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Monday, March 31, 2008
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Learning...
Current mood:  inspired
This was on Marisela’s page and it really hit home for me...
xo
I’ve learned- that you cant make someone love you. All you can do is be someone who can be loved. The rest is up to them.
I’ve learned-that no matter how much you care, some people just dont care back.
I’ve learned-that it takes years to build up trust, and only seconds to destroy it.
I’ve learned-that it’s not what you have in your life but who you have in your life that counts.
I’ve learned-that you can get by on charm for about 15 minutes, After that, you’d better know something.
I’ve learned-that you shouldn’t compare yourself to the best other can do but to the best you can do.
I’ve learned-that its not what happens to people thats important. Its what they do about it.
I’ve learned-that it’s taking me a long time to become the person Iwant to be.
I’ve learned-that its easier to react then it is to think.
I’ve learned-that you can keep going long after you think you can’t.
I’ve learned-that either you control your attitude or it controls you.
I’ve learned-that learning to forgive takes LOTS of practice.
I’ve learned-that there are people who love you dearlly, but just dont know how to show it.
I’ve learned-that no matter how good a friend is, even your best friend, will hurt you every once in a while and you must forgive them for that.
I’ve learned-that sometimes the person you expect to kick you when you’re down will be the one to help you get back up.
I’ve learned-that sometimes when I’m angry I have the right to be angry but it doesnt give me the right to be cruel.
I’ve learned- that just because someone doesnt love you the way you want them to doesnt mean they dont love you with all they have.
I’ve learned- that no matter how bad your heart gets broken the world doesnt stop for your grief.
I’ve learned-that sometimes you have to put the individual ahead of their actions.
I’ve learned-that two people can look at the exact same thing and see something totally different.
I’ve learned-that no matter how many friends you have, if you are their pillar you will feel lonely and lost at the times you need them most.
I’ve learned-that credentials on the wall dont make you a decent human being.
I’ve learned-that its hard to determine where to draw the line between being nice and not hurting peoples feelings and standing up for what you believe.
AND LAST BUT NOT LEAST.
I’ve learned-That the people you care most about in life are taken from you too soon...
Agreed.
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Wednesday, October 10, 2007
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Jack and Diane... Pat and Ginger... Same shit.
Current mood:  nostalgic
Hey Jack,
Happy 1 year since you fucked me up even more then I already was. Awesome job on that.
I did meet Brian tomorrow night a year ago, so I guess you were useful for something.
Oh, and I totally fooled around with Pat. I win. :)
XO
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Thursday, May 24, 2007
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Sickening...
http://news.aol.com/entertainment/music/articles/_a/courtney-love-objects-to-cobain-shoe-ads/20070523221709990001
This is the most disgusting thing I have ever seen. I have chills looking at it and it makes my stomach hurt.
This advertisement is such a vulgar display of exploitation. It's hyping their deaths for the sake of money... exactly what they were against!
Same reason why I hate the Foo Fighters. Dave Grohl was in Nirvana for a short amount of time before Kurt died. He had minimal creative interest in Nirvana. He knew if he didn't capitalize on the death, he'd be back in Seattle serving coffee to other wannabe musicians. Fuck him. Krist Novoselic? Kudos to you for being a real man and not making money off your friends death.
I'm sure there will be protests, petitions and tons of people not buying the shoes for the sake of Kurt, Sid, Joey and Joe. They are in Rock and Roll heaven but I'm positive they're not wearing any boots.
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Thursday, January 25, 2007
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Unbelievable
You know what I think is unbelievable?
People who CHOSE to release YOU from THEIR life and then come back after time because they need your help.
Truth is this. They realize they lost something good, so why not be a little vulnerable and try to be friends again?
It fucking pisses me off. Had you acted right in the first place you wouldn't have had to worry about who really has your back. I always had it. I even had it all day today despite the pain you put me through.
Now go on and enjoy your life without the one person that truly mattered.
I made this blog nice and public so you can read this. And since you like song lyrics...
Step one you say we need to talk
He walks you say sit down it's just a talk
He smiles politely back at you
You stare politely right on through
Some sort of window to your right
As he goes left and you stay right
Between the lines of fear and blame
And you begin to wonder why you came
Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life
Let him know that you know best
Cause after all you do know best
Try to slip past his defense
Without granting innocence
Lay down a list of what is wrong
The things you've told him all along
And pray to God he hears you
And pray to God he hears you
Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life
As he begins to raise his voice
You lower yours and grant him one last choice
Drive until you lose the road
Or break with the ones you've followed
He will do one of two things
He will admit to everything
Or he'll say he's just not the same
And you'll begin to wonder why you came
Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life
Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life
How to save a life
How to save a life
Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life
Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life
How to save a life
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Currently
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How To Save A Life
By
The Fray
Release date: 13 September, 2005
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Saturday, December 30, 2006
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When and for whom do you pull your walls down?
Imagine this...
You're sitting someplace intimate. There is someone sitting across from you that you're interested in on a romantic level. There is serious eye contact. Flirting. Accidental hand brushing. Your feet touch. You're flushed in the face thinking about possibilities... An hour into this miraculous person, you hear the words you dread. You know. The ones you've heard your best friends say jokingly about themselves and you. The one that goes... "So why do you put such a huge wall up?"
*Gulp* *Sweat pours off* What do you say? You scan your entire vocabulary for a word that the person across from you won't understand and won't ask you to elaborate on. *SHIT* Nothing. So you smile and politely answer... "What wall?"
You know exactly what they're talking about. That HUGE barrier that you think protects you from someone hurting you again but only makes you less approachable by the nice guy who is genuinely interested in you...
I meet men out all the time. Some are attractive, some are not. Almost all of them have made a comment at some point on why I am so tough on them. The truth is that it has nothing to do with them. It has to do with me. The harder I am on them, the more they earn my respect and want. Yeah, sounds really good, doesn't it? The truth is that when you have that huge wall up, it only hurts one person. You. I have missed out probably on the nicest, well mannered, smartest, funniest, most attractive men because once they hit my wall, they figure, why bother for a girl they just met when they can meet a girl with the same qualifications with NO hang ups and NO walls. It actually sounds funny to me. Most everyone I know, male and female has walls. It's just a matter of how big they actually are and if they're removable...
Case in point. The great guy that meets you, likes you, you like and 1 date in says. "I don't want a relationship". Why bother dating if you're not open to anything. No sex, no relationship. WHY BOTHER? That is the perfect example of someone who has not yet acknowledged their wall.
Luckily I've admitted I have a problem. Do they have a 12 step program for this?
I guess the real question is this. Now that you've acknowledged that you have a wall, who is special enough to get the wall to come down, even if temporarily? What kind of qualifications must they possess? What makes them any different than the nice person you met the other night?
It obviously takes time and effort. Most importantly it takes patience. No, not from you. From the person that is trying to get to know you. Most will bolt WAY before you have the opportunity to even TRY.
As badly as you want to be nice or break down some pieces of this "Great Wall", the hurt and sadness that comes with everything that breaks your heart (From someone dying, being dumped, being told you're not attractive, etc.) it's actually adding fuel to the fire. The wall is growing. The mortar is settling and eventually YOU believe there isn't anything you can do to reverse the process. And so it goes on...
So how exactly do you get the process to stop and begin to reverse itself?
All in all you're just another brick in the wall...
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Tuesday, December 12, 2006
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For Our Soldiers...
Something cool that Xerox is doing...
If you go to this web site, www.letssaythanks.com , you can pick out a thank you card and Xerox will print it and it will be sent to a soldier that is currently serving in Iraq. You can't pick out who gets it, but it will go to some member of the armed services.
How AMAZING it would be if we could get everyone we know to send one!!!
This is a great site.
Please send a card.
It is FREE and it only takes a second.
Wouldn't it be wonderful if the soldiers received a bunch of these? Whether you are for or against the war, our guys and gals over there need to know we are behind them...
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Monday, June 12, 2006
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Signs...
So I wonder, who actually believes in "signs"?
I'm a fairly superstitious person and I do think everything happens for a reason. Lately, I've been seeing all kinds of things pop up and I wonder if they're coming up for a reason or is it just because I'm subconsciously looking for them?
An example. I was supposed to see a comedy show with a friend last week. It was a famous comedian. Last night I was at a bar and there's posters EVERYWHERE for this show and it's run has already ended. Another example. Rich, Tom and I were driving to Atlantic City and Rich and I were specifically talking about a place we'd consider visiting. Just as we're talking TWO cars drive by with the license plates from that state... A final example. Sylvia and I were discussing an old boss of ours early last week. Three days later he called me.
If you think about someone long enough to conjure them up to call, is THAT a sign or some sort of telepathy?
I'm so confused. I wish I had a sign. :P
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Tuesday, May 23, 2006
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Really simple...
There's an episode of Sex and the City where Carrie contemplates her previous relationship. She asks the question...
If you love someone and you break up, where does the love go?
I'm dying to hear your thoughts...
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Tuesday, May 09, 2006
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New York Men...
Whoever says New York men don't know what they want from a woman is a liar. They know EXACTLY what they want. SEX. They don't lie or beat around the bush about it anymore. If they say they don't, THEN they're lying. It's blatently obvious, because they make it that way.
Good luck trying to find one that doesn't. At least not right away!
I'm aggravated.
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Saturday, December 24, 2005
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In a relationship nonsense...
Current mood:  content
So today I think I had an epiphany. Perhaps it's two days worth of alcohol and cigarettes but I think life just finally made a little sense.
You see, I've been thinking for awhile now that this "in a relationship" thing was something that needed to happen to me. Was I good enough, smart enough, pretty enough, worthy enough? I think perhaps that I've always had this underlying issue, but after talking to several people, I realized, it's not just me. While I'm glad I'm not alone in this matter, I'm sad that some people actually feel they need a relationship to justify the kind of person they are/want to be.
Now. Don't get me wrong. Do I want a companion, a complimenter, a motivator, a good listener, a fun, caring person who will be my best friend and lover all rolled into one? OF COURSE! You know what though? I'm not going to succumb to just anyone for the sake of some words.
Ok, ok. So you ask me for the secret to my success? (Shush!) It's quite simple. There are people that love you in life. Unconditionally. They may not be meant to stay in your life long, but just being there for any given amount of time, touches you in a way you could never see. It may even have to be brought to your attention by someone else. Over the past few weeks, I've made new friends, reconnected with old ones and formed tighter bonds with the ones that were always there to begin with. I feel privileged to know such amazing people that don't mind the same stories over and over, that laugh at the funny and non funny jokes, that pet my head when I'm drunk, that tell me I'm beautiful even when I think I'm not looking so hot, that check on me throughout the course of a night just to make sure I'm ok, that make eye contact from across a room and give a wink and a smile and more than anything, give me a shoulder to cry on. Sometimes words aren't necessary. It's amazing how all these people can know when I'm sad or happy in seconds and can fix the problem, even faster.
Up until the other day, I thought that they were the ones bringing me down. My internal issues made me confuse my reality and the natural do good nature of the people I surround myself with. Thankfully for me, I now know better. I couldn't ask for better people in my life.
So I guess, in conclusion, if a relationship happens, then that's awesome. If it doesn't though, I still know who I am, what I am and what I've got that helps me stand out from all the other mindless, unenlightened, Pied Piper's rats. I have my NYC, MTA subways and my friends.
Happy Holidays!!! :)
~Mandy
P.S. Spell check says complimenter isn't a word via "er" or "or". I need to go back to school. :P
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