overlooked
Current mood: creative
Category: Writing and Poetry

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What Lies Beneath
Current mood: cold
Category: Writing and Poetry

I                                                                                               I

AM                                                                                  AM

ALL                                                                               ALL

YOUR                                                                       YOUR

FEARS                                                                    TEARS

FEEDING ON YOUR WEEPING THROUGH NIGHT'S CONSTANT SEEPING

         LEADING THE ENDLESS          GRIEVING         YOU INSIST ON WEAVING

ORCHESTRATING THE PARADE THAT EXPOSES YOUR CHARADES

LIVING BESIDE AND CAUSING

THE DIVIDE THAT REFUSES

TO SUBSIDE,      I AM

THE DEVIL INSIDE

YOU DENY,

THAT

IS

I

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Lessons
Current mood: creative
Category: Writing and Poetry

F

A

L

L

I

N

G

Are the pictures

From broken frames

And it is sinking in

H

A

N

G

I

N

G

In this place of

Shadowed cobwebs

And it is more than I can stand

D

R

O

P

P

I

N

G

Are the tear drops

Unlit are your eyes of blue

And death holds your hand

C

O

L

L

A

P

S

I

N

G

Into a nightmare of

Another place, another time

And it cannot be escaped

D

E

S

C

E

N

D

I

N

G

From a summit of

Loss and agony

And it has left me stranded

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5 Minutes with Nikki Sixx
Current mood: happy
Category: Writing and Poetry

10/13/07
It's SIX(X) AM and the alarm is ringing. Seems like a sin to get a wakeup call this early on Saturday but today is special. My number one hero is in town today for a book signing. Nikki Sixx of the legendary Motley Crue is signing his book, The Heroin Diaries, at the B & N five minutes from my apartment.

Motley and Nikki in particular, have been my truest and steadfast friends since 1983 when I sneaked to their concert with some of the older kids from my church. The moment the lights went down my life changed forever. Nikki came out pounding on that bass and the energy ripped through my body like a bullet. Any Motley fan that has ever seen them in concert will tell you the same thing; once you have seen them live they become a constant in your life.

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Growing up in Florida with little support or direction was tough. There were never any jobs that would lead to anything but a dead end. Sure, I had plenty of drugs, friends, and girls but partying in the 80's was a way of life not just something to do. I never took too much shit from anyone because Nikki Sixx said I didn't have too. I took those words to heart and still live by them this very day. Nikki Sixx told me I was ok when everyone else told me I wasn't. Nikki Sixx told me he would be there for me and he was every time through his music, his attitude, and his life choices. He didn't want me to emulate him. He wanted me to be myself and never compromise.

Sure Nikki went through his fucked up childhood, addictions, divorces, arrests, OD's, band turmoil, and was not recognized for the true talent he is. The difference between Sixx and most others is that he didn't let any of that stop him and he NEVER compromised his true heart. I have also been addicted, divorced, hurt and sometimes cursed. Nikki was a big part of the reason I made it through those messed up, out of control times. I will never be able to thank him enough.

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I waited with my wife Molly (my other hero) from six thirty AM until nine AM to get the bracelets for a guaranteed signature. You want to know the best side effect of Motley Crue? The answer is short and simple, the fans. I have never been to any Motley event, one of their tours, solo or otherwise, where the fans weren't the coolest people you will ever meet. We all share something non fans can't understand. There is camaraderie there, and it doesn't matter if you're light or heavy, short or tall, hot or not. We all get along because we all understand. You always know a true fan when you meet one, they have a look about them and you go, "oh yeah, that's a real fan. I can smell it".

After a chilly wait in line for a couple hours and some super cool conversations with true Crue-heads, we got the magic bracelets! We could've waited in line right away to get signed but my kids, the terror twins Zack and Alex, had a soccer game. We jetted to the game (which we won!) and had a great time! Grabbed some lunch after and we were back to B & N by eleven thirty AM. Mr. Sixx was supposed to be there at one PM so we chilled and talked to all the other folks. Everyone has a different Motley story and it is incredibly cool to hear them all. One fan, a cop, brought one of Nikki's smashed up bass guitars to get it signed. Nikki had handed it to him personally at a show on his birthday. It doesn't get too much cooler than that.

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At about five minutes after one Nikki fucking Sixx stepped out the offices. We all stepped up for pictures and being who he is, Nikki stopped and gave us the chance. He saw a familiar face and offered her a hug, shook hands for a moment then escaped into the elevator to go downstairs for some quick press. He looked great and you knew for sure he appreciated all the fan support.

He was back upstairs about fifteen minutes later and that's when the real wait began. The next hour and half in line was totally worth waiting in. It was humbling to watch a rock god interacting with fans that ranged in age from 2 to 72. It must feel awesome to have that kind of appeal to such a variety of people from all walks of life.

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The closer we got to our turn up in front the more nervous I got. My hands were sweating and my heart was beating fast. What do you say to your idol that hasn't been said already? You know that man has heard it all and I, for one, did not want to walk up to Mr. Sixx and say something stupid like, "wow you rock" or some shit.

I am so glad my wife and life partner, Molly, was there with me. She is my muse and inspiration and sharing that day with anyone else would have made it a little less special. She is a newly converted Nikki Sixx fan and she gave me a very fresh perspective on the whole thing. Seeing everything through her pretty blue eyes added something indescribable to the whole experience.

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The time finally came and we stepped up. Nikki was speaking to his press guy and I just stood there in awe. There he was, right in front of me. I had seen this guy in concert like 15 times. He had put a guitar pick into my hand at one show and that, up to now, had been the coolest thing ever! This may sound corny but it really was a dream come true to meet this dude.

He turned back saw me and Molly standing there and he smiled and said, "I'm back". We had filled out Post It's earlier with the personalization's we wanted and he looked at them and asked me who Zack and Alex were. I told they were my twin sons and they had really wanted to come but couldn't. He said he loved kids and went ahead signed my boys CD inserts. Moving to the next Post It personalization he asked if we were Steve and Molly. Molly told him yes we were and he added the word "LOVE" to the signature. Too fucking cool!

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We spoke about the show he had handed me the picks at (I had put a little 10 year old girl named Storm on my shoulder at that show and Nikki and Vince kept coming over the stacks to wave at her. At the end Nikki handed me the picks.) and he said again he loves seeing young kids at the shows. After he was done signing I asked him if he mind signing my arm. He said "sure, I bet I know where you're going next" I said "hell ya I am! Straight to the tattoo shop!"

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As I walked away I was left with this impression: Nikki Sixx is the most gracious person I have ever met. He never once acted like the stereo-typical rock star asshole. He took his time with each fan and I think every one of us walked away feeling like we were not just one or two of 1000 or so people waiting for an autograph. We left feeling like Nikki would have treated us the same if we were the only ones that had shown up. That is a testament to Nikki's credibility and validates his affirmation that the fans are the most important thing to him.

I was still jazzed when I got to the tattoo shop. I sat with the artist for a few minutes and told him the story. He was totally psyched to know he would be tattooing right over Nikki Sixx's actual autograph on my arm. We added the Shout at the Devil Pentagram underneath and it made it totally unique and the coolest fucking Crue tattoo anyone could ever have.


Could there be a more perfect day?

(check out the pics on my page)

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The Melting
Current mood: content
Category: Writing and Poetry

Time

M

    E

       L

          T

              S

Away

Watching it trickle

Unmindful

We

While the days

Sleep the nights

Away

Granting death's approach

No purging the inevitable

We

Swing from thread

Affixed to precipice ledge

Away

We

Go

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After Life
Current mood: content
Category: Writing and Poetry

If I were to say, my world

Would end this very day

Would your love remain sincere,

Remembering a past, not so clear

As melting time stills the start

For this, my hesitant ashtray heart

Nothing left but remembered regrets

Eyes closing weakly as death besets

Memories of life's exacting toll

Blacken already darkened soul

Suddenly, light falls upon me

Radiance of purity, no others see

Shining so brightly it burns

Fear of this new reality returns

Falling onto beggar's knees

Wishing to end this nightmare dream

Evoked through the mind's acidity

A place in hell is my eternity

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