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Monday, September 01, 2008
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*sigh*
Current mood:  cold
Category: Blogging
So what to say?
There comes a time in everybodys life when you do a "turn around".
Hard to explain...its like you stop and take a look back and compare who
you are today, and who you where before. Man what what a mind fuck.
I like who I am today. I am a very changed person. I've learned to love, to
forgive.... TO GIVE. To apprecitate. To not fear. To let go...
To be thankfull and to not hate.
I can tell you that I have a million regrets... sure people will say to have none.
Well fuck em. People do and will always have regrets. Its a part of who you are.
I won't lie... I think of my past and I get sick from it. Now I will say there are
things from my past that I cherish. Also things that I hate... and things that I will
never give a fuck about ever again. I don't think I am wrong for that.
Now as for today?
All I can say is that I take it one step at a time. I try to be a better person each
day then the day before. I aspire to be a good person. I don't expect a damn
thing from anyone.
And I hold dear to everyone I keep close to me. Because without you I would
be nothing. I don't know why I fell this need to type this out.... but it is just me.
Plain and simple.
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Currently
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The Vampire Lestat (Vampire Chronicles, 2nd Book)
By
Anne Rice
Release date: 1985-09-12
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Tuesday, August 12, 2008
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My mood....
Current mood:  blank
Category: Blogging
Hello.
Is there anybody in there?
Just nod if you can hear me.
Is there anyone home?
Come on, now.
I hear youre feeling down.
Well I can ease your pain,
Get you on your feet again.
Relax.
I need some information first.
Just the basic facts:
Can you show me where it hurts?
There is no pain, you are receding.
A distant ships smoke on the horizon.
You are only coming through in waves.
Your lips move but I cant hear what youre sayin.
When I was a child I had a fever.
My hands felt just like two balloons.
Now I got that feeling once again.
I cant explain, you would not understand.
This is not how I am.
I have become comfortably numb.
Ok.
Just a little pinprick. [ping]
Therell be no more --aaaaaahhhhh!
But you may feel a little sick.
Can you stand up?
I do believe its working. good.
Thatll keep you going for the show.
Come on its time to go.
There is no pain, you are receding.
A distant ships smoke on the horizon.
You are only coming through in waves.
Your lips move but I cant hear what youre sayin.
When I was a child I caught a fleeting glimpse,
Out of the corner of my eye.
I turned to look but it was gone.
I cannot put my finger on it now.
The child is grown, the dream is gone.
I have become comfortably numb
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Currently
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Interview with the Vampire
By
Anne Rice
Release date: 1997-03-18
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Wednesday, May 28, 2008
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A little writing...
Current mood:  aroused
Category: Writing and Poetry
Hands touch skin...lips touch lips...soft, silent, sweet.
A breeze blows. A scent is smelled. Eyes meet.
Words are not spoken, no need to...no reason why.
Quiet embraces in the twilight, stars in the sky.
Nothing to answer to, no need to....no reason why.
Two hearts beat, over and over...
Sweat forms on skin, two are one.
Movement, sounds, pleasure.....
Nothing to justify......no reason why.
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Currently
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The Digital Plague (Avery Cates)
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Jeff Somers
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Wednesday, May 07, 2008
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Today.
Current mood: blank
Category: Blogging
I must have sneezed
On knees I freeze
I mean I just choked up
Somehow I slept
I dream, I mean
I dreamt of nothing
Able to breathe
A sweet relief
Now that you're here with me
A northern degree
Dove into me
Now I'm recovering
I only want you to see
My favorite part of me
And not my ugly side
Not my ugly side
Hook up a C.B. Wave a way
For conversation flow
I'm shoved in your cave, to wage this rage
Don't let me go
A kick and a scream is all that seems
To mean a lot thus far
I won't let you on my stage, my page
You can't know
Yet you have to know
So calm... and now it's dark
I look for you to light my heart
I'm in between the moon and where you are
I know... I can't be far
.. --> Blue October Ugly Side Lyrics -->
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