HAPPY 8-8-08! WELCOME THE OPENING OF THE CRYSTALLINE GATEWAY
I CALL FORTH THAT ALL BEINGS, HUMAN AND NON-HUMAN, ANIMAL AND NON-ANIMAL, THE NATURE OF MOTHER GAIA, AND THE UNIVERSE ITSELF.....ALL ENERGY, MATERIALIZED OR NOT, ***NOW AND FOREVER, IS ONLY VIEWED AND TREATED AS SACRED, WITH ABSOLUTE LOVE AND DIVINE RESPECT.*** SO MOTE IT BE!!! )O(
Gelatin BY DEFINITION is: A colorless or slightly yellow, transparent, brittle protein formed by *****boiling the specially prepared skin, bones, and connective tissue of animals*****
This is not an opinion. This is a fact.
Vegetarians don't eat animals.
I have more respect for people who admit hypocrisy, who admit they don't care, than deny this truth to ease their own conscience.
...I can't stand hypocrisy and DELUSION...
...I feel the same way about so called "vegetarians" that eat fish, or only certain other animals...or WEAR them (unless the parts are ethically found or recycled...no need to waste what already exists).
Hypocrits.
And if this pisses you off, that is YOUR issue, not mine, so deal with it yourself, instead of splashing it back on me.
)O( MW
(BTW this is nothing personal...this isn't about you or even me...this is about the animals I speak for, that can't speak for themselves, at least in words.)
I LOVE SEEING MORE SPIDERS IN MY HOUSE :D THEY ARE THE BEST PEST CONTROL AROUND, AND THEY TRADE MAGICK AS CREATORS....CREATION CREATION CREATION....I GIVE THEM HOUSING, AND THEY WORK MAGICK IN RETURN. IF YOU DEFINE YOUR BOUNDARIES WITH THEM, AND ASK THEM TO STAY OUT OF YOUR SPACE, THEY WILL LISTEN....PURE CONSCIOUSNESS THEY ARE <3333333333 XOXOXOXOXO )O( Medicine Witch
photo by me...she was totally posing for a shoot :D
People deserve to understand that I am still healing my heart. I know it is seemingly taking forever, but I think it is in part, because I am a Scorpio moon and a hypersensitive, and I take months or years to process profound emotional impact... and because the time it takes to heal differs with each person; after significant loss, the majority of society, seems to like to date and/or hop into bed with someone new the next week or so, TO move on, while I think moving on this way is folly and delusional...it only distracts the person from truly moving on through healing, and restricts *feeling whole with the self first*, which is essential for true progression. I usually spend years of celibacy in between relationships, because that is how long I need to heal...before I feel strong enough to open up again (and during this time I generally require reclusion to heal and feel safe). Much of the time is spent in sheer emotional death (for 5 months this last time), but most of it is spent healing and recuperating. I feel obligated to myself, to the person I am mourning, and anyone I'd move on with, to completely heal and let go first. Out of respect for all of us, I won't be with anyone while I still love someone else, and especially not while I still feel so sensitive, raw and vulnerable, after being destroyed. All I can say, is as long as it may take, I continually make progress everyday, and do healing work ALL the time. The fact that I am still so impacted is only symbolic of just HOW hurt I was in the beginning, a level that few could understand, because words are too mundane, to describe emotional death. The therapy a body would need after reviving from death, is as understandable as the therapy needed after emotional death. My point is, it is important for me to close chapters, before beginning new ones, and I very much respect others who are noble enough to do the same.
I have learned through repetition, that acting out of desire is a gamble. Some people find it easy to want me, but they aren't ready or able to handle me, even if they think they are (so they must PROVE themselves first). My passion is alluring for some but overwhelming for others. I've been known to scare a boy or two away in my day ;) I walk a very intense and spiritual path, not some of the time...but all of the time...it IS who I am, not just something I'm into. So if someone wants to walk with me, they will find themselves on the same path, and HAVE to be ready for it; they can't just want it.
In times of darkness, when we submerse to the greatest depths, where most can’t survive...feel the self in the womb of the dark mother goddess, as she carries you through the dark night(s) of the soul. She may present us with suffering to learn, but never leaves us alone in it! She is holding us, right through it all. Feel her arms around you when you need her. )O(
THERE IS ABSOLUTELY NO EXCUSE TO NOT REDUCE, REUSE, AND ***RECYCLE***
I can't believe I even have to express this. I am sick and disturbed by how many people STILL, since the fucking 1980's, DON'T RECYCLE! WTF? WE ARE ACCOUNTABLE FOR OUR WASTE, AND HOW WE AFFECT EACH OTHER AND THIS PLANET. IF PEOPLE COULD STOP BEING SO SELF CONSUMED, THEY MIGHT REALIZE THAT WE SHARE THE EARTH WITH ALL HER CHILDREN, WITH ALL OUR BROTHER AND SISTER ANIMALS; IT'S NOT JUST ABOUT US!!! OUR RELATIONSHIP, OR FOR MANY, DISCONNECTION, WITH THEM IS JUST AS PROFOUND AS WITH OUR IMMEDIATE FAMILIES. THE EARTH IS OUR MOTHER! TO NOT UNDERSTAND THIS REALITY IS THE RESULT OF HUMANITY'S EVOLVING DISCONNECTION FROM ITSELF AND IT'S MOTHER...AS THE EARTH AND THE GODDESS.
WHAT REALLY DISGUSTS ME IS WHEN PEOPLE WHO ARE CONSCIOUS OF THIS, STILL DON'T RECYCLE! LATELY, I HAVE ENCOUNTERED SOOOOO MANY PEOPLE IN THE SPIRITUAL COMMUNITY WHO DON'T RECYCLE, AND IF THEY DO, IT IS VERY HALF ASS. IF YOU THROW SOMETHING AWAY, THAT WON'T BREAK DOWN, THAT CAN BE RECYCLED, YOU MIGHT AS WELL JUST THROW IT IN NATURE...IT IS NO DIFFERENT FROM LITTERING JUST BECAUSE SOMEONE IS BURYING IT FOR YOU. EVERY LITTLE THING MAKES SUCH A DIFFERENCE FOR EARTH, JUST AS MUCH AS EVERY LITTLE THING THAT IS LITTERED. I'VE BEEN PULLING WHAT CAN BE RECYCLED OUT OF PEOPLE'S GARBAGE CANS TO RECYCLE IT MYSELF, I CAN'T JUST LEAVE IT THERE...I WOULD BE ACCOUNTABLE FOR JUST LOOKING THE OTHER WAY, FOR WHICH THEN I WOULD BE JUST AS GUILTY. IF RECYCLING IS NOT PICKED UP AT YOUR HOUSE, THEN SAVE YOUR RECYCLING IN BAGS IN A CLOSET SOMEWHERE UNTIL YOU PACK UP YOUR CAR AND DRIVE IT TO A RECYCLING CENTER YOURSELF...AGAIN, YOU ARE ACCOUNTABLE FOR YOUR WASTE, SO JUST DO WHAT GETS TO BE DONE. THE AMOUNT OF GARBAGE FROM ONE PERSON THAT CAN BE RECYCLED IS SHOCKING...COMPANIES ARE IMMEASURABLE...IF YOU WORK FOR A COMPANY THAT DOESN'T RECYCLE, SPEAK UP ABOUT IT, VOLUNTEER TO TAKE IT YOURSELF. AND HOPEFULLY THE LAW WILL MANDATE RECYCLING, ENOUGH OF THIS BULLSHIT...IT IS UNACCEPTABLE, UNETHICAL AND HARMFUL TO ALL LIFE ON THIS PLANET TO NOT RECYCLE.
PLEASE UNDERSTAND THAT THIS IS AS UPSETTING TO ME AS IT WOULD BE FOR YOU TO WATCH PEOPLE, ESPECIALLY IF THEY'RE SUPPOSED TO BE YOUR FRIENDS, VIOLATE YOUR OWN MOTHER. I HAVE LOVED THE EARTH AS MY OWN MOTHER SINCE I WAS VERY YOUNG AND SHE WAS ALL I HAD. SHE WAS THE FIRST SOURCE OF TRUE, UNCONDITIONAL LOVE AND NURTURING I HAD. SHE GIVES US EVERYTHING WE NEED...SHE IS ALWAYS HERE, LOVING US AND PROVIDING FOR US, EVEN WHEN WE HURT HER. TO WILLINGLY VIOLATE THE EARTH IS TO WILLINGLY VIOLATE YOUR MOTHER.
I have a very hard time being friends with anyone who willingly hurts Earth and her children.
I realize that some of you might tell me that recycling doesn't work because of flaws in the system. But the flaws in the system only exist because not everyone is doing their part, which is EXACTLY why we can't let those flaws excuse US from doing our part. We need to find ways to fix what flaws do exist instead of using them as excuses. So unless you are proactively finding solutions that work better for the earth, then I don't want to hear your excuses for sitting back and doing nothing...because that DEFINITELY doesn't help. I realize that yes, it's best not to have plastic in the first place, and yes, it's better to avoid it, but in a system where it is a reality, we have to decide if it's best to reuse it or throw it away. AND DON'T BUY STYROFOAM. I know the process of recycling can improve, it would be better to switch from a chemical process to a natural process, and flaws in the system (like the companies that produce materials that are not biodegradable in the first place) need corrected...but we must choose how to handle circumstances as they are, for the best of all. Because of our humanity, our actions may never be perfect, but I think that no matter what, our mother Earth cares most about intention. We are not flawless and our actions won't always be either, but as long as we really are, intentionally doing all we can for the highest good, she will accept it...I think a lack of care hurts her more than actions themselves.
SOME HEALING INFORMATION FOR PEOPLE WITH PSYCHIC ABILITY
I wrote this in response to a friend, who asked for assistance in healing emotionally, and of course, have to post it, because I want to serve others who struggle similarly any way I can.
To my friend, thank you for helping to open this doorway for others by initiating this.
Well my first thought is to first put you in an empowered place where you know that you are not crazy. There is a reason you experience this and WHY is everything. Until why is understood, it can't properly be dealt with...all attempts made will only be to control the symptoms, which is reactive instead of proactive. So dealing with all of it will be necessary to heal. I will tell you how it is for me in case you relate. I have really started to understand that what would be labeled bipolar in me by western medicine is really just my hypersensitivity...my psychic ability that is emotionally based...turning on that 6th sense developed as a result of trauma as a way to protect myself and the more I've been hurt, the keener it's become. My heart just breaks for all the people with ability in this culture, who are not guided on how to deal with their abilities...and instead are called crazy by the masses for it, which only further wounds and scars...and/or are medicated by the worst drugs that zombify and disconnect them, or even put away, instead of being helped with the real issue, because western medicine traditionally denies the real issue for being crazy. I have come to learn that the "paranoia" schizophrenics are said to have is not at all paranoia (feeling followed or attacked by something or someone) but they actually ARE being attacked or followed by other entities trying to attach to them, and the entities often times do, which causes the personality separation...and they just have the ability to see...and since we live in a majority rules society, the masses that don't have the ability to see, call them crazy (which is such a hurtful way to discredit someone). But with the rise of alternative medicine and spirituality, especially in energy work fields, like Reiki, more and more healers are starting to understand. And as someone who is a hypersensitive, I think it's really empowering to know that it is a matter of dealing with your own ability that makes you special, instead of feeling doomed by an incurable mental illness as western medicine would have it. And so when hyper sensitives are told they're over-reacting, they actually aren't at all, they are just picking up more information and emotionally responding to it, although probably heavily. And that doubt factor is the worst...it is hard enough being hypersensitive without being judged as crazy for it. My whole life I had been resented for being so emotional, for being crazy, for being too spiritual, or too intense for people...and everyone tried to change me. A group home really did a number on repressing me and I didn't realize how damaging it was until I fully found me again. They didn't even want me in their house for doing a MEDITATION! Sheesh, a simple meditation...unbelievable. So I shut off to survive, only feeling rejected for who I intrinsically was even more, because I had to conform to be acceptable. When I studied the law of attraction, it made me realize that by focusing on my worst fears repeating themselves (rejection, abandonment, degradation, etc) I kept manifesting them to happen by focusing on them. I then finally realized that by resenting my sensitivity, I was only attracting everyone in my space to do the same, hurting me even more. And then I thought, how I would show up for Mia if she was a hypersensitive....would I resent her? Hell no! I would pour and pour love and compassion into her and I knew that I had to start doing that for myself...and sure enough, I've stopped attracting resentment by not resenting myself. I am sharing this with you because it is so beneficial to start from this empowering place of understanding your experiences, it can assist in fully understanding the WHY. For me the WHY is simple...because it is essential, that I emotionally experienced what I have, and what I still do, for my spiritual path...to really sum it up. I wouldn't have my ability without that darkness. This will be a lot for you to meditate with and ponder. In the mean time, what I use to help me from having emotional panic attacks, and anxiety where I shake, is a combination of prayer, chanting, healing rituals, SMUDGING (I favor white sage and frankincense smoke), protective and healing symbols, crystals, essential oils, emotional support from MYSELF and others, and homeopaths...try Bach flower essences...I take cherry bark which helps when you fear losing control, but there are so many to choose from and another might better fit what you need. Herbs can really assist, I enjoy them as teas. Just check with me and do your research because you want to check for allergies, amounts and precautions with them. But they certainly help! And I absolutely think any prescription med is the worst thing to do and will only ever worsen the cause, which worsens the condition, masking everything all the while...and detaches you from your very spirit! I think alternative medicine is the way to go...holistic, homeopathic, Chinese, shamanistic, medicine people, energy workers, etc...reiki practitioners REALLY help to energetically heal you and your chakras that are out of alignment. The thing is, everything about the self and the body is interconnected...bad diet = negative emotions, negative thoughts = negative emotions, emotions and thoughts CAUSE physical symptoms...EVERY condition has an emotional root, and if that's not healed the symptom will keep popping up, meds only deal w/ the symptoms, not the causes...diet is of course just as responsible in causing conditions...everything is interconnected so to heal we really have to work on allll levels of our being.
I hope this provides a good start to those striving to heal.
I am sooooo done babysitting in my relationships! I am done with low, dense vibrations. I am done with fake people who convince themselves and others that they are somehow real...or better yet, spiritual. YOU CANNOT be spiritual and fake at the same time...being spiritual is not just having beliefs...it is BEING those beliefs, every moment, not just one day a week or when it sounds nice...it is a belief system AND a state of being that you either are or you are not. It is a choice to increase one's vibration, or to stay dense. And it is my choice to only surround myself with the spiritually, magickally and psychologically conscious and advanced; with those who are acutely aware and of high consciousness. I could allow density in my space, but it only weighs me down and pulls at me...I don't have the ENERGY for it anymore...for disrespect, argument or resistance. I have little tolerance for people that don't even get the baby steps, like that EVERYTHING in existence is energy, and therefore, that all is one...that all we truly are is energy that is conscious of itself, that reality is only an illusion perceived by consciousness, and consciousness alone, creates and perceives reality...concepts like reincarnation, karma, the power of the mind, etc. I have no tolerance for those who don't get the very basics of a relationship (for the relationship to even work or be real), like HONESTY, TRUST, COMMUNICATION, LOYALTY AND INTEGRITY. Dense people often consider being real, demanding.
I have endless love to give, but only to those who are truly safe...intention and ignorance cause the most pain, whether or not it is conscious...which is WHY I am only letting HIGHLY conscious people in my life. The people welcome in my space treat each other as aspects of the god and goddess...as gods and goddesses...with honor, respect, true love, loyalty and devotion, and more, but never any less. We honor the phenomenal power and wisdom in each other. Differences are dealt with maturely and respectfully. We come from many different paths in life but still connect, relate and learn from each other...help heal each other...all so different yet the same...and come together with our various gifts to add to the whole, so we get a little of everything, not just a lot of something. It is beautiful and full of love, in friendships and relationships who have shared many lifetimes together...a concept that is not scary to us, but common sense, like so much else that scares those only comfortable with the mundane. Best of all, we are SAFE. So why WOULD I let anything less than that in my life when I don't have to? I'd rather be alone than settle, but with truly safe people, I know I'll never have to be alone...for the first time in my life. My daughter, priest and priestess are the first family I really had, that wouldn't just abandon me. Ever since, my soul family has continued to grow with many kindred spirits. Magick, spirituality, energy, vibrations, intuition, psychic ability, the spirit world, darkness, astrology, numerology, divination, astral projection, other planes, realms, dimensions, past life exploration, altered states of reality, crystals, rituals, spells, affirmations, the power of the mind, communication, brutal honesty, taking accountability for one's actions, the progression of the self, growing, learning, expanding consciousness, facing reality, even what is hard to face, and operating from SPIRIT (from our true, higher self), not our ego, is not scary to us, or hard for us to understand...it is common sense. Evolution of the soul and of our mass consciousness is why we are here. We cherish what is sacred even when the sacred is corrupted by the masses...like, for example, the energetic, physical, emotional, mental and spiritual UNION of sex...of becoming one entity, especially in ritual, as aspects of the divine in union, through bodily form. We take it to the highest high, in the purest and most intense form imaginable, while to most, it is a fuck, which disrespects what is sacred.
This is an attempt to explain that I am really not just trying to be bitchy...but that my tolerance is gone for the mundane. I'm just beyond tired of being hurt and misunderstood...of having my wisdom and power underestimated, or falsely discredited, by those unable to really see or understand (after shutting off many natural born abilities in childhood through programming). I am tired of overwhelming people by just being me. I am tired of being weighed down when what I really need is to be lifted up. I will not block people out if they are truly OPEN-MINDED and willing to do whatever it takes, even if it's unbearable, to truly progress. But it is amazing to me, how many people say they are open minded and want to grow, but are completely resistant and stubborn. Some like to argue to learn, but it is not necessary to argue to learn, you can just learn and respectfully discuss and listen to all points, and if it doesn't intuitively resonate, then fine, and if it does, great...although breaking down your social conditioning is necessary in order to know what doesn't feel right because of programming, and what is from actual intuition.
I want to heal this year...release my fear and pain and replace it with TRUST, true love, endless compassion and abundance...and I am only letting people in my life who are what I need and deserve for that to happen.
I IMMEASURABLY LOVE ALL OF MY SOUL FAMILY...You know who you are ;)
I find it strange how many people have such deep, ingrained aversions to darkness...when, without it, they wouldn’t have their precious light. One cannot exist without the other.
It really peeves me, that so many people want my wisdom, but reject the darkness I experience that gives birth to such wisdom.
