Whats going on
Current mood: happy

It is summer weather in the Las Vegas. It is time for shorts, tanks and anything that will keep you cool in the sun.  I do love the sun. I was not born under the Free love era or the Haight-Ashbury set your mind free.

It was all about the water. I was born and raised in the 70's California. I do not know one person who did not worship lakes, beaches and community pools born in that time. 

 Las Vegans and most tourist's who visit during the summer know's that ALL of the hotel pools are now open.

You have REHAB at the Hard rock. This is where all the beautiful people go.  Hard body, great hair, doesn't care if someone pulls their top off.

Then you have Ditch Fridays at the Palms.

This is more my speed. You can look, feel and be as silly as you want. Case in point, See the people hoding the green plastic cups in the back ground?? They all came from New York to celebrate a friend. You see this friend just accepted the dream job. Why is this silly you ask?? The friend could not make it. He had to stay in New York while 15 of his closes friends said "WERE GOING TO VEGAS!!!"

Lets see.. My friend Marcy is getting married in July and asked for me to be one of her brides maids. I was very honored. If any one knows this women she is blessed by meeting her future husband. The smile nevers leaves her face. They already have bought a 5 bedroom house so they can move in after the big day. This wedding gives me a reason to tone up some. I have been a little lazy...Ok, more than a little.

The next big event happened in my life.. Meet my KITTY!! This is Roxy. Only a special animal ca fit in this family. Roxy is very special indeed. She was born with 6 toes on each paw. It is complete with that extra long scratching nail.

She took having another baby in the house without being jealous. (My granddaughter summer)

This kitten fits in just fine...

 Life is good.

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Who is Right

Due to unfavorable circumstamces life is still going, and going...  Do we really learn when you have given a "lesson of life?" Your emotions are heightened, you put up a wall just to protect yourself and then when it is all said and done you hear " This has been a lesson learned so you don't do it again."
I sit here thinking that the butterflies in my stomach or feeling like I was punched in the gut is something that will make me ponder how this improved my well being. I cannot grasp that this is a postive.

Oh I know, I should look at the positive in every situation leaps into my life. I have a situation that most of you but not all knows about. I have been waiting 2 years and 3 days to learn which I can heal from a tramatic event. This last week I have had sleepless nights, back and forth to attorneys, and being reminded how easy it is to block an event out so you can be happy and then you have to relive it to get justice.

Monday was going to be the day. Court was starting, all the emotions that I have had dormant for the last 6 months had to be rehashed out of the depths of my mind, my heart and way down deep from my soul. Through the tears I felt shame creeping up. " What could I have done to protect my kids?" "What if I break down in court, what would the jury think? These questions haunted me. I could not escape as they circled me like vultures. I knew what I had to do. SHUT UP AND JUST LET IT HAPPEN... As I finally started to feel the strength the phone call came. It was the D.A  office. Due to unforseen circumstances the defense attorney needs more time to go over a file. I know this is a tactic to stall and make us give up.. MY GOODNESS, she know that everytime she asks for it to be postponed we have to live the pain. What this attorney doesn't realize is that it has been 2 years so there is no way we are giving up now. How much my heart has been ripped out and tucked back in saying " Ooops, not this time we need 3 more months" this bitch is not getting the satisfaction of us giving up.  She states that she is not defending to criminal but his constitutional rights. She is right because as a accuser charging the accused we do not have rights nor will we ever. We have the right to wait for our voice to be heard and justice to be served. My family is aware that some people may find him not guilty and we will have to move BUT our voices will be heard and this at least shows people and they will see this man and never forget his face. When and if they see him on the street they will hold their child closer, or when the child asks to go somewhere by themselves the parent will be wiser on teaching safety.

As of today, my feelings are hurt but my will be not be broke. Court is delayed until 7/7 and hopefully living in VEGAS that is a lucky day...

Don't worry I will look at the positive and see how great my family life is.. I just need time to cry and suck up the love and blessings that are given to me..

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ADULTS SUCK
Current mood: disgusted

I have 1 of my own WTF file...

Today I went outside to throw the football with my children. It is about time that I suck up the pain and get busy. My son and I were tossing the football when we see people going inside of our neighbors house. First, it was one man with his son. He asked his son if he would like to stay outside on his bike. This boy was 4 at the most was excited.  "YES, DADDY!!" He was so excited. A few minutes later another man went to the door. He looked around, knocked and opened the door. At that moment I see my neighbors 2 yr old son step outside. They live on the 2nd floor with stairs like this. (just not as nice)

The 2 boys are outside with coats waiting for their daddies to finish getting high.  All of the older kids and myself were staring at them because we know what is happening. The door opens up once in awhile and one of the dads will say something and close the front door again. 

I feel so bad for these kids. The worst part about it is our society thinks like this:

1) It is none of my business so stay out of it.

2) They are not doing it in front of the kids so what is the harm

3) You tell, you get hurt.

Is it not just as bad to throw your kids outside so you can get high?? I am sorry, not kids but toddlers... Why can't we stand up for children? I am a single mom and my kids have been latch key kids for a very long time but it is for survival. I need to make money. It is not for the next hit, drag or snort.

Then I read this... a 2 1/2 yr old thrown from a bridge and hit 2 times. It is on yahoo news. This poor little baby was tossed in the air. I cannot imagine the fear and pain this child felt right before his death.

It is a sad day when adults cannot protect a small child from sadness. I pray for all of these children. Hoping their parents find some kindness and figure out that child outside in the cold is more important than the next high.

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YES, THIS IS MY SON!!
Current mood: happy

I am soooo proud of my son. He has a job in his school lunch room. He gets free food and will learn alot. This job fell in his lap by chance. My kids take the  0530 city bus to school so my daughter can particiapte in chamber. He would stay at the school 1 hr before it starts just for his sister. So today he is blessed with a job to that will teach him job skills at such a young age.

BTW, His eyes was hit playing football in the fron yard.

I had to share this. Have a great day!!!

1. What was the highlight of your week?
My son getting a job at his school cafe.

2. Who's car were you last in?
My own

3. When was the last time you kissed someone?
A MaN?

4. What color shirt are you wearing?
I am still in my work clothes..

5.Last movie you watched?
The mist

6.Listening to anything?
crossing jordan...

7.If you could go anywhere right now, where would it be?
San Fran

8.Been to the gym recently?
YUP YUP!!!

9. Last thing you ate?
Vitamin

25.What was the last question you asked?
Make dinner?

26. What were you doing at midnight last night?
sleeping - ditto

27.Do you have a job?
Yes

28.What was the most recent thing you bought?
cabbage

29.Did you meet anyone new today?
No

30.How old will you be this year?
37

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Can I go back to bed and start this Monday over?
Current mood: pissed off

The first thing I want to talk about is my neck. My neck goes on FOREVER!! I am going to look like a rooster one I really start aging. The best thing about my neck is jewelry always looks nice around it..

So I woke up today knowing it is payday. I knew the check would not be anything to write home about since it was straight pay but I would be able to pay my bills. I filled up my gas tank, picked up a coffee and drove into work. It was just another day.

I logged into my computer and decided I would pay my bills on-line. I first, however, needed to see my T&A statement (time /attend). I logged on to the NFC website and wanted to spit my coffee out!!! They have me down as Attendance w/o authorization LEAVE (AWOL). This also means I did not get paid for a whole week when I was out on medical... This is not good. I had all my I's dotted before I even went on medical. The DAFSD (deputy assistant federal security director) even signed my form so how can they have me as AWOL?? Somebody sent my paper back and it was sitting in my mailbox for 3 weeks!! They could have called me on my cell phone.

What this means to me.. I do not see this money until 1/31.  Which does not make OMA happy at all...

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Mike did things to me no other man has

Mike has started to bring back my muscle.

I started Physical Therapy today.. The goosebumps come just thinking about it. I LOVED THAT I CAN MOVE AGAIN!! I did thigh presses, bike, leg lifts and other things with a towel that I really can't explain.

Mike is my guy for the next 6-8 weeks. He has the full access pass to rub, pinch, electric pulses  and pleasure that I will kindly call soreness.  It is common to enjoy the pain that you worked for and not the pain from an injury.

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First Random thoughts of this year

I start back to work tomorrow. Sure it will be only for 2 days before it is my RDO's but I could have stayed out all week. I am being a team player and going back early.  The reality is, it is better to be at work keeping busy than sitting at home thinking and cleaning. I have been out of work since Decemeber 19. That is to much time doing nothing. I did have a week recovering in Washington but I was still having pain. My time was spent walking stairs to strengthen my leg. My kids kept me sane the rest of the time but today alone I knew it was time to go back. So my surgeon bargained with me 4 hours a day 4am to 8am.

Hmmmm... I am learning that love is not in my future also. I have been courting a man that today I confronted and I will no longer do. I will still be a friend but I do not want to wait any longer for more than what we have. I have a friend tell me something that I was secretly telling myself but would not say out loud. Its time.

I also have had a taste of what I call a "normal" life. It was great and I do miss it. 

 Back to reality and it is hard but I will overcome. I will leave my caccoon to become the butterfly this year.

Happy 21st Birthday to my Daughter Melodie.. LOVE YOU!!

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The last pics of 2007

I have tried many times to write to explain some of these pics but I keep crashing. I will now just post my life in the last 2 weeks of 2007...

Last bit of fun, surgery and christmas in Washington State with my dad and daughter.

Granddaughter/Daughter

Deer in the backyard.

The horse is bigger than her.

OMSI-IN PORTLAND

FRODO IS MORE HUMAN THAN CAT

This telescope will span across the sky and find the stars for you!!

T

Downtown PORTLAND

Downtown Vancouver, Wa. going to the Liberty Theater.

I still have stiches and inflammation. It is time to go to Sports Medicine doctor. I can at least walk with out a limp for the moment..

Happy New Year.

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AND THEY SAY EXERCISE IS GOOD

 ON  Dec, 21 2007

I get to have... TAAAA DAAAA

SURGERY (expect I do not have all that hair)

I can't wait to have my knee fixed. I want to dance, run, play and jump and the best of all NOT LIMP ANY MORE!!!! I see men look at me and smile and when I start to walk they turn their head as if they saw a booger in my nose.

I am turning 37 in a few months. I have many years to look like ....this.

For now I will get my knee debridement and hope no ligaments/tendons are torn. I will be as good as new for the next year.. YEA ME!!!

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!!!

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Enough promoting.. This is me.

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Pre-trial	11/21/2007 at 08:15 AM	Trial	11/26/2007 at 10:30 AM

It is that time.. We have pre-trial on wednesday and trial starts on the 26th. It has been a long 18 months since this began. I would never have thought that I would ever have to send someone to prison for life.

I ask myself if this is my good deed in life. That once this is over my life will be the way it suppose to be. Happy!! Happy is open-ended is it not?? What defines your happiness? All the toys you can have, money to feel secure, the perfect job? For me happiness is water by my bed, a loving man, my kids laughing and knowing that all of this will be with me for years to come. Happiness is listening to my music in my car bouncing my head while everyone else thinks I am to old to be doing it..

God is with my family.. I know this. He made us strong enough to endure this year. He made us proud enough to not worry about what his family thinks and wise enough to know if we dont get him off the streets that he will hurt another child.

I am nervous and scared but my friends and family will be there. I will pray that I can draw from Gods grace and the strength of my peers to be  a strong witness. Even if I crumble in the midst of it all my little girl will be excellent. She is the make it or break it person. I wish God had made me as strong as her. She is such a pillar of light. Everyone she talks to say they are blessed meeting her.  This man hurt her and his terror will end with her and she will make sure of it..

Pray for us.. Pray that this jury will see this monster for what he really is..Pray for the VICTORY OF CHILDREN.

Dont forget to check your sexual preditor site in your area.. Dont be afraid Just be PREPARED!!

GOD BLESS..

Oma (grandma) woo hoo.. I love being a grandma

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