Just an Update
Current mood: awake

 Oh my, its another Saturday in my ho hum little existance here in Moorhead, MN.  The 08 Olympics are in full swing and I have been watching some of them this week.  I like the spirit and intention of the games. It also is so inspiring to watch people live their dreams.

I woke up today, duh. I went on a walk and then took the bus. I went to the Social Connexion and have been here ever since. Cory joined me here around 2 pm. I'm going Walmart shopping tonight. I need just some basic things.

I learned how to play Pinocle a bit today, I'm far from expert but I learned some of the rules. I 've cooked, spent time outside and of course spent time on the net. My friend Kathleen B. was here and we played pool with her caseworker and then Cory. That was fun.

I don't know if I will go to church tommorrow or not. Depends on if I can come up with some transportation.  That and church is always such an issue with me.

I have drank a lot of coffee today, it is always in abundant supply here at the Social Connexion.  This is a really good place for those of us with SPMI. We love it so much here.

I am going to Chicago with Cory next weekend. I can't wait. This should be a really fun trip. I just wish we had a GPS, that makes travel so much nicer. We are going to Wrigley stadium to watch the Cubs play. It has been a long time since I  have been to a major league baseball game.  The last time I went was in 1989 in Mpls. when the Twins were in the World Series. 

Desperately I am trying to diet. I'm a true fat butt and I can't stand it. I am truly ashamed of how much I weigh and I eat way to much. I so need to go on that show the Biggest Loser. I am trying very hard to change my eating habits and to exercise more. So tough!!!!

I got my passport ordered for going to Scottland. I can't wait for that trip in October. It will be totally awesome.

Well-that's all for now!

                   liebes liebes colette

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Free writing
Current mood: fermented
Category: Writing and Poetry

        The swordfish and the sand, the crane over my head

     Oscar picked up a pile of papers and put them in the recycling bin near the door.  Then he went over towards his computer but somehow the urge to sit inside all day on the internet was not in him today. No, it was time for a good time outside.  He needed some exercise and time in the great outdoors.  He packed a cooler and grabbed his swimsuit and a towel and headed for his car. The morning was bright and his neighbor Carli was outside mowing her meticulous lawn.  Oscar waved hello at her and put his stuff in his VW and headed for the state park.  The MP3 player in his car played his favorite tunes of the eighties.  Life just seemed good today.

     Oscar drove up the last road towards the parking lot near the lake beach.  The parking lot was full of people packing and unpacking their beachwares and families, dogs and children. Lovers looked in great spirits and elderly people were serene.  Oscar really didn't mind being alone. By nature he was kind of a loner and enjoyed a break from being with people.  In college people thought he was antisocial because often he preferred eating meals by himself and studying alone too. 

    Work had not been that stressful lately either.  Oscar worked as a manager at a department store. He mainly helped in the behind the scenes work such as stocking shelves, displays, marketing and some accounting.  His education was in Theatre and Business management.  Truly, he had meant to work in the fine arts but he found that BIGEE BOX paid better than the local community theatre.  Oscar liked his management team.

     Oscar grabbed his stuff and headed for the beach.  There were some beautiful younger women laughing and talking by their parents picnic table.  They were around fifteen years of age.  Oscar thought how old he must look to them. He had just had his twenty fifth birthday.  He went in the water and swam.  An elderly woman stood calmly in the water with a bathing cap on her head.  Near the shore parents and children played in the sand  and the water.  One little tyke sat in the sand in his swimmer diaper.  Oscar swam out to the furthest buoy and then tread water. The scenery of the lake was gorgeous although the water was a bit cooler than he expected.  The northern lakes never warmed up until mid August and then they were too luke warm.  The water freshened his mind and senses.  A woman swam out next to him. She looked athletic and wore a dark one piece suit.

     Oscar went back to the beach and lay in the sun.  Then he walked with his cooler over to a picnic table and ate a lunch.  A large family was having a picnic and they looked like they were having a great time.  The three young girls he saw earlier were out in the water and they were playing like sea otters.  Oscar wished he was just a bit younger again. Twenty five was such an in between age. He didn't really fit in yet with people in their later twenties and thirties but he wasn't fresh out of college either.

    Then he saw someone he didn't expect to see.  He looked intensely at the woman laying out her towel next to an older gentleman.  Oscar wondered if that could possibly be Gretchen Jubilee from college. Oh, he would go say hi. That man lying next to her looked way too old for her. "Hey Gretch----", shouted Oscar with his hands to his mouth like he was a lifeguard or announcer.  She looked over towards him then got up and put her sarong cover up on. It looked to Oscar as if she had gained some weight lately.  She put her shoes on and walked over to him.

    "Hi Ozzie", said Gretchen.  Ozzie was his nickname in college. Oscar was a huge heavy metal fan. 

 "Still listening to big hair bands?' she asked coyly and she always had such a confident smile.

       "Of course", said Oscar.  What he really wanted to ask was who was the dude sleeping in the sand next to her.

    "It's so great to see you.  Are you living in Burnt?"  she asked. That was the largest nearest local city.  It was also the city of the college that they both graduated from.

   "I do live there. I'm working at Bigee Box for now." Why did he add those last two words--FOR NOW?   Did he really have this grand future planned out or something?

  "Well, well.  Heavy metal boy stays close to home.  I am visiting here from Cali.  I love it there.  Roger is my beau.  I guess he's a bit too old but don't tell him I said that. I mean,really, I miss it here in Minnesota. The air is so pure.  There are days I can't even go outside in L.A.  I 'm working as a receptionist at hair salon. And of course I'm trying to act and I hope I make it big."

    Oscar thought again about her weight gain and average looks. Oh, well, so she was no bombshell. Like the world really needs another one of those. Then she started wandering away. "bye, great seeing you." She walked away like a future not meant to be. Oscar went and got his stuff.  He decided to do a bike ride around the park.  Then he headed home.

    The next day Oscar went to church with his parents and then over to their house for dinner.  His mom had made a whole turkey dinner.  It was like Thanksgiving in June.  "I love to cook a turkey", she beamed.  Oscar helped in the kitchen and talked with his foster brother Chaime. That was pronounced like"JAY-mee". It was one of those creative names. Chaime was talking about how much he loved mashed potatoes.  How he could eat them every day of the week.  The whole family sat down and prayed.  Oscar was quiet but that was usual for him. Oscar went into work later that afternoon.  He wore a pair of dress pants and a dress shirt. Oscar felt like a Mormon missionary.  Oh well, not everyday was casual.  Then at work he put on his clip nametag and red vest.

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The TARDO freak show that’s me
Current mood: bouncy

OKAY OKAY

somewhat more grounded
Current mood: adored
Category: Life

My ship is floating slowly more down to the earth. But I did have a great vacation and I am still considering moving to Austin.

I had a nice weekend. I went to church at the salvation army. I went for a long hike to the Dike in Fargo along the new river paths we have in Moorhead.  And then last night we took Cory's sister and her friend with us to the races. I like car racing.

I am still working on my scrapbook of Cory and mine's Teas travels. The letter after "e" in teas is not working. I am at a computer at the social connection.Whu noes. 

I had a therapy appt. today and that went well. I like to talk.

I watched family feud, ate mac n cheese and slept in this morning. I also walked from the prarie clinic to the social connection--a  mile or so.  I sooo want to take off the weight.  This keyboard is driving me batty.

Cory is here too at the Loser Connection. He got off work early.

Well, TTFN, Colette

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Time of Renewal
Current mood: confident

I just feel inspired from my vacation and that lately my ship is floating again. Things have been going well. I have new opportunities and I'm pleased with my life and I love so many dear other people.  I am trying to live in TODAY and not live for the past. I am finnally, slowly, letting go of many negative self image crap and baggage.  In addition to feeling better about me I have dropped 11 pounds in the last three weeks.  I am trying to eat not so much and healthier and exercise.

I did some housework today, renewed my bus pass and now I am downtown at Moxie Java killing some time before bible study at Salvation Army.

In my gigantic brain I am toying with the idea of moving to Austin, Texas.  It seems there are so many more opportunities down there and nicer weather. I really like Texas and I want to be a nanny.   People down there have more nannies than we do in Minnesota.  I also would like to continue my schooling and just see what it would be like to live in a different region since I am mostly a lifelong resident of Minnesota and North Dakota. 

The question is what about Cory?  Would he move with? Follow after me? That would be difficult.  And I am dirt poor. I've never been dirt poor in Texas and maybe I could not handle that. I'd have to transfer my Section 8, all my mental health services and welfare.  It would be quite a project.  But somehow I think worth it.  I just don't know what to do.  It's not that I am unhappy here. Actually things are going well.  I just wonder what the grass is like on the other side.

Its raining outside. I have my umbrella with.  I'm drinking coffee and listening to jazz that sounds like Harry Connick Jr.  There are lots of cars downtown. Across the street is Scan Design. I like that store. It has furniture, dishes, lamps,desks, beds etc. all from Scandinavian countries.  Last friday I ate dinner at the Sons of Norway. The older people there are so precious. 

This Americano coffee is super yummi good.  Its good coffee weather.  Maybe I should move to Seattle!!!!!

  CRRAZZZY Lady,  Coco

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I’m Back!!!!!!!!!
Current mood: froggy

I had a great time in Texas. i loved it there, the heat and all. I didn't even want to go home. In Austin we went to Barton Springs in Zilker Park. That is so great with the limestone bottom and the natural spring water. I just love swimming and I like cold water! i'm a polar bear.

We went to Lockhart and got Cory's favorite bbq.  After Austin we went to San Antonio and stayed at the Holiday Inn on the Riverwalk.  It was very nice. The next day we explored downtown, the Alamo and the Riverwalk and we found this great hole in the wall Mexican restaurant--El Bien Gusto--and I ate the  best tortillas of my life.  The salsa was very hot. Cory and I figured this was a very authentic place.

After San Antonio we drove home and went through Fort Worth. We stopped at a Civil War museum--that was to my mind a bit biased and conservative but  it had quite a few original artifacts.  Then we drove to Oklahoma and sstayed in Tulsa.  Tulsa is quite a pretty city at night.  We drove by the casinos but  did not go in. Snoop Dog was playing at one of them and that place was packed.

Then we drove to Iowa and on the way home went to the Mall of  America.  I had a facial hair removal done that was soooo painful.  It was Meditteraean, and with string and it hurt like hell. Imagine your lips caught in a nice greek  fishing  net.

We ate at Tony Romas. I had a salad and that was good. I have lost eight pounds so far on my diet.

got to go. closing the social connexion soon.

ttfn, colette

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2008, and its almost the 4th of July
Current mood: excited
Category: Blogging

Hi Readers and Friends and Family,

  how are you? I am just fine.  I am sitting at ye olde Social Connexion on a cloudy day in Minnesota.  I went out to Chinese lunch with my friend Terri.  Terri is my BFF. I just think she is SO GREAT.

   July 5th Cory and I fly to Texas.We are flying first class and  I can't wait.

I have new clothes to wear and i'm just all set to drink margaritas and have  a damn good trip.

Mike if you can join us---tell me sometime. Call Cory or I.  We would love to see you again. I think San Antonio is going to be awesome.

I am just too excited to BLOG.

have a good and safe 4th everyone. don't drink and drive and appreciate tthe USA.

from:  Colette

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What is NU
Current mood: bouncy
Category: Blogging

It is a gorgeous June day here in Moorhead, MN.  I am making a tye dye shirt, and just enjoying my day. I'm at the Social Connexion. Cory is on the road. I won't see him until Friday night.  Its just so freakin' gorgeous out I love it.

I am trying to think who my favorite character is on family guy and I guess I just have to vote Peter. I love the chin and he just is so likeable and believable. Stewie is my next favorite---he is very original, then Lois, then the dog, then Meg, then that brother--and so forth.

America's Got Talent is on and I just love that show.  I think Sharon Osborne is such a class act. I want her for a mom.  I like Pierce, David and Jerry too. 

I have my school history on MySpace now. Yes, my very Lutheran education.

I don't know. The weather is awesome. Life is good and I just had to 'check in'
bye
DORA IS EVIL

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I am AWOL again
Current mood: adventurous
Category: Life

Hi peoples,
I am supposed to be at church. I lost track of time and here I am about a block or so from Salvation Army and at the Atomic Coffee Shop. The only question gentle readers is ---how will I get home? Cory? Bussy? Good thing Cory has a cell phone. No I don't have a cell and i don't drive. My life has not evolved. That could put me into a bad place but I don't want to dwell on my constant dysfunction. it just is what it is.
My abandonment issues are sky high. I feel everyone is going to leave me, just go and say "I hate you".
I had a therapy appointment today. I like my new therapist. I won't see her again until the end of July.
O boy.
Next week is VBS for Salvation Army. My mom is visiting this weekend with my sister Alex. Alex has a soccer thing. They will stay at my place. On July 5th Cory and I fly to Texas. I can't wait. The last time we went to TX in the summer was in June of 2005 for his brother's wedding in August. We visited Mike too. We didn't get a pick up though. This trip will be a pick up trip. And my o my do pick ups fit in in Texas. Texas is a good place with good people and fun things to do. We will also visit Cory's sister Ricki and see her new baby Hayden. I want to go to Zilker Park in Austin. I haven't been there yet.
So many places to go. I do love to travel. It makes me happy. I'm not sure what else to write. I suppose I should catch the last of church or at least call Cory. I wonder if he went to bingo at Vic's. Last week he won 82 dollars. I never win at bingo. I am terrible at that game.
Its peaceful in here. I like Atomic Coffee. I like Downtown Fargo.

well Buh Bye!

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Weather Update
Current mood: artistic
Category: Blogging

Its raining, its pouring, the Old Man is snoring.

There is a thunderstorm outside. I love this kind of weather. I'm at the social connexion(where else?). Cory is on his way home from a trip for work out to western north dakota.  I saw my new shrink today. I like her a lot.

The Social Connexion is quiet today. Well, relatively. There are about 20 people here. And yes, we are all crazy.

I've been getting interested in films lately,old new and making them.  I went to the AFI film site and I picked out the top ten list that will be read on tv on June. 
my guesses were
Lion King-best animation-1994
Forrest Gump-best epic
and I can't remember the rest. It was a difficult contest. who could possibly guess ten for ten? well, I don't think I will win.

Last weekend my family stayed and I went to watch Nick play hockey. He did a really great job. He is a good hockey player. It was fun to see him and we all had a nice time. Cory and my mom get along so well.

On July 5th Cory and I are going to Texas.  I can't wait. I definitely want to see San Antonio. Do you want to see San Antonio Mike? what are you busy with that week? I don't know if we will get to Louisiana this time but we would of course love to see you. We are flying into Austin at night on the 5th and need to be home by Monday, July 13th.  I have been to Texas so many times and have not seen the Alamo, the Riverwalk or shopped at La Villita. This surely is great sin and I don't want to die and tell Jesus I did this!!!!!!

I do have church tonight. I don't know if I'll go though in this severe weather since I take the bus there. I'm glad I didn't get caught out in this rain. Its pouring out and thundering and lightening.

Last Sunday we had the Salvation Army picnic. We had about 400 people attending.  Maranatha Lutheran Church and the band from First Lutheran church and Thrivent Lutheran Insurance also helped out with the event. I like how the Army welcomes other churches and is not "exclusive". Lutherans are just good people as Garrison Keillor quotes.  I also like "Harry Potter--Prisoner of Dark Lutherans". But I'm going on a bunny trail as Capt. Adam and Capt. Deannie like to say.We have the picnic downtown in our parking lot. I worked at the color wheel and that was part of our kids carnival. It was quite the popular game and kept me busy for a long time.  We served brats, hamburgers, potato salad and beans.  We grilled on the grill and that makes food Yummi.
Cory came and helped volunteer too. We did that last year too. Its becoming our annual volunteer thing. Although Cory and I volunteer for a lot of things. We are just that good hearted.  Even though if you meet us in  person we can be a bit well, grumpy sometimes.

I hope Cory is okay on the roads. I should call him. 
All for Now.
Colette

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