Death of a cell phone

To all of you whom have attempted to call me or leave me messages, I am sorry to report that my phone has been destroyed by an adorable yet powerful force known only as boog. For those of you who have James' cell phone number, you will sometimes be able to reach me there...if we are around each other. Otherwise I hope to get a new phone within the next two days. Of course, you can always message me here or call me at work should you need me. Yay Boog.

12:12 AM - 89 Comments - 0 Kudos - Add Comment

Whoa, and damn.

I just can't explain it....I'm a different version of me. I'm not unhappy, but I'm certainly not the person I use to be...and I know motherhood has had something to do with that-and I wouldn't change it for the world...but I look at what I'd like to think of as my alternate life right now..someone very close to me, my age, etc. etc. and I see all the things I would be doing.......and reflectively....I don't know how to feel. I try to picture myself in those situations, and I see myself feeling anxious and introverted...and thats just so strange...I use to be the life of the party, the one who'd get things going, up and at em' and all that jazz.....I've aged. I miss it, but wouldn't know how to act if I was a part of it.

 I'm not a wallflower, but I think my fire is gone.

5:36 PM - 89 Comments - 4 Kudos - Add Comment

True love, affirmed.
Current mood: indescribable

There has consistantly been a man, who pops in and out of my life from time to time, who I've loved for years. Once again, with his awful timing, he comes round again today. Promises of love, and all the happiness I could shake a stick at, I turned my head, for the first time ever. If there was ever a doubt in my mind about how earth shakingly, inhumanly, in love with James I am, it has now cleared. No man has ever been able to overcome the power this previous man has held over me for years. Today, the impossible is possible. I feel liberated, in love, and amazing. My heart feels like it could explode any minute. A type of euphoric feeling rushes over me as I write this...an emotional orgasm, if you will. I feel a bit sorry for him, because he will now have to feel like I have felt for a painfully long amount of time, until he finds the person who makes him feel like James makes me feel. I only hope he finds her soon. At the same time, I can't help but feel gratified, as my pain was not in vain. So I apologize for not being a maid in waiting.....scratch that. I don't apologize...I will embrace this feeling, and wish you the best.

Currently listening : Boys for Pele By Tori Amos Release date: 23 January, 1996

4:40 PM - 89 Comments - 4 Kudos - Add Comment

Final Fantasy? Yes please.
Current mood: giggly

So yeah, I went to Chicago this weekend, and except for the fucking airports and the Hilton, and I had an AMAZING trip. I saw the Chicagoland Pops Orchestra perform the Music from Final Fantasy....and it was THE SHIT. Hands down the best concert I've EVAR been to. We had VIP seats, and the man himself, Nobuo Uematsu the composer of all awesome Final Fantasy music was there. Not only was he there, but he sat BEHIND me. I had better tickets than him. WHOA. After the show I got to meet him, and he signed my shirt in Japanese. HOW FUCKING AWESOME IS THAT?!?!?!?! Can I just take a moment to say how cool I am now? Thanks. Everything was great, especially my boyfriend. I'd go as far to say that he was more awesome the whole time there than the concert. Your teeth hurt yet? Haha....It was all in all one of the best weekends of my life.

12:53 AM - 89 Comments - 2 Kudos - Add Comment