To most people it's just Monday AM, but to my family it's a rough day. I stared writing this early so I can still see thru the tears. My brother and the entire "Battle group of Enduring Freedom" left at 0700 hours. There's 8 ships in his group and over 5000 sailors just on his carrier. He's going for his 3rd deployment to Iraq. It's a long tour, he hopes to be back by the end of April '09. It's his job, it's his life but it still scares us and hurts us just the same. He's leaving his wife and 3 kids,my family and my parents. We all said our Goodbyes on Saturday night, so he could dedicate his last day to his family. I don't know who hurts worse us or him, but i don't think the leval of pain can be measured. My brother "Chucklehead" as i call him, (he kindly refers to me as Crackhead) but now I guess it's Senior Chief Chucklehead, is my younger brother. It's always been us 2, and I have always had his back. I've looked out for him, babysat him from the moment he was born.. I bailed him out and taught him a few tricks or two. I taught him to play quarters, took him to his first bar, all the things a good sister would do. i got my first credit card so he could have a pair of Cavarecci jeans, and a "real" Member's only jacket. He was a hit in school. He's always been a clothes horse, like he just stepped out of GQ. His wife too, they could do a cover of town and country almost any day. She actually lived with me until they got married. I paid for their honeymoon. They had a week before my brother left for basic. He just couldn't leave her, so he married her. My brother has a real sick sense of humor, he can always mae me laugh harder than anyone and nothing is sacred. He will go anywhere with humor, sort of an equal opportunity offender. But I can do that too as some of you may know. I send my brother a Kwanza card every year. He loves the looks he gets from visitors as he always has it placed prominently..We have so many inside jokes, we make the other burst into giggles with just a well placed word. I can't watch Willy Wonka without thnking of him. When I was sick he sang me the OOmpa Loopa song. We have also used those words to "Blackmail" each other by not telling the story of the word., and that's usually him blackmailing me, I never get caught. He always did and I was always there to laugh. Now he's grown up and I'm real proud of him, but we still love to tease. He's a Dad of three of the geatest kids, 2 of which I just had on vacation (the 3rd guy is too young for me to deal) Military family's all over have it hard, Daddy will miss everything this year, except the youngest's B' day. Everything else including Xmas, NY and valentine's day his wife goes it alone. All the birthdays, and thier anniversery will be without him. She's a good wife, and like a sister to me. Sometimes I'm in awe of how well she manages. But she is the best thing that ever happened to my brother. I love them all and know how they hurt, Please GOD let this end soon and bring them all back safe. I love you Chucklehead. Stay safe,kick ass and hurry home!!
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American Patriot
By
Lee Greenwood
Release date: 2007-06-19
Love in an Elevator
Current mood: amused
Category: Blogging
Today I went to the Dr. like normal, no big deal. I have to go to the 17th floor, so i push the button and have to wait for an elevator...it opens and there he is!! Crying his eyes out, his name is Brian and he was so scared and so lost. I knelt down to talk to him and he came right into my arms. I wiped his nose and calmed hm down. He was so glad to see me, I asked him who he came with, and he said Daddy. I asked if he knew what floor Daddy was on, he didn't.. I asked what Daddy's name was, and He said "Daddy" . Duh...like i should have known that. So me and my new friend get into the elevator and since 17 is the top, i press every button going down till we find Daddy. At floor number 10, the door opens....there he is!! He's big, he's mad and he's Daddy!!My little buddy squeezes my hand tighter and tries to shrink behind me. I wanted to shrink too, Damn Daddy was a big mad man!! He gets on the elevator thanks me and tells my buddy you wait til we get off here, young man. Yikes, even I was scared!! But when we got off he told the boy he hoped he learned a lesson and he Thanked me. The little dude just looked at me sadly as Daddy took him by the arm out the door. I waved too him and hope his spanking wasn't too bad. So for today, Karma .....Sugar Free 1, everyone else 0
BTW This is my 99th blog, about my third ne a guy came on here and told me I had no business blogging that I wasn't deep or meaningful. I was "Erma Bombeck on crack" I thanked him and sent him a subscription offer!! LMAO I do have something special for my 100th so after you leave me a comment remember to look for my blog on Monday AM. Until then, I'll have to go score more crack!!!
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Big Ones
By
Aerosmith
Release date: 1994-11-01
Why is labor day a Holiday..and for whom??
Current mood: okay
Category: Life
Today'supposed to be a holiday, but to me it just mean it's time to pack away my white shoes. My family is working, even though I think the idea of "Labor Day" is that you celebrate the fact that you have a job anymore. But not here, my guys are givers, care givers in the medical field. Hospitals don't close, people don't stop getting sick...Hell even the mall is open. The grocery store is open, the gas stations are open. So how do you celebrate a day that you have to work on?? My husbands floor, all brought in food for a party. I know, I spent hours yesterday chopping everything for 5 lbs. of an awesome pasta salad, the special kind with pepperoni and cheese, loaded with fresh veggies. My son just works like it's any other day. I know we can't just shut the country down, it will never happen. So if you are out and about, and see someone working. Make their day nice, thank them and remember they are there for you. So what are you doing today??
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Working Class Dog
By
Rick Springfield
Release date: 2006-07-25
Oh my God, I wish I sounded like that when I sing...actually so does everyone around me. I love Amy Lee's voice!! Well, if you are reading this, I am writing this on my NEW laptop!!! Yea!!! Yippee!!! I"M BACK!!! and I missed you, and you, and even you!!! I am soited, i havn't blogged in so long, since I was borrowing and didn't know when i'd be able to respond. Many many thanks to my son for this fabulous gift. I can now put my pennies back in the jar!! I have so much to do, set up my IPOD, my Limewire, I have a list of songs i HAVE to download. I also have an entire page of new blogs to read, I feel like I have so much to catch up on. Please have patience with me, I also have my family home. I want to know everything I missed so feel free to message me about a blog you wrote, what's going on with who, and who's doing who. I hate being the last to know. Now don't think I took this break and was frivilous, I used it to work on my tan and I have finally reached the degree of darkness that when I was sitting on the boardwalk and saw this gentleman staring at me (like do you blame him LOL) I batted my eyes and tuened away, the nest thing i know, he appeared in front of me asking directions to someplace in SPANISH!! I don't speak spanish, I'm italian, just very dark because I been living at the shore. Oh Dear Lord!! It was too funny!! I really have missed alot of you, I can't wait to catch up and I just hope noone forgot about me while I was gone!! MUCH LOVE
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Black Butterfly
By
Buckcherry
Release date: 2008-09-16
The Party’s over and I almost snorted Barney Rubble!!
Current mood: satisfied
Category: Life
Vacation is over, the kids went home yesterday and I'm so exhausted. Because we only get to do this each summer they really try to squeeze every minute into a day. I swear they train like athletes, to see how quick they can make me yell "Time out, I need a break!!! I am sunburnt, broke and exhausted. We spent a few nights staying in the Trump Plaza, these kids had never been in a hotel...they were so quick to remember the number to dial for room service and wakeup calls. Why we got wake up calls was beyond me, they were up sitting by the phone waiting to answer it. Because we were all in one big room with 2 beds. They considered it a slumber party and jumping on the bed and hitting aunt A with a pillow was part of it as I prayed for valium. (Not for me, but for them) We look like crispy critters, we are dark brown, with pink cheeks, we have sand in our shoes and smiles on our faces. We rode the waves.. we swam and dove. They used me as their own personal boogie board. It was fun!!But I have paid my price. I can barely walk, but there was also wrestling to go to, we saw Batman ( In IMAX) it was freaking awesome. We went to the franklin Insititute and they walked thru the heart and we saw thr pirate exhibit. I made them their own CDs on my omputer i let them pick the songs from my playlist. My 8 yr old niece picked Ozzy, the Plain white tees and Avril, my nephew picked Ozzy, ACDC, Metallica, and Slayer. Their mom's gonna love me. Ever morning i gave them their Flinstone vitamins, After day 3 I decided they had to have speed in them, day 4 I ate 5. By Day 7 I was ready to snort Barnry Rubble and refused them their vitamins hoping to weaken them. What a fool I am, snorting Barney dosn't work and kids without vitamins still don't sleep. We saw a magic show, we saw Aluminum, we went o Steel Pier, (Home of the diving horses) They aren't there anymore. I won in mini golf!! I rock the windmill baby!! BTW The one good/bad thing happened ....they learned alot of new curse words and I learned not to curse. I love those kids, and know if i didn't take them anywhere...they'd still love me because we have so much love and really work to understand each other. I listen to their stories and I tell them stories. I make up some of the craziest sories and we laugh so hard. It's the best sound I've ever heard. I love listening to them giggle, that makes all this WORTHWHILE!!!
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Closer to the Sun
By
Slightly Stoopid
Release date: 2005-04-19
Vacation time
Current mood: curious
Category: Life
My brother's two kids are coming to town tonight,,,I'll only have them this year for week, normally i have them for 2. We will be staying a few nights down the Jersey shore, soaking up the sun, swimming and then boardwalks, rides and ice cream cones every night!! I save all year so I can treat them to all this fun. it's hard timing this year as my nephew was chosen by Operation Purple, a group that treats kids who have a parent deployed, to a week of summer camp. It's a great break for him, his Dad is away now and in September he'll be going back to Iraq intil April. It's a long time being away and after a few months of being home he'll be stationed in Packistan for a year. He got a great promotion but he sure had to make sacrifices. They don't have enough people so rotation is alot quicker. So if you are looking for me next week, i'll be popping on and off to check messages. Today I went to Philly, a man stopped me and asked for change, he wasn't a bum or nothing he just needed a quarter more for the train...i gave him a dollar no biggie. If I needed help I hope someone would do for me. Good Karma anyway...but then I startted thinking, between groceries, gas, and property taxes things are getting tight. I may be out there asking for money for my mani and pedi. Prices are rising, my stocks are dropping and I know when they say people who are on a fixed income, you think of old people eating cat food. I recieve medicare, as I'm permanently disabled Seriously is it just me or are things not stretching as far as they used to. I'm not trying to make this a polical rant, hell i can't decide who I'm even voting for yet. Neither party seems to suit me. So feel free to sway me either way... Anyway if I don't get to your blogs next week, I will try to keep up but know I'll be out making memories!!! Surf's up!!
PS The music from the Movie Empire Records is purely selfish and related in no way to this blog, it's just 1 of my most favorite movies!!
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Empire Records Release date: 2001-04-03
The Last One
Current mood: melancholy
Category: Life
I grew up in a fabulous neighborhood, especially for an only child. I know I have a brother, but he didn't come 'til I was 13 and old enough to babysit. But within 7 houses on the block, there were 17 of us kids,all born within 4 years. 15 of us girls. But none the year I was born. There was always someone to play with and we wandered house to house. We were able to play football, baseball, kickball...because there was enough of us to make teams. Sometimes the groups splintered off and sometimes we all played together. But there was such a sense of community, We referred to each other's parents as Aunt Kathy or Uncle Ray. We all have grown up and everyone but my parents have moved away. I still maintain contact with some and this Friday we will all be getting together for my friends Father's funeral. This leaves me with the distinction of being the only one who has both their parents left and 3 families who just have their Mom left. I'm the lucky one...i have 2 of the best parents anyone could want. Everyone loved my house, everyone was always welcome. My mom was cool, she'd sit down and help Mary fix her Barbie's demolished hairdo, she'd sort out squabbles and made the best Superman Soup in the nieghborhood. She would make us all jump before we ate her soup, then she would remeasure us after we ate to see how much higher we jumped. The smell of gasoline is comforting to me, it reminds me of Johnny, him and I would hide in my Dad's shed and make up stories and talk while we sat on the lawnmower. Johnny is flying in from Cali this week, it's his Dad that passed. My family and theirs used to vacation together every year. I'll be glad to see everybody but hate the circumstances. I'm also lucky my folks are just a few blocks away, and a very importaant part of my life. They are in good health and sometimes hard to keep track of. When time comes I'll do my best to make them proud but times like this just make me worry about them more and more. I'm being a worry wart...i know. it's like looking for trouble but right now it's just how I'm feeling. I dread Friday.
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listening
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Home Sweet Home
By
Mötley Crüe
Release date: 1993-05-27
The Great Escape-Decisions, Decisions!!
Current mood: rejuvenated
Category: Travel and Places
The past week really tested what little patience I have...I was done, I needed a break, I was out of here. Now I don't really have the finances for my champagne tastes...so like any good princess would do....I went to Daddy!! Next thing you know I had a 2 bedroom suite and anything else I needed compliments of Daddy's bud Donald Trump. 2 bedroooms..ohh i for got, they decided to come too!!(Also you will one day see my parents on the show Intervention) I came home told my husband what I was doing and said Your welcome to come,if not cya later. I've never done this before but I needed out so freaking bad!! He yelled, he hollerd, I packed. Next thing I know his clothes were in my suitcase. WHATEVER!! (You do know that means "I don't give a flying fuck in NJ) It is a word I use alot around here. We checked in, and I was off to the beach...sprayed tan accelerator on and set ipod playlist on chill. My toes buried so deep in the sand you couldn't even see my toe ring. The water was cold but felt great as A wave knocked me down ass over teakettle. I dove the waves, swan a bit and then back to the chair to dry off. I love the water!! Got back to the room and Pop scored 4 front row tickets to Aluminum a new show playing there. It's a cross between Blue Man Group (Saw them in Vegas) and Stomp. Evertthing was silver and looked like dancing slinkys but it was pretty cool. But by then i had had a few vodka's in me. Everything was cool, we were all laughing and having a great time. Here's the juicy part, after the show, my parents scurry off to gamble and hubby gives me cash and says he's tired. Not Me!! I been drinking vodka all night and I was rip roaring to go!! The good Angel on my shoulder was just going "tsk tsk...here we go again" and the devil was dancing on mu shoulder happy as hell!! Now alcohol effects me differntly, a few drinks and I'm up for the night. It's like caffiene to me. Now I'm alone in a busy spot, got cash, got booze..this is GUARANTEED Trouble!! I sit down to play slots for a bit..I put $10 bucks in a machine spent $1.40 and won $102. 57. Now Is the big UTOH moment...I could go buck wild hit the club...or I could do what I did and cash out and went up to show hubby!! It was a smart move, and one I know I wouldn't have made a while ago. So after a few days, gourmet meals and fun, I'm back and have all your blogs to catch up on..so leave me some love and I'll talk to you soon!!!
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Rock and Roll Jesus
By
Kid Rock
Release date: 2007-10-09
Sometimes I feel like I have an evil twin...she's such a bitch and I'm not too proud of her. I'm very competitive, I will win at any expense. I will cut you down to nothing just to win. When I fight, i say the most hurtful things, and some things can't be taken back. Once spoken, the words just ly there, there's no take backs, there's no back peddaling, and there's not enough words to say I'm sorry. I need a new way of fighting, I'm winning the battles but losing the war. I have a need to be right, but at what expense. It usally means hurting my spouse and then I have to apologise for it, just to make peace. I hate that part...becase in the heat of the moment I'm not sorry!! I won!! I hurt you!! Then I remember, I love him,I don't want to lose but I don't want to always say I'm sorry. I need to find a better way to fight...and still win. Is that possible?? Do I just shut up....Do I just suck it up?? How doyou fight without hurting??
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Fire Songs
By
The Watson Twins
Release date: 2008-06-24
People Suck!! AMENDED & w/ replies
Current mood: pissed off
Category: News and Politics
Ok..this is being written on the fly while I'm still MAD as hell. I just finished watching the news. This might sound stupid to other people (like MY husband) but somewhere, somehow...there should be2 sets of laws. For example, you are 25 and rob a 30 yearld man...fuck you you go to jail. But if that same man beats and robs an 85 year old woman,besides being a punk jerkoff he should get some add itional time for being anasshole. Now I know being an asshole isn't a crime but in some cases these fuckheads need to be taught.
Money is tight for everyone, food is more costly,taxes went up Thank you Corzine, (you jerk off) and gas is at a riducouls price. People do steal because of their need and others for greed. But Saturday night 2 refridgerated tractor trailers filled with 159,000lbs of food was stolen from the FOOD BANK!! I mean WTF...it's for poor people who need to eat. Donations are low because of the economy and some fuckheads are out peddaling chicken and goverment cheese. (Besides chicken I really don't remember what else they said was in there) I feel like if they catch the people who did this there should be mitigating circumstances like don't steal food from the fucking food bank!!! Give then , some extra time just for being a fuckhead. ..I mean how many times can you kick a guy when he's down. I am so annoyed, Igive every time they ask, I make casseroles for the homeless shelter. Hell, It's not about me..it's about the son of a bitches who target the people who need it most!! Sign me up for some fucking jury duty...tonight I'm the hanging judge
AMENDED The 2 trucks were recovered in Newark NJ...they were abandoned and full. All of the food was spoiled and all the generosity and good work was in vain!!
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Love, Peace & Fuck
By
Brain Donor
Release date: 2002-06-11
Technically challenged
Current mood: ditzy
Category: Web, HTML, Tech
Confession time Folks!! I am not as techically capable as some may think. SURPRISE!!! I cannot text!! Yeserday, I went to my Tuesday DR appt. and I was early, well there's a great coffee shop Bonte, where I go every week. They have a cute barista or would the male version be barissto?? Anyway these guys are young, and very cool. Well they decide they are going to teach me to text. I pick a friend, BTW Sorry Dude and we text my friend. only the thing was i dicated and mike typed. It was answered and Mike answered and I was off drinking my coffee and looking at something shiny. Now Mike gets customers, and this is where it gets bad.....I yell to Mike, who says weren't you paying attention...do it like I showed you. LOL Fooled him, I didn't learn nothing except how to get someone else to do my work!!! Now My friend is texting his heart out...and I'm stuck at typing K or I no home Tues DR which basically means my friends 8 yr old will have to teach me again next week. To my friend, I'm sorry I was really trying but I hope you at least figured me out. I'll be emailing you soon!! Be gentle with jokes people, I'm already ashamed!!! LMAO
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15
By
Buckcherry
Release date: 2007-11-20
Elvis is not dead, he was with me at the Gyno!!
Current mood: embarrassed
Category: Movies, TV, Celebrities
When I was real little, my Dad worked shiftwork. I didn't see him alot but I always knew how much he loved me. Even today, I am still his little Princess, and proud that I have 2 of the greatest parents a woman could ask for. When he could my Dad and I would have Friday night dates, My Mom would go to the church for bingo, and Daddy and I watched Elvis movies. I connect Elvis to my Dad in a big way and we always give each other little Elvis gifts when we see them. Last Xmas we gave each other the same bottle of wine Elvis'Blue Christmas Cabernet. We both have an Elvis on our Christmas tree and it's just a symbol of our link together. Yesterday I had my yearly Gyno apoointment, as usual everything is still in the same place and I'm good to go. But...Here comes the problem. Normally I have been thru so much with Dr's I have no modestly left. I hop up on the table spread them and look toward the ceiling. Normally there's a poster of Tahiti, or some other tropical place. Yesterday's poster was ELVIS!!! OMG!!! I slammed my kness together faster than a nun in church. I have had 5 doctors at once down there...and not batted an eye. But this felt like my Dad was in the roon and I couldn't cover up quick enough!! It was like having the Doc, the nurse, my Dad and Elvis all in the room staring at me. Anyway, I calmed down, all is well but I do think I was traumitized!! I may never look at Elvis the same way!
Summertime & Lost in Found
Current mood: hot
Category: Travel and Places
There's nothing better than Summertime to me. I love this weather, the heat, the sun. It's perfect for me to be outside, taking my walk, working in my garden, hanging out onmy big deck or going to the beach. I can lay out there and bake all day. I love the ocean, swimming, fishing, and boating. The only thing I don't like is It's too damn bright!!! I hate sunglasses and they don't like me either!! I lose them, I break them, I buy at least 4 pairs every summer and never really get upset when they runaway from me. I don't look right in glasses!! (BTW Swampy you rock your shades)I have become The Master of Squinting. . I can't see because it's too damn bright. I also have to admit I can't see little things either. This is my way of admitting, I probably need to wear my reading glasses. I would love to blame all typing errors on my inability to see but It really is the reason I can't text. Anyone who texts me, gets 1 of 2 replies...one is "K' the other is me calling you and going "Huh?? I know in part it's my diabetes, and (I'm beating all you smart asses to the punch) I'm getting a little older and can't see well. I don't wear reading glasses for the same reason, I don't look right. I do have a pair in my drawer and if I'm curled up reading sometimes I will put them on. But now I need a cellphone with large print for seniors!! LOL Any ideas??
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Walking on the Sun
By
Oliver Shanti and Friends
Release date: 1998-01-01
Only God Knows Why...Kid Rockin Mama Tagged me
Current mood: silly
Category: Quiz/Survey
Only God know why Kid Rockin Mama choose me to be tagged and list 10 weird things about myself. Can I just say ...This is hard, I'm not weird the rest of the world is!! But I'm gonna give it a shot because sheis one of my best friends on here. Mama I luv ya or I'd never be doing this!!
1. I carry a huge purse, ala Mary Poppins...if you need something it's in my bag somewhere. A bottle of water, a book, make up, date book, tide stick (I love the tide stick) and xanax.
2. I am an insomniac, i can go 3-4 days without sleep, it ain't pretty (can you say cranky)but it happens. Usually I'll take something by the 3rd night.
3.I NEVER chew gum.
4. I have 95 Aerosmith songs on my IPOD!!
5.I hate pickles...i can't even stand them on my plate, they may get pickle juice on my food. YUCK!!!!
6. It's been about 6 years since I saw my real nails!! My hands ALWAYS look fabulous!! I skeeve dirty or bitten nails.
7.Except for jeans, I own NOTHING blue. I really Hate that color, you won't find blue anywhere in my house except in my son's room. (I don't go in there at all)
8.I'm not a girly girl...but I love the color pink. I have about 3 pink purses, pink shoes, shirts, even my IPOD is pink. I look good in the color, so don't hate....it works for me!! LOL
9. I watch reality TV...Survivor, Big Brother, Top Chef, Hell's Kitchen...but God forbid NO Way will I watch Flava Flav!! EWWW
10. (Finally) I don't like shoes, I hate socks...I am almost always bare foot or in sandles. I have cute feet (Thank God) because they hate to be covered.
That's it...Mama I hope you are happy!!! If my family was home I'm sure they would have had better imput for this but I had to really dig deep for this silly thing. I'm not gonna tag anyone, but leave me a comment and something wierd about yourself!!! I Dare you!!!!!!!
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Lithium
By
Nirvana
Release date: 1992-07-21
Are good manners outdated??
Current mood: pissed off
Category: Travel and Places
Are good manners outdated?? Is chivalry dead...or just lost. I questioned my male family members, from my Dad to my son and each thought I was right. (But i KNEW that anyway, LOL)
Yesterday I was taking the train home from Philly. It was packed, I was jammed into the second row against the wall. My seat mate was around 80 with a giant blue straw hat with mounds of flowers!! This hat was really f'ing ugly but I digress....The first seats on the train are for handicapped people, but 4 men jumped into them. Two men sat opposite me and granny. I was fine, had my IPOD, a book, and a bottle of vitaminwater. The next stop, a young woman gets on the packed train, she is about 8 months preggers and slightly overheated. It was so humid and yucky yesterday and she had to stand!! What got me is not one gentleman offered her his seat. AM I WRONG?? We happened to lock eyes and I offered her my seat, but I did say "I can't believe not one gentleman got up for you..her answer was "They never do" At least 4 of these men were older than I am, the other 2 were iffy. It's not like they were young kids not broght up right, my son would have got up. Are poor manners part of dealing with rush hour?? Is there some train protocal I am unaware of...Thou shall not give up their seat?? I was so ticked off, you should notice I didn't even take time to find a matching you tube song (Are you happy now Swampy)...I needed to vent!! Am I wrong?? Hello..someone get off your ass and notice other people in the world beside yourself. These men heard me, as I got a quick sideways glance from 1 man in front of me...he knew I meant him. SO Mr if you are reading this....Be a freaking gentleman, get out of the damn handicapped seat and quit being a self centered asshole. Thanks for letting me rant!! Peace out
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