I guess a person would have
been at least a little interested
in the crystal, to have touched
it at all... wouldn't they?

Perhaps the sign should read
'Look but don't touch! '

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just a little prayer i say when thing get to hard to deal with ......try it it helps!!!!
Category: Religion and Philosophy

There is a saying in the bible…..

"I am the potter and you my son are the clay"

The lord our potter molds us, he throws us in the fire to become stronger (which are trials we go through in life) and as he helps us through it he once again starts to mold & help us become a beautiful pice, And then again he throws us right back into the fire which this time is 10x hotter (this will test your faith) and as he slowly pulls us out he puts the finishing touches on us before we are ready to be put out for show and sold….

No matter what trial you go through all we need to remember is that he is here to help us ….. All we need to do is just ask:

This is something I came up with….

Lord I need you in this time of need

To take this fight which I can't beat…..

This burden which is drilling a hole into me

I need you in my life….to watch over me.

Lord I know I am not perfect,

But I don't see why this is happening to me...

I know there's a lesson to be learn,

But without you I can't see what you have in store for me.

I need a place were you and I can just be….

Where no one else in this world, would be able to judge me.

I know some of my actions are wrong but with your help I can't fail,

Just show me the way and there ill be there ….

Waiting to follow just as life should be!!!

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"Have you ever had that one person who can make your whole life make since?"
Current mood: calm
Category: at ease Blogging

As we lay here,

I catch my self watching you sleep.

And with every stroke of your face

And gentle kiss upon your face I wonder,

I wonder how I…. who is simply one more to this over populated world, would have the privilege to have someone like you in my life.

Someone who with just one touch could make my problems go away,

With a simple hello my days are no longer grey.

I know this simply cant be, but just to know at one point in our life, you felt the way I feel every time I look into your eyes, just wishing you would hold me tight and never leave my sight, for you….,

You are that one, that one who makes meaning in life,

My reason for being, living and breathing.

And yet when I had you I let you slip away,

I know it looked like nothing but if only you knew.

If only you knew it hit me 20 xs harder,

If only you could see … just how much you mean to me.

I play this role as if I, who is so weak, could stand alone.

A role of fulfillment and happiness,

That has exceeded and needs no more.

And yet I lay here wondering why,

Why are stuck playing this role of Romeo and Juliet

Knowing that as soon and the sun sets this will all end.

I know its wrong, but I just can't let it be, there has to be more…

More why can't you see….

I won't let this be just another secrete swept away with the wind, nor another thought in the back of my head…

I want to scream, scream so that the hole world could hear my wore

But as I come back to reality I realize, that this is just another game played by you and me and yet ill play this game just like I just got it hoping that one day I will over come and win it so that we can just be.

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Hard Balls
Category: Life

I know life can throw some hard balls our way and some we can knock out the park and others we just move to fast and strike out, but that doesn't mean to ever give up.  I guess you just have to know  or take the chance on something so special to you… see if it's worth all the strikes out and fouls. We all have taken those chances and failed at many but it shouldn't keep us from still loving another's soul.  I don't think I believe in soul mates but I know somewhere out there, there's a right one for everyone. And just because you have not found them yet doesn't mean you should give up trying. You know we all start young any many of us have got our hearts broken many times but it's just a lesson learned.  "Have you ever notice how after each relationship we have we change as a person?"  Some of us grow stronger and others wiser, we all make mistakes but who doesn't?  I guess all I have left to say is "just be yourself" that the best thing you can do for your self.  You know someone once told me "Why try to be who they want your to be (THEY as in your friends, family, ECT.) Or try to impress them, you're the one who has to get up every morning and why have to be something your not.  If you have to pretend to be someone your not it's neither worth the pain nor the tears because we all know what follows "HEARTBREAK!"

                                             --Krystal Gracia

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Mixed Feelings
Category: Life

Mixed Feelings

Some times you have to separate love from lust….. But just how do you tell them apart?  Well you see I have always needed some one to feel that empty part in my heart not caring weather or not he was right for me. Well that was until I really found that one who gave me butterflies …you know "can't eat, can't sleep, humming love songs, wishing to the stars (lol). See I know we all have felt like this one point in our lives but is it really love?

Love is a deep, tender, ineffable feeling of affection and solicitude toward a person, such as that arising from kinship, recognition of attractive qualities, or a sense of underlying oneness."  I feel a real relationship need a strong base which would be a friendship.  This gives both of you a good understanding and since of how the other one is.  I know we all think we know when we're in love with someone but it's different nowadays.  In today's society saying, "I love you" is like saying "GOD bless you" when someone sneezes.  There is no meaning or feeling behind it which makes it hard not to get mixed feeling. 

And I know we all can relate with this one.  Lust is to have an intense or obsessive desire, especially one that is sexual.  Which is easy because there are really good looking guys and girls out there that make you get weak in the knees and speechless when they come near, but sadly to say that's not love we want them with us to show off or have sexual inorcourse with, and as women we make our self believe that we love them and as so happy, but we are just fooling our selves. That's not going to make us happy just put more drama in our lives which I know we all have enough of it.

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"Why does God hand you something so specail and then just rip it away?"
Category: Life

"Why does God hand you something so special... and then just rip it away?"

You know my mom once told me that when life gets hard just pray and god will hear your prayer, and heal all wouns…  "But have you ever felt like he didn't?"

"You know it's told that the best gifts in life are unanswered prayers!!!"

You see we all want things to be handed to us instead of doing thing our self, and I belive that's why things happen the way they do. You see I fell like we all were put here for a pourose, which one? I don't  know, but I belive I was put  here to help people.  I don't know why but every time I cross roads with someone new, I might not know it at the time but eventually I see a need that needs to be helped and once that deed is accomplished then I am gone…… maybe not like that but something happens and then the two of us are split we continue on our journey and on seprate paths that's why I don't hold grouges.

I mean why?

We all hade those nights were we lay and pay to God "God if you do this for me I swear I will……" you know what I am talking about and then you get mad because he doesn't say "ok _(name)_ here you go, be careful next time." You see he doesn't answer them at that point of time because it wasn't meant to be…… plus he is sending something more special into your life which one day you will thank him for… he knows what your heart really want and just because at that point of time you wanted that so much …..It doesn't mean you need it……

Look read this and you will understand what I am talking about ……

The 22^nd of November I recived this email which explains what I just said ……..

People come into your life for a reason, a season or a lifetime. When you know which one it is, you will know what to do for that person. When someone is in your life for a REASON, it is usually to meet a need you have expressed. They have come to assist you through a difficulty, to provide you with guidance and support, to aid you physically, emotionally or spiritually.. They may seem like a godsend and they are. They are there for the reason you need them to be.


Then, without any wrongdoing on your part or at an inconvenient time, this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end.

Sometimes they die. Sometimes they walk away.

Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand. What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilled, their work is done. The prayer you sent up has been answered and now it is time to move on.

Some people come into your life for a SEASON, because your turn has come to share, grow or learn. They bring you an experience of peace or make you laugh. They may teach you something you have never done. They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy. Believe it, it is real. But only for a season.!

LIFETIME relationships teach you lifetime lessons, things you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional foundation. Your job is to accept the lesson, love the person and put what you have learned to use in all other relationships and areas of your life. It is said that love is blind but friendship is clairvoyant.


Thank you for being a part of my life, whether you were a reason, a season or a lifetime.

So after reading that I know you'll understand were I am getting at….. You see sometimes in life we think we know all the answers in life and maybe all the solutions to life's problems but do we? 

So I leave you with this………

"Why does God hand you something so special and then just rip it away?"

I believe it's because he is molding us into something more special that what we already are, it just takes time……..

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