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Current mood: blah

how annoying is it being ill!!! i cant wait till im better, i cant even eat my favorite food or go out i just sleep ALLL the time!! someone give me ideas on what helps u get better!! its amazing tho coz at least i have an excuse to stay in my new bed for sooo long hehe. working again tomorro an staying behind to do a floor move if the tummy stays well enuf.

i bought myself my fav perfume today to make me feel better i have no money but bought it any way. i am sooo bored now just sat on my own in my room on a saturday night!!how amazing is my weekend!!

might as well go to bed soon!!!

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tropical
Current mood: giddy
Category: Blogging

How amazing is today!!! i was walking my dog at 7:30 this morn and i felt as tho i was in a tropical rain forest!! green trees, hot weather, light rain amazing!! just wanted to get into a bikini and run around hehe i am sad sometimes.

i am going to a spa tomorro!!! gonna get a gorgeous body treatment can't wait.bit scared as i have to wear a bikini and my body is no where near perfect, i am gonna drink litres of water today to try an make a slight improvement and gonna walk my dog again soon. wish me look. (p.s. cant wait for the chamagne lunch!!!)

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day after the day before
Current mood: indescribable
Category: Life

Why does it always seem to happen that you fall for the wrong people? they make u feel amazing and special but its only for 1 night then it all falls o pieces. i hate people that have 2 or more personalities, one minute they love u an wanna b wi u an no1 else can have u, ur the most beautiful thing in their life, the next ur just friends who accasionally u wanna have sex wi but dont give a toss about how they feel and u just do it coz u can, another times, your best friends an have the time or your life an the next u ignore them and do/say anything u can to get out of doing something and last of all the personality that hates u and says all those bad things they know will upset u just to be that little devil u knew they could be!!! oh how u hate them but y the hell do you still love them and fall for them over an over again?? this is my lifes question.

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bag pipes
Current mood: full
Category: Movies, TV, Celebrities

How ace were the red hot chilli pippers on sat night!!!! amazing!! thats made my day.

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DAYDREAMING
Current mood: gloomy
Category: Writing and Poetry

A life isn't a good life if you don't have fun in it.

Thats my motto, but what if you can't have what makes you happy? Now what do i do? i hate feeling like this, fake smiles the odd laugh but then emptiness and tears.

A waterfall welds up behind those gleaming blues, not a single tear daring to fall,

an ache in the chest, a pain in the heart.

just leave an bring back the old me!! i need a reason to start over new and thought that was you! now i need another and it's hard to look on and hard to understand there will be another reason.

I feel beautiful, he looks at me, kisses me, holds my hair and pulls. our lips lock together, i dont want this to end. my heart races and i tightly close my eyes, no, no, i cant cry, i'm happy. please dont end. i wanna sit here and kiss you forever.I can remember the last time i felt this and was the best time in my life. I want that feeling again, excitement, fun loving, giddy, sexy, loved everything i always wanted. what is wrong? why can't i keep you? no else makes me feel this way, you make me smile, i make you smile, you tell me im beautiful an u want me to b yours, i can be just take the risk, im not gonna hurt u, I LOVE YOU!

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contemplating
Current mood: contemplative
Category: Writing and Poetry

When your hearts broken, your chest aches,

Your stomache turns,

Your head pounds and eyes burn,

When someone breaks the cycle,

Your chest grows,

Your stomache flutters,

and your eyes gleam ,

Why would someone break a heart ,

A delecate fragile thing,

Something beautiful, fulfilling

and complete.

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questioning?
Current mood: hopeful
Category: Writing and Poetry

When you see someone and your heart flutters,

Your soul speaks and your eyes gleam,

When you loose a breath and sigh,

You freeze and walk on by.

When butterflies burst and birds sing,

You smile and hold on tight,

But when the birds song ends,

A dark cloud gathers and a rain drop falls,

Your Soul screams out for more,

A flutter gives that little hope that things aren't so poor. 

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dreams
Current mood: confused
Category: Dreams and the Supernatural

i had a dream about my x and cant stop thinking about him today. is tht bad? itsreally gettin to me coz i dont no wat it means. in my dream he had a gf but i went to his house to drop somethings of his off an was chatting to his mum waiting for him t come c me. wen he saw me he was really happy and kissed me like wed never broke up, he said im really glad to c u but im still with .... i was gutted but we kept sneaking off to c eachother in end tho he stayed with her ani was left feeling rubbish like wen we broke up.

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holiday!!!!
Current mood: excited
Category: Travel and Places

Wooooooooooooooooooooooooooo!!!!!!!!!! we'r all going on a summer holiday, no more worries for a week or 2!!! Hate that song but it is SOOO true lol. just booked a hol to Santorini an i cant wait, want the sun, sea and sand, have a break from stressful UK and just chill out and get to c new places. i honestly have never been soo excited for a holiday before but really want this 1. Gonna take loads o pics too i wanna remember this 1 forever and a day.

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alcohol!!!!!!!!!!
Current mood: envious
Category: Blogging

I really really shudn't have alcohol!! amazing u may feel at a certian point of the night that extra 1 takes u a million miles away from th real u. i hate being out of control but may good i love being drunk the odd time.

I actually dint get a xmas kiss, or not that i can remember any way, i ad an ace night up untill about 12 then i was totally wasted an had a little cry lol, slight underestimation. Si took me home, what a gentleman, but yet again it was the male speieces that got hold of my drunken state and got me in to a fit of tears. well my plan was to suduce him but after that 1 extra drink i think i disgusted him, he swore and everything at me but gues i did the same to him. He found his xmas lady, tht looked about 12 but upto him wat he wants to do. still fell for him tho, duno y but i do it every time especially when i tell myself no way this time i just do it more!!! think i need help!i saw lee!!!!!!!!!!!! we hugged an chatted although we were both very very drunk. it was nice and tht actually made my night, i spoke to him without shouting and he was soo kool, bless im so sad. lol. neway i wore my new dress an felt amazing untill 11 an i can guess i looked a bit worse for wear lol, i got home an mum and dad were up watching tv, feeling sorry for myself i went straight to bed, checking my fone every 5 seconds, got a few awful msgs but just cunt b arsed, wat was dun was dun and wanted sleep. i woke up around half 8 in the morn, make up down my face, not a gud look. i had the worse nights sleep ever. but it was xmas and santa had been. I open my prezis while trying to hide the smell of alcohol on my breath an the gurgling in my tummy, i did not feel gud. After a nice brekki and a bath, i felt slightly better, added all the xmas photos on here an watched moulin rougue, then xmas dinner at 3. amazing. what a hangover cure!!!!!!

hey boxing day now!!!!! rang work coz they hadnt given me enuf hrs and u dudnt want to loose ne holiday, went into work very very happy and got paid £16ph!!!!how amazing and i was in the stock room all day marking down stock so didnt have to deal with customers, best work day ever!!!i was soo hungry all day tho i had a happy meal and a mince pie. lol. went to the pub with kerry and suzi and had planned wakey for later but sarah mentioned batley an i was straight there, cheaper and easier to get home, i was driving so no alcohol but girls bought wine an i was to tempted so left my car and got smashed again! sarah and me went to batley and had an amazing night i wasnt too drunk just happy enuf and had a chat wi Si, not what i wanted to hear but least he was honest and i cant do ne more. 1 day think or hope he'll turn round and think shit y did i let her go and do that to her!! but we'll never know. ne way i stayed and sarah went home, got in the taxi wi gary and gilly and gary looked after me soo well, hes a star!!! next day i felt shit worse than xmas good it was wierd but went shopping wi mum n little cousin then we went out for tea at BIBIS, amazing!!!! yet another excellent hangover cure, i thought i looked beautiful 2 so made all the difference and i got asked out on a date so watch this space!!!!

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