Lord it seems like I never get a break. It is always one dram or another and all I want is to be happy and live in peace. Well right now I feel totally betrayed and lied to. I felt so angry these past few days, I had thoughts of doing something "unlawful". I am a peaceful, 420 friendly person, and not a trouble maker. How would you feel if a person always kept secrets from you until it felt as if you were around a total stranger? I like being honest and having things out in the open or having everything on the table. I hate people who can't be honest and just like to keep the "wool over your eyes" . I'd rather have a dirty scoundrel of a person that is 100% honest than to have a total liar that puts on a constant act!
Well when I'm upset about something or someone (like my "significant other") I start jotting down how I feel. I write in my diary about whats going on and then I start with the list of whats on my heart. Its kinda like writing a list of everything that is making you cry at that specific point and time. This relationship that I am involved in is just getting worse and it is really taking a toll on my emotions. I'm trying to stay strong but, its hard when you have someone around you telling you that they are 100%perfect. No one is perfect, meaning that everyone makes mistakes. He told me that he is perfect and does not make any mistakes when he is speaking his mind or "telling his side of things". I am so sick and tired of the constant circle of problems. Anyway, let me tell you my list about "him". . . .
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He makes me feel so sad and depressed.
He causes more problems than he fixes.
He cares about his own feelings more than anyone's.
He doesn't car how I feel, yet he thinks I'm ...selfish~Self Absorbed~Unfair~Idiotic.
He constantly reminds me of how smart he is.
He tells me that I always switch things upside down.
He doesn't care if he makes me cry.
He wasn't even considerate enough to call me today. I called him a few times today.
He is ready to leave and spend the night somewhere else.
He never wants to understand my point of view.
He never wants to apologize. He is so immature.
He acts like a child that gets upset when he cant get what he wants. I don't need the stress.
I dont need the same B.S. over and over.
A real man knows when to apologize.
I always get myself involved with immature men, who end up making my life miserable.
I wish I had never met him.
All I do is cry and be sad because, of his stupid a$$.
I don't need a boy.
I hope he leaves tomorrow. Then I don't have to cry anymore.
I am so in love with the tv show "True Blood" because it shows a hot new drama that mixes vampires and romance.This series has enticed me and made me a faithful viewer in only 3 episodes. I am waiting for the day that I can see episode 4! This vampire romance is between the tow main characters, Sookie ( Anna Paquin) and Bill (Stephen Moyer) . Bill is a handsome mysterious vampire that falls for Sookie's sweet kindness and her innocent-like beauty.Sookie is a cute blond waitress that has the ability to read minds. Sookie is open-minded enough to be friendly to vampires, who are now able to "mix" with mortals after the invention of mass-produced synthetic blood, which is supposed to keep them from biting on mortals."True Blood," based on the series of fantasy/mystery novels by Charlaine Harris. "True Blood" takes place in the not so distant future when the undead have "come out of the coffin," complete with their own advocates making the talk show rounds and an equal-rights-amendment type bill that they're pushing in Congress.
Sookie and Bill get to know each other regardless of what other people or vampires might think. I love the gentleman that Bill is as well as his mysterious Mr.Romantic look. He reminds me of Richard Gere in his role that he played in "Pretty Woman", another one of my favorite movies. Sookie has reminded me what it was like to have a crush on a guy that you thinked liked you. For example if you remember the days you were in school and a boy wrote you a love note or started talking to you after class. I love the romance between Sookie and Bill because he treats her like a lady and know how to make his requests politely.
"True Blood" helps light this dim little fire that I call having a love life. I forgot the feeling of classic hot love with a mature getleman, kinda like the story of "Gone With The Wind" with Scarlet and Brett. Bill is so handsome and defiantely has the cute bad boy look. I would love for him to want to take a walk with me in that beautiful field and hold my hand. Bill definately seems like a great kisser !!! Lord it has been so long since I have really been kissed. I think romance I see on tv has been lost to my life.
Richard Gere is a handsome cop in this movie named Eddie Jillette. He is the good guys along with his partner, who gets killed by a guy named Musato. To avenge his partner's death, Eddie Jillette ventures deep into Louisiana's Cajun bayou. A mysterious blond bombshell named Michelle, who's somehow enslaved to the musato.Drama/Romance
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