Final Notice
Current mood: anxious
Category: Jobs, Work, Careers

It's a done deal.  I sent an e-mail to my boss yesterday afternoon stating that my final day would be Thursday May 11th, 2006.

In 17 days I will be free.

Currently listening : 10,000 Days By Tool Release date: 02 May, 2006

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Plans

"Once, just once, I want things to go
according to the gorram plan!"  -- Malcolm Reynolds

Nothing ever goes according to plan and the plan never goes smoothly.  My mother is currently in spain visiting with her family.  My grandfather, her father, is suffering from Alzheimer's disease and is going swiftly down hill.  I spoke with my father last night and found out that my mother is looking at buying a house over there.

But what does this have to do with a plan, you ask?  Well simple.  The plan was, my plan was-- the plan I have already set in motion--was to leave my current job (already put notice in) and move home to return to school as the parental units have offered to put me through free of charge. However, the plan is called into considerable question if my parents are no longer in the states to move in with.  And I suspect that their income and fundage would change drastically if they are buying a new house and paying to get all their junk moved to a different country.

Notice with my job has already been put in and I was hoping to be set free from my apartment come mid to late march.   Suddenly my well thought out and timed plan is on the verge of exploding due to a sever monkey wrench which has been hastily thrown into the works.

"I am a leaf on the Wind" -- Hoban Washburn

Currently watching : Firefly - The Complete Series Release date: 09 December, 2003

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...its in here somewhere...

I'm trying to change the background on myspace but i can't find where to do that.   Help, anyone?

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Apathy
Current mood: apathetic
Category: Jobs, Work, Careers

So it has happened.  I officially no longer care about my job.  How sad is that?  You know, i actually have friends that enjoy what they do.  Oh, how I envy them. 

Logically speaking, the next step for me is to quit this job and find one that I find more enjoyable (and one that doesn't take such a toll on my health) but after five years in this company, I am afraid. But of what?  ...  I don't really know.  Perhaps of not being able to find another job; of finding a job that doesn't really allow me to make ends meet; of doing something that isn't nearly as respectable as what I'm doing now.  I don't really know.  Sarasota is a hard place for a single girl my age.  I'm lucky to have a job that pays me enough that i can live someplace other than the ghetto. 

I've been so spoiled. 

But now I'm stalling.  I know this end is inevitable; it is now just a matter of when I leave, how i get there, and what I do afterwards. It’s the afterwards that really has me scared.  This is such a shame because I know I am stronger than this.   

I must not be apathetic.

Apathy is the mind killer. 

Apathy is the little death that brings total obliteration.  

I will face my apathy. 

I will permit it to pass over me and through me.  

And when it has gone past I will turn the inner eye to see my path.  

Where the apathy has gone there will be nothing.   

Only I will remain.

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Away

Dear Friends,

Please don't be offended or discouraged by my recent absence.  It is the evilness that is work that has banished me from society this week.  I don't get out of work anytime beofre 10pm all this week.

I'm tired.

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Oh the Presumption!!
Current mood: irate

I am absolutely livid!!  The nerve of people. 

Take a look at this converesation I had with some jerk on the GenCon Forums.  I normally don't post people's names or specifics, but you know what?  I really don't care this time.  Maybe when I cool down I'll edit this and take them out.

Currently reading : From Hell By Alan Moore Release date: February, 2004

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Inter-web stylings
Current mood: hungry

Because I'm such a lame ass and fail to take pictures when i go places, I have to rely on those around me to take pictures and tell the story of what happened.  Only problem i've found is that it is someone else’s story.  But oh well!  that's the price one pays for being lazy.  I'll update this list of links as I gather them.  I'm in this first one,  yay!

http://www.chris-crockett.com/photos/thumbnails.php?album=14

http://tux.ius.edu/gencon2005/

http://community.webshots.com/album/426930619HKARpK

this one has a whole thread with different GenCon pictures!  http://forums.gencon.com/default.aspx?f=20&p=1&m=103323

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Names and DC
Current mood: energetic

Describing one’s self in the vaguest and broadest of terms so that it not only encompasses you but half the population of the plant seems to be the trend at the moment so let me add another notch for the fad.  Here is what my name means:

Olga

Holy one : Norse

You are a deep thinker and student of life using your intuition and natural detective ability to seek truth and hidden knowledge. Peaceloving and compassionate you are nonetheless strong-willed and courageous in confronting challenges. Although your approach to life tends to be on a mental level it is important for you to see your ideas and concepts take form in the material world. Your talents and leadership skills give you great potential for a distinguished career.

Currently listening : Lo Que Te Conte Mientras Te Hacias La Dormida By La Oreja De Van Gogh Release date: 05 October, 2004

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Personality type and GenCon

I found a test (http://www.humanmetrics.com/cgi-win/JTypes2.asp)  on another myspace blog (Saint Crispin).  Here is what I turned out to be.

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Introverted iNtuitive Thinking Judging
by Marina Margaret Heiss

Profile: INTJ
Revision: 3.0
Date of Revision: 27 Feb 2005

To outsiders, INTJs may appear to project an aura of "definiteness", of self-confidence. This self-confidence, sometimes mistaken for simple arrogance by the less decisive, is actually of a very specific rather than a general nature; its source lies in the specialized knowledge systems that most INTJs start building at an early age. When it comes to their own areas of expertise -- and INTJs can have several -- they will be able to tell you almost immediately whether or not they can help you, and if so, how. INTJs know what they know, and perhaps still more importantly, they know what they don't know.

INTJs are perfectionists, with a seemingly endless capacity for improving upon anything that takes their interest. What prevents them from becoming chronically bogged down in this pursuit of perfection is the pragmatism so characteristic of the type: INTJs apply (often ruthlessly) the criterion "Does it work?" to everything from their own research efforts to the prevailing social norms. This in turn produces an unusual independence of mind, freeing the INTJ from the constraints of authority, convention, or sentiment for its own sake.

INTJs are known as the "Systems Builders" of the types, perhaps in part because they possess the unusual trait combination of imagination and reliability. Whatever system an INTJ happens to be working on is for them the equivalent of a moral cause to an INFJ; both perfectionism and disregard for authority may come into play, as INTJs can be unsparing of both themselves and the others on the project. Anyone considered to be "slacking," including superiors, will lose their respect -- and will generally be made aware of this; INTJs have also been known to take it upon themselves to implement critical decisions without consulting their supervisors or co-workers. On the other hand, they do tend to be scrupulous and even-handed about recognizing the individual contributions that have gone into a project, and have a gift for seizing opportunities which others might not even notice.

In the broadest terms, what INTJs "do" tends to be what they "know". Typical INTJ career choices are in the sciences and engineering, but they can be found wherever a combination of intellect and incisiveness are required (e.g., law, some areas of academia). INTJs can rise to management positions when they are willing to invest time in marketing their abilities as well as enhancing them, and (whether for the sake of ambition or the desire for privacy) many also find it useful to learn to simulate some degree of surface conformism in order to mask their inherent unconventionality.

Personal relationships, particularly romantic ones, can be the INTJ's Achilles heel. While they are capable of caring deeply for others (usually a select few), and are willing to spend a great deal of time and effort on a relationship, the knowledge and self-confidence that make them so successful in other areas can suddenly abandon or mislead them in interpersonal situations.

This happens in part because many INTJs do not readily grasp the social rituals; for instance, they tend to have little patience and less understanding of such things as small talk and flirtation (which most types consider half the fun of a relationship). To complicate matters, INTJs are usually extremely private people, and can often be naturally impassive as well, which makes them easy to misread and misunderstand. Perhaps the most fundamental problem, however, is that INTJs really want people to make sense. :-) This sometimes results in a peculiar naivete', paralleling that of many Fs -- only instead of expecting inexhaustible affection and empathy from a romantic relationship, the INTJ will expect inexhaustible reasonability and directness.

Probably the strongest INTJ assets in the interpersonal area are their intuitive abilities and their willingness to "work at" a relationship. Although as Ts they do not always have the kind of natural empathy that many Fs do, the Intuitive function can often act as a good substitute by synthesizing the probable meanings behind such things as tone of voice, turn of phrase, and facial expression. This ability can then be honed and directed by consistent, repeated efforts to understand and support those they care about, and those relationships which ultimately do become established with an INTJ tend to be characterized by their robustness, stability, and good communications.

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--There was another description of the INTJ personality type that called me a "Mastermind".  I think I'm afraid of myself now.

But I have returned from GenCon in one piece, though just barely.  I spent more than 14 hours in a tightly cinched corset on Saturday alone and my foot was so badly cramped that I hobbled for a full day after i got back from Indi.  But it was such fabulous fun!  I met the funnest people and worked at a truly great booth.  www.mongoosepublishing.com  Please check them out.  They have a wide range of products and their new paranoia card game is a blast!

What drama I did find at the Con was minimal (or at least I did my best to maintain a minimalist attitude about it...some would think that the upheaval of plans for living quarters the day before convention isn't minimal, but I obviously survived, so it couldn't have been that big a deal right?)  Well I posed for a ton of pictures.  Perhaps I'll end up on the inter-web somewhere.  If you run across a picture of a girl in a costume that looks like me, let me know!  I'd like to see them.

Currently playing : World of Warcraft Release date: 23 November, 2004

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GenCon and the Shrew
Current mood: distressed

GenCon, the "greatest four days in gaming," starts this Thursday.  I leave Wed night to help setup the booth I'll be working at.  If anyone plans on attending you should stop by the mongoose publishing booth and say hello.  I'll likely spend most of my time there.

I've recently been reminded of all the reasons exactly why I am likely to spend the rest of my life a lonely woman with only her cats to keep her company.  To keep explinations brief, Taming of the Shrew comes to mind.   It is a bed of my own making so I suppose I should just accept it and sleep in it willingly.  On the one hand I am ok with that because I don't feel that changing who I am is a viable option.  But then the long and lonely future looms before me and I hesitate in my resolve. 

How does one go about taming oneself?

Currently listening : Antichrist Superstar By Marilyn Manson Release date: 08 October, 1996

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