|
September 30, 2008 - Tuesday
|
|
|
September 22, 2008 - Monday
 |
6:18 PM - Register for Change
Current mood:  awake
Category: News and Politics
http://www.voteforchange.com
I registered to vote
For Motivation to Register, check this out: .. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FiQJ9Xp0xxU
0 Comments - 0 Kudos
- Add Comment
|
|
|
|
September 3, 2008 - Wednesday
|
12:24 PM - Police fire chemical agents, projectiles at RNC protesters
Current mood:  frustrated
Category: News and Politics
http://www.cnn.com/2008/POLITICS/09/02/rnc.securit...
St. Paul police fired chemical agents and projectiles into a large crowd of protesters outside the Republican National Convention on Tuesday night.
The Dark(er) Side of the RNC: How the Republicans and George W Bush feel about your first amendment rights.
0 Comments - 0 Kudos
- Add Comment
|
|
|
|
August 14, 2008 - Thursday
|
12:16 AM - untitled fraction
Category: Writing and Poetry
Sittin here
blue
thinking
about you
tears streamin
down
my face
no one
can take your place
you're all I want
in life
all I really need
held by the knife
for every good deed
2 Comments - 6 Kudos
- Add Comment
|
|
|
|
August 10, 2008 - Sunday
|
7:02 PM - down to ride
Category: Writing and Poetry
So if I told you the truth
would you go
through the booth
into what you don't know
if you walked to the end
without fallin in
how would you know
you knew how to swim
Im diggin deep
in the dirt and sand
I know youre diggin too
in the cool I meet your hand
I love you like no one
that I have ever known
I may know a lot of love
none as amazing as your own
im trying to find the words
to say the things I mean
the way you make it make sense
all the things that have been
the things that led me here
to a place where you are love
the way loving you
lifts me a bit above
I want to swear to you
years and years of joy
but in the crazy world
we are like toys
and I can only say
I want to be with you
through good times and bad
whatever we do
I want to be your partner
part of your family
to walk through life
with you next to me
sharing all my love
proud by your side
ill drive you whenever
where you wanna ride
living life to change
to do good for man
impacting the world
the best that we can
I love you, like no other
It fills my heart
when I try to explain
I can't find words to start
except I love you
I am happy by your side
and if you want me to drive
tell me where you wanna ride
life has its weight
you dont have to carry it alone
I am your mate
you will always have me as home
I'm a million facets
of light and life and mind
you are a million facets
different but alike in kind
theres nothing I could demand
besides respect and honesty
but I would love for you
to spend your days with me
I know it seems intense
but its simple like a drive
with you sitting by my side
ill take you anywhere
if youre down to ride
2 Comments - 6 Kudos
- Add Comment
|
|
|
|
August 3, 2008 - Sunday
|
5:25 AM - updating part ii
Category: Writing and Poetry
so....to continue my update.....
ive been in nyc for almost a month. there are lots of people back in the 'cuse that i miss. and all my friends all over, i havent forgotten about you....i've just been seriously busy.
in the last month:
...i've moved to NYC from upstate new york. it's obviously a bit of a change. even as a nomad you never adjust to the change.
...i drove down on Sunday after the 4th of July. Which if you don't know what driving towards NYC on the Sunday after a summer holiday like, it's a strange tradition. Major highways are turned into a parking lots. People end up stranded in overheated cars. You get millions of grumpy people all trying to return home to their real life from their weekend in their dream life. It's painful how slow traffic moves. A four and a half hour journey became 9 hrs long.
...i moved my stuff into a 7' x 11' room and spent the night on an air mattress that supposedly was twin size. Apparently, they meant only if my twin was a 10 year old or smaller. I eventually got a futon mattress to sleep on.
...i began work the next morning. Load-in for the show I am running. 9am. Come home relatively early that night. Grab dinner nearby at the deli. Talk to my girl. Fall alseep.
....since then I have moved out of that 7' x 11' room into a friends studio, and from my friends studio to another friends roommate's room. all the while really just wanting my own apartment, but having no time for a proper apt hunt. tech and previews took up all of my time, especially what would be considered normal apt hunting hours. which were all the ones with daylight, pretty much.
....i am still on a hunt for an apt. just a studio or a one bedroom in astoria. a place to call home. unpack my stuff. someplace where i could 'buy some furniture and give the cat a name.'
...i have also spent a whirlwind 20 hrs at the beach with my girl between performances one weekend. that was fabulous, but sadly rushed. so, i can't wait to be with her again.
...we opened the show. there was a standing ovation, a fabulous party, an evening with some good friends. there was also some sorrow with my friend leaving the next day, indefinitely.
...i have shopped for apts. i have not really done much laundry. i miss my girlfriend. i miss my friends. i miss my family. i miss everyoone. i miss knowing my address. but all in all, things are good. dont get me wrong. i am not complaining so much as describing the roller coaster i've been riding.
....i have a pretty good job, steady employment. my girlfriend will soon be living with me. i am in nyc. i am staying with a good old friend right now. i get to see lots of other old friends. i have work that doesnt make me miserable. i have a decent income. i am in love. how could i really complain?
0 Comments - 0 Kudos
- Add Comment
|
|
|
|
August 2, 2008 - Saturday
|
7:31 PM - updating
Category: Writing and Poetry
soo.....
unbelievable, turned out to be incredibly unbelievable. sometimes theres nothing harsher than a jury of your peers. come to find out two friend i once considered to be good friend believe i stole change from their 3 yr old son. now i have been poor in the last year, but come on....anyone who knows me....do you think i would steal change from a little childs piggy bank? logically it doesnt make any sense. and i could offer a million reasons it just doesnt make sense. honestly, im too lazy, and dont really feel the need to defend myself against weird allegations. im over it. some day someones gonna feel like a fool for jumping to weird conclusions of their own paranoid delusions. and its not me.
i have been in new york city for almost a month now. im still looking for a place to live with my girlfriend and my two cats. i sublet a room all through july, and now i am staying with my friend mikey in astoria. but i need a permanent residence. an apt. a studio or one bedroom. but its been almost a month of living here.
the show i am running opened thursday night. so, now i should have more time for a real apt hunt. opening night went well. i drank some alcohol, hung out with a few friends, etc.
Yesterday was my day off, it was nice. Went to go see a shaw play in the park. wasnt very good, but at least you could hear what they were saying. ahh, free theater in the park. worthh the entire 40 minutes i spent wayching before we decided to walk away.
i have been over workd and over tired for a while now. hence the decline in posts. but once i am settled, i will be back
1 Comments - 2 Kudos
- Add Comment
|
|
|
|
July 24, 2008 - Thursday
|
12:00 AM - Lesbian Forum
http://www.hipforums.com/newforums/forumdisplay.php?f=452
1 Comments - 0 Kudos
- Add Comment
|
|
|
|
July 9, 2008 - Wednesday
|
7:11 PM - Unbelievable
Category: Blogging
Let's say you had two friends. Let's say you thought they were friends. Let's say one day, the following message shows up in your inbox. You start reading it, at first you think it's a joke. Then you realize that this person you thought was a friend, is serious. But here's the weird part....you have no idea what they are talking about. What would you do?
Yo I can't believe you would steal from a child! One of the most fucked up things i have ever heard! Plus you have no idea what those were or what that meant to [name erased]... you truly ensured you will not be welcome here ever again. Hope you enjoyed it and that you get what you deserve. I thought you were being sketchy that morning you left and should have shook you down little did i realize the low shit you are... I was looking forward to having a friendship with you but it really is not ever happening now, the most fucked up thing is that i would have given you whatever i could come up with if you had told me you really needed it, but not from where you stole it from. Piss off and curses.
My first reaction was absolute confusion. Like I said, I have no idea what this message is about. None. Then I was hurt that people I thought were friends would think so low of me. Then I felt bad, thinking maybe I accidentally did something. Then I tried to communicate with this person, hoping they might give me a chance and see that I really don't know what they are even talking about. Then I got angry. A real friend, if they suspected you stole something would at least give you the benefit of the doubt, right? Then I thought horrible things....like what if I told your story to the world (but I'm not that friend). Or....now I understand why you're wife left you. Or....maybe you got to stoned and lost it.
The sad thing is, I honestly feel bad about whatever is missing, and I don't even know what it is. But I am hurt and angry that people I thought were my friends would think so poorly of me, and not even ask me....'hey, this [whatever] is missing....did you see it?' Or....'hey, could you have taken this [whatever] from my house?' Or...'hey, this [whatever] is missing, did you take it?' No....right into 'your a piece of shit.'
What would you do? Because I tried to call, text, send a message. All were ignored. I wanted to try and right the misunderstanding. Now, I think.....fuck it....who needs friends like this anyhow? I have enemies that wouldn't accuse me of whatever it is I am being accused of....without at least confronting me in a real manner. Like a real human. Face to face. Or over the phone. Not some lame ass message. Not some chicken shit cop out.
What would you do?
1 Comments - 2 Kudos
- Add Comment
|
|
|
|
July 1, 2008 - Tuesday
|
|
|
June 24, 2008 - Tuesday
|
|
7:16 PM - missing
Category: Writing and Poetry
i look to your light
to lead me away
from the dark of night
and the light of day
to the inner soul
where i find my love
to the outer soul
where i rise above
i wish you were here
to hold me tight
and i miss you most
late at night
ive got so much work
and so little to do
and i cant stop thinking
about missing you
2 Comments - 4 Kudos
- Add Comment
|
|
|
6:07 PM - every day
Category: Writing and Poetry
i tell this story
how we met
in our mysterious
ways
how we courted
for long spring days
how fate seemed
destined to
intertwine
our seemingly random
nomadic lives
it makes me
happy
to know youre
out there
someone
who knows
someone
who cares
i wish i could
be with you
every day now
i have to make
the time work
somehow
i cant wait to
see you again
where ever
have i been
inside and out
full of belief
and full of doubt
sick and healthy
poor never wealthy
drawing and painting
pushing and waiting
up and down
all around
and i cant say
ill settle down
but i can say
i have a goal
to make the time
from now on, whole
i dream of a place
where we're all together
no matter the time
no matter the weather
i follow the road
i follow the line
i dont always take
what's mine
sometimes i choose
to leave it behind
cause i dont need
material things
i just need the joy
that love brings
unfortunately
we have to feed
the mouths of
our basic need
and to work i go
to make my way
but i dream of you
every day
2 Comments - 4 Kudos
- Add Comment
|
|
|
|
June 23, 2008 - Monday
|
6:24 PM - missed
Category: Writing and Poetry
your hands on my hips
you tongue on my lips
the power of your
hypnotizing kiss
hands draw the line
eclipsing time
silhouetted in light
every curve is right
0 Comments - 0 Kudos
- Add Comment
|
|
|
6:19 PM - once on this island
Category: Religion and Philosophy
our lives become the stories that we weave
0 Comments - 0 Kudos
- Add Comment
|
|
