Gender: Female
Status: Married
Age: 20
Sign: Cancer
City: Greenwood
State: Indiana
Country: US
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Wednesday, January 23, 2008
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Gracee Ann Cleveland has been born!!! 7 lb, 2 ounces
Current mood:  thankful
Category: Life
Gracee Ann Cleveland has finally arrived at 36 weeks, 3 days on Tuesday, January 8, 2008 at 11:14 a.m. at Community South Hospital located in Greenwood/Indianapolis, Indiana. After a rough delivery of 12 hours; 6 hours of pushing and her not positioning right and having to have my water broken and having to be dilated, she was ready to come, but she was so deep and her head was positioned crooked. The doctor tried and tried to get her to position right and I tried pushing for 6 hours, but with nothing working, nurses began to come into the room. They gave me medication and rushed me immediately into the operating room for an emergency C-section to performed. My man and I were never told what was going on, but except for the fact, her head was crooked and if she come vaginally she could choke or it could break her neck.
As they were wheeling me out of the delivery room, they hit buttons in the operation room which made alarms say codes and I saw nurses rushing to the operation room. My man and I were scared after hearing all the alarms going off. As we were in the hallway, I didn't see my man (they had made him go to change clothes and clean off). I began crying, asking if she was okay and no one answered my question. I cried and cried saying, "Just take her, make sure she is okay. I don't care about myself. Just do all you can for my baby girl." Fifteen to twenty people were in the operating room when I was just down the hallway within a little distance, surrounding my whole body. I was immediately put on morphine for pain and transferred and strapped down for operation.
I couldn't stop shaking during operation and was very scared if she was okay and would come out alive from myself being born premature. My man was sitting beside me, holding my hand and I told him I was scared and he told me he expressed everything would be okay. He was scared as well. I could just see it in his eyes.
After they took my kidney and uterus out of my body, I heard a crackling sound and said, "Is she okay?," while crying. Once again, I was ignored. I didn't care though, all I cared about is if she was okay and I knew eventually someone would answer my cry. I began then praying to God while scared, "please God let her be okay, I don't care about myself. All I want to be is a mother and I ask that of you." A couple minutes later I hear a screaming, crying baby and I turned my head away from my man and cried. That's when I realized... I am a mother now and you can define me as one. I turned my head back while crying and asked my man, "Is she okay? I heard her cry. Is she healthy?" He looked over near her and told me she looked healthy. The doctor then stated, 7 lb, 2 ounces, a healthy girl. Walter turned his head away from me and I kept squeezing his hand for the surgery, tugging and pulling and so forth. When my man turned his head away, I didn't realize that as a man, he had cried for almost the first time in his life after being brought up of not being able to cry. I didn't know he was crying, he didn't tell me until after surgery.
Surgery continued and I thought it would last forever, but luckily, the surgery only lasted 1 to 1 1/2 hours is what I was told... Time went by so quick though!
After my man let out a small cry, the nurse asked him to come over. He held her and came over to sit beside me. Keep in mind, there was a doctor behind him, just incase he passed out off the stool he was sitting on. They were monitoring him as well, to make sure he wouldn't get weezy while watching everything in action. They asked him if he wanted to take pictures, but he told them we didn't have a camera, but boy if we had one with us, what a joy it would have been to have pictures of the surgery.
Finally surgery ended and they did some testing on her and then brought her in my room. I was so excited to see her. I was laying there in pain, but remembering the pain was for a good reason, not a bad one and that reason was for a child, and I was very proud to be a mommy. I was very scared, laying there, but I would never regret or take back being a young mommy. Some people question it and ask why I did it, but I'd have to say, I love her and that won't change and being young, its a great experience and I was always told by doctors I wouldn't be able to deliver a child naturally and would have to have a C-section, but my OB/GYN wanted me to atleast try natural and I did, but had no luck as you all are reading about.
The day after my C-section, I was laying in the bed and letting it sink in, that now I'm a mommy and what I'd do with her as a mother (take her to the park, possibly enroll her in a religious school, etc). The possibilities that went through my mind were endless. The nurses came in that morning and asked me to get out of bed. I told them I hurt really bad, but they told me I had to get out of bed anyway. It hurt sooo bad to walk to the bathroom and peeing after having stuff put in you was a difficult journey, but the nurses told me most pregnant women have trouble peeing after pregnancy. I went to sit on the toilet and I realized how painful it was to even use a muscle in my body.
That's when I prayed to God, "Please God give me the strength I will need, so I can get up, carry her, cuddle her, and love her. Please give me the strength to get out of bed and so people won't question or think I'm a bad mommy. Please help me God." I said that pray and within minutes, I was walking around and doing things and helping feed her. It was such a joy being a mom.. People say changing diapers isn't fun, but let me tell you, I was so proud, I didn't care about any diapers, feedings. I just wanted my girl in my arms.. Oh and oh, the joy of that is a great feeling! ::Big Smiles::
I asked when I'd be released, so we could all show her off and spend time with her and they told me normally release for C-section for healthy babies is 3 days, but with my quick recovery time, I was released the 2nd morning after her delivery. All testing came back as normal, except we're all worried about one of her feet being crooked. Some think it may be her position before birth, a cleft foot, a pengion food, or possibly, she is double jointed. Now none of this runs in my family, so I'm questioning how this happened, if it be the case, but we aren't sure what it is and will be talking to her pediatrician on Tuesday about it. They wanted to see her a week after delivery (just a newborn checkup, but 2 months old she will have her first shots is what I'm told). If she does have a physical problem, I'm not sure how we will pay or afford this financially, but we will figure out something and make sure her needs are met. I just hope she doesn't get made fun of like I did growing up for being *different*. I know God creates things for a purpose and all will be different and I value that greatly. I thank God everyday for what he has did for me and I praise him for giving me the chance of motherhood when I was told by doctors previously it was always impossible for me.
As you all can see, we've named her a name related to religious (Gracee)- pronounced GRACE-E. We believe this is a very important name for her, since she was born by the Grace of God. Her middle name takes after my mother and sister's middle name, Ann. The last name of course in respect and love takes after my man's last name and of course, the daddy. ;)
Thanks for everyone's time and support during the pregnancy.
Michelle & Walter Cleveland
Ps. We've posted pictures up, please leave feedback! Thanks!!! ;)
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Sunday, November 18, 2007
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How To Get Started- FREE Christmas/Channukah gifts!!
Current mood:  impressed
Category: Life
To join or register if you already haven't.
How to Get Started:
Step One: Join - if you already haven't.
Step Two: Request toy of your choosing/desire that you want or a gift card for amount.
Step Three: Complete Offers - MID - FREE offers (don't cost anything), Generous Genie- FREE, BigBuckSurveys - FREE, and others are free as well- FREE meaning, you do not have to pay and can complete offers and earn points. Complete to end of survey when it says, "Thanks for completing survey".
Trial offers- Ask for some type of fee for joining- and you earn credit for joining a trial offer.
CC (Credit Card) offers - require any type of payment and keep in mind aren't free to join and will cost you-- will credit you once you make a payment.
AFTER COMPLETION OF OFFERS- report back the email address you used on the website for any offer of your choosing. For example: Say you complete MID offer for Sweepstakes with the email address ABC433@yahoo.com - then you report back to this website your email you used and wait for credit.
Credit is FAST on MID offers-- keep in mind, ALL my MID offers I've completed have completed within a few hours to 1 day.
Step Four: Once you earn points-- choose a gift that you have enough points for-- you can change your gift at any time- under the Gifts option. You can request a gift card- if you desire and if you do with enough points, please send a message to the admin after you put in your request for a gift card. Gift cards can be redeemed for various amounts and the message you send is just confirming I want a ______ gift card. You choose the store-- you can use these gift cards for Christmas shopping or of course, stocking stuffers. Some stores you might want to request would be: Starbucks, Walmart, JC Penny, Toys R Us, KB Toys, Lowes, Home Depot, Borders, Game Stop, Best Buy, Circuit City, or of course-- any restaurant that a friend or family member may enjoy. Keep in mind, gift cards are always at the Top of the List.
Step Five: Once you request your gift for family, friends or yourself, please allow 1-2 weeks for shipping. You may request your gift at any time, but keep in mind to allow 2 weeks at max for shipping.
Step Six: Enjoy your FREE gift!
Questions? Feel free to send myself a message or the admin of the website. You may contact her by Going to YOUR inbox, clicking on Send Message, scroll down to Admin, type your message in the square box, and clicking send.
Good luck.... Happy holidays and I wish the best to all.
Happy Early Thanksgiving.
your friend,
Michelle
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ITS A GIRL!!!!
Current mood:  hopeful
Category: Life
We've finally adjusted to the fact that the baby has finally been confirmed a girl. We did have our hopes up for a little boy, but now, we're excited about having a little girl. The girl is VERY healthy indeed and determined by ultrasound already weighs a womping 4 lbs, 3 ounces ... All from pregnancy accurations/estimates, the baby girl should come out weighing 8 1/2 lbs by the 1/2 a week thing by 3rd trimester expectations. In the beginning, keep in mind, I wasn't gaining very much weight during the pregnancy and now, I've been gaining non-stop, so possibly, the baby can come out weighing as we estimate 8 1/2 to 10 lbs. Indeed from estimates and how fast she's been growing, she will be a big girl!!! :)
During the ultrasound it was kinda funny. I couldn't stop laughing and said, "Uuuugh.. what was that? Was that her foot?!?!," pointing near my cord/belly button area and she said, "Yes, that was her foot." I smiled, "Yes, I thought it was, that's her favorite spot to kick me. If not that, then its the ribs, and sometimes she rests her head on my ribs which isn't too bad." The tech smiled and continued pointing out parts of the body (arms, legs, etc)., and I was so confused by all the parts and she had to go slow with me! It was hard for me to understand and read. The easiest part for me to read was her HEAD... wow, she has a big head! Oh... and you can't forget the nurse stating, so far she has 3 inch feet-- wow, we know whom she takes that after~ of course, mama here and her daddy both have BIG feet! Though, I smiled during the ultrasound asking Walt "What size feet do you have?," smiling, knowing he has bigger feet. He looked at me clueless of the insult and said "size 10". I smiled and said, "OH!, I have size 9 1/2, your feet are bigger, so she must take her feet after you." He gave me that look like "okay, shut up, your talking too much look".. It was funny as heck! I was holding my laughs in, trying to be still as possible on that hard ass examining table and smiling. We got a DVD, some ultrasound pics (haven't got them in the pc yet, but we will post when we get them up and running!) and the DVD is so cute, she keeps kicking me. Though.... kinda disappointing though in a way because I thought I'd see a sucking thumb thing, but the ultrasound is a harder to see one, so go figure. :)
Walter and I was watching the ultrasound DVD last night and with his keen eyes he saw our little girl clapping her hands together-- how cute! She must wanted us to turn more music on! We play music to her non-stop.
Our little girl is a night OWL and luckily, I got my sleeping patterns back on track, thinking it was all good, but then??? She kicks me ALL night, keeping me UP! I'm laying there with heartburn half the time (they say this indicates hair growing? Who knows?!?), and her kicking me non-stop in my stomach. I continue rocking, "Calm down girl!" Atleast now I know a gender, I'm not having a rage fit and going off the walls and can continue to buy nice clothes for her... and all that fun stuff! I'm so excited and thrilled, though in the beginning, I was crying up over a storm over the fact that they *thought* it was a girl, but once it was confirmed, I calmed down, adjusted, and knew that I'd love her no matter what gender and still WORRY non-stop as a Mother and never forget about her inside of me. She is a healthy girl and eats NON-stop and gives me heartburn and in the night, I have to get up and eat or else, she squirms around inside me like crazy as in "feed me mama" and its kinda funny, but the thought of going without eating or just trying to let the heartburn go away isn't a pleasant site and makes you feel like you gotta vomit. Even when I'm NOT hungry!! I have to get up and feed her. It kinda feels like she is already out of me and my own body and I'm feeding her only, though the food benefits me too. I eat twice as much which sometimes makes me think she gets half what I eat, since what I use to eat before being pregnant - for example 2 waffles would fill me up, now its 4 waffles .... Dang girl!!
Anyway...so its a girl...and I'm excited. I can't wait till she is born... yaaaah! Yahhh!! Everyone says get sleep NOW-- haha! I know its all worth it in the end. I'm a little nervous and scared about the planned C-section from my high anxiety levels and I'm dreading that part, though I know its all worth it and I'll never take it back, nor would I change my little girl for nothing.
AND.... last but not least--- we've ALREADY decided on a name!!!
GRACEE (pronounced GRACE-E)
Ann - My Mother's Middle Name
Cleveland- last name--will take after the father of child- Walter Cleveland-- of course, his last name!!
Let me know what YALL think!!
Thanks again for all the support!!
LOVE YALL!
Hugs,
Michelle
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Wednesday, September 26, 2007
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Child’s Benefit ... ~please help me~
Current mood: hopeful
Category: Goals, Plans, Hopes
Hello everyone,
Sorry to bother you all, but as you well know, I have a child on the way. My boyfriend and I have been struggling making 8 dollars an hour. As for Indiana state, 8 dollars an hour is considered below poverty level. I've applied for WIC (Women Infants and Children) which I have been accepted, but the wait list is a month as the lady in charge told me. With a small check of his from his current job, we struggle to buy gasoline for him to get to work and food and after that, we pretty much have no money left over to buy baby stuff. We have some baby stuff so far, but not much.
I was going to ask you all as Myspace friends, if you could join a website I'm on a referral basis thing. The website will give me one dollar for each member that signs up with accurate information and that doesn't use fake information.
I'm only asking this of everyone, mostly because you're my friends and I hope you aren't mad or upset. The website is totally free and from joining, the money will go toward the child's benefit. I promise I will not let you down. I hope you will not let me down in return. I hope you aren't mad at me for asking one small favor of you: to join a website, so I can receive money toward the child's benefit.
I promise to take pictures of items I buy with the money and put them titled "Child's Benefit" on my Myspace account.
Thanks for listening to what I've had to say. Please keep in touch and write back soon.. okay?
Michelle
http://www.rippedwallet.com/michellen2008 - make sure you join with michellen2008 on the end, so I can receive 1 dollar to go toward my account savings. Thank you!
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Wednesday, September 19, 2007
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Free sites, Free stuff!
Current mood:  bored
Category: Blogging
Do you ever get tired of websites that never send a check or gift card for hard work? Do you ever get tired of searching through piles of sites that are NOT legit?
Well, I've been bored over the few days, looking through emails and getting tired of junk mail. I'm tired of websites advertising and saying "free stuff," for surveys, when simply stated, *some just aren't free*.
As from my experience, here are some free sites that offer cash, gift cards, and other options. Now I'm going by my own experience with the websites from either receiving a check, gift card, so forth.
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http://www.rippedwallet.com/michellen2008
~ Received 1st check already.
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http://www.gather.com/inviteLanding.jsp?parentMemberId=351005&tc=12
~ Received a $50.00 Border gift card.. My boyfriend and I bought a few baby items at borders, a few videos for himself, and one video for myself. When I received the gift card I simply thought, *too good to be true*, but tried it out and it worked. I love this website for socialization mostly. Many parents are on there and very interesting people. It's sorta like Myspace, but instead you earn points and can redeem for a gift card. I always got tired of hearing *earn money on Myspace* when I never really heard how this is true.
~ Make sure you connect to me as a friend, too! ;)
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Mypoints.com - if you shop online, love polls, surveys, and earning points, this is definitely the website for you. Many people complain *well, what about Walmart of Target gift cards?* Well, as for this website, there are many options for gift cards from hotels, restaurants, stores (Walmart, Target, etc) and its just unlimited on the choices for gift cards. I chose something complete simple though: Burger King, since I have a craving while pregnant to eat at Burger King and Mc. Donalds. Oh...and for you Starbuck's lovers--they even offer Starbuck gift cards! ;)
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I hate how many websites require you to pay just to play games and earn money/rewards, but as for this website: it's totally free. You can check it out for yourself, if you do not believe me. You get points for playing games and you get lots of gift card choices such as Target and Walmart. I thought that was pretty cool, as my boyfriend loves Target and shopping for his video games. It drives me nuts when he's playing video games all night. Sighs.
http://www.netwinner.com/signupCode/michellen2008
After you join from the link above, please do not forget to confirm your email address.
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By the way ~ if you do not believe this is me or its some type of spam or another not legit posting, please feel free to email me (if you have my email address) or send me a message on Myspace personally.
Thanks again for listening everyone!
Take care all!
Michelle
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Friday, May 18, 2007
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Far Away....
Current mood:  ecstatic
Category: Music
Even though you're all probably far away from me or locally, and I never get to see you, I'd like to dedicate this song to all of you.. Read the lyrics closely..
Love you all,
Michelle
Nickelback Far Away
This time, This place
Misused, Mistakes
Too long too late
Who was I to make you wait
Just one chance
Just one breath
Just in case there's just one left
'Cause you know, you know, you know
[CHORUS]
I love you
I've loved you all along
I miss you
Been far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you'll be with me
and you'll never go
Stop breathing if
I don't see you anymore
On my knees, I'll ask
Last chance for one last dance
'Cause with you, I'd withstand
All of Hell to hold your hand
I'd give it all
I'd give for us
Give anything, but I won't give up
'Cause you know, you know, you know
[CHORUS]
That I love you
I loved you all along
And I miss you
Been far away for far too long
[Far Away lyrics on http://www.metrolyrics.com]
I keep dreaming you'll be with me
and you'd never go
Stop breathing if
I don't see you anymore
So far away
So far away
far away for far too long
So far away
So far away
far away for far too long
But you know, you know, you know
I wanted
I wanted you to stay
'Cause I needed
I need to hear you say
I love you
I loved you all along
And I forgive you
For being away for far too long
So keep breathing
'Cause I'm not leaving you anymore
Believe it
Hold on to me,and never let me go
Keep breathing
'Cause I'm not leaving you anymore
Believe it
hold on to me never let me go
Keep breathing
hold on to me, never let me go
Keep breathing
hold on to me, never let me go
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Monday, May 14, 2007
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Big Brothers / Big Sisters program...
Current mood:  excited
Category: Life
Hello everyone:
I'm thinking about volunteering for the Big Brothers/Big Sisters program for a child in need. I'm thinking about helping a child particularly with Autism or similar special needs. Would you recommend this program for any eager person, wanting to volunteer and help a child? Should I volunteer? Let me know what you think!
Thanks!
Michelle
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Finally got a vehicle!!!
Current mood: excited
Category: Life
My fiance and I finally got our own vehicle, a 4-door, black, 94 Jeep! It was a great bargain - only 2k, and also has a CD player. I cannot wait to get my driver's license, so I can also drive the vehicle, as well!
Thanks for listening yALL!
Love ya!
Michelle
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Some updates on my nieces....
Current mood: bored
Category: Life
Here are the updates on my two nieces:
May 14, 2007 updates:
So far, the father and Mother have both agreed to get joint custody of the children. Please keep my two nieces and their parents in your prayers! Thank you!
Sincerely,
Michelle
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Friday, April 13, 2007
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Plan On Adopting My Nieces - Can You Help???
Current mood: hopeful
Category: Goals, Plans, Hopes
http://a283.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/33/m_e4d56cfb156fd01d86952adf123576ea.jpg
Here above are pictures of my two nieces, Savannah and Adelyn.
Hello everyone:
Lawyer Agency: I Plan On Hiring : http://cohenandmalad.com/
Currently, I plan on getting a lawyer, taking the case to court, and getting full custodial rights and guardianship of my two nieces, Savannah and Adelyn.
Within this journey, I'd like to ask everyone for assistance, you can assist in the following ways:
° Making a contribution toward lawyer fees - (Any amount is welcome)
° Giving advice in a private message and/or on the blog board
° Having your church pray for my two nieces or pray individually for them
° Other
Evidence so far:
° Father has a neglectful nature (leaves children with Mother), in which neglects the children. The Mother has put the baby in a dog cage, catering her away from getting hurt, she stated, and let the oldest child fall down a flight of stairs without tending to her needs after she broke her chin. The Grandmother stated she was scared and that's why she didn't take the oldest child to the hospital. Therefore, she had a nurse come out to the home and glue her chin back on. If it was me in this case, I would have definitely have taken the child to the nearest hospital for her medical needs.
° Father has a violent history
° Sister is currently using drugs.
° Sister is being beat by a man she is dating outside the marriage. Found out through mother-n-law, in which she was visiting and saw fist marks on her body underneathe clothing attire.
° Man she is currently dating has a criminal record and is a child molester
° Sister is confused, staying up all night, and hasn't called her immediate family in 1-2 weeks. We're finding out evidence from other family members (in which are located closer to her).
° Other information, in which I'll mention privately in a private message.
I'd appreciate any assistance you can give, as lawyer fees are very expensive, I'd appreciate any help. Thank you!
Sincerely,
Michelle
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