it’s official!
Current mood: worried

HE SAID "YES"

no no no! i'm moving away!

it's official that i'm moving away!

but i'm worried because we're moving and i still have a lot of hw to do.
it requires the internet, meaning when i move, no internet for a long period of time.
meaning, i can't get hw done! so as of this week, i will have to stay with my parents.

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i've been hiding it, not talking about it
Current mood: sad

i never knew that missing someone would hurt so much. not seeing him for months is killing me. i miss him so so so much. i regret not giving him a good bye hug and regret not telling him good bye. all i did was smiled and wave. why? i miss him so so so much.

i've lied to myself, saying it's ok, i'll see him again soon, but i miss him so much. i can't stand it anymore, i want to see him. everyday i wait for something. i didn't know what that something was, but now i know. it's him.

he's driving me crazy. everything i see reminds me of him. i'm so sad. it hurts me so much. my heart is aching so much. why is it that now it's finally hurting me so much? ahhhh, i want to see him again, tell him good bye, hug him good bye. i want to look him in the eyes and say, 'i don't regret meeting you because these past few months with you are so priceless, thank you.'

the first time i heard him curse, the first time i saw him smile, the first time i heard him laugh, the first time i saw him without glasses, the first time he made me laugh so much, the first time i ever knew so much about a guy without even greeting him properly, i miss all of that. i can't stop thinking anymore. these past few weeks, i've been hiding it, not talking about it. and now it has come to hurt me so much more.

i miss him more than anything, i can't even sleep at night.

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denying my need for that someone
Current mood: grateful

there are going to be those times where you don't think you need someone, but deep down you're really asking for someone. and i think after years of denying my need for that someone, it finally hit me hard back.

we've known each other for almost three years now, we were neutral, here and there, spoke like nothing and acted like nothing. and before i knew it, he became my world, as i became his. the only thing that keeps us apart from each other is the distance. he lives so far away and i miss him so much.

i love it when he smiles, laughs and looks at me because it just makes me so happy. he is my happiness, my joy and my motivation. i love him so much. i feel like i can finally love someone.

i sound corny.... eh... oh well...

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In Respose to KT’s Love for Me.
Current mood: thankful

KT WROTE:
"Dear Maly Thao,
    Wah!!  I've known YOU since sixth grade!!  You've been the coolest friend I've ever had!  It was so awesome spending my senior year with you during college connection.  It would have been dull without your loudness. lol. I wouldn't have learned CHINESE, JAPANESE, AND KOREAN if you weren't there.  haha.  But on the more serious note, I really wanna thank you.  I mean, I don't even know what to say because there's too much to say.  I just hope you look back on this letter and remember ME.....and however you define me.  You introduced me to a whole new genre of music and you kind of taught me that whatever problems I had, to just make a joke out of it and everything will go away for the day...until THE NEXT DAY..haha.  You were my PROCRASTINATION PARTNER ..I definitely didn't feel bad because I slacked off..AAH SHEE!  You're awesome!  I know the future is a mystery, but I have HIGH HOPES that we'll be in a different country by then :D. I LOVE YOU... "


In Respose to KT's Love for Me.
Dear KT,
    I, too, have known you since the sixth grade. You've been the most funniest, stylishest kid around town. It was a real pain in the a$$ having to spend my senior year with a kid like you because IT WAS FUUKEN AWESOME! If it weren't for you, I woulda never have learned your secret code names... (BLACKFEET, BOOTS, SHOE, THE MONSTER, YOUASHEEKEY, THE UGLY GUY, SOLDIER BOY, LOVEABLE, BLUE SHOES, SHINY TEETH, RED FACE, CURLY HAIR, etc...) lmao... but for reals and all, I really, truthfully and honestly, I want to thank you. Thank you for everything that has went on for the past seven years with and without you. It was a real blast. I hope that when you look back on my letter, you'll REMEMBER ME just like it was yerterday. And I know I wasn't just your procrastination partner, but your "save my a$$ partner". lol. you know what i'm talkin bout (english essays and maly's ideas). You're just so awesome cuddy, amy, kathy. VERY. sigh. I know the present holds me blindy for the future, but I have high hopes that I'll have eye surgery soon to see what it is the future holds for me. hahahaah!!! man that's funnie. anyways, KUV HLUB KOJ HEEV TIAG. XD



































p.s.
kt didn't write "i love you" at the end of her letter, i just added it for fun.
but really, i love having kt as friend. she's a real cool kid.
CLASS OF 2008, WE FUUKEN KICK A$$ THIS YEAR!

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