Shitty deal
Category: Life

Yeah we all have them, but the cards that have been laid before me are making start to think about a lot of things in life. Like most of you know I'm heading off to Europe in a few weeks but is there really any thing keeping me from coming back? Yeah I have house's big woop (Andrea can go fuck herself), My tenants will find a new place to live and the state will take the houses back. My credit will be shot, but I can deal with that! My cat will find a new home, maybe. Damien, could really give two shits about me, just as long as he has someone to take care of him, he'll be happy. Which I'm sure that won't be hard for someone to do.  Then the people who care about me (not friends but people who want to be with me, so they say), I have a girl here that likes me but there's issues around every corner, either with me or her. Then I have a girl that has everything that I want in a person but yet I'm unsure if there's even anything there or is it all talk. I try and try but all that I do I go nowhere, 32 yrs. Old and wanting the life that I've dreamed of but obviously can never have. I call people… no answer. I text people… no answer.  What did I do? What did I say?... It doesn't matter… I fucked up. It must be time to move on. Because being to romantic scares people, being to giving only attracts users. A pretty face and a smile always gets me and I start doing stupid shit, hoping to make them happy, why, when they were already happy and it was me just trying to find my happiness but can never have it.  When will someone take the time to care about me and the choices I make and try and support me in then instead of tearing me a part. I guess never, so I should move on until someone does like me for me, and want to be with me!

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Wedsenday...
Current mood: creative

... I'll be going to Louis Benton Steak House for a meeting called Dinner & and a Geek. If anyone would like to go (and It's a FREE lunch) it will start at 11 a.m. and go till 3 p.m. All you have to do is sit there, be respectful, listen to what they have to say, and give you input and feed back of what you think about it or suggestions. Please let me know by tommarrow!!! So I can reserve you a spot. If you dont know about Louis Benton it is a five star restaurant, so you will have to dress nice. Here is there web address: http://www.louisbenton.com/

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what fuels me...
Current mood: excited
Category: Music

.... music ive said it time and time agian, i love music. my friend ryan post these types of things all the time and it nice to read what he think about movies/music/media ect. i feel i should let you know the top five albums that find to be a the top right now and it was hard to pic just five thats why there is a sixth one that had to one here too:

the first one would have to be Mindless Self Indulgance's Our Pain Your Gain. I picked this for the reason of it makes me feel like im at the show. I seen them once a long tim ago opening for Manson. I didnt know who they were but they sounded great and put on a very entertaining show. I was boucey to say the lease. the main reason why i havent got into them that much until now was, at the show during one of his songs he pulled his cock out. now i didnt need to see that but it didnt stop me from having a good time. then at the end of his set everyone started throwing money at him, it was great. the other reason is that their coming this June 20th to the Orbit Room, it will be another show to remember.




The second album on my list would be Advanced Electronics Vol.5. The person who put this togther is every intelligent musically. It has a very deverse group of bands and to me is considered and great learning album to see whats out there. If you get a chance to pick it up, its definatly worth it.




The thrid one would is the very talented Apoptygma Berzerk's Welcome to Earth. Romantic is the best way to discribe it. If you had a recent break up and need a good cry, this will do it, and mybe get him or her back, thats if you them back. The one quote in the begining of Moment of Tranquility when they ask "what do you fear most" "The posibility that love is not enough" gets me every time. when i listen to this album i reflect, and then move forward.




The fourth would happen to be Leaether Strip's Civil Disobedience. I have never been a fan of theirs but this brought the creepy goth back into me. I feel a little more sinister when i listen to it. Plus its got the hole Phantom of the Opera story to it love, hate, revenge, remorse and sarrow. Plus you dance to it, i'd stomp the hell out of the floor.




The last one was a toss up. One is new to me but yet i think ive heard them a long time ago and the other one is already tuning into a classic for me. The Birthday Massacre brings the suductive sound and voice, that only woman can do. It sort of reminds me of Mazzy Star that has taking a leason in Industrial Music 101.



Imperative Reaction's As We Fall has never failed me to think about my friends and what they mean to me. This album gives me goose bumps and get me up and makes me want to dance. Emotions are also what they bring to my table. Never Ending and Hang From Your Own Rope happen to be my favorites but they have so many more good songs. As most of you know. It brings me back to the days of Jukes and meeting the people that mean the most to me.



I hope you all take the time to check these out if you havent. They are the fuel for your soul.

X)

Currently listening : Northern Light By Covenant Release date: 2002-12-10

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2008
Current mood: confused

I was told at the beginning of the year that this would be a year to remember…. The person wasn't kidding about that. There's no way I ever forget how this one went down:

Broke off an engagement

Found someone I really cared about

Had my heart torn to different ends of the world

Met Death

Met new and interesting people

Graduating

Selling everything!

Vacationing in the Benelux and Germany

Moving far away

And the years not over yet….

Currently listening : Unicorn Release date: 2007-12-18

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Dethkolck
Current mood: sleepy
Category: Music

Holy crap i didnt think this band was real but it is and it's coming to cluch cargos and the house of blues. im so their, if anyone else would like to go let me know. it'll be a rockin good time. soilent green hehehe

DETHKLOK: THE DETHTOUR SUMMER 2008

Currently listening : Awake The Machines Volume 6 Release date: 2008-05-09

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Possuelos Whispers

…I regret the sins I have committed and then some. I regret, for doing that which I shouldn't have, I regret, having loved and lost, instead of never having loved at all. I regret, never going to school until now, putting his ass in the hospital, for not pursuing my dream of riding dirt bikes professionally, for doing 90 mph in a 70 mph and crashing my car. I regret, not kissing her one last time, for doing hurtful things when I knew it was wrong, for not buying a better pair of shoes. I regret, not traveling to another country until now, for not getting my car fixed, when I knew I could fix it, and for letting people rip me off. I regret, making people make tuff decisions, when it doesn't even matter, and for not getting up and going to work. I regret, having to write an I regret blog so long, for not knowing how to, for not being able to fix my computer. I regret, not trying harder in life and waiting so long for something to fall into my lap, doing drugs, for not using my legs instead of my back. I regret, not listening instead of speaking, peeing my pants when I got tickled to long, and for telling you that. I regret, not being at home to save my pets, not having ripped abs, for wait till tomorrow to do a sit-up. I regret, not supporting my brothers more to be pro-football players, for hitting that dove, for not conserving money better, for having those pictures, being a bad significant other. I regret, being depressed, not tossing his ass in the lake even if it meant I was going with, for crying for someone that didn't even matter to me, for asking questions that I shouldn't ask. I regret, punching my mom, moving in with her, and for not helping her more. I regret, not having a better family life, for writing this at work, for not being more nice to people. I regret, sending that email, writing that blog, and that I.M. I regret, not seeing it her way, just saying ok, and being patient. I regret, for cheating, beating, and for eating that soul. I regret, not having known what wealth is. I regret, for offending you, for not going to church, for not following the Ten Commandments, and for playing that Ouija board. I regret for not writing more, I regret so much more like living this life… until now… I have no more regrets… Thank you for hearing some of them. Bye

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locals be warned....

....not to get to pushy but on wednesday im going throughout my friends list and getting rid of the people with my ex's on their page. dont take it personal but i dont need any contact with the people who are friends/acquaintance /fuck buddy with my ex's. these people i speek of you all know who they are. so be my friend or hate me, just the same i've had it with liars,cheats, and people that just cant be trusted. i hope to keep you all but hey shit happens....

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Muskegon Center for the Arts

Follow this link or copy and paste to see whaty ive been up to, along with all the other million things i do:

http://blog.mlive.com/chronicle/2008/04/arts_center_will_buttress_new.html


if anyone in anyway is interested in helping us out feel free to say some thing to me. Thanks for the support

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heres a short one...

... i am so sick of seeing that duschbag ex of mine on all of my friends pages. Now you all know...

Viva La Kaligula

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Check out this event: Liquid Social Sin

Hosted By: George Komar II
When: Saturday Mar 15, 2008
at 8:00 PM
Where: McFadden’s
58 Ionia
Grand Rapids, MI 49503
United States
Description:
George Komar II

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there finally here a day late and a couple people short but i have the flyers so meet me at mulli’s or meanwhile tonight or just give me a call.

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