quotes.

nothing worth having is ever easy. like everyone i know is trying to find happiness and is struggling because in the end its so totally worth it. but i kinda think that it just happens when youre not looking for it. i've recapped my life, and thats pretty much hows its gone down.

just me finally being ok with what i've done. and whether or not my situations changed, my outlook does. i'm just a really simple person in that way. i know that.

also: the more i work, the happier i am. i've been really content because i've been making things that arent really ugly. even if they are mostly just cups. its probally why i like school so much. because i have to work so much. i like that and don't want to loose that but at the same time i want to move. its not that i hate rock hill, its just that i've been here for so long now i feel like its time for a change. but i can't leave for another year. i want to live some place where everybodys happy to be there. i'm probally naive for thinking there is such a place.

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well. then.

Everything this summer as just fallen through, and it makes me think that i need to do some reevaluations. and when i say everything, i pretty much mean that.

maybe i should really be worrying about these things, but right now all i can think about it how i left out part of my morning routine and i want to walk back to my house to complete it before i have to go to work.

i hate what happened, for many reasons.

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noted for a rainy day

dannielle-
which class?
A NEW ONE
yeah jeez. arth 175
eefff this esss.
whats this
is karen stock ur teach
this as in ur class


me-
no ma'am i wish. some fat lady with blonde hair.
dannille-fuck that
drop it
no better yet
drop kick it

me-i sit next to a black guy from the middle east
i think he likes me

dannille-niiiiice
me-no stanks

dannielle-i like middle easterners

me-hahahha
me too

dannielle-oooh you mean LIIIKES YOU
here's a new rule
if we're talking about crush, we say lykes
with a y
if we're talking about anything else, we say likes

me-yes.
ok so





dannielle-
ingrid michealson is so amazing
she covered 'creep'
hhhahaha she also covered umbrella
when
cuz maria taylor did that and a bunch of ppl said it was her for a while

me-idk
sry

dannielle-no
no no
it's not your fault
it's the fault of a flawed society
IIII love you

me-
heehe i love you too

dannielle-
i just took a pic of myself while talking to you
and
it's gonabe muh new m-space pic

me-
i'm currently reading your surv
good call

dannielle-
it's prety devoid of anything interesting
no

me-
What do you smell like right now?
jillians dad

dannielle-
touche

me-
hahahahhahhahah your hair

dannielle-
it's tru ain't it

me-
no words
ur still pretty.

dannielle-
if'n u said anything i didn't see it

me-
i just said 'ur still pretty' and add ur internetz suck

dannielle-
hahaha
i know. it's so trooo

me-
hahahahhaha you agreed
hahah

dannielle-
wait.
i was agreeing to interntz
but.
i mean.
i'm kinnna prety

me-
niice homefag

dannielle-
think u

me-
np

dannielle-
i get away with saying so much shit that other people just couldn't get away with ya know?

me-
you really do. i would get really mad if other people called me the names you do

dannielle-
like. hilary just txtd me and said 'i can take your friday shift if you still need' and i said 'kristin already said she would, but go down there and fight her for it, i'll bring the jello and video camera'
awww. ur cute butt bubble

me-
hahahhahahahahhahahha ahhahaha
oh man that was good

dannielle-
thank you !
i thought so too
...she hasn't responded
haha

me-
she can't decide

dannielle-
haha. i know. she's feeling weird in a good way

me-
like. maybe i wont have another chance to do this.

dannielle-
HAHAHA
it's so tru
she's probably looking around for someone to ask
but no ones there
so she's like biting her bottom lip and squinting her eyes
trying to decide what her boyfriend would say

me-
she cant decide on her own. call bffe.

dannielle-
bffe is intrigued, they threeway other bffe
others want it. this could be big.
a crowd starts to form at dollop

me-
phil starts cover charge

dannielle-
meanwhile kristin, who's working right now, is just confused b/c no one's explained ANYTHIGN to her
hahah

me-
poor kristin, she was going to change her mind anyway.

dannielle-
haha
oh lyfe

me-
is that kind of like lyke

dannielle-
it's crush life
i dont know. i just said that
imma pee

hilary responded

me-
she said yes?

dannielle-
she said 'meh meh meh i don't need it that bad..but if there was going to be a girlfight i hope i know who you'd bet your rent on'

me-
way to dissapoint hil.

dannielle-
hahah
right?

me-
ryte.

dannielle-
hahaha

me-
noone wants to eat

dannielle-
yea. sorry i just ate

me-
wtf. ur supposed to be my bffe
christ

dannielle-
i told hilary i wanted to see her jello wrestle

me-
omg me too

dannielle-
jeez. she is REALLY hot

me-
agreed

dannielle-
gud.

me-
can we arrange that when i git there

dannielle-
probably
she's adventurous

me-
omg. that's awesom e
and i'll jello fight with her

dannielle-
i'll just watch
and take pix
yes. and touch myself
ew.
but probably

me-
hahahahhahahahahhaHAHAHHAH
that was really good

dannielle-
hah.
thanks

me-
i should save this convo for if i get sad

dannielle-
haha. i think so to
i've been pretty on it
plus. the idea of hilary covered in jello
and wrestling another hot girl
preferably my teacher
omg. i just jizzed myself.

me-
and in the middle of dollop. we could drink coffee.
sip.

dannielle-
haha .it would be so poetic

me-
almost worth actually planning

dannielle-
hahah i'll work on it

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i’m skurrdd

i'm gonna loose it. whatever it is that i've got right now thats making everything great for me. like i'm just waiting for it to peace out.

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ideas.

I don’t want to be your friend
I just want to be your lover
No matter how it ends
No matter how it starts


ok for real this time. i feel like my art work is starting to reflect how together i am. blaghaksjgdhasjgldjfkajfldksaj. I’m so stuck its not even funny. I talked to mayrtika last night and all he said was look up phyllotaxy. i don’t understand how that applies to my work. i dont understand how anything applies to anything. my life has been pretty great other than a few things, which is pretty darn good for me. but i think i’m letting my personal life seep into and distract me from some important things like school.

ok i’m done complaining about little things in my life that will work itself out slash i will figure out.



Forget about your house of cards
And I’ll do mine
Forget about your house of cards
And I’ll do mine

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dannielle

said i should blog. that it would help my artist block.


heres what i feel:

.




that there is the problem.

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even tonight

i feel like i can do a lot better right now.
-with like, communicating the hard stuff
-eating and sleeping at set times.
-not trying to hurt you. i should just make that effort.
-i really feel like i'm not a good friend to you. bc of who i like. i feel bad for feeling.


"you are all i need
you are all i need
i'm in the middle of the picture
lying in the leaves"

radiohead what does that even mean? are you trying to say that theres one person that can meet your every emotional and physical need? get on that. i dont believe thats possible. theres always going to be lacking. i hate to sound like neg.

but later on "it's all right
it's all wrong
it's all right
it's all wrong
it's all right
it's all wrong
it's all right"

-i'm glad i'm not the only one thats confused about things. thats just how i'm taking it right now.

debbie says i'm easily amused.

i feel like theres more to life than the things that i've been experiencing. i feel like i'm missing out on something.

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learning.

Learn:

-to treat people better. i realize that taking people for granted it something that cant be helped. something you cant really see until someone points it out. so let me know.
-i havent until recently how many times of the day i say the word "I". am i droning on about myself? am i missing the bigger picture really? tell me when i get old.
-there are just some people that i try my hardest not to get to know. and by flipping them off and giving out insults freely. i think its taken the wrong way though.
-i just finished watching coyote ugly with allison. i feel completed.
-i really wish that i had more time in the day so i could spend it with more people. i find that i'm losing people from my life. i dont like that. i want to be there.
-i just made a mixed cd. i hope you like it. yous? ok so i cheated and made it for allison too.
- breakfast in the morning sounds great.


<3 a.

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list of things to do

print out my art history paper. it sucks anyway.

get ready for foundations review.

and spec review.

finish commision work

eat sleep breathe....repeat.

1st gallery opening tonight. its nothing big but i'm really happy about it.

my doctor says that youre right about the whole knowing but not knowing thing. smart girl.

i hope things slow down soon.

i'm really glad woodstock and jason liked my mugs.

i hope things slow down soon.

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alskdjgoafjdl booo

TEN things you wish you could say to TEN different people right now:

1. i love it that i'm the only one you can call when youre upset
2. you love me you hate me. you love to hate me.
3. i'm getting too attatched to you and it makes me feel uncomfortable.
4. i've gotta break through your wall.
5. oh you know how to handle me.
6. i really cant stand you, i wish you would stop taking ceramic classes. youre not even an art major.
7. i didnt like you at all. our first words were fightin words but i guessgood things happened.
8. i wish i had more time in the day so i could spend some with you little red.
9. getting close to you has been a nightmare.
10. you completely abandoned me in my time of need, but i still want to be friends.

NINE things about yourself:

1. i have 3-d moles
2. i love the night time.
3. i love LOVE ceramics. i know i'm a dork.
4. i'm a scared little girl.
5. i like getting to know people.
6. my life is nuttssss.
7. i love kissing.
8. i dont want to listen to music as much as i usually do.
9. i know my parents are proud of me.

EIGHT ways to win your heart:

1. small affections.
2. make me comfortable
3. give give give. not to me.
4. not make fun of me.
5. sing me something beautiful
6. praise my work
7. show me some of yours
8. be understanding.

SEVEN things that cross your mind a lot:

1. my irritable nose.
2. ceramics
3. my future.
4. some things like melted butter.
5. food
6. time
7. time time time.

SIX things you wish you never did:

1. let that person into my heart.
2. gotten sick.
3. picked my nose in sixth grade.
4. wished i wasnt different
5. ate hamster feed.
6. stayed up til four when i have to be up in a few hours.

FIVE turn offs:

1.being close minded.
2. judging.
3. easy people.
4. cocky people.
5. being aggressive.

FOUR turn ons:.

1. good smile.
2. confidence.
3. smarts
4. good lookings.

THREE smileys that describe your life:

1. :)
2. =]]]
3. ^_^

TWO things you want to do before you die:
1. ride an elephant.
2. save someone.


ONE confession:
1. i really do like you

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