as yet untitled...unfinished
Current mood: tired

lost in a sea of tears....

how to transend the emptiness?

i close my  eyes and dream and

try to  put humpty-dumpty back together again

dreams drain the spirit if we dream too long....

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questions.....
Current mood: numb

how long do i cry, a minute....an hour?

how many tears fall, a dozen...a thousand?

tears, pieces of my  soul, flow like blood from my pierced heart.

how long do i  dream, childish dreams and starry  skies, of her and the dawn?

 how many  petals have fallen silently to the cold , cold ground....she loves me,

 she loves me not.

how long have i  written, how many  of my  words have fallen, unheard, onto cheap  parchment?

confusion, conflict, passion, burn inme like  cheap liquor.

myself made drunk by my own tears.

how long do i  cry, a minute... an hour?

it is funny how things in your life  can come and go so  easily....

flowers die....

time flies....

2 people can be blown apart  likle so much dust  in the wind......

it is said that the best things in life are free...

when u  lose that  thing, it becomes ....priceless

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be careful what u wish for.....
Current mood: ashamed
Category: Life

jus a reminder to be careful what  u wish  for, u jus might get  it, and then lose it to your own stupidity....

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where's the reset button?
Current mood: pessimistic
Category: Life

trapped, alone, floating, wearing water wings in a sea of uncertainty, cant move foreward, cant change the past...

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JUS A LIL' BIT ABOOT ME. . . . .
Current mood: cynical

JUS A LIL' BIT ABOUT ME...........

1. your name spelled backwards: leahcim
2. Name as it appears on your birth certificate: Michael Lawrence Russell
3. Nicknames: Mike, Miki, Prime, Lucifer
4. Parents' names: Annie and Michael
4.a Wwherewere your parents born? St. Louis, MO
5. Age: 34
6. Birthday: May 1st, 1970
7. What is your zodiac sign? Taurus
8. Pets: Calvin (I miss you! = ( ) Buster
9. Height: 6ft
10. Eye color: deep brown
11. Hair color: black/blonde
12. Piercing: 1 hole in each ear
13. Tattoos: yes, 4
14. Favorite color? Blue, black, purple, green
15. Birthplace: St. Louis, MO
16. Current residence: St. Louis, MO
17. Habits: Doing anything I’m told not to do
18. Been to Europe: I WISH!
19. Been toilet papering: not yet
20. Been toilet papered: nope, I’m loved too much
21. Loved somebody so much it made you cry: yes
22. Been in a car crash?: yea

23. Coffee or ice cream: ice cream
24. Blanket or stuffed animal: stuffed animal
25. Dumper or dumpee: dumpee
26. Salad dressing: Blu Cheese
27. Color of socks: white
28. Favorite No.: 69 dude!
29. Last vacation: Las Vegas
30. Movie: Fat Albert
31. Food: Asian
32. Day of the week: Saturday (cartoons)
33. TV Shows: Street Smarts, That 70’s Show, The Simpsons, Family Guy, Chapelle’s Show,…………………
34. Toothpaste: Mentadent
35. Restaurant: Athens Café (Greek)
36. Favorite flower: Orchid
37. Least favorite: baby’s breath
38. Sport to watch: Football (GO COWBOYS!!)
39. Fast Food Restaurant: White Castles
40. Favorite movies: waaaaaay too many to mention, but some are, GHOSTBUSTERS, Star Wars (all of them) X-Men, Spiderman, Jurassic Park (all of them), Meatballs, The Breakfast Club, Weird Science, A.I., Big Mamma’s House, Running Scared, Blazing Saddles, History of the World Part One, Debbie Does DallasJ…………………………..
41. Favorite foods? pizza
42. Favorite drink: midori sour
43. What color is your bedroom carpet? I have hardwood floors
44. Where do you see yourself in ten years? King of the world…(it’s good to be the King!)
45. Who is the last person you got e-mail from? El Rod
46. Which store would you choose to max your credit on? Fantasy Shop ( a comic book store)
47. What do you do when you're bored? Watch TV/read/surf the net
48. What words or phrases do you overuse? Dude, AT any rate
49. Friend who lives farthest away: Meri (Hawaii)
50. Most annoying thing? Bad phone manners
51. Best thing: Being with someone u care about and just being grateful for having them
52. Bed time: whenever i get ready
53. What book are you reading now? Strangers in Paradise
54. What's on your mouse pad? no mouse pad (optical mouse)
55. Favorite Board Game? Spin the pickle…
56. Favorite Magazine? WIZARD, Maxim, STUFF, FHM, Cine`scape
57a. Favorite smells? (on a woman) Clinique` Happy,(food) onions grilling

57b. Least favorite smells? burnt frozen pizza
58. Favorite sounds? Female orgasm
59. Worst feeling in the world? Losing someone u love, and knowing it was your fault

60. What is the first thing you think of when you wake up in the morning? Where's the snooze button!
61. How many rings before you answer the phone? Gotta check that caller ID first!
62. Child's name? Xi’al and Dayta (if I was ever gonna have any)
62a. How many kids do you want?: 2
63. What is most important in life? Love, friends, and family
64. Chocolate or Vanilla? Vanilla
65. Do you sleep with a stuffed animal? No, not lately
66. Storms, scary or cool? cool (awesome even, I would so be a storm chaser)

67. If you could have any job you wanted what would it be? Actor
68. If you could dye your hair any color, what would it be? I do, and blonde
69. Ever been in love? Yeah
70. Is the glass half empty or half full? Depends on my mood
71. What's under your bed?girly mags, handcuffs, Shoes, dust bunnies from hell!

72. Favorite sport to watch? Football
73. If you could meet one person in the world, who would it be? Myself as a teenager
74. Would you prefer being a multi-millionaire or find true love? love(i know, i am a sick man for saying that)
75. What is the last thing you downloaded onto your computer? Porn..lol kidding
76. If you could change one thing in your life right now, what would it be? I, would be a rich bastard

77. Last time you swam in a pool?: Summmmertime=)~
78. Have you ever been in a school play? Yes
79. Do you have the innate desire to do good? I'm Good When I’ m bad… I’m good!
80. Ever prank call anybody? Hell Yeah! Shhh dont tell!
81. Ever get a parking ticket?yes
82. Furthest place you ever traveled?! The moon
83. Where I've Visted:, Chicago, , Kansas City, , Las Vegas, Detroit, Kentucky, Alabama, Pennsylvania
4.What's your favorite comic strip? Fox Trot
85. Do you really know all the words to your national anthem? Yes
86.Favorite pizza topping? Pepperoni
87. Chips or popcorn? Chips (salt&vineagar)
88. What color lipstick do you usually wear? Quartz Rose when I amfeeling really saucy!!….lol...okay that was a joke
89. Have you ever smoked peanut shells? Is this a trick question..? (of course ……………………not)
90. Orange Juice or Apple? Apple
91. Do you believe in love at first sight? Yes
92. Ever call a 1-900 number? Yes, yes, oh baby yes!!
93. Can exes be friends? Yes(sometimes best friends)
94.What message is on your answering machine? Call me and find out
95. What's your all time favorite Saturday Night Live Character Bill Murray as the lounge lizard, Dana Carvey as the Church Lady?
96. What was the name of your first pet? Shawn
97.What is in your purse: duh?
98. Favorite thing to do before bedtime? Psst I'll tell ya later before we go to bed!

99. How old were you when you lost your virginity: 15
100. What time is it now? 1:40Am
101.Fav talk show host: David Letterman
102.Least Fave talk show host: Rikki Lake
103.Radio? Am/fm/xm: fm
104.Baths or showers: showers
105.Cheesecake or apple pie: apple pie
106.Beer or mixed drink: mixed drink
107.surfboard or sk8tboard: both

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